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    Basically this is a really conveniently different AU to the show.

     

    Cas died and Dean is sad.
    Lucifer killed Mary.
    Sam and Rowena are a thing.
    Crowley didn't die bc Mary did.
    It's a mess, but a good one.

     

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    Sam curses this vicious cycle that they keep circling in. Every time they seem to catch a break, someone breaks. Dean, his older brother, wants to die. And Sam knows, he knows that the only reason Dean stays is because of him. But Sam is also too selfish to let go. So he pushes, knowing that Dean has never been able to say no to him. Sam pushes this one, because he is selfish, and scared, and lonely, and he just needs his big brother. Dean will say yes. He will stay for him. He has to.

    AKA Dean is straight up not okay.

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    Takes place after Season 1 episode 12 Faith. "Just" a dialogue between Sam and Dean (oneshot)

    Dean thinks it's his fault that people died and Sam confronts him to explain him that it's not.

    I'm definitely not getting better at summaries xD

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    Sam knew Dean hadn't been dealing with Castiel's death well.

    He just didn't know that things had gotten quite so bad.

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    17-year-old Castiel never had many goals in life. Sure, he would like to finish high school, start a career, and possibly find his true passion in life. What Castiel lacked was big dreams and aspirations. Castiel figured he would waste away his entire life searching for something, but his little brother, Gabriel, would become the first omega doctor. Castiel couldn't be happier for his little brother's success.

    18-year-old Castiel is an entirely different man. In the short span of a year, Castiel discovered that his own father and eldest brothers were assaulting Gabriel because of his omega status. To free Gabriel from their wrath, Castiel claimed Gabriel as his own omega. The day Castiel turned 18, fastening that collar around his little brother's neck was the hardest thing he has ever done.

    Now, Castiel and Gabriel live together in their woodsy cabin, trying to overcome their demons while still attending high school.

    Things were relatively peaceful for a while. Everything changed when that bloodcurdling scream shattered the silence of their woods.

    Upon finding Dean Winchester, a badly abused omega runaway, the three must help each other recover from their traumatic pasts.

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    One day, Dean goes to a local park with plans on downing a bunch of pills and ending his own life, until his path crosses with a bright-eyed little girl, introducing herself as Claire, who proclaims that she’s lost. Dean takes care of her until her father, a local surgeon named Castiel Novak, shows up to come and retrieve her. Dean thinks that will be the end of it. What he didn’t count on was for those two to somehow manage to worm their way into his life.
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    This fic deals with heavy themes, please check the tags and the trigger warnings listed in the notes.

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    The Winchester brothers have only one weakness, and that’s each other.

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    Dean comes back from Hell wrong.

    set during season 4.

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    Dean Winchester misses Castiel. There's only one way to be closer to him now; he has to let the trench coat breathe again.

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    Sam was dead. Bobby was dead. Everyone was dead, and Dean was done.

    Major trigger warning for suicide

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    Sam killed himself on November 2nd, 1999. Years later after helping Chuck and Amara reconcile in thanks Amara gives Dean what he needed the most, his little brother.

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    "Is Dean here?"

    It takes Castiel a second to realize who the man standing at his door is. He's tall with long hair, exactly how Dean had described.

    Sam Winchester.

    Castiel doesn't say anything for a moment, mostly from shock, but it seems to make Sam uncomfortable. He shifts awkwardly and rubs the back of his neck.

    "Look, uh, I don't know if Dean has ever mentioned me. I'm Sam, I'm his... I knew him a while ago. I'd like to come in and talk to him."

    That's the last thing Castiel wants. He remembers, vividly, how he first met Dean: a broken and lonely omega, with a brother who wouldn't answers his calls, ready to throw his life off a bridge.

    How could Castiel let Sam into their home knowing that?

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    Donna is a fan of the friendaversary, so one year after she first meets Dean, she gives him a call to invite him out to celebrate. The friendship of Donna and Dean explored through canon from S10 to a canonically similar yet divergent S15.

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    ⚠️EXPLICIT⚠️ Dean is still not over Crowley's death and what he did to him. During one of Dean's messy nights, Jack just happens to have a nightmare when Sam's recovering from a bad hunt.

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    AU -
    Dean is a Veteran of the Vietnam war and after years of being imprisoned he finally comes back home to Castiel right before Christmas, whom he lived together with before he got drafted four years ago.
    The fact that Homosexuality is still forbidden and Dean's PTSD are not helping the progress of finding back into the lightness of their relationship so Cas decides to go on a roadtrip over the Christmas days in the hope that they find back to being as close as before.
    What at first doesn't seem too difficult soon turns into something close to a nightmare for Cas, one that Dean just escaped

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    ⚠️EXPLICIT⚠️ Dean is still not over Crowley's death and what he did to him. During one of Dean's messy nights, Jack just happens to have a nightmare when Sam's recovering from a bad hunt.

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    Dean can't be stopped. Sam, Castiel and Jack have all tried to convince him there's another way, a better way to beat Michael. But Castiel has other plans...

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    This is my first ever fan-fiction. I've never written anything like this but this couldn't get out of my head so I thought I would write it down! It's almost an attempt at crack - even though I'm really bad at humor - that turned into a fluff Destiel oneshot, because I love my boys.

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    He’s exhausted, and tired, and so, so alone. Sammy is at Stanford. He left a year ago and hasn’t been back. Dean knows that Sam never wanted this life, and Dean understands that, but he can’t help but feel like Sam just doesn’t want Dean. He will never be enough to keep Sam happy.
    Sammy left, Dad is somewhere else, and Dean..... just isn’t okay.

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    TW: graphic su*cide description

    “I’ll be the one to protect you from a will to survive and a voice of reason.” - Pet (A Perfect Circle)

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    Dean Winchester is obsessed with Sam. He’s made Sam believe that he’s the only one who will ever truly love him. Sam lives for Dean’s attention to only be focused on him. Nothing truly matters unless Dean witnesses it, so Sam never wants Dean to take his eyes off of him. Sam decides he wants to die. He needs Dean front row for that, too. He wants Dean and himself to bleed out next to each other. They’re too obsessed with each other to be alive, living as separate individuals.

    “There’s nothing worse than the way that you look at me because I know you glance at me and think about how many different ways you’d be willing to damn your soul for me.”

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    Pen-caps were the main culprit, Castiel noticed. Beyond that, though, Dean's need to put phallic shaped objects in his mouth had to stop before it drove Castiel to do something he couldn't take back.

    TRIGGER WARNING: suicidal character, suicidal ideation, and suicide attempt!

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