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    Loving so much it hurts is a rewarding and dreadfully terrible thing. Seven people who all grew up in the wrong place at the wrong time know this all too well, but wouldn't give their love up for the world despite it. That might just be the only thing any of them have in common. They hope it's enough.

    or, a canon-adjacent love letter to these wonderful losers.

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    Things have been...rough, since Derry, and the fucking clown. The aftermath was a fucking mess, dealing with the hospitals, the recovery. Fending off well-meaning but nosy friends. Trying to convince everyone to let him go home. All while feeling like absolute shit, with his insides constantly trying to be on his outsides. And then going home was also a mess, leaving was so fucking hard, especially when Richie...when Richie asked him to stay.

    But Eddie couldn’t stay. He had to go home. Fight with management, fight with Myra, remind himself over and over that he didn’t need her, didn’t need anyone. That she lied to him, like his mom lied to him, lied that he needed them. And then moving out was shit, and living alone was shit, and everything was shit, but. God, full moons are always the shittiest. And then the day after full moons are even worse than that. And he’s so fucking tired, and he needs to sleep, but everything hurts. God, he hurts so fucking bad.

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    20 Nov 2020

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    It would be so easy, Eddie thinks, to sit down in Richie’s lap, to wrap his arms around his shoulders, to kiss the stunned-soft shape of his mouth and the sleep-flush still lingering beneath the surface of his skin. It would be so easy. And Richie would let him.

    Eddie can’t make himself do it.

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    Richie loves Eddie. Eddie loves Richie. Some day, one of them will do something about it.

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    31 Oct 2020

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    "In a world where we can kill a fucking clown from space, Eddie Kaspbrak doesn’t get to die from a stab wound."

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    27 Oct 2020

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    Eddie's done a fucking lot of brave things in the past year and a half. He did a lot of brave things in Derry, and then left his wife and started therapy and came to Ben and Bev's wedding even though he's been in love with his best friend for somewhere between six months and thirty years. Even though he knew it'd be fucking hard. He's not sure how many brave things he has left in him.

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    26 Oct 2020

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    “Hi, you probably don’t remember me, but I’m Eddie. I called I think about five weeks ago.”

    “Yeah, of course I remember you.”

    You never forget your first.

    A stand-up comedian working the graveyard shift at a suicide hotline. It sounds like the setup to some tasteless joke.
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    22 Oct 2020