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    It’s sort of hilarious that Dean ever thought that he could not have this. That he was ever dumb enough to think that he could pass this up, with the option out there in the universe.

    (In which they continue to work on that domestic-bliss thing).

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    The aftermath of the first argument Dean and Cas have after Castiel comes back from the Empty.

     

    Castiel braced himself for anger and hostility, but instead, Dean begged Castiel to please come back in between hitching breaths. “Please,” he’d said, and his voice had cracked. “I need you here.”

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    Dean was stretching himself thin. With one hand, he pressed a cold, wet rag onto Sam's brow, and with the other, he tried to pull Cas's blanket over him. He didn't know what to do. This virus clearly wasn't a regular sickness if Cas was sick, which meant this could easily be dangerous, potentially lethal. And dammit, Dean wasn't going to lose his brother and his best friend in one go.

    - or -

    Sam and Cas have caught some illness, and Dean is freaking the fuck out because if Cas, an angel of the lord, was sick, who knows how terrible the illness is.

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    What if the ending could be re-written? This is a self-indulgent fic that shows how life would go for Team Free Will if they all got to retire and no one died. They had talked about going to the beach, Dean teaching Cas everything there is to being a human (even if he stll an angel) maybe even trying to convince Dean not to drive everywhere would be in order. It was time for that “apple pie life” they had all earned. Now with their lives seeming to calm down would Dean and Cas finally acknowledge that their friendship may run deeper than they both believe or will it take someone else coming into Cas’ life to make him realize it?

    (I apologize for the grammar and punctuation mistakes)

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    'Yeah there's a storm on the loose, sirens in my head
    I'm wrapped up in silence, all circuits are dead
    I cannot decode, my whole life spins into a frenzy...' ~Golden Earring, "Twilight Zone"

    If Gadreel hadn't kept up the lie. If Dean had told Cas he could stay. If there was a different outcome...

    It all comes down to Dean.

    And whether or not he can handle his brother being possessed by an angel and his best friend no longer being one.

     

    ***Season 9 if the writers weren't cowardly***

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    Another day, another night, another pack of vamps. But this time, something is different. When Sam goes missing, Dean turns to unconventional methods.

    Castiel is lost. Not exactly part of heaven, but not exactly part of earth either. Will helping a stranger find his brother help him find what he’s looking for?

    An unlikely bond forms between an angel and a hunter. But is trying to save each other enough?

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    “C’mon, man.” He says, pained. “I know you’ve been goin’ through something. And I’ve been tryin’ to give you space. But you can’t let yourself rot away in there, Cas.”

    To them, ‘going through something’ is almost dying, or literally the end of the world. Castiel’s world is not ending. It just feels like it is.

    So he doesn’t say anything.

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    Roads in Heaven don't look too different from what they used to back on Earth: the pavement is almost invisible as Baby runs and purrs, the trees are still green, the sun keeps on shining and the birds won't stop chipping. But more than something is missing in that sort-of-Paradise for Dean to be truly happy forever. And forever, oh, that's too damn long to think about. But facing things he's tried to suppress for a lifetime? That's even harder than comprehend the concept of eternity ahead. But maybe sometimes you just need to stop and watch a sunset on a cliff, have a conversation you're not ready to have, and do your best to pull yourself together to finally get to know that at the top of that stairway to Heaven, forever ain't long.
    Actually, to be honest, it's not even enough to start.

    or

    The one where Dean gets to Heaven, takes a full-on journey on the self discovery train thanks to people he trusts, and eventually gets the Happy Ever After he deserves.

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    Dean really does sing. Like to sing, whatever. Don't tell Sam, and don't try to say there's singing in "Supernatural", but. He sings, with Cas. Well, TO Cas.

    Sometimes that's all that - well. All Dean thinks he can manage to do.

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    He should never have thought that all he had done could be forgiven, glossed over and forgotten. The reality of it all was that forgiveness wasn't what he deserved.
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    In the aftermath of the heartbreaking confrontation with Dean, Castiel finds himself grappling with overwhelming emotions of rejection, self-doubt and remorse. Set immediately after the events of s9 e3

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    Gabriel left almost a week ago, and Castiel still doesn’t know where to. He claimed he had business to take care of, but what that was, Castiel wasn’t privy to the answer. Almost a week has passed, and there has been no word from his older brother. It’s not that Cas doesn’t have faith in Gabriel, doesn’t believe that Gabriel can’t take care of himself, but Castiel feels entirely helpless knowing that if Gabriel did need help, Cas couldn’t be there. It’s moments like these where Castiel feels the loss of his grace so prominently. His wings on his back used to provide enough weight to straighten his posture, but without them, Castiel’s shoulders slump forward, this time with the onus of imprisonment, unable to go where he pleased when he deemed fit. Trapped here in North Dakota, Castiel can’t find Gabriel, can’t help, can’t do much of anything but toss and turn in bed as he prays for his brother’s safety.

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    I have ships and prompts that I will pick at random to write each month. Most of these will be ships that I don't normally read/write and will write one chapter with them.

    Chapters:
    1. "Hello Sam" - Sastiel
    2. Assumptions - Reverse Omega/Alpha Destiel
    3. Tomorrow Can Wait - Sam Winchester/Lisa Braeden
    4. The Spicy Cajun- Dean Winchester/Benny Lafitte

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    When the flower shop owner sweeps his fingers through his hair, he nearly knocks the flowers tucked behind his left ear off; he spends a fussy moment readjusting them with both hands. “I don’t need to be rescued. Especially not by a stranger.”

    Sheesh. Touchy.

    But since Dean would have flashed fangs if anyone had thought he couldn’t take care of his own damned self, he can’t be throwing any stones. He shrugs—big and exaggerated, both hands up. "Not sayin’ you did. Look, not your fault that God put alpha brains at the base of their dicks."

    The lowered blue eyes snap back to his. Flower Boy inhales with his lips parted, all pretense at not sniffing Dean out gone, and his eyes go wider.

    Dean might not dress or act or look like any kind of sweet little omega, but he knows just what he smells like: really fucking inviting.

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    Cas is struggling to get by, doing the best he can. When his pipes bust Cas just wants to fall to his knees and cry, but he can't afford to. Just when Cas thinks life is out to get him, Dean Winchester, his best friend and neighbor makes his day by offering up his shower for Cas to use. Cas is in love with the man and always thought there was a chance Dean felt the same way. Now that Cas has an excuse to go over to Dean's house more often he's decided he's going to take a chance and flirt with the other man. All Cas has to do is follow nine little steps of "How to Flirt With a Guy."

    This is based on MalicMalic's prompt:

    "Cas keeps asking his neighbor Dean to use his shower because he's broken. Dean doesn't get that Cas is coming onto him, while Cas tries to flirt and seduce him. Idiots in love, pinning... And then one day, Dean forgets he lets Cas use the shower and he walks right into the bathroom and sees Cas naked and just stares so Cas kisses him. Dean mutters about forgetting and how he wanted to use the shower and Cas offers to take one together."

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    Dean gets a gift and it dawns on him how much Castiel contributes to the bunker lifestyle and how much Cas cares. Not thinking he deserves such treatment and wanting to pay Cas back, Dean begins helping out. Much to the hatred of a certain angel. A fight occurs and Sam, being the little brother that he is, sets up a romantic journey for the two.

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    When rescuing Mary, Jack, and the other hunters from the alternative universe, Sam and Dean come back with someone else: Castiel's alternate self. They bring him back to the Bunker with the excuse of him being a valuable source of information, but really, Castiel thinks that they just can't find it in themselves to admit how broken a version of him can be. And yet, Castiel finds he can't stay away from his other self, no matter how much Sam and Dean want him to.

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    Being human has taken a toll on Castiel. It wasn't a surprise to anyone.

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    Chuck shows up in the middle of the night and tells Dean and Cas that they have 24 hours before the end of the world.
    Rather than trying to stop him, they instead run away together and both end up discovering things about themselves they would've never otherwise admitted.

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    “It looks like a wedding invitation,” she says, shrugging.
    Castiel stares at it. If it is a wedding invitation, he doesn’t want to open it. Maybe he could say he never saw it. If he never saw it, he could easily miss the wedding and blame the postal service.

    Sam Winchester & Jessica Moore

    “Would I know them?” Meg is still looking at the photographs and sounds only half-interested. “Ooh! I could be your date!”
    That almost makes Castiel laugh. “That’s alright, Meg. I don’t need a date.”

    ***
    Castiel likes his life in DC, with his chosen family. He doesn't like to think about Lawrence, or its residents. But after some reflection, he feels he owes it to his old friend Sam to show up to his engagement party and explain that leaving Lawrence had nothing to do with Sam, and everything to do with Sam's cocky older brother who broke Castiel's heart. He allows his friends to talk him into going back home, if only for some closure.

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    If freedom is a length of rope, then trust is a knife to the throat.

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