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    As soon as it was done, he left.

    He left Dean's body and Dean left the room.

    He knew that he couldn't leave Cas like this, shouldn't leave Cas like this, but he couldn't stay, he couldn't look at him, couldn't touch him, couldn't see skin his own hands had left blemished and tainted and torn, couldn't see the angel violated and hurt and broken by his own body.

    The door unlocked the moment he had done what he'd come for, had taken and destroyed and left. It flew open, revealing Sam who he knew had been furiously beating against the wood while- while...oh God, he was gonna throw up.

    His brother looked shocked at the picture that unfolded in front of his eyes, his features contorted in disbelief and disgust at the crumpled and naked figure in the centre of Dean's mattress.

    Dean's mattress. In Dean's bed. In Dean's room.

    He felt sick.

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    Dabi and Hawks' lives are upended after a tragic event occurs outside of their control. Thrust onto new paths and utterly lost, both seek new meaning in ways they never thought possible. Dabi starts helping out at a flower shop next to the tattoo parlor Hawks is apprenticing at. When the two meet by chance, instead of acting on old instincts, they simply exist and try to take things one day at a time.

    OR:

    The one in which Endeavor dies, Dabi tries to find a new reason to keep living, and Hawks tells the Commission to fuck off.

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    After countless failed attempts at intimacy and one disastrous miscommunication in the bedroom after another, Eijiro is desperate to reconnect with his boyfriend- desperate to once again become the kind of man that Katsuki wants. Ever since the Kamino rescue Katsuki has been avoiding him like the plague, flinching away from his every touch and clearly bored of him, but Eijiro can't give up on everything they have- he can't and he won't. He'll find a way to earn back Katsuki's affection no matter what it takes, and that's a promise he plans to keep.

    What he doesn't know is that Katsuki's sudden aversion to touch has nothing to do with losing interest in him and everything to do with the trauma he's been hiding for weeks now, desperate to conceal the feelings of weakness and fear that plague him whenever someone dares to come too close. When Kirishima finally takes things too far in an attempt to win Katsuki back and accidentally hurts the person he cares about more than anything in the world, both of them know that their relationship may finally be damaged beyond repair- far too broken to be saved.

    But if there's one thing that Kirishima knows, it's that the two of them won't go down without a fight.

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    TLDR: Tommyinnit isn't doing too well

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    Miya Atsumu needed three things to survive his shitty, routine life. Coffee, God, and cigarettes. But someone has him questioning it all.

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    It was never meant to be like this, I swear.

    I was supposed to wish for my Quirk, love it, go to a normal school, get a normal job, present as Alpha or Beta, have a normal life.

    But none of that happened.

    Instead, I killed my family with my godawful quirk, got taken in by the world’s most powerful villain, presented as Omega, got given as a fucking gift, and beaten daily.

    My life sucks, right?

     

    [On hiatus as of 5/11/21, sorry!!]

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    Vernon is depressed and despite his members knowing about his mental health they don't notice when he has a bad day.
    Instead they snap at him and don't see the red flags.

    He ends up getting hurt.

    (tw/ mentions of blood and injuries. Very angsty.)
    I almost cried when I wrote this.

    It has a happy ending!

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    “We should break up.”

    Kenjiro stared in shock at Wakatoshi, who was looking down at the sidewalk under him, a numb feeling hitting him like a train.

    What?

     

    Slowburn Semishira fanfic where Semi and Shirabu are sad and find comfort in each other, but not before walls have to be broken down between them.

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    Sometimes he thinks he sees home. Sometimes he hears the crashing of bombs, the burning of flames, and the screams of the damned. But then he remembers he’s in the middle of a rusty sea of sand and grime, surrounded by towering plateaus of natural beauty. Though the sand scratching his finish and digging into his joints is annoying, the sight of Earth will never get old. It is a beautiful monstrosity, something Knockout can appreciate.

    Foom! A groundbridge opens in the distance, a flashing of blue and green and purple and white. It’s flashing, flashing, burning. He skids to a stop before he goes in, transforming into bot form and staring into the portal. He doesn’t want to go back. He doesn’t want to set foot in the dark corridors, the angry hallways, the malice-filled walls. He doesn’t want it. But hey, free food, right? He needs to eat, he supposes. And that’s why he goes in. Because he needs to eat.

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    atsumu has struggled with an eating disorder for most of his volleyball career. he's sure he's hiding it well until he meets sakusa kyoomi. atsumu is hurting, and nobody has noticed his habits until now. he doesn't have a control issue, he swears.

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    On the last day before Sunny leaves Faraway, he stabs himself. Soon afterwards, he finds that he's back a few days prior and that all his progress in Headspace has followed suit with the exceptions being his skills, items and weapons.

    When Kel knocks on his door in the Real World, Sunny is once again left with an ultimatum. Refuse to answer the door and do the exact same thing he did the first time this happened or step outside for the first time in years. This time, he decides to experience something different.

    While Omori goes through Headspace once again, fighting foes he's already fought, who have all gained much greater power than before, while Sunny tries to reconnect with old friends before he leaves, haunted by repressed memories, secrets and emotions. Two vastly different journeys with a single commonality. Wherever one goes, a White Tulip follows.

    -A NG+ AU where Omori is impatient, Sunny makes new memories with friends new and old and White Tulips are mentioned a lot (Mainly in Headspace and less so, but still noteworthy in the Real World)

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    Tommy spent every day overcome with sadness and loneliness and overwhelming frustration. His friends were either dead or gone, his family didn't talk to him, and he couldn't find it in him anymore to anticipate any future ideas that came his way, even after he'd done the deed of locking Dream up and securing his freedom. It just wasn't the same. He just wasn't the same.

    Then, one wish to the gods changes everything, and has Tommy waddling around and crying more than he used to as a hormonal teenage boy.

    Is this Tommy's second chance at happiness? Or is this the opposite, is this the hell he was so afraid of being a part of? And most importantly, even if this is hell, would he ever want to leave?

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    "When you're lost in the darkness, look for the light."

    It takes courage to keep going and even more courage to accept help when you need it. Ellie learns this the hard way.

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    After the defeat of Father, Ed and Al fail to get their bodies restored. They're still searching, but with a sudden strange power, and a bounty on Edward's head, things aren't going to be easy. And despite what they say, I'm not doing them any favors, either.

    Smut chapters will be marked with ‼️

    Updates every Tuesday and Saturday

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    Mary is with Mrs. Hughes on that dreadful night, when the housekeeper finds Anna in her office.

    From that moment on, the relationship between the maid and her mistress will start to spark in a way Mary had never thought of, and naturally never wanted. It's a shame, it's illegal, it's nothing more than an illness that must be taken care of.

    On the other side, she wanted to be happy and in the depths of her cold, hardened heart she knew there was only one person who could make that happen.

    "For to be wise and love exceeds man's might" - W. Shakespeare

    [No Bates in this story]

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    Izuku isn't fine. After a series of tragedies suddenly struck his life, he is left wondering about his identity and what he really is. Battling with sadness, the constant pain in his head, and himself, he wonders if the Irish he's willing to take is going to be worth it, or put him in jail.

    After all, he's planning to go to UA despite his status as a villain.

    'Arachne'. A mysterious villain who strikes once every week. No one knows what their gender is, nor what they look like. No one knows their quirk either. All they have is a body mangled by their infamous sledgehammer and testimonies of those who Arachne spared.

    He is sinking lower every day, but he has no time to be concerned about it. The only way for him to survive is to bite his tongue and endure it. He's not strong by any means, but that doesn't mean that he can't pretend to be.

    But after encountering Todoroki Shoto, something changes. And he's not sure if it's good or bad.

    I DO NOT give ANY permission to repost my work to other sites (in exception to the Russian translation)

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    Evie didn't know how long she had been drifting in the darkness; alone and cold. A lonely being comes across her and offers her the chance to try again in a new world; with the one promise that neither will ever be alone again.

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    Izuku never expected to stay in UA long. He honestly expected to be expelled before the second term. But here he is midway through the second term and living in the UA dorms. Now only if he can hide how broken he is and convince everyone how much he doesn't matter. That's easier said that done when you get almost daily night terrors that cause property destruction. Its also easier if you don't have Eraserhead as a teacher and classmates who care despite him not being worth anything.

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    The more he lingered in that house, the more he felt his legs itch.

    Arima Kishou, Hairu Ihei, Ching Li Hsiao… their genes are not entirely human. They were born and raised in a facility owned by the CCG. The Sunlit garden. Curious to know what your new underlings are?

    Their next generation of soldiers. Or shall I say, child soldiers.

    They’re under your custody now.

    Good luck.

     

    It ate him out. The need to know.

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    Joshua was a screw-up, so all he had to do was work harder.

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