“Jennifer. Wake up.” I heard someone say while soft strokes were made on my cheek.
“Hmm?” I hummed, still half asleep. I could tell it was Colin who was speaking to me, but why he was doing so was still a mystery.
“Morning.” He replied with a laugh. “Sleepy?” His thumb rested under my eye, still making delicate strokes.
“Yeah. What time is it?” I mumbled, trying not to smile.
“Quarter ’til 8.” The strokes on my cheek stopped and I felt the weight of his body being placed on the bed beside my crossed legs.
“Do we have to work today?” I asked, opening my eyes and rubbing them.
“No, no. But I have a surprise for you.” He smiled and reached out his hand for me to grab, pulling me up into a sitting position.
“What? What kind of a surprise?” Genuine curiosity struck me, and my brain was suddenly working at 100 miles an hour, wondering if I’d forgotten a special occasion. “Colin-“ I started.
“Don’t worry. You didn’t forget our anniversary or anything.” He paused, realizing that his attempt at calming me down wasn’t working. “I just wanted to do something nice for you.” He offered me a gentle smile and reached in his pocket to get whatever the surprise was.
I sat there, unable to move at the sight of him scavenging inside the endless hole, wondering if he would do something serious, like propose. My thoughts were cut off by a sudden movement that caught my attention. My eyes wandered upward, to find his hand in the air, holding two tickets to a Whitecaps game.
“Colin!” I exclaimed, wrapping my arms around his neck, smiling widely.
“You like them?” He caressed my back in his hands, rubbing in a vertical motion. I pulled away from him and placed my hands on his jaw and cheek.
“I love them.” I kissed his lips lightly and then once on his cheek.
“Thank God, because there’s no refunds.” He joked.
I pulled him in for another kiss, smiling into it as he attempted to catch his breath. “Thank you.” I whispered against his flushed skin.
He pecked my lips once more, then released me from his grasp.
When we arrived to the game, we were pleased to find out that very few people were seated in our section. The seats weren’t bad, but they weren’t the best.
Once I got situated, I heard someone yell my name from across the section. I turned to find a short haired brunette with a dirty blonde haired gentleman. “Ginny! Josh!” I yelled toward the couple. I looked back at Colin, who was grinning from ear to ear. I opened my mouth to start asking a million questions but I was stopped by hands wrapping around my hips and across my stomach. “Josh! Put me down!” I yelled as soon as my feet were lifted off the ground.
“Listen to the lady.” Colin said jokingly, laughing at my pursuit to get free.
I glared at Colin, trying not to laugh as Josh started to tickle my ribs. My cheeks were bright red when he finally placed me back on the ground, and Ginny and Colin were wiping away tears from laughing so hard. As soon as my feet hit the ground I spun around and tried to get as far away from Josh as possible, from fear of him repeating the previous event. I stumbled over Colin’s feet, almost falling, but Colin leaped forward to catch me. His hands were around my waist and I could tell what he was thinking.
“I’ve got you.” He said in a worried voice. But he quickly came to his senses and put me in an upright position, but left his hands around me.
“Colin-” I started, but his hands weren’t moving. I placed mine on top of his and looked over to Josh, who looked guilty of something, and I was becoming more confused by the second. Before I could do anything else, I felt Colin’s fingers jabbing into my sides, causing a loud yelp to escape my mouth. “Colin!” I yelled. I was laughing, but I was extremely embarrassed at the fact that he could feel every inch of my vulnerable sides.
“Let her go!” Ginny said in between roaring laughs. She was exchanging glances with Josh when Colin finally let me out of his grasp.
I spun around, just like I did with Josh, when I was free from his hard handle on me. I ran over to Ginny and buried myself in her warmth, trying to hide my flushed cheeks.
Colin and Josh were still laughing when I looked up at them a few seconds later. “I’ll make it up to you.” I saw Colin mouth in my direction. I rolled my eyes at him and took a seat beside Ginny. He walked over to me and placed himself to my left. I could feel him staring at me but I pretended not to notice.
The next hour or so was filled with laughter, yelling, and a lot of flirting, between both Colin and I, and Josh and Ginny. About half way through the game, the announcers were putting couples on the JumboTron. I felt my stomach drop when I saw my own face, along with Colin’s being displayed for everyone in the crowd to see.
“Col-” I whispered, but he grabbed my face and crashed his lips into mine. I felt my entire world shatter into a million pieces, both from the kiss and from the fact that he just exposed our relationship to the world. I pressed my eyes shut and tried to enjoy the moment, but I could faintly hear gasps alongside cheering in the crowd. I pulled away, trying to process what just happened, but I could feel myself starting to get dizzy, and my vision was dark before I could do anything about it.
I woke up a few seconds later, slouched in my seat and Colin looking deeply into my eyes. “W- what-” I stuttered.
“Shh, Jen,” He cupped my face with his hands. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that. I’m so sorry.” He tried to hide the fact that he was about to cry, but I noticed it right away.
“No, Colin, what…” I drifted off, still trying to process everything. I turned to Ginny, who looked extremely concerned but also beyond confused. My gaze shifted to Josh, who was looking at Colin with wide eyes and an open mouth.
Colin’s hands directed my eyes back to his. I opened my mouth to speak again, but he cut me off before anything came out. “I’m so, so sorry. Jen, I don’t know what I was thinking.” Tears filled his eyes, but I couldn’t help but feel anger towards him. I shook my head and closed my eyes for a second, and his hands fell onto mine. He squeezed my fingers with his, but I pulled away and stood up.
“Jen, what are you-” Ginny started, but I was running up the stairs, away from them before I heard anything else.
I found a bathroom and locked myself inside of a stall as soon as I could. I pulled out my phone and texted Josh.
Sorry. I’ll be back soon. Taking a breather
I hit send and sighed as I watched the message slide into its rightful place. I knew it was the right thing to do to send a calm text to one of the three people I was with, because then they’d worry less. The last thing I needed was a pep talk.
But that’s exactly what I got. Within a few minutes, Ginny bursted into the bathroom and yelled out my name. When I didn’t answer, she checked every stall and eventually saw my shoes from underneath. She didn’t try to pry open the door or anything, but she did give me a long talk about sharing my feelings and not running from things. I gradually built up the courage to exit the tiny stall and freshened up in front of the mirror while Ginny texted Josh.
Found her. Be there soon.
“Jen!” Colin stood up abruptly, and looked at me with bags under his eyes. I could tell he’d been worried sick, even if it’d only been 15 minutes since I saw him last. “Are you okay? Where’d you go? What-” I walked up to him and hugged him. My face was buried in his chest when I felt Josh’s hand rest on my back.
“Jen, we worried sick about you! What happened?” He tried to sound mad, but a hint of sincerity and concern was dispersed throughout his tone.
I turned myself around and placed a hand on Colin’s chest. “Look, I know you already know, Josh, but Ginny doesn’t. So, I’m going to explain.” I looked up at Colin, who nodded and tried to smile. I proceeded to explain that Colin and I had been together for a while, and that when he kissed me, it just took me by surprise and that I needed to get some air. No one bought the second part of my explanation, but they silently agreed not to question it.
The rest of the game was pretty awkward, but not unpleasant. We still laughed at things and bonded over a few stories. When it was time to leave, Colin and I said our goodbyes and piled into his car.
I looked over at Colin in the driver’s seat, and placed a hand on his thigh. “I’m sorry about my,” I swallowed. “Outburst.” He looked over at me and smiled apologetically.
“It’s okay. I shouldn’t have kissed you like that without at least asking you first.” His words were sloppy and it took me a moment to figure out what exactly he said. I removed my hand from his leg and sighed softly as I looked out the window.
As we stepped inside the apartment, I felt his hands rest against my waist. It took me by surprise, so I immediately sucked in a harsh amount of air and placed my hands on top of his. His chin settled in the crook of my neck, and I felt his warm breath escape from his lips.
“What are you…” I couldn’t finish the thought, because right when I spoke, his lips crashed into the soft skin on my neck. He placed open mouthed kisses down the side of my throat and began to run his hands up my shirt.
I stopped him from furthering his actions by turning myself around and placing my hands on his chest. “Colin,” I started. I smiled at him and he looked a little sad, like a child who just got his toy taken away.
“Make up sex?” He said after a moment of silence. He seemed confident in his suggestion, which made me feel a little weak in the knees. The question took me by surprise, so I just stared at him for a second before answering.
“What?” I asked breathlessly.
He smiled seductively and leaned in for another kiss. I accepted his invitation with little hesitation. He picked me up by my ass and carried me to the sofa near by, as he continued to deepen the kiss every few seconds.
Before I knew it, he was on top of me, half naked and full of lust. I couldn’t help but feel kind of guilty for having ‘makeup sex’ when we didn’t even really make up. The thought of not talking about our problems really turned me off, but I could tell he’d been waiting a while for this, judging by the hardness in his tight pants.
“Jen? Are you alright?” I heard him say. I suddenly snapped back into reality, and smiled sweetly at him. “We don’t have to-”
“No, it’s,” I sighed and placed my hands on my face. “I’m not really in the mood.” The words sounded more harsh than I’d meant them to be. I immediately felt bad for what I’d said, but I couldn’t take them back, and suddenly I felt a horrible urge to cry.
“Oh.” He said quietly. He sat up and pulled his shirt back over his head. I watched him as he got off of the couch. “It’s okay, really.” His voice seemed utterly miserable, and suddenly I felt tears escaping from my eyes. I tried to wipe them away without him noticing, but I ultimately failed. “Jennifer?” He asked, crouching down before me and trying to pry my hands away from my eyes.
“I’m sorry, Colin.” I didn’t know what’d come over me, but I felt like I’d ruined everything. First, I pass out when he kisses me in public, then I run away and hide in a bathroom, and now, I’m depriving him of something we both usually very much enjoy together. I let out a rough sob, and removed my hands from my face. “I’m so sorry.”
“It’s okay, Jen.” He let out an awkward laugh and wiped away some tears that were continuously falling from my face. I sat up and sniffled.
“For everything,” I said abruptly. “For today.” A few more tears fell onto my lap when the words came out of my mouth.
“Jen, you didn’t-” He started, but I cut him off.
“I ruined our day. You bought those tickets for us and I just,” I took a breath. “I ruined everything.”
He stood up slightly and motioned for me scoot over so that he could sit next to me. He sat down and placed a hand above my knee. “There’s no need to apologize.” He whispered to me. “I shouldn’t have kissed you. I’d take it back if I could-” My eyes shot up to his as soon as the words came out of his mouth. He could tell I didn’t like what he said, so he added, “I mean, I wouldn’t take back the kiss, I would just,” He swallowed and blinked. “Ask you before I did it.” He finally said.
I let out a sigh and tried to smile. He wiped away the last tear on my cheek and pulled me in for a hug. We stayed like that for a while, just basking in each other’s presence and comfort.
Eventually we got ready for bed and climbed into the warm sheets. I cuddled up against his hard torso and buried my head in his chest. “Goodnight, Colin.” I said almost inaudibly. I felt him smile.
“Goodnight, Jen.” He said as he pressed a kiss on the top of my head. It wasn’t long before we fell asleep; we always slept perfectly when we were pressed against each other.