notmyciel



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    “I didn’t love him,” Sylvain interrupts harshly. He digs his nails into Felix’s side as he pushes himself up and off the couch to pace, still dizzy. “Fuck, okay, are you happy? I thought I could, but I didn’t—” He balls his hands into fists and releases them with a frustrated grunt. “I can’t.”

    Felix goes very still.

    The room is too large. Familiar walls ripple as Sylvain sways in place, and he screws his eyes shut as he presses both hands over his ears. This is a mistake. He’s too fucked up to be here, for Felix to be here. His breath rasps in his ears when he sucks in greedy inhales, whining as he exhales.

    “I can’t” cuts too close to the truth: no one holds a candle to Felix, no matter how much Sylvain wants to want them.

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    16 May 2023

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    One eye blackened, his lip split and swollen, a bruise blotting onto his jaw that was only going to get darker and more angry. And that was only the parts of him Felix could see.

    “Hospital?”

    Sylvain laughed, just once. “Mm, no. Take me somewhere special.”

    There are limits to what Sylvain and Felix can ask of each other.

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    It’s dark and the white of Sylvain’s shirt is a ghost as it clings to cooling sweat. The firelight catches the dampness on his lip, sweat pooling at the open seam before it drops past his parted lips. It’s pretty, too pretty, the tongue that comes to taste it, the tongue digging into everyone’s mouth but Felix’s own. He wants to claim it for himself.

    Felix's jealousy is constantly at war with his curiousity.

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    14 May 2023

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    Sylvain drags his hands through his hair, tangling his finger in the strands. He pulls hard, focusing on the physical pain instead of the pain in his chest. “I don’t understand,” he whispers. “If you’re lying—” He can’t finish that statement.

    “I wouldn’t lie. Not about this.” Dorothea moves in front of him, so Sylvain is forced to look her in the eye. “Felix is alive.” Sylvain’s heart slams against his chest. “Felix is alive, and if you want to find him, we need to hunt the Agarthans.”

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    14 May 2023

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    Sylvain finds himself deep in the best dream he's had in years. The longer it goes on, though, the more real it starts to feel...

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