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    It’s not the first time a man has ever looked at Eddie a certain way. It’s not the first time a man has ever hit on him or asked him out. It happens every so often. Not a lot. Once every six months or so? If he had to put a number to it?

    But maybe it’s the first time Eddie’s considered saying yes.

    He’s in a much better place than he was a year ago, and he’s never actually dated that many people. He met Shannon when he was nineteen and high school relationships didn’t really count, and he was technically married until not quite four years ago. And there was only one huge, sad mistake since then.

    So, Eddie could say yes.

    He could go on a date with this beautiful, nice man. That is a thing he can do. And maybe it would be good. Maybe it would explain a lot of things he’s always wondered about but never put into practice.

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    Eddie dates a man for the first time, Buck is completely Fine(tm) and not at all having a breakdown, and the way to love and happiness is not easy but they find it anyway.

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    04 Mar 2024

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    He presses Buck’s hand into his forehead and breathes in the scent of antiseptic that lingers on Buck’s skin. He doesn't understand how he missed so many clues, doesn't know how he's been so clueless. But he thinks that some part of him did know that he was in love with Buck, because he put him in his will and made him Christopher’s guardian. Some part of him, deep down, knew what Eddie himself didn’t even realize.

    He exhales and squeezes Buck’s hand again. It’s not supposed to be like this – the will doesn’t cover this. It was never supposed to be Buck that goes first.

    “Bobby,” he whispers, voice cracking as he closes his eyes against the dorsum of Buck’s hand again. “What am I going to do?”
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    Or, in the hospital, Eddie waits, and thinks, and dreams.

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    11 Jan 2024

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    “I have spent my entire life trying to live up to the memory of someone I didn’t even know existed.“

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    Maybe he’s always been frozen in time. Maybe he’s never really been able to move past being twelve years old, stuck in a haunted house with the ghosts of the people his parents used to be. With the ghost of a brother he didn’t even know existed.

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    01 Jan 2024

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    The shattered fragments of his ribcage have been rattling around inside of him like a warning siren: you can hear his heartbreak from a mile away.

    And now - here in his living room, in front of Chimney - Eddie let’s go.

    The scream that tears out of Eddie’s chest is enough to bring him to his knees. It ricochets around the room like a tornado of grief, destroying everything in its path. And Eddie can’t breathe, can’t think, all he can do is feel.

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    10 Jul 2023

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    For a while Eddie had just felt, lost. Wandering. Like he was searching for something that he didn’t even know the name of yet. And then Buck crashed into his life, a whirlwind of energy and optimism and goodness, and Eddie felt his heart immediately reach out to Buck, like yes, this one, this one is mine.

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    17 Jun 2023

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