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  1. Rec *

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    “We should fuck,” Dean says.

    Cas looks up from where he sits on his bed, hair still damp from the shower, frowning as he places a finger on the page of his book to mark where he left off.

    There are a million things Cas could say here; Dean has rehearsed them. After lunch, his restlessness had given way to a vague panic, a dread that matched his every step and crept along with him from room to room. Eventually, he had returned to his bedroom and spent the rest of the afternoon pacing back and forth, playing out all the possible scenarios. When Cas asks him Why? or Are you being serious? or when he sighs and says, in that way he has, Dean, he knows exactly what he’s going to do. He’s going to shrug casually, like he isn’t invested in the answer, like he isn’t desperate for an outlet, and say, Why not? He’s going to raise an eyebrow and say, What, are you not interested? He’s going to crowd into Cas’ personal space, he’s going to shove himself right up in there and whisper Cas against his ear.

    Instead, Cas says, carefully, “Okay.”

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    19 Apr 2021

    Bookmarker's Notes

    The one where it's the pandemic and Dean and Cas do things backwards becoming fwb before actually figuring their shit out.

  2. Rec 91

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    When Dean imagined this moment, it went like this:

    Dean bursts into the Empty—guns blazing, chin high, righteous anger coursing through him. No matter what form his plans and fantasies and whiskey-drunk-whispered-promises took, he is always, always successful. When he imagined it, he was finally the hero Cas deserved.

    The reality of the moment is this:

    It’s fucking cold.

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    18 Apr 2021

  3. Rec 54

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    Every time, Dean tells himself it’s the last.

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    aka, twelve times dean and cas kiss.

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    16 Apr 2021

    Bookmarker's Notes

    "Jack is hands-off now, of course. Says Cas made the choice to summon the Empty of his own free will and Jack can't mess with that. However, Jack says to Dean. If you're ever looking for reading material. This one is very good. He conjures a musty spellbook out of thin air and holds it out into the space between them.

    For a moment Dean is fiercely reminded of a Cas from many years ago, who slanted his eyes at Dean outside a motel and said Just so you understand. Why I can't help."

  4. Public Bookmark 99

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    Apparently I can't even write a one-shot sex scene without it turning into a 7k slow burn. So... Merry Christmas?

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    "You are a good man, Dean," Cas whispers, his mouth pressed to Dean's heartbeat. "You are so beautiful and good and worthy."

    Dean can't take it.

    "Cas," he says, and it comes out a plea, a prayer, begging. It's just his name, but it's full of the need for affirmation, for validation, for all the things Dean's not allowed to ask for. All the things he never received when he was younger, all the love and attention he doesn't deserve.

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    15 Apr 2021

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    After Cas comes home, Dean starts cooking like crazy. He thinks he might be compensating for something.

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    14 Apr 2021

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ...the romance that killed God.

    Love confessions while shopping at Costco