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Waking up was probably Kayn's least favorite thing, he could already hear Zed and Shen getting ready without him.
"I wish I could sleep forever" He groaned into his pillow as he turned away from the now open curtains that let the sunshine almost directly onto his face as he closed his eyes once more, he heard Shen sigh loudly.
"That would be called death," Shen said, quickly pulling the blankets from his sleeping little brother, Kayn groaned, even more, tossing slightly before he felt a cold but firm hand yank him cleanly out of bed and on to the floor as his clothes to wear for today were dumped on his back.
"10 minutes or we leave you behind" Zed hissed, kicking him lightly, Kayn just grunted in response, picking himself up off the cold floor.
He could already tell today was most likely going to suck, Zed was already in a stingy mood, he had probably had a fight with his amazing girlfriend Syndra, to which Kayn hated with a passion, probably due to his overwhelming crush on Zed, not like that mattered, and also Shen had picked his clothes, obviously, since they were miss matched, great, he was gonna look like he asked Zoe for fashion advice, which is something he would never do, and lastly, ZED ATE HIS BREAKFAST!, which probably would have been the best part of his day.
He couldn't help but mutter lowly as he left the house to meet up with the other boys, Kusho, Shen's father had taken him and Zed in since neither of their parents lived in town anymore, he guessed it was out of pity on his behalf though.
"Jeez took you long enough" Shen joked, Kayn rolled his eyes as he took his place in between them, Zed and Shen were a lot closer with each other then they were with him, probably due to the age gap since he was only 16 while they were both 18.
"Oh, I love your outfit" Zed mused, Kayn hissed in return, and now his hair decided it would rather not cooperate with him or his brush on the way to school as it got tangled up, now the only thing that could make this start even worse would be...
"Zed!" Ah there it is, Syndra, what a lovely start to the day, he could almost puke at the sight of them together, he spited her due to his own selfishness as he watched them link arms, they must have already made up, just lovely.
"Syndra, good morning" Shen smiled then nudged him to do the same, politeness wasn't his game as he turned and ignored the appalling sight of his crush cuddling his girlfriend.
"Hello, Kayn" He could feel the bitterness in her voice, she could probably tell he hated her but she was most likely oblivious to the reason but that didn't stop her from being an outright prick about the fact he hated her in general, she was probably going to cry to Zed about it.
"Hi" He did manage to say it with a smile just because Zed was already staring him down, she must have already said something, the spiteful witch, well there was nothing he could do about it since it was true.
Luckily for him, she decided not to drag out their conversation, instead, she turned her attention back to Zed, which was worse to him but still a relief none the less.
Both Shen and Zed had partner, he wasn't really surprised they had always been quite popular with people since they entered high school, he was a little envious but he would never say it, the most attention he got was from Zoe, since the boy she liked rejected her, he was basically a rebound (she wasn't even pretty either).
Although he hated Syndra, he didn't hate Akali, she was nice to him and they got along in some aspects, like sports, he was on the boys soccer team, she was on the girls soccer team and they both saw each other often and unlike Syndra she wasn't afraid of dirt, which he liked about her, so seeing her was never a challenge, so when she approached them he waved with Shen and went over to say hi.
They talked for quite some time since they all got along, Zed and Syndra had gone ahead of them since Syndra didn't like sports, which for Kayn was a good thing, and they talked about the previous weeks soccer games, Akali won hers, Kayn's team, sadly, lost theirs but oh well, they had fun, so it didn't matter too much to him.
Another thing was Kayn and Shen got along better then Kayn and Zed, that much was pretty obvious, since he bearly ever spent time with Zed anymore, ever since he got that annoying girlfriend of his.
"Oh shit!" Kayn blurted out suddenly, catching both Shen and Akali's attention.
"What!" They both asked at the same time, almost giving each other a scare since it seemed like da Ja Vu.
"I have a test today" He found himself groaning some more, his day was an absolute wreck so far, first he bearly gets up on time, then Zed eats his breakfast, then he's forced to walk with Syndra and now he has a test that will determine whether he stays in this class.
"Oh, mind you, your grades have been slipping a lot" Shen added, making him cry a little on the inside remembering the lecture Kusho had given him when he found out about his grades.
"Don't remind me" He was basically done with this day at this point, he went from walking to basically waddling to school.
"Stop!" Shen ordered, he was almost laughing at him.
"It looks stupid" Kayn rolled his eyes (as if he didn't know that he looked stupid, what did they think he was blind?) and carried on with his waddling even though he knew he looked a bit dumb, well actually more so then not.
"Of course it looks stupid, ugh, I just hate science" How was that even related to looking stupid? we'll nobody really knew, Kayn was always pretty out of the blue but even for him that made no sense.
"I don't blame you, mind you, your grades have dropped recently" Shen seemed to love reminding him about his grades, he was told by his business teacher and science teacher that he only had a 10% chance of passing the year.
Upon entering the school, Kayn split off from Shen and Akali, yeah they were his friends but they didn't hang out in school, no, he didn't always wanna third wheel someone he considered to be his big brother constantly, so he went and found one of his friends.
Talon was already in the hallway, yes, he already knew Kayn was gay and no he didn't mind, Talon was pretty on the fence about the whole gender thing when it came to partners, not like he had many partners, he was pretty keep to himself.
"Hey" It always started with hey, then it normally, slowly, devolved into casual mock of each other, mainly because they knew each other inside and out, which for Kayn sucked more but he didn't mind it too much, after all, Talon had some embarrassing secrets but those stayed within there circle, epically after what happened at Draven party, which, luckily for Talon no one really witnessed, and the prime component forgot, thank god.
"Have you seen Ekko recently?" Ah another one of their friends within the circle, he had probably been hiding out somewhere, he hated parties and always refused them, plus he had just recently been rejected by the girl of his dreams.
"Probably still off sulking" Talon mocked, earning him a rather solid punch in the arm from Kayn for that.
"Aha, funny" they heard a familiar voice mutter, it was Ekko, he'd had finally risen from the dead, he looked tired and emotionally drained.
"Aww poor baby, getting rejected" Talon snickered and this time Ekko hit him.
"Don't make me tell, you know who, about the party" Ekko threatened making Talon yield to him within seconds.
"Stop it you two, Jesus, people will actually think you hate each other" Kayn joked sarcastically, they both rolled their eyes at him, he always had something smart to say, which was normally unpleasant but that was just a Kayn thing.
"We do" They both retorted, jokingly hitting each other, mimicking the way Kayn was standing, he just hunched his shoulders, waiting for them to do the same.
"Sure thing" He sighed as they walked through the hallway to the lockers, Kayn turned to his and unlocked it, he had a lot of junk in it, random bits of paper, his soccer boots, and his gym shorts, he had no idea where his gym shirt went, he would most likely need a new one, there was also his school book, which he bearly used, even though he went to school.
His locker door was decorated with pictures of him and his friends from every time they have gone out, and also some with just Shen and Zed, although Zed never really smiled in them, he still loved them though.
"Shit, shit, have you seen my spare key?" Great now he had managed to lose his key, how was he gonna tell Kusho? he would surely kill him, most likely, and Zed? yeah, he was pretty dead now that he thought about it a little more.
"Oh god, they're gonna kill me" Talon nodded, he knew Zed well enough to know he wasn't going to be happy about this since it wasn't actually Kayn's key, Kayn slammed his head against his locker.
"Kill me now" His life was over.
"I'm sure it'll be around here somewhere" Ekko assured, try to help Kayn feel better, which, overall, didn't actually help in the slightest, if anything it made him feel even worse.
"I fucking hope so" He hissed as he desperately went through his locker, praying it was in there somewhere.
"Language" He heard an older but recognizable voice growl, great, his business studies teacher was standing at the door, his classic glare painted on his face as he looked at Kayn.
"Sorry" Kayn muttered in return, his teacher folded his arms, unimpressed with his behavior.
"What! it was only once" He started, making the situation a little worse.
"It doesn't matter if it was one time or a hundred, I heard it, full stop" The teacher retorted with a slight snarl, Jayce had always disliked the way Kayn behaved almost everywhere he went.
"Your lucky I'm even letting you off without detention" Jayce continued, Kayn just decided to block him out at this point, it was the same lecture everyday anyways.
"Yeah sure, thanks" Was the best reply he had right now, sure it was rude but it was better than nothing.
Once class started Kayn bearly even paid attention, he stayed on his phone waiting for a response from, well, anyone, he hated this class the most and the teacher too, and it was pretty obvious the teacher didn't like him too much either, then suddenly he felt his phone vibrate.
what do you want?
Oh! it was Zed.
Nothing much, how are you
Um, I'm fine, Kayn do your work! >:-(
It was almost typical of Zed to say something like this.
I don't wanna
Just do it dumbass
Zed was just so nice to him, he couldn't help but pout as he put his phone back into his desk as the teacher walked past.
"Oh I can see lost of work happening here" Jayce mocked as he grabbed Kayn piece of paper, which was blank.
"Kayn you won't pass this year if you keep doing this" Jayce informed him, not like he didn't know that now he believed Jayce was just trying to be a pain since he hated him, or so he believed, well whatever, it doesn't matter, he huffed and snatched his paper from Jayce.
"Well, it's up to you whether you wanna pass or not, not my problem if you fail" First of all, yes it was, he should be helping his student more, well he did, he probably just gave up on Kayn like the rest of the teacher's did
Zed help! please
What now :/
He could already feel Zed sighing through the phone at him.
! :< Apparently, I'm failing the year
I honestly don't doubt that ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
!Ouch
Maybe if you tried a little more I wouldn't be saying that
Zed did have a point, which made the matter worse, he just could never focus in class, it was just way too boring, Jayce was boring, the topics were boring, everything was boring, school just sucked, and so did the people actually.
"Hey, Kayn," He heard Jayce start saying and instantly threw his phone under his desk as he turned to face him with a look that basically said "what do you want" painted along his face.
"Get off your phone and do your work" He practically growled, Kayn just mocked him by copying his expression, lipping the exact words Jayce said back to him, obviously while he wasn't facing him though, he didn't really want detention.
"God, I hate professor Jayce, he's such a cunt" Kayn grumbled as he met up with Talon, Talon just shrugged, if he had to be honest, he didn't like Jayce too much either, he was strict and never really let them pick their own topics, he pre-assigned everything, which, for teens, was horrible.
"It probably because he has to teach kids like you for a living," Ekko said, popping literally out of nowhere, giving the other teens a fright.
"Jesus, I swear you just pop out of nowhere" Talon joked, holding his hand over his chest to still his heartbeat.
"I was literally one class away from you, you should know this" Ekko said with a sarcastic shrug, then turned towards Kayn.
"And also, bitching about wont get you anywhere, just saying" Ekko had a point, Jayce was his teacher, not another student, plus he had a shitty job, so no wonder he was always mad, but he could at least try to be chill for once in his life, although that is highly unlikely.
"I mean, you're right but still he doesn't always have to be mean!" Kayn basically looked like a child complaining about a lost toy at this point.
"Just stop, oh shit look Kayn, it's your favorite person" Talon snickered, nudging him slightly getting him to look up.
"Ugh! Jhin" He uttered the name as if it were a sin to say as he walked down the hallway.
Jhin was quite a popular boy, he was smart, strong good looking and very reliable, meanwhile Kayn was the complete opposite but that's not why he hated him, he hated him simply because Zed did, in order to get his favor, which didn't really work, anyways, Jhin was an odd character, he didn't really care about much and his grades were perfect, he used to play sports but he preferred the art club now instead.
Another thing, Jhin, and Zed do not get along, Kayn didn't know why and he tried asking Zed but he snubbed him and asking Jhin was out of the question so he just hated him for no reason really.
"I still don't really know why you hate him but ok" Talon basically mused, he loved seeing Kayn worked up over nothing, and now he was, even though he had no reason to be.
Jhin had a small group of friends, mainly other art students or people he used to play sports with, he and Yas seemed close, although Kayn doubted they would ever admit to being friends at all, the people mainly at his side were Yas, Yi, Garen, and Jarvan, he probably hung out in that group because it had a good mixture of character.
He also got along with all the sports groups and the drama club, actually, almost every club, including the soccer club, the only people who didn't seem to like him were himself and Zed, no one knew why not even Kayn did.
"Talon, shut it" He warned, now throwing his things into his locker without even thinking, he couldn't help but feel, angry or annoyed just by his presence.
-Stupid Jhin what a show off- He found himself muttering under his breath as he took a step back as if to close his locker, and he, rather smoothly managed to back straight into someone.
"Fuck sorry" He grumbled as he turned to face the other body, he must have been thinking so much that he forgot what he was doing.
"It's fine" The voice was smooth and calm, he looked up slightly to get a better look at the person, oh god! it was Jhin.
"To be honest, I probably should have been looking in front of me" Jhin admitted with a smile that could melt most girls but not Kayn, he really wanted to make a noise of disapproval but this time, he didn't.
"Yeah, maybe I should look behind me first? I guess?" Why was he even taking the blame for something? especially for Jhin? well it not like either of them are in the right in this scenario.
"Aha, I guess" Jhin replied before almost turning on his heels to leave but first he placed his hand on Kayn's head a ruffled his hair a little giving him another smile.
"See you around kid," He said as he returned to his group, Kayn shivered at the thought of talking to Jhin again as he turned back to his locker, opening the door again.
"Thanks but no thanks" He mumbled as Talon and Ekko couldn't help but snicker at his accident of the day, great another thing that had gone wrong, he actually spoke to Jhin.
-Mister goody two shoes thinking he too good for everyone- Even thinking about him made Kayn's expression sour more, he hated Jhin's, well, everything, there is no such thing as perfect.
"Kayn, chill out, he's gone" Talon reminded him, he must have been glaring at the wall so long that even the people walking past thought he was weird, just great.
"Yeah, I know," He said with an almost angry voice, he really wasn't helping his case at all now, and Talon and Ekko weren't buying it in the slightest.
"Come on, he's not even that bad!" Ekko said blatantly, he was wrong either, Jhin had done nothing to him but he just loved Zed so much it overruled that.
"Yes, he is!" He hissed in return, Ekko didn't believe him but he just let him rant on about why he disliked him, and to Ekko and Talon he sounded like probably the dumbest kid alive.
"So you hate him because he's hot, smart, and everything you're not, I sounds more like envy more than hate" Now Kayn was hearing it out loud, yeah it did sound pretty stupid, even to himself.
"Just... Oh fuck off" He growled as Ekko smirked at him, cocky grin smearing along his face, Kayn already wanted to punch him for being such an ass.
Talon also found it funny, laughing harder the angrier Kayn got at him.
"Fuck off!" He fumed now, stomping down the hallway and straight out the door to get some fresh air, which seemed to anger him more, now he was just so pissed that he didn't even know what to do, so he went back and just let it happen.
"You done?" He asked after what seemed to be all of interval as Ekko and Talon finally stopped laughing.
"Yeah, I guess," Ekko said with a teasing smile.
"I'll hit you" Kayn growled in response, but they knew better, he was all bark and no bite, they found this out long ago.
The period dragged on longer then Kayn would have liked, he couldn't stand sitting still in any class, he always had the urge to get up and walk, he didn't know why that was either.
"God, I wish the teacher would just shove a sock in it" He hissed under his breath to the person next to him.
"Why is it everytime I have a class with you, you always seem so... well, mad" Kayn turned to face the girl next to him as she pouted.
"Probably because I hate classes, Zoe" He grumbled, Zoe just rolled her eyes at him.
"You say that every day" she replied and he knew she wasn't wrong.
Zoe was probably the most colorful person he had ever met, her hair was blonde, pink, purple, and blue with glitter everywhere throughout it, her clothes were an almost pastel and punk mix with a pink and blue jacket with a teals crop top underneath it followed by a plaid skirt and thigh-high socks, she really did have her own unique style, however, this made her stand out too much, so dating became hard for her, and now, due to her own crushes disinterest in her, she's been trying her luck with him.
"So, any chance you're free this weekend?" She said a glint of hope in her eyes only to be shut down with the small shake of a head.
She already knew that this was always going to be his answer, she didn't understand how he could love someone so much with anything in return.
"Oh well, doesn't hurt to ask" she hummed and this time he was the one rolling his eyes.
"So, have you heard about next weekend?" She never stopped talking, but now she piqued his curiosity.
"What about next weekend?" he asked, cocking his eyebrow slightly showing off his eyebrow piercings.
"Well its just that..." She started, he could already hear the nervous stutter in her voice.
"That?" He was getting impatient.
"Okay, so there's a party that Draven and his brother are throwing and well, all the really popular people are going and I thought maybe, just maybe, you would consider going with me and your friends" A party? he hadn't been to one since the last time Talon dragged him to one, which by far, was the worst thing he had ever done in his life, everyone was drunk, even the first years got drunk, it was actually quite scary, everyone scream, dancing and well, other things and now Zoe was asking him to go to another one?
First of all, he hated seeing people he knew at them, they always wanted to talk to him, second of all, he hated people picking fights with others, and normally when they did, he would somehow get involved and last of all, Zed was most likely going to be there with his girlfriend, it always crushed him seeing them together.
"I'm sorry Zoe, I would love to it's just I have work to do" He lied, but he knew she would probably buy it since he did work part time sometimes.
"It's okay, I guess I'll just go with Talon and Ekko" Kayn almost laughed as soon as she finished saying that, he knew damn well Ekko wouldn't be going.
"Yeah yeah ok, I'm lying, it's just Talon and me" She muttered embarrassingly making him smile lightly.
"Oh, I wonder if Jhin's going to be there!" She almost yelled, just as he was finally smiling too, making him go from a smile to glare in an instant.
"Oh come on, I'm just pulling your strings but I'm pretty sure he will be there, maybe he can hook me up with a friend or two," She said poking her own cheek in a childish manner.
"Oh please, they're all third years, to them, we don't exist" He made a fair statement, the third years liked avoiding anything younger than them, that included, of course, Zed, although Shen didn't mind hangout with Kayn.
"I mean sure, most third years are like that but some aren't, I heard yas is flexible about the whole year's thing," She said with a cheeky smirk.
"He doesn't care, as long as he can stick his dick in it" Kayn reminded her, Yas was also flexible with genders as well.
"Ah you're right" she sighed, finally giving up on her dating conquest, for now.
"Aren't I always?" He said, cocky attitude fully intact.
"You keep telling yourself that".
Finally, after 2 periods of hell, he was able to meet up with his friends, Talon looked happy and Ekko did too, actually, Ekko looked like he was about to burst with laughter.
"May I ask what happened?" He couldn't help but ask, after all, it must have been good news or something funny.
"Well" They both started, then Talon gestured Ekko to finish it.
"You know the party?" Ekko said, small laughs escaping him.
"Yeah?" Kayn already regretted asking, he could probably tell where this was going.
"My mum said I can go!" Ekko said with a satisfied huff.
"Dude, it's in like 2 weeks," Kayn said, trying to talk Ekko out of it.
"Yeah I know, I'm excited," He said, his excitement was legitimately gleaming off his face.
"Yeah but..." Kayn started again.
"You just don't want to go" Ekko pouted, of course, Kayn didn't want to go, him, plus a party, plus people, normally ended in quite a disaster, not to mention the likely ness of Zed and his girlfriend being there.
"Please, it will be his first party" Talon practically begged Kayn, the only reason Ekko never went was because his parents never let him, they were oddly strict about what he did, so now since they said yes, of course, he wanted to go, even if it sucked, he just wanted to try it.
Kayn had to think, REALLY think about this, Ekko never really got to do anything but on the other hand, he hated these parties but then again one more couldn't hurt, could it?
After what seemed like hours of thinking, reassuring himself and talking himself through it, he finally had his answer.
"Fine, only because Ekko's going" He finally said, a disappointed pout covered his face as the other boys gleamed with delight.
"Omg, Thank you," Ekko said, giving him a hug, Kayn quickly pushed him off him, he wasn't the affectionate type.
"Yeah ok, whatever" he mumbled, god, why did this just have to happen to him today.
Kayn's day just kept getting worse, on his way home, since Zed and Shen ditched him, he found himself walking along some other seniors, of course, they weren't purposely walking together, the other seniors hated him, they just walked the same way home.
And rather, unfortunately, one of them was Jhin, he always seemed to be the center of attention in his group, with Yas and Yi as close seconds in the popular spectrum, so of course, they were there.
Honestly, Kayn had tried out walking them, due to his and Yas's past but they always seemed to be right behind him, mocking him nudging him, almost making him trip over, ah the classic school bullying, it wasn't his fault Yas hit him, if Yas had just backed down maybe Zed wouldn't have lost his temper.
After what seemed like an hour of this stupid torment, Yas and Yi finally turned off and now he was stuck with Jhin.
It was silent for about 15minutes until Jhin coughed suddenly to get his attention.
"So" Jhin started, and Kayn really wanted to block him out already but he let him continue.
"What did happen between you and Yas" Jhin asked, obviously Yas hadn't told him, yeah no, he wasn't surprised, Yas always wanted to seem cool and what happened wasn't very cool.
Basically, Zed and Yas were having a verbal battle, Yas went to throw the first punch and sadly for Kayn, he got in the way and Yas punched him in the face, throwing him right off balance and as soon as he hit the floor, well... Zed lost his temper, kicked Yas in the gut then knocked him onto the floor, he was about to break Yas's wrists until Kayn stepped in and stopped him.
Luckily, Zed calmed down, and sadly for Kayn, Yas now hated his guts, so he wasn't surprised by Yas's bullying.
"Ah, It's a long story," He said, quickly trying to draw Jhin off this topic, Jhin just sighed.
"I don't min the long story, I just want to know" Kayn returned the sigh as he decided he may as well, otherwise Jhin would keep asking.
After telling him about Zed's rage at Yasuo, Jhin couldn't help but laugh.
"The way he cares for you is kind of cute" Jhin snickered, Kayn rolled his eyes, he knew Zed cared about him but he wanted Zed to love him, and not in the brotherly way he always did.
"Yeah I guess" He snubbed Jhin, he just wished that this trip was over already and he also wondered when the hell Jhin was going to turn off like honestly, did he actually live this way?
Finally, it seemed like it was time for Jhin to turn off, he smiled at Kayn oddly and went to pat him on the head, Kayn being Kayn hit his hand away and growled.
"I'm not a dog, don't pat me" He hissed and Jhin snickered.
"Welp, whatever then, see you~" Jhin basically hummed, and Kayn swore he could have punched a hole in the ground just from hearing that almost teasing tone from him, Kayn just cursed at himself as he continued to walk home slowly.
When he arrived, he was surprised to see Zed and Shen sitting outside the house, waiting for something, probably him, since they did ditch him and leave him with the people who bullied him.
After what seemed to be a game of 20 questions, he finally went inside with the 2 of them.
"You know Kayn if you are being bullied, you can always tell us" Shen reminded him, making him feel kind of like a child, he didn't always need their protection and he wasn't being bullied, well, not really, okay maybe a little but it was fine.
"Look, Shen, I'm okay," He said assuringly, he wasn't really lying either since Yas didn't really bother him too much.
Besides, Yasuo was the least of his problems, Jhin was, the way Jhin spoke to him pissed him off, he found himself cursing some more under his breath about it, no he couldn't let Jhin get the best of him.
He decided to occupy himself with studying, yeah... that didn't last very long, he got bored as soon as he reached the second question, got frustrated with it and then quit.
He was done for the night, none of his friends were texting back and it was pretty late so maybe it was time for him to get some sleep, he packed up his stuff and hopped in bed, falling asleep almost instantly.
Once Zed and Shen entered the room the saw Kayn sleeping and decided it was about that time for them as well.
Surely tomorrow would be better, well, Kayn could only hope.