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    I wasn’t there when you were born, and I missed the first time you died.

    I wanted to be there both times. I planned to be there. I didn't know it would happen so fast.

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    *Originally on Wattpad but thought I’d start posting on both platforms because why not. Update every Friday.*

    SPN series finale rewrite and continuation! Starts in 15.18 then continues from there. There is a new character as it is a continuation of a scene from my Falling for Jared Padalecki fic. I recommend you read at least up to that point in the other fic but if you don't want to, a quick summary is in the first chapter. Destiel is canon. This is what I think that Sam, Dean, Cas, Jack, and Mia's (new character) lives should have been like instead of the disaster they call a finale.

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    Just Dean Winchester being a dumbass and realizing he might be in love with Castiel (he is)

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    A series of ficlets of unconnected possible scenes for when Cas comes back after 15x18.

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    It's not a decision. Not more than the immobility was that had frozen his muscles before and made it impossible to move. It isn't a thought that drives him to throw himself at Cas, between Cas and this supernatural entity he knows he can't defeat. He's done it before he even knows he moved at all, arms wrapped around the angel as tightly as possible. It was more like a reflex, an instinct, maybe. There was nothing else to be done, so why not do something insanely stupid?

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    Basically: Dean and Cas’s aesthetic if the confession is the same but Cas is not sucked into the Empty. Angry shouting and love confessions abound.

    From a TikTok prompt.

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    Death is literally banging at the door. Castiel prepares to tell the man he loves his truth, but in this fic Dean gets to tell his truth too.

    And no one goes to gay super hell.

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    After a hunt and in the midst of grieving Cas, Dean suddenly wakes up trapped in the mind of an actor named Jensen Ackles.

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    Cas returns from the Empty and Dean needs to tell him how he feels. A movie night with just the two of them may be the perfect opportunity.

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    Coda for 15x18 Despair

    What happened after Cas got taken to the Empty?

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    “What the hell?” he asks, voice hoarse around the high note. “Guys?”

    When there’s no immediate answer, Dean’s instincts kick in. He pulls out his gun and gently drops his bag, waiting a moment for his eyes to adjust so he can try for the stairs.

    Before he can, though, the lights kick back on. His gaze locks onto the scene below, and Dean slowly lowers his gun.

    “Happy birthday!” Jack says, the sound of a party horn whining shortly after. Beside him, Cas pulls the string of a party popper, and he jerks as bits of confetti fall around him and into his hair.

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    Dean knows they left things off pretty rough...they probably shouldn't have gone on a case so soon afterwards.

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    Jack doesn't understand what changed...hadn't Cas said that he was far from happy?

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    Exhausted and grieving, Dean is barely going through the daily motions while Sam has decided to find a way out of the hunting life. While Sam's future is hopeful, Dean is stuck on what, or more specifically who, he has lost.

    An unexpected discovery reveals more to him about the angel that he thought he had known so well, and maybe, just maybe Cas has left him the clues to find a way home.

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    It's like being buried at the bottom of a very deep, very dark well. Castiel has lived enough, sinned enough, for the weight of his mistakes to pin him flat in the darkness. It's shame and guilt and grief and each memory anchors him with a razor specificity, there in the lightless silence. This is how it works, he supposes. His own thoughts will devour him alive until he sips oblivion by choice, out of sheer desperation, and the void will know peace at last.

    But that was the bargain. He took that upon himself. His choice. Choice, he thinks, and would laugh if he still had a mouth to laugh with. Freedom is a length of rope.

    Then, after what could have been many eternities or just one, a pang of agony comes that isn't his own.

    *

    Or: the one where Castiel saves himself.

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    When Sam Winchester leaves for a Valentine’s Day date with Eileen, Dean finds himself alone in the bunker with only his thoughts for company. Angst, angst, and more angst ensues. But don’t worry, a familiar face may appear to save the day ;)

    (AKA Dean Winchester has a few realizations)

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    Compilation of 100/200 word Destiel drabbles - Cas wanting Dean, Dean praying to Cas, Cas looking after Dean, and Dean being soft for Jack and Cas.

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    Castiel Novak and Dean Winchester have been best friends for what feels like forever. Inseparable. Joined at the hip. CasandDean. DeanandCas. Everyone knows it. But even the most perfect of friendships must bow to the pressures of real life. The question is, can courage be found to fight against or work with the winds of change...

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    How did Dean ever convince himself that he didn’t want this? Whenever the thought that he and Cas could be something more passed his mind, he'd beaten it back, stomped it down, forced it out. The mind that was strong enough to cage Michael himself, the mind that had fought back tooth and nail against the Mark of Cain, that was the very same mind that had sabotaged himself out of his own happiness for so long.

    Dean's hands cradled Cas's face between them for a moment, thumbs slipping down to rest just beneath his cheekbones, taking in his blown pupils and kissed-out expression as Dean fought back his disbelief. Something they'd both always wanted, but thought they'd never have. It was just... here, now, finally.

    This is my version of a post-finale fix-it, starting after the events of 15x18 and reimagining a future for the Winchesters filled with family and love ♡

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    Suddenly, you get an idea of how to stop Billie

    And you look at Dean in admiration

    Because you know this will probably be the last time you get to see him

    And as you look at him, you can see what he thinks about himself

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    Cas’s POV in 15x18 Coda

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