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    It was like waking up from a coma with amnesia--but instead of being reminded of a happy life, the feelings of loss and pain stared at him, mistakes haunting him. He would never knowingly hurt Cas. But he had. The evidence had come from himself. The least he could do was understand how. Why.

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    19 Jul 2021

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    There’s no point in mincing words. Sam is dead, and without him Dean is a drunken shell of who he used to be. When he finally pulls himself out of a growing pile of whiskey bottles, Dean finds it hard to go back to his life. With one flippant comment from a friend, Dean thinks he might finally have a way to make peace with the loss; Sam was an organ donor, and Dean’s going to find the recipients, talk to them, and see how their lives are better because of his little brother. For the first six stops on his road trip, things go mostly according to plan, and then he meets the man who has Sam’s heart. Dean had hoped he might find peace on this trip… he never expected to find love.

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    16 Jul 2021

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    It had to be St. Louis. Or, the one where Sam and Cas get fake married for a case, and Dean loses his mind.

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    11 Jul 2021

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    His hair had been the same since he was eleven, a tight almost-buzz on the sides, a little longer on the top. Brown, unassuming, military-issue. Never long enough to fall in his eyes, not like whatever Sam had going on on that head of his. His face had been changed by thirty-something years of slicing and dicing, aging out of those delicate features. If he dropped dead now on the bathroom floor, the coroner wouldn’t call him pretty. But his hair stayed Ken-Doll-identical all the way through.

    or: dean fucks up dying his hair. cas helps

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    09 Jul 2021

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    Silent.
    The coffin is silent. 

    The ocean is silent, save for the constant hum of pressure, which is almost worse. 
    Dean keeps his eyes shut. He breathes, tells himself he's gotta get used to this, he's gotta breathe, he's gotta calm down. But still he trembles, because the concept of forever—it's only this now. 
    This prison. 

    Nobody's fault but his own. 

    Dean thought he could do this. But it's been barely a week and he's panicking. He's breathing, or at least he thinks he is, but no air is filling his lungs. He's just gasping uselessly, heart pounding too fast, mind scrubbed of everything except fear. Maybe there’s no air left at all.

    Dean's phone is dead now, though he'd conserved it for as long as he could. It's so dark and so small in here, too small, and he's trapped, trapped forever in here. 

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    08 Jul 2021