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    It’s not the first time a man has ever looked at Eddie a certain way. It’s not the first time a man has ever hit on him or asked him out. It happens every so often. Not a lot. Once every six months or so? If he had to put a number to it?

    But maybe it’s the first time Eddie’s considered saying yes.

    He’s in a much better place than he was a year ago, and he’s never actually dated that many people. He met Shannon when he was nineteen and high school relationships didn’t really count, and he was technically married until not quite four years ago. And there was only one huge, sad mistake since then.

    So, Eddie could say yes.

    He could go on a date with this beautiful, nice man. That is a thing he can do. And maybe it would be good. Maybe it would explain a lot of things he’s always wondered about but never put into practice.

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    Eddie dates a man for the first time, Buck is completely Fine(tm) and not at all having a breakdown, and the way to love and happiness is not easy but they find it anyway.

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    04 Mar 2024

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    He presses Buck’s hand into his forehead and breathes in the scent of antiseptic that lingers on Buck’s skin. He doesn't understand how he missed so many clues, doesn't know how he's been so clueless. But he thinks that some part of him did know that he was in love with Buck, because he put him in his will and made him Christopher’s guardian. Some part of him, deep down, knew what Eddie himself didn’t even realize.

    He exhales and squeezes Buck’s hand again. It’s not supposed to be like this – the will doesn’t cover this. It was never supposed to be Buck that goes first.

    “Bobby,” he whispers, voice cracking as he closes his eyes against the dorsum of Buck’s hand again. “What am I going to do?”
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    Or, in the hospital, Eddie waits, and thinks, and dreams.

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    11 Jan 2024

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    “I have spent my entire life trying to live up to the memory of someone I didn’t even know existed.“

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    Maybe he’s always been frozen in time. Maybe he’s never really been able to move past being twelve years old, stuck in a haunted house with the ghosts of the people his parents used to be. With the ghost of a brother he didn’t even know existed.

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    01 Jan 2024

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    The shattered fragments of his ribcage have been rattling around inside of him like a warning siren: you can hear his heartbreak from a mile away.

    And now - here in his living room, in front of Chimney - Eddie let’s go.

    The scream that tears out of Eddie’s chest is enough to bring him to his knees. It ricochets around the room like a tornado of grief, destroying everything in its path. And Eddie can’t breathe, can’t think, all he can do is feel.

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    10 Jul 2023

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    For a while Eddie had just felt, lost. Wandering. Like he was searching for something that he didn’t even know the name of yet. And then Buck crashed into his life, a whirlwind of energy and optimism and goodness, and Eddie felt his heart immediately reach out to Buck, like yes, this one, this one is mine.

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    17 Jun 2023

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    Buck hates the silence, but he misses the quiet.

    He misses Eddie, and he’s not sure what to do with all of the aching inside of him. There’s nowhere he can put it down. This grief feels like a living thing, like a parasite that is bleeding him dry and leaving nothing but hurt behind.

    Buck’s heart stopped beating the moment Eddie’s did. He’s still waiting for it to restart.

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    04 Jun 2023

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    He can feel Buck’s ribs creaking under the force of his compressions - how strange a thing, when Eddie has only ever wanted to keep Buck from harm. But now his bones are cracking under Eddie’s weight, under his desperation to keep Buck in this world with him.

    (There’s a metaphor in there somewhere, about how Buck helps carry all of their pain even when it hurts him too. Eddie can’t think about that right now.)

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    27 Apr 2023

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    “Eddie,” Buck says, crouching down, hand to Eddie’s cheek. “There’s nothing you can do here, now, that will make me leave, you understand?”

    set post-eddie begins.

    (one nsfw word)

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    01 Aug 2020

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    the evolution of buck and christopher's relationship as told by eddie.

    or a love story, a family, and finding home.

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    01 Aug 2020

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    “You can tell me about how tired you aren’t,” Buck says, hauling Eddie up and getting a better grip on his waist, “while I carry you to bed.”

    “Yours?” Eddie asks. When Buck looks, he’s got a little furrow between his brows, endearingly confused.

    Buck snorts gently, managing to get them both up the stairs without injury. “You are at my apartment, Eddie.”

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    28 Jul 2020

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    “We have to keep this quiet,” he realizes.

    “That’s,” Eddie starts, his eyebrows tilting inwards adorably. “I mean, yeah, if that’s what you wanna do, then—”

    “Not for long,” Buck protests. “I’m thinking until tomorrow.”

    The eyebrows rise with interest; the eyes beneath get their spark back. “Yeah?”

    “It’s Maddie and Chimney’s wedding day,” Buck says, slipping his hands down the last bit and entwining them with Eddie’s. “Today should be solely about them, about their love. You and I can have tomorrow. All the tomorrows.”

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    12 Apr 2020

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    It makes sense, though, that the feelings he has for Buck are as wild and reckless as Buck himself is. Eddie just doesn’t know how to handle them, how to take care of them and make them thrive inside of him, so he’s here. On the couch, exhausted under the effort of keeping those feelings from bursting through his skin and ruining everything.

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    17 Feb 2020

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    In which Buck and Eddie are impulsive idiots who decide going from friends to getting married is a logical thing to do.

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    06 Feb 2020

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    Danny is hanging white-knuckled onto the oh-shit handle in his car, as Steve executes a maneuver worthy of Dale Earnhardt--Sr. not Jr., because Jr. is still alive--and they’re having a cargument regarding yet another of Grace’s stalker ten-year-old classmates, when it hits Danny. He’s engaged. To Steve.

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    03 Dec 2016

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    The Kalakaua-Kelly clan are determined to matchmake Steve. Out of desperation, Steve makes up a boyfriend named Danny.

    It doesn't quite go according to plan.

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    12 Aug 2016

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    Steve can't breathe.

    A coda to 1x23.

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    07 May 2016

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    “God, Danny, you’re so beautiful,” he breathes, because it’s not something he would ever in a million years say but it’s what he feels and the words happen without his permission.

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    27 Feb 2016

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    (Or, Five Times Steve and Danny Had Sex in the Silverado, and One Time They Didn't). It's just stress relief, nothing more. Both of them believe it, so it must be true. Set at end of S5, through early S6.

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    13 Jan 2016

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    “I’m gonna head out,” Steve says, moving in to give Grace a goodbye hug, but Danny’s hand reaches out and curls, warm, around his forearm. They share a look over Grace’s head that Steve can’t fully decipher. Apology, or appealing, he can’t be sure.

    “Stay, alright?” Danny says, and his hand slides down to Steve's wrist to secure him. “Just stay.”

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    25 Jul 2015

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    Steve didn't want another cat; the problem was he couldn't say no to anyone in need. As it turns out, this trait pays him back in dividends.

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    22 Jul 2015

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