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  1. Rec *

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    “Lan Luan-daifu says it looks like you’ve been undereating for months.”

    “I eat!” Wei Wuxian protests. “You watch me eat, Lan Zhan!” Why is he protesting? He knows exactly what he’s been fucking up, and Lan Zhan almost certainly has the shape of it if not the details. The words stick in his throat, fishbones to choke on, and he drinks more soup in a sullen attempt at washing them away.

    “Wei Ying,” Lan Zhan says, setting a hand on his too-wiry thigh. There’s a whole sentence in the name now, layers of meaning, and he says some of it out loud with, “What’s wrong?

    The fight goes out of Wei Wuxian. It’s finally easy to surrender: Lan Zhan knows. It’s humiliating, but he knows. “Ah, Lan Zhan,” he says quietly. “It’s… complicated.”

    Lan Zhan nods, his hand petting over Wei Wuxian’s leg in comforting arcs. “Then we can work together to fix it,” he says earnestly. “Tell me?”

    Or: Recovery is complicated.

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    12 May 2023

  2. Rec *

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    Lan Wangji feels his heart break. He wishes he could scoop the children up and hide them somewhere, where nothing will ever hurt them again. “Please, all of you eat,” he pleads. “There will always be enough from now on. It is my promise.”

    “You’re too good, Hanguang-jun,” Wei Wuxian sighs. “You’ll make a wonderful father someday.”

    “I will have learnt from the best,” he nods at Wei Wuxian. The man’s cheeks fill with colour so pretty, Lan Wangji has to turn away entirely in order to breathe again.

    ———

    A storm thunders violently, the forest howls in pain, and children are disappearing into the night. Amongst it all, Lan Wangji encounters a strange, beautiful man. And his five children.

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    07 May 2023

  3. Rec *

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    Wei Wuxian is slow, these months, a pitiful grower. It is difficult to learn how to be soft; it feels too much like growing sharper. To not keep secrets is to narrate terrible stories that causes guilt and fear in those around him. To not grin and work his way through the aches by himself is to be unable to get out of bed and to snap because it fucking hurts when his husband asks him why. Is that who he is, when he doesn’t strive to be easy?

    He feels chilled by the realization, shoved face first into ice-melt water. As if the dirt-stained dagger sliding in beneath his ribs was the pulled thread, starting the rapid unraveling of the tapestry of his domestic dreams. The flash of cold, hard reality between yellow fields and fireplace-kisses.

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    09 Apr 2023

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    their silly domestic life 🥹🥹 lan zhan in this especially, was my favorite. and there were so many emotions i felt while reading this, i loved it so much. thank you for writing!!!

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    Very few jobs give you the perfect storm of moral high ground, manic energy, and being a huge dick to people on the regular that Wei Wuxian finds so satisfying about trauma surgery. However, they don't call it trauma for its psychological wellness. A year of q2 36 hour call would be unbearable if Lan Wangji weren't the other fellow that he shares a call bed with.

    A "What If All The Cultivators Were Surgeons?" AU.

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    07 Apr 2023

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    Wei Wuxian just wants a little warning before Lan Wangji says nice things.
    Lan Wangji just wants to love on his husband, thanks.

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    26 Mar 2023