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Hi guys,

Welcome to my new story. As I said at the end of my previous book, this story will be filled with even more angst than my previous books.

It's gonna be a wild ride and I hope you will like it and support me throughout the story.

Feedback is very much appreciated!

Lots of love xxx

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The moment you opened your eyes, you had no idea where you were. You were disorientated and immediately felt a sense of panic spreading through your body. You tried to move, but your body was heavy, as though it was filled with lead. You tried to scream, but your throat was so dry, not a single sound was leaving your lips. Your eyes tried to adjust to the bright light, it was almost as if you hadn't opened them in years and they weren't used to anything but darkness anymore.

After a while, you could make out a white ceiling, the LED lights were way too bright, and you knew right away that you weren't home. What was this place? You tried to smell your surroundings, maybe there would be a scent to give you some sort of clue. But there was nothing.

You tried to move again. This time it worked, but you quickly realised that you were restrained to whatever it was that you were laying on. Your heartbeat increased rapidly, who trapped you here? Suddenly you heard frantic beeping next to you, it sounded like one of those machines that monitored patient's vital functions. Were you in a hospital?

Before you could think any further, you could hear a door fly open and footsteps coming closer. The beeping increased even more, and you braced yourself for the worst. To your relief, you saw the head of a friendly young woman pop into your field of vision, she was giving you a soft smile.

"Please try to calm down. You're in the hospital, you're safe here," she said in the sweetest tone.

You were still wary of your surroundings, but you managed to calm down, eventually stopping the loud beeping noise. The woman pressed a button, and you could hear a faint buzzing from underneath you. The bed you were laying on started moving, propping up the upper half of the frame so that it left you in a seating position.

For the first time, you were able to look around, this definitely did look like a hospital room. You were somewhat relieved, but you still had no idea why you were here. You looked around some more and saw an abundance of flowers, balloons and cards on a table not too far away from your bed.

You looked down, trying to scan your body for any injuries. While doing so, you realised that you had been tied to the bed frame. You looked up, finding the woman looking at you. Now that you could see her outfit, you recognised her uniform, she seemed to be a nurse. You wanted to ask her why you were tied up, but your throat was still too dry to speak.

She smiled and started removing the restraints around your limbs. "Apologies for that, miss," she said. "But we didn't know how you would react once you fully woke up so we took precautions in case your quirk would go off."

You looked at her in confusion, finally free from your quirk cancelling constraints and already feeling a bit better about the situation. The nurse handed you a sippy cup, urging you to try and drink something.

"Will you be able to hold the cup yourself or do you want me to help you?"

You shook your head, you could do this on your own. You took the cup in your hands and slowly moved it to your lips. You didn't know why you were struggling so much, but eventually, you managed to lift it enough to feel the liquid coat your mouth and throat. It was only water, but you had never tasted anything better than that.

You drank the entire cup, passed it back to the nurse who immediately poured more water inside, allowing you to drink some more. You took it back, taking a few more sips before you cleared your throat.

"W-what happened?" You asked, your voice so croaky, you almost didn't recognise that it was your own.

She smiled again. "I'm going to call in a doctor, and I will also notify your parents that you're awake. It's best if they tell you everything."

You didn't want to wait, you wanted answers immediately, but you were still too weak to argue with her. You watched the nurse leave your room and looked around once more. Your eyes landed on the cards that were propped up on the table, and you wanted to get up so you could read them, get an idea of what might have happened to you.

You tried to move, but your body was so sore and weak, you couldn't even swing your legs out of bed. Just what the hell had happened to you? Before you could continue that thought, the door opened, and a middle-aged man in scrubs and a lab coat entered the room.

"I heard you're finally awake," he said. "I'm doctor Kuragari. "

You simply nodded, signalising him that you understood and a silent cue for him to continue. "I'm sure you have a lot of questions, but before we get into that, do you mind if we do some concise tests to see whether everything is working alright?"

You couldn't help but immediately like him. Doctors were often very cold and to the point, but he had something soft about him. He seemed like a nice guy who genuinely wanted to help people. So you nodded, allowing him to come closer and do his tests.

He shone a light into your eyes, asking you to look left and right, up and down, then he tested your reflexes on your knees and elbows. He seemed to be satisfied with all of it, or at least he was good at pretending.

"Okay, brilliant. Now if you could, please tell me about the last thing that you can remember?"

You tried to think hard, but nothing particular came to your mind. There wasn't something like a last memory. Every memory seemed distant, you couldn't recall what exactly the last thing was that you did before waking up in this room.

You told the doctor precisely that, and he wrote something down on the paper on his clipboard. "Great, thank you. That's absolutely normal, you have been sleeping for a while, so you might remember more in a few hours," he said. "In the meantime, why don't we start jogging your memory by talking a bit about yourself. Can you tell me your name, please?"

You nodded. "(y/n)", you said. "Yagi (y/n)."

The doctor looked at you in confusion and then looked at the nurse.

"Thank you. Unfortunately, that doesn't seem to be quite right. Do you want to try it again?"

You were so confused, you knew that this was your name. You were sure of it. Or was it? You tried hard to think, your head starting to hurt badly. But then you remembered… Of course, how could you forget?

"(l/n)," you suddenly said. "It's (l/n), isn't it?"

The doctor nodded. "Well done, miss (l/n). Then could you please tell me how old you are?"

"I just turned sixteen."

The doctor raised his eyebrows and was clearly taken aback by your answer. "Miss (l/n)," he said, pausing for just a moment. "Can you tell me what year it is?"

Everything around you started to spin. Why was he asking you such a question? Of course, you knew what year it was… Was this a trick question of some sort? Had you been in a coma for the past years and this was his way of telling you? You were scared to answer, but you knew you had to.

The moment you spoke up, the door opened, and your parents entered the room. "It's 2217," you said and immediately saw tears running down your mother's face. You were confused, just what the hell was going on?

Your parents came closer to your bed. Your father gently put his hand on yours and looked at you with a sad face. "It's 2219, honey."

You shook your head. "N-no. That's… that's not possible," you sobbed, your voice cracking. "Just what happened to me?"

Your parents sat to each side of you, looking at the doctor that was standing by the end of your bed. "Three months ago, you were involved in an accident. A car hit you and you were severely injured. We had to put you into a medically induced coma to help your body heal. After a little over a month, we were satisfied with the healing process of your wounds, so we decided to have you slowly wake up. It can take weeks for people to fully regain control of their body and mind after waking from a coma due to the heavy sedatives. You have been awake for quite some time now. But you probably won't remember any of that," he explained. "That phenomena is normal and is called post-traumatic amnesia. However, it seems that now that you're out of the coma induced amnesia, the trauma has impacted your long term memory."

You couldn't believe what you were hearing, and it was hard for you to process. "So you're telling me I forget the past two years of my life?" You asked, still crying.

"It's too early to say anything yet," the doctor said. "It is not uncommon that brain injuries leave the patient with amnesia, your memories could come back at any moment."

You couldn't say anything, you were absolutely stunned. "Is there anything we can do to jog her memory?" Your mother asked.

"We will do daily memory exercises until we can determine what exactly it is that is happening to your daughter," the doctor reassured your parents.

Your mother squeezed your hand as if to say that everything would be alright. But for some reason, you just couldn't believe her. "If you excuse me, I will go to discuss the treatment plan with my colleagues. If you have any questions or need anything, please call in one of the nurses," he said. The doctor left the room, followed by the nurse that had still been in there with you.

"I'm so sorry that you have to go through this, sweetie," your mother said, brushing the hair from your face.

You just smiled weakly. What were you supposed to say? "Yeah, me too." Was all you could bring out.

The next weeks were terrifying. You had determined that the last thing you could remember was the school festival in your first year at UA. You remembered moving into the dorms and receiving your provisional licence. You remembered how much fun you all had had at the festival, but that was where it cut off.

You had no recollection of your second year at all, and now you were four months into your third year, and you had missed all of that by being trapped inside of this hospital. You were supposed to graduate by the end of the year, but at this rate, would you really be able to? You had missed so much after all.

No matter what you tried, you just couldn't remember anything past that point. The doctors and nurses were doing daily memory exercises with you, but none of it helped. To say you were depressed was an understatement.

You wanted nothing more than to go back to school and be with your friends, you were hoping that being with them would bring your memories back. But the doctors said that it could potentially be too overwhelming for you. Which was why none of your friends had been allowed to visit yet either.

You sighed deeply, trying to get out of your hospital bed. The doctors had said that if you managed to walk around on your own and recover physically, they would allow you to return to school. Which was why you had started walking around as much as you could over the past weeks.

Today you would be going outside for the very first time in months. Your accident had been in late February, just over a month before the start of your third year at UA. It was now the end of July, and you couldn't wait to feel the summer heat surrounding you.

With slow steps, you made your way outside into the courtyard. You couldn't help but smile when you saw the one person who had helped you through the past weeks. He waved and gave you a soft smile. You walked over to him. "Hi Yami."

"Look at you! You made it out here all on your own," he said, giving you a thumbs up.

You plopped down onto the bench next to him and gave him a big grin. "Well, I wanna get out of here as quickly as possible," you said. "So I gotta keep at it."

He nodded, and for a while, there was a comfortable silence between you. "I'm gonna get discharged tomorrow," he suddenly said.

You looked at him, shocked and confused. You didn't want to show it, but you were upset. You had met Yami during your physiotherapy sessions, and you quickly hit it off. He was the perfect mix between confident and sweet. He wasn't too cocky, but confident enough to make his presence known the moment he stepped into a room. There was just something about him that fascinated you. He was also really funny and helped you through this dark time that you were going through.

He too had had an accident; a car had cut him off when he was riding his bicycle home from school. He hadn't been as severely injured as you, but bad enough that he had been stuck in here for a good couple of months. You had a lot in common and being in the same situation, you bonded really quickly.

He was the same age as you, and he was incredibly handsome. He had grey hair, almost silver; depending on how the light was shining down on him. And he had the most beautiful blue eyes you had ever seen. They almost looked like sapphires, they were even sparkling like gems. At least when he was looking at you.

You felt safe with him, and you had really hoped that you could be with him just a little bit longer. He could tell that you were upset. "Hey," he said, placing his hand on yours. "Don't be sad. You're going to get out of here soon as well, and I promise that we can see each other as much as you like."

You smiled at him. "Do you really mean that?"

"You're the most incredible person I have ever met. Of course, I mean it," he said with a bright smile.

Your heart skipped a beat, and you couldn't help but blush. You had never thought that you would meet someone so special in this terrible place. You wouldn't say that you were in love with him, but you had quickly developed a massive crush on the boy beside you.

You playfully hit his arm. "Oh, shut up."

He rubbed his arm, pretending that you had hurt him. "I mean it."

You just started laughing and leaned back, looking into the bright blue sky. You might not have been able to remember the past couple of years, but at least you had something to look forward to now. "I really like you, Yami."

He chuckled lightly. "I really like you too."

For the remainder of the afternoon, you were just sitting outside in the courtyard, enjoying the warm July weather, talking about anything and everything. You couldn't wait to get out of there and see your friends again.

While you were enjoying the sun, your classmates were all gathered in the common room of the dorm building. Your homeroom teacher Aizawa had called them there to tell everyone what exactly it was that was going to happen next. They obviously all knew that you had been in an accident and they had visited you while you were in the coma. Ever since you had woken up, however, they hadn't heard any news, and they were getting increasingly worried.

"Alright, so to make it short, (y/n) will be coming back here soon," he said. He paused, interrupted by the cheering of the teenagers in front of him. "Quiet," he suddenly said, making everyone shut up. "She will be coming back. However, her brain injuries seem to have caused some sort of selective amnesia."

The room fell silent immediately, and the heart of a particular person stopped beating for a moment. Katsuki swallowed hard. Amnesia? He tried hard to look unphased, but all he wanted was to run out and see you at the hospital. It had killed him that he hadn't been allowed to see you over the past weeks, but now that he knew about this, he couldn't stay away from you any longer.

His classmates started to whisper, and an uneasy atmosphere was spreading through the room. "She hasn't forgotten any of you, so you can calm down a bit. She's actually very much looking forward to coming back," Aizawa explained, a sigh of relief making the round.

Katsuki was relieved, at least you remembered him, which meant that he would be able to help you through this time. He would be the most supportive boyfriend the world had ever seen, he would make sure of that.

"Sensei," Iida said, raising his arm to get his teacher's attention. Aizawa just nodded into his direction. "You said she lost her memories, but if she can remember all of us, then what memories did she lose?"

Aizawa sighed. "That's the thing… She only remembers everything up until the school festival in your first year here at UA."

Katsuki's world collapsed around him. If that were true, then you wouldn't remember your relationship. You wouldn't remember how he had asked you out. How awkward your first kiss had been. You wouldn't remember your feelings for him. He couldn't believe that this was happening, he couldn't accept that. You had told him that you would always love him, it was a promise, you couldn't just forget about him like that.

Katsuki didn't pay all that much attention to the rest of what Aizawa had to say. He tried so hard to look normal, nobody in his class had known about your relationship. Neither of you was much into public affection, and you didn't want to be teased for being together. Also, you had agreed that having your own little secret was kind of exciting. He was glad that nobody knew because otherwise, all eyes would be on him right now, gauging his reaction, giving him words of pity. He was okay with being alone in this. It would all be okay in the end. All he had to do was go to visit you, and you would surely remember everything that you had been through together.

After Aizawa had left, your classmates were discussing how to approach you when you would return to the dorms. They wanted to help you recover your memories and were all rather cheerful, confident that they would be able to make you remember. Katsuki couldn't stand to sit there even a second longer. He had to go and see you, no matter what.

He got up, getting looks from his classmates. "Where are you going, bro?" Eijiro asked him.

"Out," was all Katsuki replied.

Mina huffed. "I know you're a douche, but our classmate needs us. Can't you act nice at least once in your life?"

Katsuki had his back towards the others, so they couldn't see how he gritted his teeth, tears on the verge of falling from his eyes. He clenched his hands to fists, trembling from the inside. His classmates could see that he was acting weird, but none of them could make any sense of it.

"Shut the fuck up, Raccoon Eyes," he said, his voice cracking slightly. "Don't talk shit about things you know nothing about."

And with that, he stormed out of the room. His classmates were looking at each other in confusion, they had no idea what the hell was going on with Katsuki. They heard the front door bang shut loudly, making everyone flinch a little. "What the hell was that about?" Denki asked, raising his eyebrows.

Everyone just shrugged their shoulders and went back to planning for your return. Katsuki was an odd guy, nobody was all that surprised that he blew up like that. Except for Eijiro. He knew his best friend, and he knew that something was wrong. He just didn't know what.

Once outside, Katsuki couldn't stop his tears from falling. Fuck. This was all just a bad dream. He would be waking up, and you would be okay. Everything would be okay.

But he couldn't stop this dreadful feeling from spreading inside of him. He had thought that the day of your accident had been the worst day of his life. But then you were put into a coma, and he believed that this time for sure, it was the worst thing that could possibly happen. But now… if this were true, then it would be even worse than anything else that had happened so far.

On his way to the hospital, he was thinking about all the afternoons he had spent by your side, holding your hand while you were comatose. He had prayed that you would be able to feel his presence and come back to him. But no matter how often he came to visit, you were always asleep. When they told him that you were awake, he was ecstatic, only to find out that you were confused and didn't even recognise your own parents. And then one day, when he was going to visit you again, they suddenly told him that you couldn't have any visitors. They wouldn't tell him why, and even though he went there every single day, they kept turning him away.

Back then, he had been confused about why they wouldn't let him see you, but now it made sense. If you had lost your memories, then there was no telling how you would react to seeing people you knew. But this time, he couldn't stay away, he had to go see you, he had to know if you remembered him. He had to hold you and kiss you and hear you tell him that everything would be okay.

When he arrived at the hospital, there wasn't a single person around, so he thought that it was the perfect opportunity to sneak into your room. He went inside, but you weren't there. He could smell you, but you weren't physically present. He was confused and upset, but then he got a glimpse out of the window and saw you in the courtyard, sitting on a bench. You weren't alone, but he didn't care, he had to see you.

He dashed out of the room and sprinted down the stairs, getting into the courtyard as quickly as possible. When he arrived outside in the hot July sun, he saw you sitting on the bench, just like he had seen from the window. But now he could make out the person that was with you. It was a boy about the same age as the two of you. He was laying on the bench, his head resting on your lap.

You were laughing at something that the guy had said, and the sound of your laugh made Katsuki both, happy and sad, at the same time. Happy, because there had been a point where he didn't think he'd ever hear it again. Sad, because it wasn't him who had made you laugh. Seeing another guy resting on your lap, your fingers playing with his hair, it was like thousand knives stabbing him at the same time.

Without realising it, tiny explosions were emitting from his palms. They weren't dangerous, but they left a crackling noise that got your attention. You looked up, and your eyes met his. By god, he had missed looking into your eyes. But the look that you gave him wasn't one that he had ever seen on you before. There was no love, no happiness - it was nothing but confusion.

"Bakugou?" you asked him, "What are you doing here?"

It was in that exact moment that his heart broke into a million pieces. It was in that exact moment that he realised that he was no longer Katsuki to you, he was Bakugou. Just like he had been before you fell in love with each other.

He still loved you just as much as he had then, but he could see that your love for him had vanished together with the memories of your time together.

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"Bakugou?" You asked again, confused as to why your classmate didn't answer you.

Katsuki tried hard not to break out into tears. "I'm visiting my grandma," he lied. "Just saw you from the window and thought I'd say hi."

You looked at him, surprised. "That is incredibly nice of you. I remember you being kind of a rude guy," you chuckled lightly and scratched your head. "But then again, my memory isn't the best lately."

No shit. Your memory was like swiss cheese, he had known that the moment he had looked at you. His insides were hurting so much. What was he supposed to do now? He was going to have to leave you here with this stranger, and he had to accept that. He wouldn't be able to kiss you goodbye, not even give you a hug. Seeing you so close, yet so far away, was tearing his heart apart.

"Well, I hope you're feeling better soon," he said, trying to turn around without starting to cry.

You were still confused as to why he seemed so calm and friendly, you could've sworn that he was an unlikeable douchebag from what you remembered of him. But almost two years had passed since then, maybe he had grown out of that attitude by now. You saw how he started to walk away, his hands in his pockets, hunched over as if to make himself as small as possible. You couldn't help but feel bad for him, maybe his grandma really wasn't doing very well.

"Hey Bakugou," you said, making him stop in his tracks. "Thanks. I hope your grandma is feeling better soon too."

He didn't turn around. Instead, he extended his arm to the side and gave you a shaky thumbs-up. You sighed and looked back down to Yami whose head was still positioned in your lap. You caught him already looking at you, and it made you blush violently. "Stop looking at me," you said, trying to hide your face behind your hands. Yami shifted a little, bringing his own hands to your face and removing yours, revealing your blushing face.

"But I like looking at you."

Your body was trembling. This guy was so intense, and you had no idea how to deal with it. You had never had a boyfriend before, hell you hadn't even had your first kiss yet. To say you were shy was an understatement. "Why?"

He grinned and brushed a strand of hair from your face. "Because you're pretty."

Your entire body heated up and you were pretty sure that you had never blushed harder before. You shook your head, trying to hide from his gaze, but he was assertive, not letting go of you. "You're even prettier when you're blushing like that," he stated, a small smile on his lips. "No wonder I fell for you so quickly."

You gasped for air. You were sure that this guy would be the death of you. Your heart was beating out of your chest, and he could tell how nervous you were. He just smiled and stood up from the bench, offering you his hand and helping you to stand up. Once you were back on your feet, he pulled you closer towards him, gently wrapping his arms around you. You didn't know what was happening to you, but you didn't want to complain. You just felt so comfortable around him, almost as if you were in a bubble that only contained the two of you.

He was quite a bit taller than you, leaving you to look up at him to gaze into his eyes. "What are you doing?" You whispered.

"I'm just savouring every moment with you before I have to leave the hospital tomorrow," he said, softly touching your cheek.

Tears were welling up in your eyes. "Stop making it sound like I'll never get to see you again" You pouted a little.

He chuckled lightly. "I'm sorry. I just wanted to see that cute pout of yours. You'll be out of here in no time, and then we can see each other every day... if you want."

"I do."

You were both laughing, and he held you as close as possible. You had your face buried in his chest, enjoying his warmth and breathing in his scent.

At the same time, Katsuki decided to look out of the window one last time before leaving. He wanted to get one last look at you, who knew when you'd be coming back to school and he'd be able to see you again. But the moment he looked through the glass, his heart stopped beating, and he was pretty sure that a part of him died.

He saw you, the girl he loved more than life itself, pressed against a boy that wasn't him. He saw your head on his chest and his hand on the small of your back. He saw a nightmare unfolding right in front of his eyes. And then it happened, this stranger that you had let into your life, was looking up, right into Katsuki's eyes. For a moment, he thought that he had imagined it, but then he saw the smirk on the other boy's face. He then realised that this guy was, in fact, looking right at him.

Katsuki's expression hardened, trying not to give a reaction to the blatant taunt that this scumbag was trying to pull off. Something about this guy was off. It wasn't just Katsuki's jealousy speaking, he just had a terrible feeling about this person, and he felt as though he had to protect you from him. But Katsuki had no way of doing so - you didn't even remember ever having been close to him.

With a heavy heart, he turned around, leaving you behind in the arms of this dodgy scum that had appeared out of nowhere. Katsuki left the hospital and started walking around aimlessly. He had no idea where he was going or what he would do once he reached his destination. It wasn't like he cared, nothing was waiting for him anywhere anyway. He was hurt and alone, and nothing would ever change that.

What was hurting him the most was the fact that you had never broken up. You never decided to end your relationship; it just did, without warning. He knew that you didn't hate him, but you also didn't love him. It was like he was walking through a never-ending night. The skies above him were dark, and the only light that had ever lived up there had burned out.

He had never truly known who he was as a person until he had you by his side. He had been so insecure, but whenever he had been lost, he called out your name, and you had shown him the way. In the darkest of nights, you had been his star to guide him home. But now that star had fallen from the sky, it was no longer shining for him.

He had found in you, what had been lost in him. Love and gratitude, patience and acceptance. All qualities that he had lacked, he learned from you. You had led his way in so many ways, but then you just disappeared from his side. You had just walked away and left him stranded, and he knew that he couldn't do this on his own. You were all he had, all he wanted, and he needed you more than you would ever know.

He didn't know how long he had been walking around, all Katsuki knew was that when he eventually found his way back to the dorms, it was dark outside. All of his classmates were already in their rooms, and Katsuki was happy about that. He didn't want to see anyone, especially not after his exit earlier on in the day. He had to make sure not to let his feelings show too much. It would just cause confusion.

Katsuki went back to his room, falling onto his bed with an exhausted sigh. He wondered whether there was any way to prove to you how madly in love you had been. How amazing your relationship was and how he had treated you like the princess you were. He contemplated whether there were any trinkets or other physical evidence of any of your dates - but then he panicked.

What if you would find this evidence in your room on your return and it would overwhelm you? What if it would upset you? You didn't have any feelings for him, and they wouldn't just magically reappear just by looking at some reminders of your past ventures together. He couldn't rule out the possibility that it would bring your memories back, but if it didn't... That would be even worse than anything he was going through at this moment.

He didn't want you to look at him with pity. Didn't want you to apologise to him for not wanting him anymore. The thought of you knowing about your relationship and avoiding him because of it... He couldn't bear it.

He decided then to sneak into your room. He still had your spare key, so technically he had an open invitation. Or so he tried to tell himself on the way over to the girl's side of the dorms. He was as quiet as possible and let out a breath of relieve the moment he closed your door behind him.

But not even a second later, he was surrounded by your smell, and it was tearing him apart. He was standing in your room, amidst all your belongings, and it felt oddly foreign. As though he was in a museum.

For a moment he was just standing there, his head spinning and his heart audibly breaking. But then he realised that he needed to get a grip. He came here for a reason, and he had to stop being such a weakling.

And so he quietly dug through your room. Luckily he knew where you were keeping the memories you had made together, and it didn't take him long to find the things that he was looking for. He shoved everything in the large pockets of his sweatpants and realised that there weren't as many trinkets as he had thought there would be. It made sense, though. You never really went out that much, not wanting people to see you together.

He tried to think whether there was more he had to hide from you, but there didn't seem to be anything. Your phone had been destroyed during your accident so you wouldn't be able to go through old text messages either.

The only thing he could think of was pictures.

But you didn't have any photos together. You had always tried to force Katsuki into taking pictures, but he had refused every single time. God, how much he cursed himself for being so stubborn. He would give anything for just a single photo of you kissing him. Not as proof, but for his own sanity. He wanted to look at something to hold onto; otherwise, he would go mad.

When he got back to his room, he emptied one of his desk drawers and filled it with memories of your time together. It was almost like looking into an open casket. Sorrow filling his lungs, making it hard for him to breathe. The last thing he placed inside was a piece of jewellery he had held onto all day.

It was a ring that he had gifted to you a while ago. You never took it off. But after your accident, when you were in a coma, they had taken it off of you. When he visited you then and saw that the ring was gone, he had immediately made a scene. Accusing a nurse of stealing it from you.

But she had calmly explained that they had to take it off because patients in a coma shouldn't be wearing any kinds of jewellery. She had given the ring to Katsuki, telling him to keep it safe until you were able to wear it again.

When he had visited you in the hospital this afternoon, he had wanted to give it back to you. But that was when he learned that plans hardly ever worked out the way they were intended to.

With a big sigh, he closed the drawer, his hand trembling pathetically. He didn't know if what he had done was the right thing to do, but part of him thought that it was infinitely better than the likelihood of you pitying him for his feelings for you.

 


 

The following Saturday, you came back to the dorms. You were equally excited and terrified. From your recollection, you hadn't seen any of them in almost two years. You didn't know if they had changed in appearance or character. They were like strangers, but at the same time, the only friends you had. You were relieved that they all knew about your situation, so they wouldn't overwhelm you too much.

Or so you thought.

The moment you pushed open the big door that led into the hallway of the dorm building, you were met with smiling faces and a big banner that read 'Welcome home (y/n)'. You couldn't help but tear up a little. You were so happy to learn that you were still good friends with everyone; otherwise, they wouldn't have done this for you.

You scanned the room for your two best friends and immediately dropped your bags, running towards them. "Mina!" You cried out, wrapping your arms around your best friend.

The extroverted girl was sobbing a little. "Oh my god, (y/n). I'm so happy you're back! I missed you so much."

You chuckled a bit and let go of her, looking her all over. "Your boobs got bigger," you noted.

Your friend playfully punched your arm, laughing loudly. "She's back, alright."

Next on your hugging list was your other best friend. He came towards you, giving you his signature toothy grin. "Come here," he said, opening his arms wide so you could hug him.

You immediately did as you were asked, breathing in his familiar scent. You were so glad to be surrounded by your friends again. Especially Eijiro and Mina who you had been best friends with ever since you could remember. You grew up next door to Eijiro, always hanging out together. In middle school, you met Mina and became good friends soon after. Ever since then, those two had been your best friends, and nothing would ever change that.

"I missed you, Eiji," you said, trying hard not to cry happy tears.

After that, everyone else more or less queued up to give you a hug. It made you slightly uncomfortable, you weren't against physical contact, this situation was just a little overwhelming. But it seemed as though you had become really close over the past two years, it was only natural that they wanted to properly welcome you home. You wished once more that you could remember everything that you had been through with these guys.

Out of the corner of your eye, you saw a mop of blonde hair. Bakugou was leaning against a wall, arms crossed over his chest, looking at you intently. He had been the only one who didn't approach you for a hug. It didn't surprise you, you remembered him not being very into social situations like this. Quite frankly, you were surprised that he was here at all, let alone looking at you instead of his phone.

But it seemed your initial impression had been correct, he had changed over the past two years. You smiled at him and could clearly tell how he tensed up. "I hope your grandma is doing better, Bakugou."

He wanted to cry. He hated the way you said his last name, it sounded so formal, so distant. He wanted to walk up to you, shake you and beg you to call him Katsuki just one more time. Instead, he just nodded. "Yeah, she is. Thanks."

It sounded monotone, almost robotic. Nobody seemed to notice, except for a certain red-haired boy who happened to be Katsuki's best friend. Eijiro looked at his friend, trying to gauge what was wrong with the blonde, but he couldn't put his finger on it. When had he told you about his grandmother? And what was that about anyway? He had never mentioned his grandma before. Kirishima was suspicious, but he decided to drop it. While one of his best friends was acting weird, his other best friend had just returned from the hospital, and he wanted to celebrate that.

"We got a cake for you!" Mina announced, grabbing your hand and leading you to the kitchen. You were a little taken aback. It wasn't that you weren't thankful, you wanted to celebrate with them too, but you hadn't even stepped foot in your own room yet. You were too polite to say anything, though, they had gone out of their way after all.

A voice behind you cut through the cheerful chatter. "Why don't you let (y/n) settle in before bombarding her with all this crap. She's clearly uncomfortable," Bakugou barked, staring Mina down.

The latter pursed her lips. "Katsuki, you're such a party pooper!"

He clicked his tongue, just about to retaliate when you spoke up. "Bakugou is right, actually. I'd like to bring my bags upstairs first if that's okay?"

"Oh gosh, yes, of course! You should have just said so!" Ochako said.

You smiled at her. "Thanks, Uraraka"

You could see her smile falter a little. "Call me Ochako, please. W-we… we all decided to drop the formalities a long time ago."

"Oh okay," you said, trying to force out a smile. You didn't mean to upset her like that, you had simply forgotten about it. "Ochako it is then." You had expected her smile to return, but it didn't. It was probably because she had realised that you had truly lost your memories. Looking around, the mood had dropped significantly.

Katsuki appeared by your side, snatching your bags from your hands. "I'll help you get those upstairs," he said, motioning you to come with him.

You were surprised, confused and happy at the same time. It was almost as if Katsuki knew what you were thinking, as though he could sense your discomfort. And he was right there to rescue you from the awkward situation. You started following him into the hallway, stopping next to him to wait for the lift.

"Thanks for that," you said, giving him a smile and a little heart attack.

How was he supposed to pretend that he wasn't in love with you? How was he supposed to pretend that you weren't the reason why he got up in the morning and that you weren't the very essence of who he was as a person? He looked at you and saw the past year flashing before his eyes. He saw all the kisses, whispers and cuddles you had shared. He saw how vulnerable you had been in front of each other, how you had talked about your future together.

He saw all of that and more, but he also saw that you didn't see any of it. How could you? To you, none of this had ever happened.

Being lost in your eyes, he had completely forgotten that you were talking to him. "Don't mention it," he just said, forcing himself to look away from you.

"You're a good guy, Bakugou. Seems like you changed quite a bit over the time," you chuckled. "I like it."

He couldn't help but blush, his heart skipping a beat. God, what he wouldn't give to kiss you right then and there. He tried hard to come up with something funny, something witty, you had always loved when he joked around with you. But no matter how hard he tried, his mind drew a blank.

"Well, don't get used to it," he scoffed. "This is my welcome back gift." He immediately wanted to punch himself. This came out so much harsher than he had intended and he didn't even dare to look at you. To his surprise, you chuckled.

"So you haven't fully changed." Seeing your laugh made his gaze soften, maybe he didn't fuck things up after all.

When the lift arrived, you stayed quiet, but it wasn't an uncomfortable silence. You felt as though Katsuki understood that this entire situation was overwhelming for you and he wanted to give you the space he thought you needed. It made you wonder… "Hey, Bakugou?" You asked him.

"Hm?" He lifted his gaze, looking at you.

You tilted your head a little, curiosity in your eyes. "Were we…" His heart stopped. Was he making it that obvious? Or maybe you remembered something. "Friends?"

His heart shattered all over again. Friends.

He shrugged his shoulders. "Not really." The moment these words left his lips, he wanted to shoot himself. Why didn't he say yes? Why was he such an idiot?

"Oh, okay." Was all you said, falling back into silence. Katsuki wanted to scream, beating himself up internally.

Way to fucking go, Katsuki.

When you arrived at your room, you started shaking a little. Behind this door were memories of a girl that you once were, but couldn't remember. There would be things that had meant something to you but now didn't mean anything. Your hand was resting on the door handle, and Katsuki could sense your hesitation.

"It will be alright," he said. And you believed him.

The moment you entered, it wasn't as traumatic as you thought it would be. It was still looking very much as you remembered, at least at first glance. You turned around, watching as Katsuki put down your bags next to your door, careful not to fully step into your room. You thought it was very polite of him, but the real reason was that he couldn't stomach being alone in this room with you. The place you both had been intimate with each other on so many occasions. Pretending that he had never been inside of these walls before would be too much for him right now.

"I'll be off then," he said, turning around.

You watched him leave. "Thank you, Bakugou. I really appreciate you saving me back there."

"Like I said, don't mention it." And with that, Katsuki walked away.

You closed the door behind him, looking around your room, not really knowing what to do with yourself. After a while, you realised that being alone wasn't doing you any good, so you decided to join the others downstairs. They were happy to see you return, and the welcome back party immediately commenced. To your relieve, the awkward atmosphere from earlier had disappeared completely.

But when you looked around, you realised that Katsuki was nowhere to be seen. You were confused, but the loud music and laughter quickly distracted you from his absence.

Little did you know that if it weren't for the music or excited chatter, you would have most likely known what Katsuki had been up to. Because his sobs were echoing through the halls and they didn't stop until he had completely exhausted himself.

With you back in the dorms, everyone slept well that night. Except for Katsuki. He wasn't able to close his eyes for even a second. For the moment he was to close them, he saw your face. Smiling, running towards a guy that wasn't him.

Sadness was coursing through his veins instead of blood and thoughts of you replaced any emotion he once had with anguish.

He wasn't able to sleep that night, and he wasn't able to dry the tears that he didn't even know he was capable of producing.

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Katsuki couldn't remember the last time he had been happy, and it was upsetting him for several reasons. He was upset because happiness was so far away that he lost the will to even try. But mostly he was upset because he forgot the last happy memory he had had with you. He remembered so many things, but he didn't remember when it had stopped. All he could think of was the accident and the pain that followed after that.

He sighed and crawled under his duvet just a bit further, he was now barely visible for anyone who wasn't in the same bed as him. And to his dismay, there wasn't anyone. You weren't here, and you hadn't been in months. Your scent had long since vanished from his sheets, the warmth of your bare skin had disappeared too. There was no evidence that you had ever been in this bed with him.

But you had been, and it was killing him. It wasn't even about his physical needs, just you being here with him would be enough to soothe his aching heart. He thought about the first time you had been in his room.

In the first few months after you had started dating, you had solely met in your room, it was easier simply because Mineta wasn't there. The grape boy had started snooping around after the first time one of the boys had brought a girl back to the dorms, and he hadn't stopped since.

But on the night that you had had your first time with each other, you had been in Katsuki's room. You had both talked about taking this next step, but either of you was too nervous to actually take it. It was something entirely new for both of you after all.

Katsuki wanted to make it as comfortable as possible for you. So he had gone out of his way to buy candles, fluffy cushions and blankets, hoping that it would set the mood and ease your nerves. He couldn't believe that he would ever go to such lengths for anyone, but then he realised that there was nothing he wouldn't do for you.

You had been extremely surprised by his thoughtfulness and everything else just happened naturally. The initial awkwardness disappeared quickly, and you were both glad that you had been each other's firsts. Having you look up at him with a reassuring gaze, trying to calm his nerves while your own were just as bad, had filled him with an incredibly warm feeling.

It was at that moment that he had realised just how much he loved you.

And that very night, he had told you exactly that. He had said those three words, and you had said them back. It had left him stunned, too happy to comprehend. Your love for each other had quickly grown into a romance that was greater than either of you could have ever imagined. The fact that you had kept it a secret didn't make it any less real.

You had loved each other. Nothing could ever erase the fact that this was once the truth. This was once a reality.

His reality.

Your reality.

But not anymore. Even though you had sworn that your love would last for an eternity, life had had different plans.

His mind went back to this warm night at last year's summer festival. He remembered how you snuck away from your friends and climbed up the little hill to watch the fireworks together. He remembered how the lights had reflected in your eyes and how it was the most beautiful thing he had ever seen. He remembered your slightly parted lips and how you always did that when you were in awe of something. He had been in awe too, he couldn't believe just how lucky he was. And the moment you had looked at him, he had told you that nothing would ever change the way he felt about you.

He remembered your blushing cheeks and glistening eyes and how badly he had wanted to kiss you. He remembered how you were about to answer him, but he didn't need to hear you say it back - he already knew. All he wanted was to feel your lips on his, and that was precisely what he did. It was the softest kiss you had ever shared, and it had said so much more than a thousand words ever could.

Now he couldn't help but regret that he had interrupted you with that kiss, no matter how sweet it was. Maybe if you had said those words, you wouldn't have forgotten about him. Perhaps it would have been a verbal contract that couldn't be broken. Maybe if he wouldn't have interrupted you, you'd still be right here next to him.

He clicked his tongue. His thoughts were ridiculous. Of course, that wouldn't have changed anything… What was he even thinking? He groaned, fighting his tears. He was determined not to let them win again. He was surprised that he hadn't collapsed from dehydration yet, his tears hadn't stopped for what felt like an eternity.

A soft knock on his door made him jump slightly. He didn't want to be interrupted in his pity party, so he didn't say anything. But the knocking persisted. He gritted his teeth, why couldn't they take his silence for an answer?

"Dude, I know you're in there," Eijiro said from the other side of the door.

Katsuki stayed silent. What was shitty hair even doing in front of his room? He just wanted to be left alone.

"Look, I don't know what's going on with you, but I've heard weird noises from your room, and I'm not saying that it sounds like you're crying… but it sounds like you're crying. And to be honest, buddy, I'm quite worried about you."

Katsuki sighed internally. Hair for brains was a great friend, he couldn't deny that, but he was also way too close to you, and that's why Katsuki would never be able to confide into the red-haired boy. Katsuki again opted to stay silent.

Eijiro sighed behind the door. "Okay, I get it, you don't want to talk, but you've been cooped up in there since Saturday evening, and it's Monday now so… Just let me know if you're coming to class today." Eijiro waited for a moment before adding a quiet. "Please?"

Katsuki rolled his eyes. "Doesn't my silence tell you that I'm not feeling well, Shitty Hair?" He barked. "Tell sensei I'm not coming today."

Eijiro noticed the hurt in his friend's voice and how unusually croaky it was. He had thought that hearing his voice would put him at least somewhat at ease, but it had done the exact opposite. "Alright, buddy. I'll check on you later."

Katsuki didn't answer. Instead, he turned around onto his stomach, pressing his face into his pillow. Fuck everything. He had to get a grip. Otherwise, he wouldn't just lose you, but also himself.

You, on the other hand, felt as though you were brand new. (Y/n) 2.0 - reinvented and improved. You were still upset about your lost memories, sure. But having your friends around you to support you and finally being able to go back to school and training was more than you could ask for. To top it off, there was this special someone that made your heart flutter just by thinking about him.

You were super excited because Yami was going to come over after school to pick you up and take you out for a walk. This would be the first time you'd meet him outside of the hospital, and you couldn't wait to hug him again. You had never felt so strongly about anyone before. You didn't know what it was, but being around him made you feel calm, almost serene. And even though you hadn't known each other for long, it felt as though he could read you like a book, he always knew the right thing to say, and he never failed to make you feel special.

"What are you smiling about so early on a Monday morning?" Mina asked you, plopping down on her chair next to yours.

You looked up from your notebook. "N-nothing."

Mina raised her eyebrows and looked at the doodles you had left on the paper in front of you. "Judging by all those hearts you drew, I'd say you were thinking about someone you like, eh?"

"Shut up, Mina," you huffed. "It's not like that at all." You immediately closed the notebook, you hadn't even realised what you had doodled until Mina pointed it out. You really felt like a little girl.

"Who is it?" Your friend asked, looking around the room. "It's Eiji, isn't it? It's gotta be him."

You looked at her, slightly offended. "Dude, he's like my brother. That's a big fat no from me."

"Oh come on, (y/n), I'm just teasing you! We've always talked about these kinda things. Don't shut me out, girl. I need the juicy details," she said pouting.

You sighed dramatically. "Fine, but only if you answer me one question first."

You had her full attention, god she loved these kinds of conversations way too much. She motioned you to ask your question. "If it's true and we have always talked about things like that, then you should be the one to know whether there was someone I liked before, you know…"

Mina giggled lightly. "No, there wasn't anyone you liked. You were like a little church mouse. You never even had a boyfriend before. I kept pestering you about it, but you never wanted to hear any of it."

"Oh," you said, unable to hide your blush. You didn't know that you had been so awkward about relationships. You had assumed that you at least had as much as a crush. Maybe you had just kept it to yourself. Or maybe there just wasn't anyone who had been interested in you. "So there was literally nobody at all?"

Mina thought for a second. "Not from your side anyway. There were quite a few guys who had the hots for you, but you never showed any sign of interest."

Now, that caught your curiosity. "Who was it?" You asked. "Who used to like me?"

Mina giggled. "Oh, wouldn't you like to know." You rolled your eyes at the relentless teasing you received this morning. Just when you were about to retaliate, she replied. "Well for starters, that anxious guy that used to be our senpai here before he graduated. I forgot his name, but you and Eijiro interned at the same agency as him. As far as I'm aware, he's still there. So you'll meet him when you get back out there."

You started blushing violently. Of course, you remembered Amajiki senpai. You had started your internship before the school festival, so you still remembered your senpai and also your boss, Fatgum. You smiled thinking about finally going back to the agency and continuing your patrols. But you knew that you weren't allowed to do that just yet. The teachers had said that you needed to get your physical strength back to what it used to be, and you agreed, you didn't want to let your team members down after all.

"Are you spacing out thinking about your senpai?" Mina teased you. You snapped out of your thoughts and playfully punched her shoulder. She just laughed and shook her head. "No, but seriously, he had it bad for you. Even though you kept denying it," she sighed. "I wish I was that popular."

You rolled your eyes. "I think you just see things, there is no way he liked me like that. Besides, that was one guy. That hardly makes me popular."

She tilted her head a little. "Well, there were more. I'm pretty sure the explosive porcupine had a crush on you too."

Your eyes widened further than you had thought possible. "Bakugou?!"

Mina nodded. "I think so anyway. Never got a confirmation, but even if he did, that's definitely over."

You looked at her with question marks written all over your face. But then Aizawa walked into the classroom, making Mina look away from you. You nudged her a little. "Why do you think that?"

She shrugged her shoulders. "Dunno, when we were planning your welcome home party he ran out and didn't wanna help. Just felt like if he'd like you like that, he would've helped, you know."

When the class started, you simply shrugged off what Mina had said to you. It didn't really matter, you weren't interested anyway. You already had someone you liked, and that was all that mattered now. You started dreaming about Yami again, completely spacing out, not even noticing that the blonde boy who was usually sitting in front of you was missing.

With the ring of the final bell, you jumped up immediately, making your friends look at you. "Are you okay, (y/n)?" Eiji asked you, surprised.

You nodded, smiling widely. "Yeah, I got a… I'm meeting someone, so I gotta hurry," you said while grabbing your bag. You were out of the room before anyone could say anything else. Your friends were looking at each other, confused, to say the least.

Mina motioned Eijiro to follow her, and they hurried out after you. They saw you running towards a boy about their age, he was casually leaning against a tree, wearing a school uniform they had never seen before. The two friends shared a glance before looking back at the scene in front of them. You stopped in front of the tall boy, and he gave you a happy smile, immediately embracing you in a tight hug. Your friends could practically feel the happiness radiate off of you.

"Who the hell is that?" Mina asked, earning a shrug from her red-haired friend.

"Beats me. I don't know this guy, and I've known (y/n) my entire life…" Eijiro was very protective of you, almost like a brother. He didn't like seeing you with someone he considered a stranger. He would definitely need to investigate this further.

But first, he had to look after his explosive friend who was still cooped up inside his room. He had to know what was wrong with him. It was entirely out of character for Katsuki to hide away like that. Even if he was sick, he never acted like this.

When he knocked at his friend's door, however, there was no answer. "Dude, I know you're there. Please, can you at least tell me that you're okay? You need to eat something, buddy."

Silence.

Katsuki didn't know what he was supposed to say. He was tired and hopeless, his heart was as heavy as the previous nights had been long. He couldn't imagine ever feeling whole again. Not without you by his side. He felt like a broken record, but he couldn't think of anything other than you.

He was laying on his bed with his arm stretched out, almost as if he was trying to touch the ceiling. He looked at his fingers and the spaces between and couldn't help but tear up. There was a time where you had filled those spaces, your fingers perfectly intertwining with his. You used to belong there. You still belonged there. You just didn't know it.

Katsuki ignored his friend until the knocking and pleading finally stopped. He needed time to think of what he should do next. He didn't want to give you up, but he also didn't know how to win you back. Hell, he didn't even know how he was able to get you to return his feelings in the first place. Miracles rarely happened twice.

He got lost in memories of the two of you. Time stood still in the little bubble he had built around himself. He didn't realise just how long he had been stuck in that one position, dwelling in the past. He didn't notice that the sun was beginning to set and that soon enough, another sleepless night would fall upon him.

But then he remembered that dodgy guy from the hospital and his bubble burst. You had found somebody else who you deemed worthy of your time. Someone whose words meant more to you than his. Someone who you appreciated and swooned over. Katsuki was a nobody in your eyes, but this guy, he was something else. Katsuki knew that because you used to look at him the same way.

But Katsuki felt that something was wrong with this dude and that's why keeping you safe was even more important than winning you back. Maybe he should focus on protecting you from whatever it was that this guy was up to and everything would fall into place eventually.

That was… if this guy really was out to harm you. Maybe Katsuki had got it all wrong, maybe he did have only your best interest at heart. But something just didn't sit right with the blonde. The timing was too convenient, and the way you were smitten by him was unusual for you also. You weren't one to trust someone else that easily. So why was this guy an exception?

Katsuki gritted his teeth. Maybe he was the exception because he was the one you were meant to be with. Perhaps Katsuki had just been a single chapter in the book that was your life. A chapter that had been torn out and thrown away. Maybe he was just jealous, and he had to accept the fact that you didn't need him anymore.

He shook his head and jumped up from his bed. He had to go out and take a walk before he would drive himself crazy. He was just overexaggerating. He was interpreting more into this whole thing than there was. He didn't even know whether you were still talking to that guy. For all he knew, the last time you had seen him was at the hospital.

Katsuki scoffed and put on his sweatpants and hoodie. He was unreasonable. Thinking about something that most likely wouldn't come true anyway. You weren't like that. You wouldn't just start going out with a guy you barely knew. You were more careful than that. Especially considering your secr-

His thoughts came to a halt the moment he stepped out of the dorm building.

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To say you were excited when you left school was an understatement; you hadn't seen Yami since he had left the hospital. You were discharged a week after him, so in actuality, you hadn't seen each other in just over a week, but to you, it had felt like an eternity. The calmness you felt when you were around him had disappeared the moment he had left, and you had been craving that feeling ever since.

When you exited the building, he was already standing outside by the gates, waiting for you. The moment your eyes met, and you saw this sweet smile of his, the calm feeling overcame you, and it was even better than you remembered. Addictive almost.

He looked handsome in his school uniform, it was the first time you saw him in anything other than the gym clothes he was wearing during his hospital stay. When you stopped in front of him, he gave you a smirk. "God, my memory really didn't do you justice," he said. "You look stunning."

You playfully punched his arm. "Hello to you too, you dork."

He chuckled and gave you a hug. "I missed hugging you like that."

You hadn't been with each other for longer than a couple of minutes, and you were already a blushing mess. "You need to stop this, Yami."

"Stop what?" He asked, confused.

You sighed. "Making me all flustered like that. I'm gonna faint one of these days."

"Well, then I'll be here to catch you before you fall."

You just rolled your eyes. "Ugh, so cheesy."

He laughed, and the sound made your heart flutter. You would have never thought that you'd be able to trust someone so quickly, but he proved you wrong. He was so sweet and had been there for you when you had needed it most. You had gone through similar trauma, and no matter what anyone would say, it connected you in a way you had never been connected to anyone before.

"Shall we go? There's this park I wanted to show you," he said, and you nodded in response.

For a moment, you just walked next to each other in silence. You didn't quite know what to say. This was all so new for you. Could this be considered a date? Your growing feelings for each other were clearly mutual… Or was he just being nice? You fidgeted with your fingers, and it didn't stay unnoticed by the grey-haired boy. "Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah… Just kinda nervous," you admitted.

He tilted his head. "Why's that? It's just me."

You sighed. "Yeah, but it's different now… at least I think so… I mean..." You didn't know what to say.

"You mean because this is a date?" He asked, amused.

You blushed and quickly looked away. "Is it?"

"Well, I sure hope so. I would be pretty devastated if I picked up on wrong signals." Yami sounded unsure now.

You quickly looked up at him. "N-no definitely not… I just… I've never done this before."

"Me neither," he said nonchalantly, shrugging his shoulders.

You raised your eyebrows, unable to hide how surprised you were. "But you're so confident… and flirty," you said shyly.

He chuckled in response. "To be honest, I'm just winging it," he admitted. "Besides, I just feel really comfortable with you."

You gave him a big smile. "I feel the same."

"I'm glad to hear that." His gaze was so soft, making you feel all warm and fuzzy inside.

For a moment, it was silent again. "So, how's the famous UA treating you?" He suddenly asked.

"It's alright, I feel like I've fallen behind, but I guess that was to be expected," you said, sounding a little bit defeated.

"I'm sure it will be alright. I haven't seen you fight, but I know you're a strong person. You'll catch up in no time," he tried to cheer you up. "How are things with your friends?"

You sighed. "I don't know… They're all nice and supportive, but I can see how upset they are when they talk about something that I can't remember. I kinda feel like they are treating me like a raw egg. It's a bit irritating."

He was silent for a moment, seemingly lost in thought. "Well, I guess they're just worried about you. They're your friends after all. But don't be afraid to push back if they treat you in a way you don't want to be treated."

You nodded, he was right. They were worried about you, but you couldn't let that change your relationships with everyone. You wanted them to see you for who you were and not like a fragile being that needed to be protected at all times.

"How's school going for you?" You eventually asked him.

He shrugged his shoulders. "Normal, I guess. Still catching up on things I've missed, but it's not like I need to train or anything. I guess that's one of the perks of being quirkless." He sounded somewhat upset, and you felt terrible for even asking him.

"I'm sorry, Yami. I didn't mean to-" But he interrupted you.

"Don't worry about it, (y/n). I've accepted being quirkless a long time ago. There are other things I can do, even without a quirk. So what, I can't be a hero, at least I can watch you become one," he said with a big smile.

You shook your head. "You already are a hero," you said, making him look at you in confusion. "You were there for me when I needed someone to talk to, and to me, that makes you my own personal hero."

This was the first time you managed to make him blush. He was seemingly at a loss for words. "I… I d-don't know what to say," he scratched his head. "That means a lot to me."

You just smiled at him and looked back down at the pavement you were walking on. Neither of you was saying anything, but words weren't needed, you felt so content, that was all that really mattered. After a few minutes, however, Yami suddenly stopped. You looked up at him. "We're here," he said, making you look around.

You hadn't paid any attention to your surroundings until now, and you were blown away. "This is beautiful," you said, taking in all the green trees and colourful flowers around you. "I had no idea this place existed."

He smirked a little. "I got a whole list of unique places to show you," he said triumphantly. "I love this park because it's so serene."

You nodded in agreement. "It's so like you," you said, making Yami blush. "Pretty and calming."

"You don't call boys pretty," he scolded you jokingly.

You scoffed. "Well I just did, Mr Pretty."

He chuckled and motioned you to follow him. "There's a clearing further in that is incredibly beautiful," he said. "Not as beautiful as you, but still."

You gasped. "Yami stop it!" You whined.

He laughed. "Oh, so you can call me pretty, but I'm not allowed to compliment you back?"

You stuck out your tongue. "Shut up."

Laughing, you continued walking until you arrived at the clearing he had been talking about. It was almost like a meadow. A colourful oasis amidst an abundance of green. Lush grass was covered with wildflowers, growing in all shapes and colours. "Wow," was all you could respond with.

"Wow indeed," he said. "Wanna sit down and talk?"

You nodded and searched for a good place to sit down. Just when you were about to plop onto the grass, Yami held you back, taking off the jacket of his school uniform and laying it onto the ground in front of you. "I can't let my date sit on the damp grass like that" He explained, making you blush.

You complied without another word and sat down, leaving some space for him. But he shook his head. "I'm fine, thanks."

You really appreciated how thoughtful he was. Not wanting to sit too close to you in case it would make you feel uncomfortable. He was a true gentleman, and you couldn't wait to spend more time with him. You wanted to get to know everything about him, he was such a gentle soul.

You looked around, admiring the scenery around you. You watched the butterflies flying about, heard the chirping of the birds in the trees and saw the wildflowers gently sway in the light summer breeze. You had never been here before and yet, it felt oddly familiar. You knew you hadn't been to this place before... or had you? Maybe it was one of the many memories that were missing.

"You okay?" Yami suddenly asked you, snapping you out of your thoughts.

You looked at him, confused. "Yeah but… I can't help but feel like I've been here before," you explained. "Maybe it's one of those memories that I have forgotten about."

He gave you a weird look, you couldn't quite gauge what it meant. "Oh, right. Well, I don't think you've been here before. It's very secluded."

You nodded. "Yeah, you're probably right."

After that, there was silence. It wasn't an uncomfortable kind of silence, but it was odd, nonetheless. You didn't really know what had caused it; you couldn't help but feel that it was something you had said, though. Did you upset him? Before you could ask, he spoke up.

"Shall we head back? It's getting late, and we still got a while to walk." He got up, offering you his hand.

You pulled yourself up and avoided looking at him. Why was it so awkward all of a sudden? He must have sensed it too, so he broke the silence. "Shall we see each other again tomorrow?"

You sighed. "I would like to, but I got training after school. I need to catch up if I want to return to my internship," you explained.

He didn't say anything for a while. "I see. What about the day after then?"

"I'm afraid I got training pretty much every day this week," you said apologetically.

He made a displeased sound. "Fair enough."

"Are you mad at me?" You asked him, confused.

He shook his head. "No, of course not. I just thought you said you wanted to see me every day once we're out of the hospital. So I was kinda looking forward to that."

"I'm really sorry, Yami. If I could, I would see you all the time." The last thing you wanted to do was upset him.

He sighed. "It's fine. I know it's not your fault. It's this school that's putting way too much pressure on you," he said. "You literally just got out of the hospital, you'd think they'd take it easy on you."

You wanted to protest, defend UA, but in a sense, he was right. Putting you through such intense training right away was a bit harsh. You knew that training was necessary if you wanted to get back on the field and become a strong pro hero, but they could at least cut you some slack.

"Maybe I can skip training at least one day this week," you suggested.

He nodded and gave you a soft smile. "Sounds good. I can't wait to see you again."

You hadn't realised that you had arrived at your dorm building, too distracted by the loud beating of your heart. Yami gave you a hug, filling you with warmth and comfort. You let it happen and couldn't believe just how lucky you were. Everything else around you disappeared. Which was why you didn't notice a certain blonde boy standing by the entrance of the building.

Katsuki saw you arriving at the gates that led to the dormitory grounds. You looked as beautiful as ever in those last rays of sunshine that were slowly disappearing behind the horizon. The warm colours of the sunset surrounded you like a halo. You looked like an angel.

But with you was this strange guy. The mere sight of him making Katsuki want to throw up. He had his arms around your waist, whispering sweet nothings in your ear. You were a giggling and blushing mess. It was tearing Katsuki's heart apart. That should have been him.

Who was this guy anyway?

And that's when he saw that scumbag looking right at him. Smirking like a moron. Katsuki's eyebrow twitched, and he threw all caution overboard. Fuck that guy. Nobody smirked at Bakugou Katsuki like that and got away with it. With an angry glare, he marched forward, straight towards you and that stranger who held you close.

When you noticed Katsuki, you let go of Yami. Why did your classmate look so angry? You had thought that he had changed, but maybe you were mistaken. "Bakugou?" You asked, confused, trying to get his attention. But he ignored you.

Instead, he walked up to Yami, grabbing the boy by the collar of his shirt, and lifting him up from the ground just enough to showcase his dominance over the other male. Katsuki's crimson glare was met by deep blue irises. Ruby staring down sapphire, a sight to behold.

"Woah, dude," Yami said, trying to get Katsuki to let him down.

Katsuki scoffed. "What's the deal with you? Showing up like that, giving me those dumb looks."

What was going on? Why was Katsuki so angry and what looks was he talking about?

"I'm sorry, but I have no idea what you're talking about, man," Yami said in an attempt to defend himself.

Katsuki's grip on the boy's collar tightened. "Don't give me that crap. We both know that you know exactly what I'm talking about."

"Bakugou!" You suddenly exclaimed, making both boys look at you. "What the hell are you doing? Let him down!" He couldn't believe that you were defending this bastard. Katsuki didn't move a muscle. "Now," you said with an assertive tone.

Katsuki let the grey-haired male down, pushing him back a little. He was still glaring daggers at Yami, but he decided to comply with your request, not wanting to make you mad at him - even though that was probably already too late at this point.

"What's gotten into you all of a sudden?" You asked your classmate.

He looked at you, your eyes piercing right through his skull. He realised that he had fucked up, but there was nothing he could do now. "I just didn't like the looks this guy has been giving me."

You looked at Yami. "What is he talking about?"

Yami shrugged his shoulders. "Beats me," he said, directing his eyes at Katsuki. "Sorry if I did something to offend you, dude."

Katsuki scoffed. "You didn't offend me, but those smirks really rubbed me the wrong way. There's something about you that makes me feel uneasy."

Yami lifted his hands in defeat. "Woah geez, I just tried to smile at you. I didn't mean to smirk or give you dirty looks. But sorry to hear you feel that way."

He eyed the other male suspiciously. "Why would you smile, though? That's weird. You don't even know me."

Yami smiled lightly and looked at you before looking back at Katsuki. The latter wanted to throw up. "I just wanted to become friends with (y/n)'s friends. I really care about her, so I wanted to make the effort of getting to know you all too."

Katsuki narrowed his eyes. He was his rival and yet, he started to feel quite comfortable around him. But he usually never felt comfortable around people. This whole situation was weird.

He saw you smile at Yami and his heart sank. Was he really losing you? Right in front of his own eyes? Was his attitude pushing you even further away than you already were? Fuck.

Katsuki didn't want to leave, but there was nothing left to say. In fact, he had already said way more than he should have. The feelings inside of him were strange, and he didn't know what he was supposed to think or do. Yami seemed to be a legitimately nice guy, but Katsuki just couldn't shake this bad feeling.

He turned around, starting to walk away without looking at you. But then he stopped, this wasn't over yet. "Oi, blue eyes," he said, hands in the pockets of his shorts, back towards you and Yami. "I got my eye on you, so don't pull any funny business around here."

And with that, he left, walking off towards the training fields. You were utterly confused and didn't know what to make of this. Yami sighed out in relief. "Oof, what a tense situation," he said, looking at you. "Sorry about that, (y/n). I have no idea what that was about."

You shook your head. "It's fine, it wasn't your fault. I think this is normal behaviour from him. Don't worry about it."

He sighed. "Well, this certainly wasn't how I expected our first date to end."

You couldn't help but blush. "I had a great time today. Thanks." Tiptoeing, you tried to reach his height. You gave him a soft kiss on his cheek. "Good night, Yami."

He smiled and touched his cheek. "Good night, (y/n)."

With a fluttering heart, you walked back into the building. You had no idea what Katsuki's problem was, but you didn't care all that much. Who was he anyway? It wasn't like you were friends. He really needed to back off. All that mattered to you was Yami. He had handled the tense situation so well, and you respected him for that.

He truly was special, and you couldn't wait to spend more time with him.

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"No, you hang up first," you said, giggling into your phone. You were currently standing in the kitchen of your dorm building, talking to Yami while preparing dinner. You had seen him just a couple hours ago, but you already missed him a lot. "Okay, I ring you after dinner," you giggled again. "Nooo you d-"

Your conversation was interrupted by your bubbly friend Mina. "If you don't hang up, I'm going to squirt acid on your phone, and then you won't be able to talk at all," she said irritated. "So hang up already."

You rolled your eyes. "Fine." You turned away from Mina, whispering into your phone. "I'm being forced to leave, but I'll call you back later." And with that, you finally hung up.

"Geez, was about time," Mina said with a sigh.

You shrugged your shoulders, taking ingredients out of the fridge. You and Mina were on cooking duty, and she was annoyed that you had been on the phone to Yami instead of talking to her. "Calm down, Mina. It's not like I didn't help you while being on the phone. You gotta stop complaining every time I don't put you in the centre of my attention."

She looked at you, confused and slightly offended. "What the hell? Do you think I'm jealous because you talked to him instead of me?"

"Well yeah…" You said, earning laughter from your friend.

She raised her eyebrows. "Girl, I couldn't care less about who you're talking to, but that dude is weird, and I don't like how you act when it comes to him."

You glared at her. "What the hell are you talking about? You don't even know him!"

"Yeah, but neither do you," she said irritated.

You crossed your arms in front of your chest. "What is that supposed to mean? Of course, I know him."

"Oh yeah? You met in the hospital like what… a couple of months ago? Can't you see that you're rushing things way too much?" She looked concerned, which made you even angrier.

"Sometimes you meet people that you just click with and we had exactly that. Don't try to undermine my feelings just because you never met a person you instantly felt at home with." You didn't even realise that you had started yelling and that more and more people entered the kitchen.

"What the fuck, (y/n). I've never said that your feelings aren't real or anything. All I'm saying is that you should be careful. I don't understand why you're so blind." Mina too crossed her arms over her chest. The tension in the air was so thick, it could have been cut with a knife.

"Careful? He's been there for me when I was alone, so how dare you tell me to be careful around him?" You yelled.

Mina's face darkened. "You weren't alone. I wanted to visit you, we all did, but we weren't allowed to. And just because you think you know him, doesn't mean that you actually do. I don't understand why you can't see that."

You rolled your eyes. "And what exactly is it that Yami did that makes you feel like he's not to be trusted?"

"I'm not saying that he is a bad person, (y/n). I'm just asking you to be careful. You see him every day, and it's not like you to rush things like that. Something doesn't feel right… I mean…" She said but stopped herself.

You narrowed your eyes. “You mean, what?”

"His name literally means darkness. That's fucking weird," she said, scratching her head.

What the hell? How was that a reason not to trust him? It wasn't him who chose that name. "Oh right, so because his parents decided to pick that name for him, you suddenly think he's not to be trusted? You're ridiculous."

"I'm just worried about you, (y/n). You don't seem to be yourself, and I'm just trying to lo-" Mina said, but you interrupted her.

"I'm not the same person I was before the accident, but that doesn't mean I'm not myself anymore. Maybe I'm finally the person I always wanted to be," you said irritated. "Just get off my back."

And with that you walked away, leaving your friend and all your classmates that had gathered around you behind. You were angry. None of your friends would ever be able to understand just what you were going through. The only one who understood you was Yami and to hear your friend talk bad about him really rubbed you the wrong way.

You couldn't measure your connection to each other by the time you had actually known each other. The few months since then, felt like years. You were so comfortable around Yami, and you couldn't help but trust him. What was so wrong about that? He was a quirkless boy who had been in the hospital after a terrible accident. What harm could he do? Mina was overreacting, and you had to prove it.

The moment you entered your room. You dialled his number. He picked up pretty much immediately. "Yami?" You asked, no longer able to hide how upset you were.

"(y/n)... what's going on? Are you okay?"

You sighed. "Yeah it's just... My friends don't understand the connection we have. My best friend especially. It seems like she doesn't want me to see you."

"Maybe she’s jealous?"

You didn't think that Mina was the kind of person to be jealous, but then again, you didn't know whether her personality had changed over the past year. "Yeah, maybe you're right."

"You shouldn't let anyone keep you from pursuing what makes you happy," he said.

You sighed again. "I know… I just want them all to see how amazing you are."

"Maybe it would be good if I could meet your friends? That way they can get an actual opinion of me. If they still feel the same after that… well, then I guess at least we tried." His suggestion made you incredibly happy. It was so sweet of him to try and get to know your friends.

"Thank you so much, Yami. That means a lot to me," you said, sounding as happy as you looked.

He chuckled lightly. "Anything for you, princess."

You blushed immediately and were so glad that he couldn't see the face you were making. You were pretty sure that you looked like a fish without water. He mistook your silence as something else though. "I… I'm sorry if that was too much, (y/n)," he quickly said. "I didn't mean to make you feel uncomfortable… It just kinda slipped out."

You giggled. "It's fine, Yami. I kinda like it. It just took me by surprise."

He let out a relieved sigh. "I'm so glad. I just wish I could've been there to see your cute blushing face."

"I didn't blush," you protested.

He started laughing. "Liar. We both know that's not true," he teased you. "You're probably still blushing."

"Whatever," you said, joining his laughter.

It had only been two weeks since you came back to UA, but it felt way longer than that. You had tried to see Yami as often as you could, and when you couldn't meet up, you would talk on the phone. Every conversation brought you closer together, and you didn't care what anyone else had to say about this. He was amazing, and your friends would realise that soon enough. You were so excited about him coming to the dorms for dinner and immediately asked your teachers for permission.

While you were ecstatic about Yami's visit, Katsuki was dreading it more and more the closer it got. He didn't want this person in his home, his territory. The dorm building was one of the only places that weren't tainted by images of you with him, and Katsuki wanted to keep it that way. But unfortunately, there was nothing he could do about that. He would have to welcome this stranger into his home and pretend as if he was okay with it.

His heart was hurting just thinking about the sight of you with this other guy. He was thinking about the things you were doing with Yami when you were alone. Had you kissed yet? Did you share more than just hugs? Katsuki slapped his cheeks. He had to stop thinking about this. It only made things harder for him.

He heard the doorbell ring and knew that his rival had arrived. The harbinger of doom on his doorstep. Katsuki contemplated staying in his room but eventually decided against it. He would show this guy that this was still his territory and that he wouldn't hand it over without a fight. Just like he wouldn't give up on you without at least trying to win you back.

He walked downstairs, hands in his pockets, head hanging low. A massive knot was building in his stomach, and he half expected to die the moment he saw you with Yami. When he arrived, he found all his classmates flocked around the blue-eyed boy. He looked around the room, trying to find you. And sure enough, you were pressed against Yami's side, smiling brightly, like the ray of sunshine you were.

Katsuki wanted to dissolve into liquid, disappearing in the cracks of the wooden floor. This was so wrong. It should be him by your side, and it was so painful to know that he had once been that person, but no matter what he would do, that was no more. He could feel the all too familiar lump in his throat, a telltale sign of approaching tears. He swallowed hard before any of them could escape his eyes, though.

And he was glad that he managed to do so. Because Yami was looking at him, giving him a warm smile. A total contrast to the smirks he had given him before. "Hey, Bakugou. Good seeing you again."

Katsuki only nodded. He couldn't bring himself to say anything. If he was honest with himself, he probably wouldn't have been able to do so anyway. It was as though he had lost his ability to speak. Whenever he saw you looking at Yami the way you used to look at him, a piece of him died, making him choke up. It was goddamn painful.

You were so happy to see that your friends were getting along with Yami, that you didn't even notice how upset Katsuki looked. But then again, you didn't care much anyway. Not after he was such a douche towards the boy you were so quickly falling for. He could keep his bitter words to himself, you didn't want to hear them.

During dinner, Yami told everyone the story of how you met, and you couldn't help but blush. "Physio had been so boring, but then one day (y/n) stumbled in, and it was as though the whole room lit up."

A collective "Awwww" wandered through the room, and Katsuki almost choked on his carrot. He didn't want to hear how his girlfriend met the guy she was now falling in love with. This fucking sucked.

"She was so adorably clumsy on her feet, and I couldn't help but stare at her the entire time. Physio was suddenly my favourite part of the day. I was trying super hard to come up with something impressive to say to get her attention," he admitted.

You giggled. "You didn't even have to try, I wanted to get to know you too."

Your classmates loved the story and listened to every word. "Well, eventually I saw (y/n) sitting in the garden, and I swear, seeing her surrounded by all those flowers, I've never seen anything more beautiful. So I just went for it and talked to her." He looked at you and enjoyed your blushing face and weak attempt of hiding your face.

You shook your head. "You're so cheesy, Yami." Making everyone around you laugh. Your heart was so full of happiness. You didn't care what others would say, you knew that Yami genuinely cared about you and you felt the same.

Katsuki, on the other hand, was swallowing down his tears. Hearing someone else calling you beautiful was like a punch to his face. And seeing your flustered reaction was ten times worse. Like being hit by a wrecking ball. What was he supposed to do? What could he do? He was powerless when it came to your feelings. He couldn't just force you to love him.

After dinner, the girls asked you to come to the kitchen with them to help them prepare dessert. You were anxious, you knew that they were going to tell you their verdict. You sincerely hoped that they would like him. But the moment you looked at their faces, your anxiety disappeared. "God (y/n), I'm so sorry about what I said!" Mina exclaimed, trying to keep her voice down. "He's the sweetest guy ever."

"And he cares about you so much," Ochako added. "It's like he doesn't see anyone but you. So romantic!"

You started blushing again. "I told you guys that he's amazing."

Momo nodded. "We were just worried because we thought you barely knew him. We had no idea that you spent so much time together when you were in the hospital," she admitted. "But I can see why you're so into him. He's got this astonishingly calm presence surrounding him. He's so soothing."

"I know! That's one of my favourite things about him. He makes me feel so comfortable," you said with hearts in your eyes.

Toru giggled a little. "He's also really cute. Like super handsome… How did you even manage to get someone like him to like you?"

You clicked your tongue, pretending to be offended. "I have you know that I got a lot going for me myself." You all started to burst out in laughter.

After your little girls' talk, you started preparing the dessert. You had bought an abundance of mochis and just put them all on big platters so everyone could help themselves to the flavours they liked most. Suddenly you interrupted the silence.

"I'm thinking about taking the next step tonight," you said, making your friends look at you with wide eyes.

"W-what…?!" Mina asked, shocked. "Don't you think that's a bit too early?"

You looked insecure. "Do you think? I just thought after seeing each other for months in the hospital and also since we've been discharged… I don't know. I thought kissing would be the most logical thing to do."

Mina exhaled, clearly relieved. "Oh gosh, girl, that's what you were talking about," she said, making you blush.

"Geez Mina, I wasn't talking about sleeping with him… You know I've never even kissed a boy," you said shyly.

Ochako giggled lightly. "You're so cute (y/n). If you feel like it, then go for it. He seems to genuinely like you, so as long as it's only a kiss, I wouldn't say it's too early."

You smiled at her. "Thanks, Ochako. I'm super nervous."

"You'll be fine," Momo promised, picking up one of the platters and walking out of the room. You and the other girls followed her swiftly.

You were so happy how the conversation had gone. Your friends liked him, and it put you at ease to know that you had their blessing. You couldn't help but watch Yami eat his dessert. Everything about him was so cute. He noticed you looking at him and smiled at you. He picked up a matcha mochi, holding it to your mouth. You smiled and said that you were full. The truth was, you didn't like matcha desserts at all, but you didn't want to be rude.

Yami, however, didn't realise that and tried it again. "Come on. I'm sure there's room for one more mochi," he said.

You contemplated. You did want to eat another one, but not this flavour. But how were you supposed to tell him nicely? To your surprise, you didn't have to say anything.

"Oi, blue eyes," you heard Katsuki say, making everyone look at him. "She doesn't like matcha flavoured desserts. She thinks they're too bitter."

His statement baffled you. How did he know about that? You could tell that everyone else in the room was just as surprised as you. But Katsuki didn't seem to notice that. He was focused entirely on Yami. "Oh, I had no idea. Sorry, (y/n)," Yami said, scratching his head.

You shrugged your shoulders. "It's fine."

"Do you want a different flavour instead?" He asked you.

But before he could say anything, Katsuki handed you a light coloured mochi on a tiny plate. "Strawberry cheesecake," he said, looking at Yami. "That's her favourite."

You looked at Katsuki, and for a moment, your eyes met. How did he know about this? You took the plate from him. "T-thanks," you just said, too confused to bring out more than that. Was this something you had told him and had now forgotten about?

Katsuki grunted in response and looked back down onto his plate. He remembered one of the first dates you had been on together. Everything was so new then, and you still had so much to learn about each other. On that day, he had surprised you by going to an indoor rock climbing place. He loved hiking and climbing in the mountains, and you had told him that you had never done that before. He didn't know how you would react to his surprise, but you had been ecstatic. You had always wanted to try it and having him give you instructions and guiding your way had been a lot of fun.

He still remembered the sight of you at the top of that wall, smiling down at him and giving him a thumbs up. You had looked so proud of yourself, and Katsuki's heart had been beating like a drum.

When you got out, you wouldn't shut up about how much you were craving mochis. Katsuki didn't have much of a sweet tooth, but you seemed really excited, so he agreed to go to your favourite mochi shop. You had bought a selection while he was just standing there, unable to fathom how anyone could be so excited about something as trivial as sticky desserts.

But that was one of the things he learned to love about you. Your ability to find excitement in the little things was something he had never felt before. You had shown him that there was so much in life to be happy about - even if it was as simple as a mochi.

Back then, you had found a quiet place in a nearby park where you had sat down and enjoyed the sweet treats together. You knew that he wasn't much into sugary things, so you had bought him matcha mochis. You explained to him that they weren't sweet enough for you, but that you thought he might like them. And he did. Not because of the flavour itself, but because you had bought them especially for him.

It was then that he found out about your dislike for matcha desserts and your love for strawberry cheesecake mochis. And no matter how trivial of a fact that was, he would never be able to forget about it. Because he would never be able to forget about this precious memory you had made together.

But you had done exactly that. You had forgotten everything that happened that day, and it was suffocatingly painful to him.

Katsuki didn't even realise how quiet it had become after he had handed you the plate with your favourite dessert. During that moment of silence, Eijiro was eyeing his blonde friend suspiciously. It didn't seem like Katsuki to know random trivia like that about his classmates. Not even Eijiro knew that about you, and he had known you his entire life. There was more to this story, and the red-haired boy would find out exactly what it was.

First, he had to learn more about the guy that was currently sitting next to his childhood friend, though. He didn't know what to think about the male. On the one hand, Eijiro felt that you were good at reading people and that you wouldn't blindly trust someone you barely knew, but on the other hand, that was precisely what made him feel so suspicious. You didn't trust easily, and this boy had swooped right into your life, seemingly without you having any doubts.

But Eijiro couldn't even blame you, Yami seemed incredibly nice and super into you. There was just something… off. Not quite right. But he couldn't put his finger on it so he had to wait and see what would happen. Because he knew for a fact that if he were to question you on your feelings, you wouldn't be happy with him. And quite frankly, that was the last thing he needed right now, especially with his other best friend behaving so out of character.

When the mochis were gone, and the conversations had died down, you knew that it was time to call it a night. You watched Yami say his goodbyes to your classmates and escorted him out of the building. When you were standing by the gates, you didn't quite know what to say. You wanted to kiss him so badly but didn't know whether it was appropriate or not.

"I had a great time tonight," he said, looking right into your eyes, holding one of your hands gently. "Your friends seem nice. I hope the feeling was mutual."

You chuckled a little. "I wouldn't have taken you for a guy who is concerned about what other people might be thinking about him."

"Well, I'm not," he blushed a little. "But I do care when it comes to the friends of the girl I like."

Now it was your turn to blush. "The girl you like, huh?" You felt like it was now or never. "Well, what does the girl you like have to do to get a kiss?"

He gasped, trying to act shocked. "How unusually forward."

"I'm full of surprises," you said with a grin.

He smirked and moved closer to you, now being mere inches away from your face. "Oh, I bet you are."

The moment your lips met, it felt like you were melting. You were incredibly nervous about finally receiving your first kiss, and you were afraid to mess things up. But things between you felt natural, and it gave you the courage to deepen the kiss.

All you could think was "wow". Over and over again. And all the blonde boy watching from the hallway window could think was "I lost her".

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It wasn't as much in your words as it was in the way you were carrying yourself. The way your eyes sparkled and your lips were constantly curled into a breathtaking smile. An instant giveaway of how happy you were. Katsuki knew that because he knew you. Everything about you. Your deepest secrets, you had shared them all with him. Not too long ago, it had been him that made you shine like that. His love and attention had been what made you as happy as you were at this very moment.

But now, he was only a silent spectator. Sitting on the sidelines, benched for the rest of his life. Or at least for as long as you were with that sleazy idiot that you were calling your boyfriend now. He didn't mean to eavesdrop, but he also didn't make any effort of leaving the room while you were telling your girlfriends all about your newfound relationship. It was tearing him up from the inside, but he couldn't bring himself to leave.

"Spill the beans, (y/n)," Mina said excitedly. "How did he ask you out?"

You grinned. "It was so romantic," you said, purposefully dragging your story out to build suspense. "We went back to this park where he had taken me on our first 'date' after leaving the hospital. Only this time he had prepared a picnic for me."

"So cute," Ochako said in awe, having the other girls nod in agreement.

"Well, we were sitting on this blanket, surrounded by trees and wildflowers. Then Yami suddenly started talking about how he couldn't stop thinking about me ever since he first laid eyes on me." You couldn't help but blush while recalling the memory. "He said he knows that we have only known each other for a few months, but that those months were enough for him to fall in love with me."

The girls around you started squealing, clearly enjoying the romantic words that Yami had said to you. "So then he asked me whether I feel the same and if I would do him the honour of being his girlfriend."

By now, you were beet red, and your friends were almost on the edge of their seats. "You really lucked out with this one, (y/n)," Toru said giggling.

You shrugged your shoulders. "I guess after the accident and losing my memories, I did deserve some sort of reward."

A collective giggle went through the room, and Katsuki wanted to die. He was just about to leave when you spoke up again. "I still can't believe that I finally have a boyfriend. I finally get to experience all my firsts an-"

The faint sound of a tiny explosion made you stop. What was that? You looked to the side and saw Katsuki walking out of the room. Had he been here the entire time? Did he cause the explosion? He looked upset, and his palms were sparking, you couldn't help but wonder if he was okay. Maybe his grandma was in the hospital again?

"Bakugou," you said, making him stop. "Are you okay?"

No. He wasn't okay. You were talking about all these firsts you would share with this guy that wasn't him when in reality, you had already experienced all of these things. With Katsuki. He was your first kiss. Your first boyfriend. Your first time. It was all him, but you didn't remember, so no, he wasn't okay. Not even in the slightest.

He huffed. "What's it to you?" Was all he said before hurrying off.

You looked at your friends. "What the hell is wrong with him lately?" Mina asked, receiving nothing but shrugs in return.

Katsuki couldn't do this much longer, so he fled into his room. The moment the door closed behind him, the dam in his eyes broke once again. Fuck. His girlfriend was now in a relationship with another guy. You officially chose to be with someone else, and he had to accept that. He was like a ghost in your eyes, and he had to be okay with that. He was merely a shadow lurking around corners, watching you and hoping you would someday recognise him for who he really was and for who you had loved.

His head was filled with nothing but you. Only the amount of stars in the sky could compare to the number of thoughts he had of you. And while for him there was nothing there but you, he couldn't help but wonder if he ever as much as crossed your mind. He wanted to know so desperately, but at the same time, he knew that he wouldn't like the answer, so part of him never wanted to find out.

He felt like he was chasing a love that could never be his again. No matter how much he pretended that everything was okay, that you were still his, he knew that it wasn't the truth and that all that was left was the emptiness inside of him. Maybe one day you would realise just how much he loved you and you would remember that you loved him too.

But what if you wouldn't? What if your stars would never align again, your hearts never beat in sync again? What if he would never be able to make you his again? He had surrendered his heart to you a long time ago, and he wasn't planning on taking it back. He could only hope that one day you would pick it up again and heal it from the relentless torture it had been going through ever since he lost you.

When you eventually walked back into your room, your thoughts wandered to your blonde classmate. You were still annoyed with him about how uncalled for his attitude towards Yami was, but at the same time, you couldn't help but worry. You weren't very close to him, but even you could tell that something wasn't right with him.

You thought about what happened at the dinner with Yami and how Katsuki knew about your dislike for matcha desserts and your favourite mochi. You must have told him about this sometime during the year that you couldn't remember. Maybe you had been better friends than you had thought, but you had asked him, and he denied it. You had also asked your friends, but they too couldn't recall a friendship between you and the explosive boy.

You sighed, there was no use in thinking about this. If Katsuki didn't want to talk about it, then there was no way for you to find out. But the moment you stepped into your room, you had an idea. Maybe there was some sort of clue somewhere in your belongings that could give you an idea of whether you had been friends or not. And if it didn't, maybe you could at least find some other things in your belongings that might jog your memory. You hadn't thoroughly looked through your stuff since coming back, most likely to avoid confronting the fact that you had forgotten so many important memories. Still, you knew that you had to face these things eventually.

No matter how often you repeated that you didn't care about losing your memories, deep down, you did want to remember. And even if it was just for the sake of remembering what you had learned in school. You were so far behind your classmates, and at this rate, you weren't sure whether you would be able to graduate.

You tried to put that thought aside and started rummaging through every corner of your room. As expected, you didn't find a single shred of evidence that would suggest you had ever been friends with Katsuki. You weren't all that surprised, but for some reason, part of you was upset. You didn't quite understand why you felt that way, it wasn't like you cared about him after all.

You continued looking through your room until you found a small red box that was tucked into a corner under your bed. You pulled it out and inspected it curiously. It was very obviously a jewellery box, but you couldn't recall ever having seen it. Carefully, you opened it and were surprised to find that there was no piece of jewellery inside. Instead, there was a single piece of paper, neatly folded sitting on the velvety cushion inside the box.

Your heart started beating a little faster. You had no idea what it could be, but you had a feeling that it was something significant. Hastily you unfolded the paper, revealing a note written in messy handwriting. Your eyes opened wide, not able to hide the shock you felt the moment you read those lines.

(Y/N),

We need to talk.
I think you already have an idea of what it is that I want to tell you.

If you feel the same, meet me at the usual spot at seven pm tonight.

You read the note over and over again, but no matter how often you repeated it, it just wouldn't make any sense to you. Whoever had written this didn't sign the note. It seemed as though you had once known who this person was without them having to write it down. You tried to recognise the handwriting, but you couldn't think of a match.

Who was this person? A friend? A classmate? Someone that you had forgotten altogether? And what was your relationship with them? You couldn't help but blush when the words suddenly hit you.

If you feel the same.

Was this a confession letter? It sure as hell didn't resemble what you would expect one to look like, but then again, you didn't have anything to compare it to. And the even bigger question: Did you feel the same? Had you met this person that night? Had there been someone that you had been in love with? You shook your head. No, Mina had told you that there hadn't been anyone.

But what if you simply chose not to tell her?

This was too much for you, and you decided to put the note back to where you had found it. But the moment you wanted to place the note back inside the box, you saw that there was something else tucked away in the little crevice that usually held rings inside of boxes like this one. You swallowed hard and contemplated whether you should look at it or not. Your curiosity won, and you fished the paper out of its hiding place.

The paper was a little thicker, and you realised pretty quickly that it was a photograph. You unfolded it, and the confusion inside of you mixed with a sickening feeling that you couldn't describe. "What the hell is going on?" You whispered, unable to look away from the small photo in your hands.

You turned the picture around and saw a little note in the corner. The word 'forever' was neatly written on the paper, and you immediately knew that it was your handwriting. You had written a date beneath it. It dated back to pretty much exactly one year ago. You assumed that it was the day this picture had been taken.

You swallowed away the tears that threatened to leave your eyes and turned the picture around again. You stared at it for what felt like hours, trying to make sense of it. The photo showed your ha-

Loud knocking on your door made you look up from the picture, hastily folding it back up and shoving it into the little box. The knocking repeated. "One second, I'm coming," you shouted, placing the box under your pillow, making sure it was hidden away.

The moment you opened the door, you looked into the smiling face of your best friend. "Eji!" You said surprised. "What are you doing here?"

He shrugged his shoulders. "Just wanted to see how my favourite little bean is doing."

You started laughing. Eiji had called you his little bean ever since you were kids. You had no idea why, but you never bothered asking either. In fact, you quite liked that he had a unique name just for you. With a big smile you motioned him to come inside, it felt like you hadn't hung out in ages and it was long overdue.

You were sitting on your bed, and for some reason, it felt awkward. It was pretty apparent that there were questions in the room that desperately needed to be answered, but neither of you knew how to start. Eiji sighed.

"So… is it official yet?" He asked you, earning a confused look from you. "You and that guy, Yami… Are you officially going out?"

You smiled softly and nodded. "Yeah, he asked me out." You were beaming, and he noticed how radiant you were. "And I said yes."

He smiled at you, trying to be supportive but failing. "What's up?" You asked him.

"I don't know," he admitted. "It's just that… You know I'm really protective of you, and I don't want you to get hurt."

You placed your hand on his thigh. "Aw Eiji, don't you worry. Yami is a great guy, he'd never hurt me."

"It's just that…" He scratched his head. "Ah, never mind."

You clicked your tongue. "You can't do that! You can't say something like that and make me all intrigued and then just let me down. Tell me!" You pouted. "Please"

He seemed to contemplate for a moment. "Fine," he eventually said. "I'm afraid that his strong personality will overpower yours. I can see how your everything revolves around him, and I don't want you to lose yourself."

You didn't quite know whether you should be offended or not. Of course, you wouldn't lose yourself. You wanted to snap at him, but something inside of you stopped you from doing so. You knew that he was just trying to look out for you. Maybe you should just let it slide. "I appreciate your concern, Eiji. But I'm old enough to make my own decisions."

Ouch. That came out way harsher than you had intended. You could see him swallow hard, afraid that he might have made you mad. You quickly tried to change the topic, knowing that keeping this up wouldn't do any good.

"So," you suddenly said. "I would like to ask you something."

Eiji tilted his head a little, looking at you with curiosity.

"Have I…" You started blushing and cleared your throat. "Did I have a boyfriend before I got caught in the accident?"

He looked surprised by your question, and it took him a moment to reply. "Well… You were very secretive about it, I think I was the only one you told… But yes, there was someone."

You swallowed hard. You had already expected this, but it was shocking you nonetheless. "D-do you know who it was?"

He shook his head. "No clue. I was bugging you about it for weeks, but you wouldn't say a word. You really enjoyed teasing me," he pouted a little.

Your mind was racing. You were teasing him about it… Does that mean that the person you were dating was someone that he knew? Why else would you keep it a secret? Did you keep this from everyone? You glanced towards your pillow, contemplating whether you should show the note and picture to your best friend. Maybe he could identify the handwriting.

"Hey, Eiji… I found this note," you said, climbing over him a little to reach under your pillow. You pulled the box out and held it in front of you. You were both looking at it in silence. "I found this under my bed and it must have been pretty important to me… Judging by how much I was hiding it. But I can't make sense of this. Do you mind having a look?"

"Yeah, of course, anything for you," he said, smiling.

You quickly unfolded the note and handed it to him. "What do you th-"

You were interrupted by the ringing of your phone. "Oh shoot, hang on, Yami is calling." But your friend didn't hear you. His brain was working at a hundred miles per hour. You, however, were too preoccupied with your boyfriend to notice this.

"What are you up to? Wanna meet up?" Yami asked from the other end of the phone.

You sighed apologetically. "Sorry, but I'm hanging out with Eiji today," you explained.

Silence.

"Yami?"

You could hear him clear his throat. "I see. Call me when you're done with whatever it is the two of you are doing."

What was he implying? "Yami, wait…" But he had already hung up.

Odd. Maybe he had had a bad day. You decided to ignore it for now and instead, see whether Eiji had any idea of who could have written that note.

"What do you think?" You asked him, seemingly ripping him out of deep thoughts.

He looked at you in confusion. "Huh?"

"The note," you said. "Any idea who could have written it?"

Eijiro was a lousy liar, but he had to try. "Nope, not a clue."

"I thought as much," you said, hesitating for a moment. "There's also this picture."

You took the photo out of the box, carefully unfolded it and moved closer to Eiji, now sitting right beside him so that you could look at the picture together. It was completely silent in the room as you both studied the picture. You were looking for clues, but for Eijiro it just confirmed what he had already suspected.

The picture showed two intertwined hands that were resting on lush green grass which was decorated with colourful wildflowers. One of the hands was significantly larger and held the smaller one tightly. There was no way of telling who these hands belonged to - except there was. For Eijiro, it was more than evident that the small hand belonged to his childhood friend, he had held it so often over the years. He also recognised the calloused skin on the other hand, a hand that had defeated him during training countless times.

You didn't notice the uneasiness that spread through Eiji's body. "I don't know what to make of this," you said. "I'm a hundred percent sure that this is my hand in the picture. I just… I have no clue who the other person could be." You sighed deeply. "Also can you see the ring I'm wearing? I've never seen it before, and it wasn't in my personal belongings in the hospital either."

You rambled on, but Eiji didn't hear any of it. His mind was somewhere else entirely. "Eiji? Are you listening?" You shook him a little when he didn't react.

He snapped out of it and looked at you. "Eh, yeah sorry," he said. "I'm just trying to think of who it could be"

You nodded. "Me too. I do have a theory, though."

"Oh yeah?" His head shot up from the photo immediately, and he looked at you full of expectations.

"Oh wow, someone's suddenly very interested," you laughed.

He scratched his head. "Well, yeah… Getting closer to the truth would be amazing."

You giggled. "Okay, right. Here we go," you said, moving to sit in front of him. You both had your legs crossed, and you placed your hands on him, looking into his eyes because you didn't want to miss his reaction. "What if… what if it was Yami?"

Eijiro couldn't hide his genuine surprise. "Say what?"

You started giggling. "Well, the place in the picture looks exactly like the place Yami took me to when he asked me out," you said. "Also when we got there, I had this Deja Vu, it just felt as though I had been there before." You couldn't contain your excitement. What if your connection to Yami was so strong that your feelings returned even though you lost your memories? It would certainly explain why you felt so comfortable around him from the very beginning.

Eijiro looked at you in disbelief. "That is one hell of a theory."

"I know, right?! How romantic would that be?" Your face literally beamed.

He sighed deeply. "Well yeah, I guess so… But (y/n) you know that's pretty much out of the question right?"

"No. Why do you think that?" You asked. "Maybe he was the one who gave me that ring, and he took it while I was in the hospital so that he can give it back to me one day."

Eijiro couldn't help but chuckle a little which irritated you, to say the least. "I'm sorry but…" He paused for a moment to regain his composure. "Look (y/n), I get it, you want to know who this person is and I get that it would be easiest if the person was the same guy that you're dating now, but you have to agree that it's pretty much impossible. I mean… He was in the hospital too. How much of a coincidence would it be that he too had an accident at the same time? And I highly doubt that he staged his accident just so he could meet you in the hospital. He couldn't even have known that you lost your memories when he was admitted to the hospital."

You stayed silent for a moment. Eijiro was right. You mentally slapped yourself. Why did you even think that could be the case? It didn't make any sense. "You're right. I'm sorry, Eiji." You looked down at the picture in your hand and looked pretty defeated.

"Hey now, little bean, you don't have to be sorry, okay?" He said, trying to get you to look at him. "I understand that you're upset and that you want answers and I promise you that I will help find those answers. So cheer up please!"

He gave you his signature smile, and you couldn't help but smile back. "You're the best Eiji. Thank you!" You tackled him and hugged him tightly. He just laughed and patted your back.

After a while, you let go of him and looked at him with a grin. "What?" He asked suspiciously. "That face tells me that you're up to something."

You started laughing. "I just feel like we talked enough about me," you said, smirking. "Now tell me… How're things with Mina?" You wiggled your eyebrows as best as you could. Making your best friend snort.

"You look so dumb," he laughed, trying to avoid the topic.

You started pouting. "Come ooooooon! Spill the beans."

"Stop begging, geez…" He said with an adorable blush on his face. "Nothing has happened yet. I'm starting to believe she's not into me."

You shook your head so hard that it almost fell off your shoulders. "Hell no! She's totally crazy about you. You just gotta make the first move."

He sighed dramatically and let himself fall on his back, staring at the ceiling. "Well, we were talking about going on a camping trip as long as the weather is still nice. Maybe I can try my luck then."

You popped your head above him, looking down at him. "Grow some balls, Eiji."

"Take that back!" He said. "I'm super manly okay?!" He started tickling you, and soon enough, you were both out of breath. You were just about to say something when your phone vibrated. It was a text message from Yami.

"Are you still with him?" You read it out loud and sighed.

Eiji sat back up and gave you a weak smile. "Seems like your boyfriend isn't too happy about us hanging out."

"I think he's just had a bad day. Nevermind him," you reassured your friend.

But the red-haired boy got up from your bed. "No, it's fine (y/n)," he said. "I need to go somewhere anyway. You should give him a call and see how he's doing."

You gave him an apologetic smile. "Thanks, Eiji."

"Don't mention it." And with that, he was out of the door.

You quickly dialled your boyfriend's number, and Eiji almost sprinted to someone else's dorm room.

Chapter Text

”Hi Yami.” You chirped into the speaker of your phone when your boyfriend picked up.

But you were met with silence. ”Yami?” You asked him. ”Are you there?

You could hear him sigh. ”Yes I’m here, (y/n). Are you?”

”What do you mean? Of course, I’m here, I’m talking to you” You had no idea what he was talking about.

”Well it sure as hell didn’t sound like you were there for me when I tried talking to you earlier” He sounded irritated, a tone you had never really heard from him before.

You were utterly confused. ”W-what? We did talk earlier. You hung up on me, remember?”

”Oh don’t give me that. I hung up because you were with another guy and it upset me” His voice was a lot deeper than usual. What was wrong with him?

You took a deep breath. “Yami,” You said. “Are you jealous?”

”Do I have reason to be jealous?” He asked back.

You let out a sigh. “God no, Yami. Why do you even ask such a question?!”

”Excuse me for being concerned about my girlfriend spending time alone with another guy”

You didn’t know whether you should be annoyed or not. You would never betray him like that and you didn’t like the implication in his statement. But at the same time, you thought it was quite adorable that he cared about you so much. ”It’s not like that at all, Yami. I swear on my life. We were just hanging out in my room, tal-”

He suddenly interrupted you. ”You were hanging out in your room? Alone?”

”Well, yeah…” You swallowed hard when you realised that you had upset him even more.

”And how am I supposed to feel about that, huh?” He sounded genuinely hurt.

You bit your lip. What were you supposed to say? ”I… I’m sorry, Yami. I didn’t mean to upset you” Words couldn’t describe how bad you felt about what you had done.

He sighed deeply. ”It’s fine. As long as you promise not to do this again”

Quite frankly, you were shocked by this request. No, it wasn’t a request, it was more of a demand. But you couldn’t really refuse him either way, not after upsetting him so much. You cared deeply about Yami, but Eiji was like your brother, that was a hefty price to pay. ”Yami, I know you’re upset, but Eiji and I have known each other since we were little kids. He’s like my brother. Please don-” But he interrupted you again.

”You’re my girlfriend, (y/n). And while I trust you, I don’t trust any of these wannabe hero guys. Who knows what his true intentions are” He sounded so serious and you didn’t know how to handle the situation or what to say. So instead, you stayed silent. ”I take your silence as a no then. Fine, if this is a one-sided relationship then I don’t know if this will work”

”Yami, no wait,” You quickly said, tears on the verge of spilling from your eyes. You couldn’t lose him, not like this, not ever.

He clicked his tongue. ”I think I waited long enough, (y/n). Do you know how much I sacrifice for you? I skip after school activities to be with you and I’m falling behind in class because I spend my evenings talking to you instead of studying. I even stopped talking to all my female friends so they don’t get the wrong idea. Hell, I’m carrying a picture of you around so that everyone knows I belong to you,” He paused, making you feel worse than you had ever felt before. You didn’t know what to say. You had no idea that he gave up so much for you. ”I’m doing all of this because I’m in love with you and I get nothing in return. You’re always either training or hanging out with people that don’t even deserve your time. Not a single one of them was there for you when you were in the hospital and now that you are back, they suddenly care about you again?”

He did have a point, but your friends had said that they hadn’t been allowed to see you, so it seemed like they had tried at least. ”I thought you liked them after meeting them all”

He scoffed. ”Initially, yes. But don’t you see that they’re trying to keep me away from you? I don’t know what they’re trying to do, but we barely get to see each other. They’re not letting you be yourself and I just want you to realise that”

He was right. Now that you were thinking about it, your friends did always react weirdly when you told them you were hanging out with Yami. Even though they said they liked him after he had come over for dinner that one time. It didn’t make sense. He was also right about the fact that they didn’t let you be you. They constantly compared you to who you were before your memory loss and desperately tried to bring those memories back. It was annoying.

“You’re right, Yami,” You said. “Thanks for opening my eyes. I promise I won’t hang out with Eiji anymore and I’ll make more time for you. I want you to know that I’m taking this relationship seriously, okay?”

He sighed deeply. ”Thanks, (y/n). I’m just trying to look out for you because I care about you so much. I don’t want people to take advantage of you just because you’re such a nice person”

You smiled softly. ”I appreciate that, Yami. I’m sorry for upsetting you”

”Don’t be sorry, it’s okay now. I just wanted to be open about my feelings” He sounded way calmer already and you were glad that you were able to get through this tense situation.

You stayed quiet for a moment, contemplating what to say. But Yami was first to break the silence. ”Any idea what you would like to do on the weekend? I’ll treat you to anything you want” His cheerful voice made your heart beat faster and before you knew it, you were chatting as though what you had spoken about earlier had never happened.

On the opposite side of the dorms, the mood wasn’t as lighthearted. Katsuki was laying in his room, staring at the ceiling. It felt like that was the only thing he ever did lately. Lying on his bed, staring into nothingness, because that’s all that he had left.

He tried to picture you next to him, tried to picture you holding his hand, but it didn’t feel the same. It was just in his head and you had slipped away. Your voice and love made even the darkest moments shine bright like the sun, but your light was gone and all that was left was darkness. The silence surrounding him felt so damn cold and he could feel himself come undone.

He felt so alone. You were already so far gone and he knew that he would never be able to catch up to you. You were all he ever wanted, all he ever had, but now he was on his own and you were really gone. Every day was the same and he felt like he was trapped in a never-ending night. Everything was so dark and cold and it was as though the only way for him to get warmth and light was to burn down everything that was in his way and hope that after all was said and done, the only thing that was left was you and your love for him.

He scoffed. He really needed to get a grip. He decided to go to the training grounds to let off some steam. Maybe that would help clear his head. He quickly got dressed in his workout clothes and was ready to leave his room in no time. But the moment he opened the door, he saw someone standing on the other side of it. “Shitty hair? What are you doing here?” Katsuki asked his friend.

Eijiro gave him a big smile. “Hey buddy, I was wondering if I could talk to you for a minute”

Katsuki raised his eyebrows. “I was on my way to do some training so I don’t have time” He tried to push himself past his friend, he really didn’t feel up for any sort of conversation right now.

But the red-haired boy didn’t let him off that easily. “It’s important, Katsuki”

The latter stopped in his tracks, Eijiro never called him by his name, always giving him nicknames. Maybe he should listen to him after all. “Fine” Katsuki grunted, letting the other boy into his room.

He motioned Eijiro to sit on his bed and he sat down on the chair by his desk. “So?” He asked his friend.

Eijiro suddenly didn’t know what to say. How was he supposed to approach this? Especially considering he was talking to the most emotionally constipated person he knew. “Dude,” He began. “I think you’ve been doing really bad lately and I want to help you”

Katsuki clicked his tongue. “Tch. That’s what you wanted to fucking talk about? I’m fine, how many times do I need to repeat that?”

“Until it’s true. Because right now, it isn’t. I can see that you’re not okay and…” He stopped himself, preparing for the impact. He knew that the moment he would say it out loud, Katsuki would most likely explode on him.

“And what?” Katsuki asked irritated.

Eiji swallowed hard. “And I think I know the reason for why you’re doing so bad”

Katsuki’s eyes widened. “W-what are you talking about, Shitty Hair?”

“I think that you’re in love with (y/n) and I think that she used to be in love with you too. I think that the two of you were dating and now she has forgotten all about it” The moment Eijiro said it out loud, he closed his eyes, half expecting a massive explosion to go off in front of him.

“What the fuck makes you say such a stupid thing?” Katsuki asked, suspiciously calm.

Eiji took a deep breath, glad that he was still alive. “You’ve changed so much since her accident, you’ve become more and more quiet since she’s been back… I dunno man, you’re just like an empty shell…”

Katsuki rolled his eyes. “Fucking hell. Am I not allowed to be tired? There doesn’t have to be a reason behind every fucking thing”

“It’s not just that, bro. You visited her in the hospital. Why would you do that?” He knew cornering his friend like that was dangerous, but he had to know the truth. Maybe he could help fix this.

“Fuck, I already told everyone that my grandma was in the hospital. How does that prove anything?” Katsuki didn’t know what else to say. What good would it do to confide into Eijiro? He was your best friend too and if he would tell you by accident… Katsuki could only imagine the mess that would cause.

“Your grandma lives in a different city, dude. You might think I’m stupid, but I’m not that dumb”

Katsuki stayed silent. What was he supposed to say to that? His friend wasn’t wrong after all. “Besides,” Eijiro said. “Why else would you know her favourite mochi flavour? You don’t care about other people, why would you know something so random about her?”

The blonde clicked his tongue. “Jesus fuck, shitty hair, way to look into things way too much. She told me a while ago and I happened to remember it. No big deal… geez”

Eijiro shook his head. “Dude I can’t help you if you’re not being honest with me”

“I never said I wanted your help with anything”

The red-haired boy didn’t see any other option, he had to play his trump card. “You wrote her a note,” He said, making the other boy look at him. “I read it. It’s your handwriting”

Judging by Katsuki’s face, Eijiro knew that he had cracked him. Surely this must be where the blonde would finally admit to his feelings. But Eiji was wrong. “The fuck you’re talking about?”

“Oh my god Katsuki, will you drop it already? Why can’t you admit it? I know it’s your handwriting and I also saw a picture of your hand holding hers. Stop playing dumb already” Kirishima had reached the limit of his patience. Why was Katsuki so stubborn?

“Just to make it clear, you’re wrong. But let’s say for the sake of the argument, you were right. What good would that knowledge do? She’s got a boyfriend. So no matter what you think might have been between us, there is clearly nothing left of it” Katsuki tried hard not to break down. He couldn’t break down now. It wasn’t that he didn’t trust his friend, he just didn’t know what he was planning to do and he didn’t like not being in control.

Eijiro was at a loss of words. What was he supposed to reply to that? Why did Katsuki not want to admit to it? It didn’t make any sense. He was silent for a few minutes, trying to collect his thoughts and find a good argument. But Katsuki was quicker.

“I need to go work out now,” Katsuki said, getting up from his chair. “Close the damn door when you leave”

And with that, he left his best friend behind, both of them were extremely emotional. Eijiro just wanted to help his friends. If they had been together, then they should be together again. It wasn’t fair that life had ripped them apart. And this weird boyfriend of yours had to disappear too. This was no longer a case of looking out for you, he had to look out for both of you and fix a situation that shouldn’t have happened in the first place.

Katsuki, on the other hand, was on the verge of a breakdown. He thought he had removed all traces of your relationship before you had come back into the dorms. How could he have forgotten about that damn note? He could’ve sworn that he had looked everywhere. Small explosions were already emitting from his palms. He was so angry with himself.

He had tried to hide evidence because he didn’t want to upset you. He knew you so well and he also knew that you would feel terribly guilty if you found out that you two had dated and you just completely forgot about it. He didn’t want your pity and he was afraid to be treated differently by you. He’d rather have you treat him like an ordinary classmate than a guy you pitied.

He was contemplating going back into your room when you were out and looking for the note, taking it away so you would think that it had merely been a dream. But he knew he couldn’t do that, it would only make you suspicious. Besides, he had left the spare key you had given him in your room where it belonged. He had no right to carry it with him anymore.

At least he was still holding onto the ring he had once given to you. It was a symbol of his love for you, a promise almost. But the moment he had watched you and blue eyes through the hospital windows, he had returned to your room, rummaging through your belongings. He had taken the ring back before you had the chance to see it and question where it had come from and what the meaning behind it was.

When he arrived at the training grounds, he was already way too exhausted to train. His mental distress was getting to his physical health and it pissed him off. He didn’t know what he could do about it though. He slid down on the ground and sat with his back against the wall. He was looking down, his head hanging low and his arms resting on his knees. It almost looked as though he was trying to fold himself in half, legs pulled towards his torso, trying to make himself look as small as he felt.

It was here where he had realised that he was in love with you. For him, it definitely hadn't been love at first sight. His feelings had developed over time, especially after you had started training with each other after school. One day after training it suddenly came to him. Looking at you was different than before. He had a song in his head when he looked into your eyes and when you spoke to him, the lyrics suddenly came clear and it was the most beautiful melody he had ever heard.

It was you who had convinced him to finally talk about his feelings, even if it was just with you. Before that, it had been years since he had sat down and actually listened, to himself or anyone else. He had just pushed forward without thinking, blindly striving for something that he didn’t have a clear picture of. He didn’t know when his burning passion had developed into something different, something that wasn’t him. And he didn’t know what had caused the change in him either.

But you did. You knew what had changed him and you had helped him work through his issues.

Before he let you into his life, he didn’t think he could get better. How was he supposed to find a cure for something that he didn’t know the cause of? But you knew his issues lay in his past, that he felt weak and as though it was him who caused All Might to retire. He felt inferior to everyone who was catching up to him, even if he was still stronger than them. He had this complex that made him constantly doubt himself. But he kept it all bottled up inside of him.

He remembered how you told him that it was all in his head, that nobody saw him the way he saw himself. You said that he had to forgive himself before he could move on. You made him realise that he wasn’t without a purpose. He had thought that he was already too far gone, beyond repair, but you had proved him wrong. You had pulled him out of the hole he had dug for himself. You taught him how to move forward and learn to let go. And you taught him how to love.

He felt at home with you from the moment you had first kissed. It was this look in your eyes that said you would always be there for him. This look that made him realise that he was no longer alone in this. He knew pretty quickly that he wouldn’t be able to take it if you were to ever leave him.

But you did exactly that and he wasn’t okay. No matter how much he pretended that he was, he wasn’t. It hurt him every second of every hour. Every waking moment and even in his dreams. He wasn’t okay.

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With a big smile, you entered the dorm building. It had been one month since you returned to UA and everything was going well. Your memories were still missing and school wasn’t going all that great, but at least you had Yami, which made everything else seem unimportant.

You had spent the first four months of your third year in the hospital, which meant that now there were only six months left until you would graduate. Even though at this rate you felt like you wouldn’t be able to catch up. If you were honest, you weren’t bothered by it all that much at the moment.

You felt that the school was pushing you way too much. Your teachers were expecting you to train every day, almost relentlessly so. None of your classmates had to go through this tough regimen. Yami had said that it was almost as though they were punishing you for having had the accident and you couldn’t help but agree. Why couldn’t they treat you like the other students?

But then again, the other students were annoying you too. They were your friends, yes, but they were constantly treating you like a raw egg. They were probably afraid that something would happen to you again and you hated being babied like that. On top of that, they were still trying way too hard to bring back your memories. You didn’t understand why. It wasn’t like they couldn’t remember, so why were they trying so hard?

There were days when you wanted to remember, but most days you were content with the situation. You only missed the memories of one year, it wasn’t that big of a deal in the grand scheme of things. You were filled in on all the key events that had taken place and you felt that that was enough information for now. If you’d remember one day, great. If not, that was fine too. You had Yami now and you were making plenty of new memories.

You just wished your friends would get off your back. But they were nagging you about everything. Even about the fact that you were seeing Yami. For some reason, they had something against him and it pissed you off. They didn’t even properly know him.

“There she is,” Mina said, pointing at you. She motioned you to come over into the common room where most of the girls in your class had gathered.

“I don’t have much time” You explained. “I was going to call Yami soon”

Mina raised her eyebrows. “Didn’t you just see him?”

“So what?” You shrugged your shoulders.

You could see your friends sharing a concerned look and it annoyed you to no end. “What. You got a problem with that?”

Mina raised her hands defensively. “No, we just think that maybe you spend a little too much time with this guy. You know… seeing as we’re about to graduate soon”

You huffed in response. Who was she to tell you what to do? “We’re not trying to be rude here, (y/n)” Momo said. “We’re just worried that you might have gotten your priorities mixed up”

You looked at her, not sure what to say. “My priorities mixed up? Since when do you decide what my priorities should be?”

“It’s understandable that you’re a bit confused, you have gone through a lot after all, but you’re skipping class and seem to not even care about hero training anymore. You used to have so many ambitions” Ochako looked genuinely concerned.

“Confused?” You said irritated. “I’m not confused. If anything, I’m probably the only one here who’s thinking straight. You’re all just little UA minions”

Your angry glare was met by shocked faces. Nobody said a word. These people were ridiculous, how could they call themselves your friends? They were clearly just trying to push their beliefs onto you. You turned around, ready to run to your room.

“Please just be careful,” Mina said before you left. “This guy you’re seeing seems to have a bad influence on you”

You scoffed. “Jealousy is an ugly trait, Mina” And with that, you left, quickly walking up into your room.

You regretted your words the moment you closed the door behind you. Fuck. You didn’t want to argue with your friends, but you felt like they cornered you. What else were you supposed to do? You sat on your bed, head hanging low.

When your phone rang you immediately picked up, unable to contain your sobs any longer. ”(y/n)? Are you okay?” Yami asked from the other end of the line.

You stayed silent for a moment, trying to regain your composure. ”N-no”

”What happened? Who do I have to beat up?” He asked, trying to make you laugh.

He succeeded, making you chuckle a little.”It’s just my friends… They’re still trying to keep me away from you. I thought they were alright after meeting you, but I must have been wrong”

He growled a little. ”I’m sorry, (y/n), but in all honesty? Fuck them. Fuck all of them. I haven’t done anything wrong and yet they are conspiring against me. Against us

You swallowed hard. He was right. They didn’t have the right to make you feel bad about your decisions. Neither of them was perfect. Besides, these were your choices, your life, it was none of their business. ”Y-you’re right. Fuck them”

He sighed. ”I just wish I could get you out of there. You deserve better.”

”Maybe you can.” You said, immediately turning silent afterwards.

You could hear the surprise in his voice. ”What do you mean?”

”Well, maybe I can stay at your place for the night?” You asked. ”Only if that’s not too much to ask”

He stayed quiet for a moment and you took it the wrong way. ”Sorry” You whispered.

”Don’t be silly, you don’t need to apologise, it’s just that… My parents would never allow me to have a girl over, especially not overnight” He explained.

You sighed. ”They don’t need to know, I’m sure I can sneak in and out somehow”

He fell silent again. ”Hang on a moment” You could hear him talk to someone, it was quiet, merely whispers and you couldn’t make out a single word. ”I’m with… a friend at the moment and he said we can both crash at his place.”

You swallowed hard. Were you really about to do this? Break the school rules and disappear for a whole night to stay at the house of someone you had never met? Who was this friend anyway? ”Won’t the parents of your friend mind us being there?”

”He lives on his own. He’s a few years older than us.” Everything he said raised more questions than answers, but you decided to trust your boyfriend. ”I’ll pick you up in twenty minutes”

You swallowed hard. ”Okay see you in a bit” And with that, you hung up.

You didn’t know what you were doing. You were so angry with your friends, but was that really reason enough to run away? To say you were conflicted was an understatement. You knew you would be getting in trouble if anyone was to find out about this, but did you really care about the consequences? What were they gonna do? Kick you out? You most likely wouldn’t be able to graduate anyway, so what was the point?

A new surge of anger flowed through your body and you hastily grabbed a few things you might need, throwing them into a bag. Fuck this place and fuck these people. You had gone through so much and they didn’t seem to show any empathy. All they did was push you and try to dictate what you should or shouldn’t do. It only took one month to realise that this environment was no longer a place of happiness, instead, it was like being surrounded by strict parents that were never satisfied, no matter what you did or didn’t do.

You quietly opened your door, not wanting anyone to hear you. It wasn’t as though you cared whether you’d get caught or not, you just couldn’t be bothered to talk to anyone right now. You managed to sneak out without any problems, but the moment you opened the door you were standing face to face with one of your classmates.

You didn’t expect anyone to come home so late which is why you didn’t pay attention when you opened the big door. The moment you bumped into Bakugou you half expected him to shout at you for being clumsy. But he didn’t. Instead, he was looking at you intently, his face mere inches away from yours.

“Where are you going?” He asked you. Was that concern in his voice?

You shrugged your shoulders. “Why do you care?”

He rolled his eyes. “Well I don’t,” He lied. “Just asking is all”

“Okay well, then where are you coming from so late?” You asked back, knowing he most likely would tell you to fuck off.

“Training,” He said. “Couldn’t sleep”

You nodded. Somehow, looking at him upset you, he looked so sad. It wasn’t like he was your friend, on the contrary, he had majorly pissed you off when he was so aggravated towards Yami. But at the same time, he was the only one of your classmates that wasn’t constantly on your back, telling you what to do. You knew that it was because he didn’t care about you, but for some reason, you liked that better than being treated like a baby by everyone else.

“Are you okay?” You asked him.

No. He wasn’t. He looked at you. “Tch. Of course, I am. I always am”

You simply nodded. “That’s good then”

“Yeah” Was his simple reply.

He wanted to kick himself. Why was he like this? Why was he choking up? He had talked to you so many times. Had kissed those lips and embraced this body of yours. So why was he unable to have a proper conversation with you right now?

You nervously tapped your feet. “I best get going” And with that, you walked off.

“You’re still not telling me where you’re going?” He asked from behind you.

You turned around, giving him a small smile. “I’m not going to make you my accomplice. The less you know the better”

His heart sank. He already knew you were going to see this blue-eyed creep. “I don’t think that’s a good idea. Stay here,” He said, making you look at him in surprise. “Please”

His request caused a flurry of emotions inside of you. You didn’t think he would care about whatever it was that you were up to, but apparently he did. You had thought that out of all the people, he would be the one to not tell you what to do, but apparently, you had been wrong.

You didn’t want to show your annoyance, he already seemed sad enough, but you couldn’t help yourself. “Who are you to tell me what to do, huh?”

Ouch. He wasn’t used to you being like this, especially not towards him. He was just looking out for you, that was his purpose after all. But no matter how much it hurt, it also angered him. Why were you so stubborn? What had gotten into you? You used to be so responsible, this wasn’t you. “I don’t know what’s up with you, but you need to snap out of it. You’re not acting like yourself and I thi-”

You interrupted. “I don’t care what you think or have to say, Bakugou. You don’t know shit about me. I’m not acting like myself? How would you know?”

You looked at him, glaring eyes staring him down. It made him feel uncomfortable, what was he supposed to say? I know you because we used to be closer than I have ever been with anyone else before, you idiot. Instead of saying out loud what he was thinking, he stayed silent.

“I thought as much.” You said. And with that, you walked off. Yami was already waiting for you. He didn’t seem to be too happy, he had most likely seen you talk to Bakugou. But when you approached him, instead of saying anything, he pulled you in for a deep kiss. It took you by surprise, to say the least. “Let’s go,” He said when your lips parted.

You didn’t realise that Katsuki had still been standing outside, that he had seen the passionate kiss you had received. You didn’t realise how much it hurt him and how desperate he was. He had never hated himself as much as he did at that moment. Why the fuck did he let you go?

He wasn’t stupid, he knew you so well and he knew that the reason you were doing all of this was because you had no sense of direction anymore. The accident had thrown you off and you felt lost and like you had nowhere to turn to. He knew that the way everyone else was treating you was pushing you even further away, so he had wanted to try and be different, be someone that wasn’t telling you how to live your life.

But he certainly hadn’t expected this situation to occur. Everything inside of him told him to go after you, carry you back if necessary, but he couldn’t do that. It would make you even angrier with him than you already were, that would definitely ruin any chance with you.

But who was he kidding? He didn’t have a chance with you anyway. You were happily taken. Taken by a guy that wasn’t him. Maybe his idea of winning you back wasn’t that smart after all. How could he be so goddamn stupid to let you go. Let you wander off into the night. Fuck.

He could barely see through the tears in his eyes and the fact that the building was completely dark didn’t help. At least that meant nobody would see him cry on his way back to the dorm rooms. He was barely able to hold himself up. Pathetic.

You, on the other hand, felt stronger than ever before. You felt rebellious, as though you finally did what you wanted, not caring about the consequences. You held Yami’s hand in yours, skipping on the dark pavement. The night was only illuminated by the moon and the flickering street lamps.

Yami had your bag thrown over his shoulder, holding it in place with one arm. He looked down at you. “I’m glad you seem to be doing better already,” He said with a smile.

“Of course I am. I’m with you and I’m out of that negative place” You explained, making him blush. “By the way, you’re cute when you’re blushing”

He started laughing. “Shut up”

You giggled, looking at his handsome face. His grey hair almost looked sparkly silver in the dim light and even though it was fairly dark, his eyes were still shining a bright blue.

“You really are a work of art” You suddenly said.

He burst out in laughter. “Gee, (y/n), you’re pretty forward tonight”

“I just wanted you to know,” You said, shrugging your shoulders.

He looked at you with a smile but didn’t say anything. “We’re here”

You looked away from him and scanned your dark surroundings. You hadn’t even noticed how the street lamps had become more sporadic and how run-down this neighbourhood looked. You swallowed hard. “Are you sure?” You asked.

He chuckled. “Pretty sure. I’ve been here before I picked you up after all”

“I’m not sure about this, Yami,” You said, suddenly realising the gravity of your decision.

He patted your head. “Don’t worry, I’ll protect you,” He said. “Besides, it looks nicer inside than out here”

You hesitated but eventually nodded. What other option did you have? You didn’t really want to go back to the dorms either. Anywhere was better than there. So you walked up the stairs to the apartment, feeling more than anxious. The moment you stepped inside, you realised that you were alone. “Where’s your friend?”

“Oh, he had to leave” Yami explained. “Work called, so he’ll be gone all night”

You nodded. At least that was some good news. You didn’t really feel up for small talk with a stranger, even if he was Yami’s friend. You looked around the apartment, Yami was watching your every move. Everything was pretty run-down and dirty, there were clothes and empty beer bottles all over the place. You felt the urge to clean, but you didn’t want to come off as picky. You were glad they offered you a place to stay after all.

“Come here,” Yami said. “We can stay in this room” He motioned you to come with him and you followed right behind him. You entered a room that was a little less messy, but still, very run-down.

You saw Yami’s backpack in a corner and a few files and papers on the small desk. Other than that, the room could have belonged to anyone. The only other furniture in the room was a small single bed and a wardrobe that had doors which didn’t seem to properly close. He put your bag on the bed and scratched his head. “It’s not much, but I hope it’s alright for the night”

“It’s great, thank you,” You said, giving him a big smile. He returned the smile and for a moment it was silent. “Do you come here often?” You suddenly asked.

He looked at you, confliction in his eyes. “You could say that, I guess”

“And your parents are okay with that?” You couldn’t believe that they wouldn’t allow girls in the house but were fine with their son staying at a place like this.

He shrugged his shoulders. “I’m just telling them I’m staying at a friend’s place and they’re fine with it...”

“As long as it’s not a girl” You concluded.

He chuckled lightly. “Pretty much” He took your hand and lead you to the small bed. It creaked when you sat down and the noise made you jump a little. Yami was seemingly amused by that. “Don’t worry, (y/n), I got you. Nothing can happen to you”

You simply nodded. You didn’t even know why you felt so uneasy. Yami was right, he was there to protect you. He sat with his back against the wall and you leaned against him. Soon enough he had his arm around your shoulder and your whole body felt like it was on fire. You realised that you had never been alone in a closed-off room together and it suddenly felt so much more intimate than all the times you had spent together before.

You understood now why he was upset about you being alone in a room with another guy, he probably pictured a similar situation. That would make you jealous too. But you had never felt like this with any other guy before. It was blissful and calm, yet there was this tension in the air.

You didn’t know what it was, but the fire inside of you was growing by the minute and your body was almost moving on its own. What was this feeling? You tried to ignore it and instead make conversation with your boyfriend. “So what kind of job does your friend have?” You asked. “If they call him out in the middle of the night he must be very important”

Yami was quiet for a minute, seemingly lost in thought. Just when you were about to check whether he had fallen asleep, he spoke up. “He works at this bar and his boss is a real jerk. He always calls him at stupid hours with ridiculous jobs and requests. But he needs that job, so he can’t refuse”

“Oh, I see,” You said. “Sounds really stressful”

Yami nodded. “I guess you could say that”

The silence between you returned and so did the warm and fuzzy feeling in your belly. You had no idea what it meant. All you knew was that it grew hotter every time you came closer to Yami. You turned around slightly, moving away from leaning against his shoulder and instead sat up straight. You looked at him, getting lost in his eyes as they were staring right back at you.

And that’s when you realised that this feeling inside of you was desire. You wanted to be close to Yami. Wanted to touch him and have him touch you. You weren’t planning on going all the way, that was still way too early, but you did want to kiss him and get lost in your feelings for him.

He looked as though he was in a trance. “What are you thinking about?” You asked him.

He started blushing. “I’m thinking about how badly I want to kiss you” He admitted.

Your heart was beating way too fast, you almost expected it to explode. At least that would mean that Yami’s handsome face would be the last thing you’d see. “Then do it”

And with that he moved closer, cupping your face with his large hands, making you melt between his fingers. His lips were so soft and perfectly matched with yours. So far you had shared nothing but innocent, yet passionate kisses. You realised quite quickly that this was about to change.

You had never made out with another person before and you couldn’t even begin to describe the sensation. The fire inside of you grew further, desire almost overpowering every other emotion in your body. Before you knew what you were doing, you were sitting on Yamis’ lap, your arms wrapped around his neck, whereas his arms were softly placed just above your bum.

You wanted more. You needed more. There was this hunger in the very core of your being and only Yami could satisfy the craving. You started moving a little while still sitting on top of him, causing friction between you two. Yami let out a surprised and raspy moan. It was the most enticing sound you had ever heard.

You didn’t know what was happening to you, but you needed more. Your feelings were all over the place. Only minutes ago you told yourself that you wouldn’t go all the way, but that resolve was gone. You wanted to explore all of him and have him explore all of you.

Your lips parted from his and he gave you a little pout. You giggled and moved your hands towards your blouse, starting to unbutton it slowly. You watched his reaction, his eyes had darkened significantly and he looked just as needy as you felt. You continued unbuttoning your shirt while he started kissing the newly exposed skin on your neck.

You let out a shaky breath and could feel him smirk against your body. You pressed into him, feeling him grow between your legs. The moment you noticed it, you looked at him in shock. Was this actually happening? He looked back at you. But what you saw before you shocked you even more than what you could feel pressing against your thigh.

For a split second, it wasn’t Yami’s face that you saw in front of you, instead, it was that of a different boy. Bakugou Katsuki.

You swallowed hard, trying to ignore what had just happened. Yami looked at you, a silent question to ask if you were okay. You nodded, continuing to undress. You could feel him looking at you so you looked up, meeting his gaze.

Bakugou.

You closed your eyes. Taking a deep breath. You dared to take another look.

Bakugou.

What was going on? Why were you seeing his face instead of your boyfriend’s? You felt so bad, almost as though you were cheating. But the weird thing was that you didn’t feel like you were cheating on Yami. You felt like you were betraying Bakugou and you had no idea why.

It was this sinking feeling, dreadful almost. A feeling that you couldn’t put into words. The hunger you had felt only minutes ago was gone and instead, you felt sick. Yami realised that something was wrong and placed one of his hands on your face. “We don’t have to do this if you’re not feeling comfortable,” He said in a soft tone.

You shook your head. “It’s not that,” You assured him. “I’m just feeling a bit dizzy”

He looked almost guilty. “Maybe I went a little overboard” He mumbled.

“What was that?” You asked.

He shook his head. “N-nothing,” He picked you up from his lap, gently placing you next to him. “Let me grab you some water. I’ll be back in a minute”

You watched him hurry out of the small room and it left you even more confused than you had been before. You tried to calm yourself down, tried to make sense of what had just happened. Somehow you felt uneasy, you didn’t know whether it was because of these unfamiliar surroundings or because of the fact that you couldn’t stop thinking about your blonde classmate.

Your eyes wandered around the almost empty room and your gaze got stuck on the stack of papers on the old desk. You didn’t want to snoop in your boyfriend’s possessions, but you were curious. It was probably nothing more than school stuff, nothing you weren’t allowed to see.

So you quietly got up and walked over to the desk. You lifted some of the papers and were somewhat relieved when all you found was his maths homework and an essay on what he wanted to do after school. You smiled a little, you knew he wanted to become a doctor, although it was a difficult profession to get into without having a medical-based quirk. But he was working hard and you knew he would make it.

You opened the small folder that contained the essay, but you found the first page to be completely empty. You flicked to the next page. There was a single word written in blue ink: destroy. You swallowed hard and looked at the next page: all. You were sweating and had no idea what to expect on the next page.

But before you could take a look, you could hear Yami come back. You panicked and tried to put everything in the same place as it had been before. By doing so, however, you knocked the stack of papers over, revealing something that you probably weren’t supposed to see.

You swallowed hard and tried to ignore the loud beating of your heart. It was beating so loud that it almost felt as though it was knocking on your chest, pleading for you to open your ribcage and let it jump out so it could run to a place where it could feel safe. You had the urge to run as well, but there was nowhere for you to go. All you could do was listen to the knocking in your chest, waiting for the door to open.

You weren’t the only one who was still wide awake. Katsuki was exhausted and desperate. He wanted to be alone, run away to better days. And yet here he was, knocking on a door that wasn’t his, asking for entry to a place that he didn’t want to be in.

You were far apart from each other, caught up in entirely different circumstances, and yet, when the doors in front of you opened, you were both equally scared and insecure.

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When the door opened in front of you, you were equally confused and afraid. Yami looked from you to the scattered papers on the desk and back. He looked angry, scary almost and you wouldn't have blamed him, you went through his stuff after all. But the fact that you found a folder full of information about you made you feel as though it had been your right to see it.

"I didn't mean to go through your stuff," You said, hoping that would lead to a calm discussion about what the hell it was that he kept in this folder.

He scoffed. "And yet here you are, having done exactly that."

"I'm sorry but," You started, picking up the file. "What the hell is this?"

He just looked at you. He wasn't saying a single word. And if it wasn't for the loud beating of your heart, you could have probably heard the gears working in his brain. It felt like ages for him to reply, and it was suspicious. Was he trying to come up with a lie?

But then he started to look conflicted and sighed deeply. "Fine," He said, motioning you to sit on the bed. "I'll explain it to you."

You shook your head. "I'm not doing anything until I know what's going on."

"Alright then," He scratched his head. "You know I want to become a doctor, right?"

You nodded. Of course, you knew that. It seemed to be one of the only things you knew about Yami.

"Well, after meeting you and hearing about your case of amnesia, I got curious. I knew about cases where people only forgot selective things, but your memory loss is so specific. I feel like it must mean something" He explained.

You couldn't help but let out a deep breath. So he wasn't up to anything shady after all.

"I'm sorry, I should have told you, but I've been trying very hard to figure out what's wrong with you and maybe I can find a solution on how to bring back those memories," He said. "I'm sorry I haven't made much progress yet."

You shook your head. "Don't apologise, Yami," You said softly. "I really appreciate that you're doing this for me" You opened the file and flicked through the pages. There was a lot of trivial information and pictures from your time at UA from before you lost your memories. "I was just a bit freaked out when I saw this… extensive research"

He smiled lightly. "As you should. I think everyone would be," He admitted. "I really didn't mean any harm. The reason I didn't want to tell you about this was that I know how much you hate that your classmates are trying to jog your memory and I didn't want you to feel like I'm pushing you too."

Your gaze softened further, and you walked towards him, dropping the folder back onto the desk. You gave him a long hug. "I'd never think that of you" You reassured him.

For a while, you were just standing there, enjoying a warm hug. When you moved over to sit on the bed, you could tell that there was more on his mind. "What's the matter?" You asked him.

He sighed. "I guess that now that this is out in the open, I might as well tell you everything."

You swallowed hard. You had no idea what Yami was talking about.

He was quiet for a moment, seemingly lost in thought, and you were giving him the space he needed. He could continue once he was ready. "The reason I couldn't take you home to my parent's place is that they kicked me out" He suddenly said. You looked at him in shock. "They wanted me to break up with you, said that a girlfriend was just getting in the way of my studies" He sounded bitter and upset. "They said a quirkless boy like me needed to work twice as hard and that I don't have time for girls."

You couldn't help but feel incredibly guilty. "I… I'm so sorry, Yami. I had no idea."

"It's not your fault," He said, his head hanging low. "I guess they're right. I have fallen behind in school and spend my time either with you or researching your amnesia."

"It's all my fault" You couldn't stop the tears from forming in your eyes.

His head shot up, and he looked at you intensely. "Please don't ever say that! It was my decision to be with you, my decision to want to try and help you. You are not at fault here, okay?"

You nodded, but you still weren't convinced. You couldn't stop blaming yourself. "S-so… You're living here?" You asked.

"Yeah," He said with sadness in his voice. "My friend is really nice about it. Doesn't even make me pay rent."

You nodded. "That is nice of him" You agreed. You looked around the room again and felt so incredibly entitled. You had a perfectly fine place in the dorms and decided to stay here, while Yami didn't have anywhere else to go. You knew that he didn't blame you, but you couldn't help but feel that it was your fault.

"You see," He began. "The reason I'm constantly so worried about you and about losing you is that you are literally all that I have left. If I were to lose you… I don't think I could deal with that."

Your heart was beating faster. He was such a sweet guy. You realised now that the times you had perceived him as pushy or too demanding, he honestly had just tried to look out for you, wanted to keep you by his side because he cared for you. You had done him an injustice, and you felt terrible because of it.

You looked into his eyes, and he almost looked like a lost puppy. Your emotions were still all over the place, there was still a lingering sense of uneasiness and also the fact that you had had these odd thoughts of Bakugou. But for now, you decided to push this all to the side. For now, you would try to give Yami the comfort that nobody else was willing to give to him.

You could only begin to imagine just how alone he must have felt, keeping all of this to himself. But now you knew, and you would be there for him. You leaned back against the wall, motioned him to place his head on your lap, and you started absentmindedly stroking his hair. It was peaceful and quiet, and you were content. At least for the moment.

 


 

On the other side of the city when the door in front of Katsuki opened, he lost it. All the composure he used to have, it was all gone. He was a mess, pathetic at best. But he didn't care anymore. Nothing really mattered anymore. He had fucked up, and he had to tell someone. He needed someone to punch him for what he had done.

He looked into the sleepy eyes of his best friend. Fucking great, he had woken him up. But the moment Eijiro realised who was standing outside of his room, he was wide awake. And when he saw the neverending stream of tears on his friend's face, all alarm bells went off. Something terrible must have happened. Something awful.

"H-hey, buddy," He began, opening the door further to let his friend in. "What happened?"

Katsuki didn't know what it felt like to lose the ability to speak. To be so choked up, that not a single word left his lips. He didn't know the suffocating feeling of trying to express yourself but drowning in your own tears instead. Until now.

He was unable to speak. Unable to breathe. Unable to form coherent thoughts even. Everything was mushy. Everything was lost.

It broke Eijiro's heart, he had never seen his best friend like this before, and quite frankly he didn't think he ever would. But here he was, the ever strong explosive boy reduced to nothing but whimpers.

He pushed Katsuki down onto his bed and was met with no resistance. He sat beside him, unsure of whether he should hug him or give him comfort in another way. So many unspoken boundaries between them had been broken the moment Katsuki showed up at his door, but Eijiro wasn't sure if physical contact would be one boundary too much.

So he didn't. Instead, he was sitting next to him, uneasy and nervous. Just what had happened?

After minutes of silence, Katsuki finally spoke up. His voice sounded croaky, every word met with a shudder of his body. Eijiro felt like crying out of sympathy. "I… I let her go" Was all he could bring out.

Eijiro's eyes widened, trying to make sense of what his friend had just said. "W-what do you mean, bro?"

"She… I mean I…" He stopped, taking a deep breath. God, he felt pathetic. "I ran into her like thirty minutes ago. She… she was going out, meeting that shitty boyfriend of hers. I tried holding her back but… I did a fucking terrible job."

Eijiro was speechless. Katsuki had tried so hard to deny his feelings, but with what he had just said and judging by how much of a mess he was, the red-haired boy didn't need any more confirmation. "Dude," Eijiro said. "What are you talking about? Did she run away?"

Katsuki simply nodded, and it was as though the ground was opening up underneath them, swallowing everything that was around Eijiro, replacing it with dread. She ran away.

Eijiro knew that he should be more worried than he was, but he couldn't help but be overcome by anger. "Fuck it," He said. "You didn't do anything wrong."

Katsuki looked at him, bewildered. "W-what?"

"She's been behaving like a reckless brat lately. Let her get in trouble, it's not your fault. She wouldn't have listened to anyone in that situation" Eijiro said, immediately realising the angry tone in his voice. "I'm not trying to be an ass, she's like my sister, I love her to bits, but fuck, she's been acting out lately" He sighed deeply and let himself fall onto his bed, looking up at the ceiling.

Katsuki was confused, his tears stopping for just a moment. His friend was usually such a burst of sunshine, never had a bad word to say about anyone. He had expected Eijiro to have a go at him, maybe even punch him for letting you go. The reaction that Katsuki did receive was unlike anything he could have ever imagined. He didn't know what to reply, so he opted to stay silent.

And that was how it stayed for the longest time. Neither of the boys was saying a word, both lost in their own thoughts. Eventually, however, Katsuki spoke up. Words so honest bubbling out of him, like water from a spring. He would have never thought that he would ever say these things out loud, especially not to Eijiro, but it came out with a force that he wasn't able to stop.

"Looking at her hurts. It hurts more than I can put into words. You have no idea how hard it is to pretend that I'm not in love with her, that we didn't have this amazing relationship. Every time I see her smile because of him, a part of me dies. We never broke up, she just… forgot about me and everything we had. Fuck, I didn't even get the chance to make her fall in love with me again. Whenever I close my eyes, I see him touching her. Whenever I hear her talk about him, my ears feel like someone poured acid inside. She's telling people all about him, but she never talked about me like that, because we made this stupid decision to keep it to ourselves. And now everything is gone, and nobody will ever know about how in love we were. It's all just in my head now, and it feels almost as if it never even happened. This is all too much, and it's breaking me, man. I never thought I would say shit like that out loud, but I just… I just can't do this anymore."

The gravity of these words weighed heavy on both of them. Eijiro had suspected that you two had been a couple, but hearing it out loud was surreal nonetheless. His two best friends had hooked up without him even noticing. He was so curious, and he had so many questions; how long had you been together, and how did it all start? But he didn't ask any of that. It wasn't the time, and he knew that.

There was a long silence, neither of them knew what to say, or how to move on from Katsuki's heartbreaking confession. "Dude, I'm so sorry to hear about that," Eijiro eventually said. "I honestly don't know what to say. I can't even begin to imagine how much you must be hurting."

Katsuki sighed. Part of him already regretted spilling his feelings in the way he had. But the other part of him was glad to have it gotten off his chest. He had needed a friend tonight, and he was thankful beyond words to have Eijiro listen to him. "Thanks for being there for me, shitty hair," He said while looking down. "I appreciate it."

Eijiro swallowed hard. He couldn't think of a time in which his friend had ever been so honest, so raw with his feelings. This was no longer just about saving you from the person you were becoming, this was about so much more now. He had to save both of you, he had to reunite you. He took a deep breath. "We need to draw up a plan to get you two back together."

Katsuki raised his eyebrows. "No matter what plan you'll come up with, it's doomed either way, she's got a boyfriend, remember?" He couldn't hide the bitterness in his voice.

"Damn right she's got a boyfriend," Eijiro said, making Katsuki look at him. "And that boyfriend is you, buddy. You're supposed to be by her side, and we'll get you there. Just trust me."

Katsuki stayed silent for a moment. Your relationship was a sinking ship, but he didn't want to let go, he refused to let go. He was so in love with you, and he couldn't just stop his feelings, love didn't work that way.

"Alright, what's the plan?" He eventually said, making Eijiro's eyes beam. The red-haired boy knew that they would succeed if Katsuki was willing to put himself out there.

The two friends stayed up all night, talking and strategising on how to win you back. The sun was already rising when sleep finally overcame them, and they fell asleep on Eijiro's bedroom floor.

 


 

You, on the other hand, were wide awake the moment the first rays broke through the curtains of the shabby room you were staying in. Your neck was hurting so much; you must have slept funny. Trying to find your bearings, you shuffled around a bit and realised that Yami's head was placed on your chest. He was breathing steadily, still sound asleep. You smiled a little, incredibly happy that everything that happened the previous night was nothing but a huge misunderstanding. You cared deeply about him and losing him would have killed you inside.

You could feel him move in his sleep, making the cutest little noise. You couldn't help but giggle, which unfortunately woke him up. He blinked a few times, trying to adjust to the light. "Good Morning," He mumbled, letting out a big yawn and sitting up next to you.

You gave him a big smile. "Good Morning"

Looking at him made you happy and sad at the same time. You were elated by how much he cared about you, but the fact that it had lead to him staying in this place was making you feel terrible. You sighed a little. "Yami… I've been thinking, and I think we should see each other less often."

He immediately jumped up, panic in his eyes. His reaction was cute, yet irrationally erratic. "W-why? W-what did I do? Is it because of last night? I-"

But you stopped him with a soothing smile. "No, it's not like that at all, Yami," You said, trying to calm him down. "I just feel like we should be spending more time with school work, you know. You're clearly falling behind and so am I. If I think about it, the reason I was so angry with my friends for telling me to get my act together was not that they were wrong, it was more because they saw what I didn't see and it pissed me off. They were right, though. You opened my eyes last night."

His facial expression changed completely. You couldn't read it at all. It was definitely one of surprise, but there was something else, he almost looked petrified. It didn't make sense. "W-what did I do?"

You took a deep breath. "When you told me about your ambitions of becoming a doctor, it reminded me of how much we have both worked for our dreams. I don't want to destroy what we have achieved so far. We're both close to graduation, and once we're out there in the real world, we can see each other as much as we want. Right now, I just feel we should concentrate on school."

You could immediately tell that he wasn't happy with your suggestion, but no matter what he would say, you wouldn't change your mind. This was in both your best interest and he would see that soon enough. "We can still call each other every day, so please don't be too upset," You said, standing up and placing one of your hands on his cheek. "And we can spend the weekends together too."

He gave you a weak smile, and it broke your heart a little. Eventually, he nodded, though. "I guess you're right," He said with a sigh. "I'm just afraid of losing you. It feels like my life would literally end if that were to happen."

You giggled. "You're a drama queen."

He just grimaced, not saying anything. It felt like this whole conversation had struck a large nerve.

"You won't lose me," You promised. "Never."

His smile returned, and he gave you a kiss on your forehead. Your heart was beating faster, it was such a sweet gesture, and no boy had ever done this to you before. It felt intimate and loving, and you tried to savour every second, but you couldn't, and it made you feel guilty.

"Are you okay?" He suddenly asked you.

You nodded. "Y-yeah I just feel like I should be heading home now."

He clearly didn't want to let you go, but agreed eventually and picked up your bag. You didn't need any of that after all, having fallen asleep without even changing. He carried your bag outside, and you followed him quietly. You felt exhausted and as though you had an awful lot of thinking to do.

When you arrived back at the dorms, you could sense that Yami's mood had shifted once again. You looked around and saw the former number one hero standing in front of the dormitory building. You sighed. It seemed like someone ratted you in.

Yami next to you was tense, angry almost. He was seething, and it was confusing you. What had just happened? And why did it go completely over your head?

"You good?" You asked him.

He nodded, grinding his teeth. "Y-yeah. I gotta go home."

And with that, he turned around and walked off. He didn't give you a kiss, not even a hug. It was utterly unlike your boyfriend. You couldn't deny how worried you were, but at the same time, you knew that you had much more significant problems waiting quite literally in front of your door.

You walked up to the building, trying to shake him off with a polite smile. You knew that it wouldn't work when he cleared his throat.

"Young (l/n)," He said in his usual tone. "May I ask where you're coming from at this time?"

You looked at him, irritated. "No, you may not."

"It seems as though you have spent the night off school grounds. That's against the rules," He said calmly.

You crossed your arms in front of your chest, dropping your bag on the floor. "Who said that I did that? Ever thought that I might have done some early training?"

He sighed. "Nobody said anything, I walked by your room earlier to check in on you as I do every Saturday," He explained. "And you weren't there. Seeing you walk up with that boy… I'm not stupid, you know."

You scoffed but stayed otherwise silent. You didn't want to hear this, especially not from him. You accepted that your friends were right and that you needed to get your shit together, but you didn't want to take orders from the man in front of you. Whether he was the symbol of peace or not.

"I'm just concerned, young (l/n)," He said.

You couldn't help but snort. "Concerned as in? My teacher, who is concerned about my academic success? The former number one hero, who is concerned to see me straying from the right path? Or perhaps concerned as m-"

You could tell he was getting angry with you. A sight that not many got to see from this usually calm and gentle man. "That's enough. We continue this when we both calmed down."

You shook your head and forcefully grabbed your bag from the ground. You turned around and huffed. "No, we won't."

Chapter Text

The moment you had walked away from All Might, you already regretted the way you had talked to him. You knew that he didn’t deserve it, but you couldn’t help yourself. You were aware of the fact that you had fucked up, and you didn’t need anyone telling you. Especially not him.

You sighed deeply. That had been two days ago and you had spent the rest of the weekend curled up in your room. Not wanting to talk to anyone. Quite frankly, you didn’t know what to do. You felt helpless.

You knew that you had mistreated your friends because of your insecurities and the fact that you felt misunderstood. You knew that they were just looking out for you, you just didn’t want to be treated like a baby. Then there was Yami… You felt terrible because you had messed up his life. You knew that he didn’t feel that way and that he would never blame you for anything, but his grades were suffering because he was trying to find a cure for your amnesia and his parents had kicked him out because he was dating you. No matter how you put it, it was your fault.

And to top it all off, you had been rude towards the most famous hero on the planet, and he didn’t even deserve it.

Fuck.

You were awake before your alarm went off and you were dreading going to class. You hadn’t talked to your friends since your confrontation on Friday night and you didn’t know how to approach them either. Usually, you would ask Eijiro for help, but you felt like you fucked that up too. At this rate, you might as well sit with Mineta. Surely nobody else wanted to be your friend anymore.

You arrived in the classroom before anyone else, so you sat down, put your headphones on, and blasted music until the rest would show up. You were completely trapped in your mind, not realising the looks your friends gave you when they entered the room. None of them approached you, taking your absent expression as a silent cue to leave you alone.

You didn’t even notice anyone walk in until you saw a mop of blond hair in your peripheral vision. Bakugou, yet another person you had to apologise to. The way you had treated him when he had tried to reason with you Friday night had been uncalled for. You knew that, and you knew that you had to make it right. There was just something about him that made you afraid to approach him.

He usually seemed so confident and abrasive, but the more you observed him, you could tell that he wasn’t like that anymore. He was vulnerable, but he tried so hard to hide it. What was it that made the walls around him crumble so much? You wanted to find out, but you knew that it wasn’t any of your business.

Then you suddenly remembered how it was his face that had appeared before you when things got heated between you and Yami and you started blushing profusely. To this day, you had no idea what that was about. And why it had felt as though you were betraying him somehow. He had told you that the two of you weren’t even friends. So what about him was it that seemed to pull you in?

You only realised that you were staring at him when he turned around, looking right into your eyes. Your blushing intensified and your heart was beating as fast as the rhythm of the music that was blasting from your headphones. You didn’t expect him to catch you staring at him like that.

To your surprise, he didn’t look pissed off when he spotted you. Instead, he pointed at your headphones, trying to tell you to take them off. You were confused but did as he said. The moment your ears were uncovered, you heard Aizawa’s annoyed voice.

“Thanks for finally gracing us with your attention, (l/n).”

Yikes. You could only hope that this wasn’t an indicator of how bad this week would turn out to be. You wanted to make things right, but at this rate, all you did was making it worse. You thought you had reached rock bottom, but maybe the worst was yet to come.

When the bell rang and everyone hurried to the cafeteria to grab some lunch, you decided to stay behind in the classroom, listening to music and feeling sorry for yourself. You knew that you should make an effort to try and talk to your friends, make it up to them, but you were afraid of their reactions so you decided to keep to yourself for a while. Let things cool off first.

You thought that your friends didn’t care anymore anyway. You had mistreated them and they had every right to hate you. Only that wasn’t the case. Deep down, every single one of them was worried about you.

“We need to talk about (y/n),” Eijiro said the moment he put down the tray with his food on the table in front of him. His friends looked up at him, each of them knowing exactly what he was talking about.

Mina scoffed. “I don’t wanna talk about her.”

Eijiro sighed and sat down on the chair across from her. “I know she said some nasty things, but she’s upset and we need to find out what’s going on.”

“She’s my best friend and I miss her so much, but I refuse to make the first step,” Mina pouted.

Silence befell the table and it was apparent that the group of friends was deep in their thoughts.

“Maybe she’s too scared to approach you, Raccoon Eyes,” Katsuki suddenly said, making everyone looking at him.

Mina raised her eyebrows. “Why do you care anyway?”

“Tch. I don’t fucking care. I’m just observing, and you’re making a bigger deal out of this than it is,” Katsuki explained, stabbing a carrot with his chopsticks.

The pink-haired girl looked offended. “I’m what? Do you have any idea of the things she’s said to me? All I’ve been trying to do was being there for her and she’s been thanking me by treating me like crap. I’m done with her until she apologises.”

Denki sighed deeply. “I hate to take sides, but I kinda have to agree with Mina. She’s been pushing us all away like that.”

“Well, how would you fucking react if you forgot pretty much your entire high school experience? The people around you knowing things that you don’t, having all these memories of you that you can’t remember? It must fucking suck and you make this all about yourself, moping because she’s been acting out. Don’t judge her until you’ve been in her shoes.” Bakugou growled the entire rant in a low voice, making him sound even angrier than usual.

His speech left his friends dead silent. None of them understanding why Bakugou seemed to have such a strong opinion on this topic. Especially considering that he usually never cared about anyone. Eijiro was the only one understanding where his friend was coming from and he felt deeply sorry for him. He was determined to help Katsuki and at the same time help you too.

The two friends had come up with a plan on how to win you over once more and Eijiro was convinced that they would succeed. You had fallen in love with Katsuki before, so why wouldn’t it work again? Eijiro believed that all it would take was for you and the blonde to repeat what had connected you in the first place; training together.

The only issue was that you had started skipping training so it was going to prove difficult to get the two of you together in one training room. But things were looking pretty promising when Eijiro overheard a conversation that you were having with Aizawa after classes had finished for the day.

“Sensei,” you said. “Have you seen All Might today?”

Aizawa looked at you with a blank expression. “No, but I will once I return to the teacher’s lounge.”

Eijiro couldn’t see around the corner, but he could hear the nervousness in your voice. He was pretty sure that you were fiddling with the bracelet you were always wearing. A habit of yours that you would do when you felt uncomfortable.

“C-could you please tell him that I’m looking for him?” You asked your teacher.

Aizawa sighed deeply. “Under one condition.”

“Sure,” you promised, swallowing hard.

“You’re getting your ass to training. Right now,” he said with an unusually strict tone in his voice. “I’ve been going easy on you because I understand how much you have been going through, but you’re seriously slacking off and you really can’t afford that. I can tell that you feel as though nobody is on your side, but that isn’t true. You can still graduate, okay? You are one of my best students and I don’t say that lightly. Just get your ass in gear.”

Hearing him say these words made you insanely happy. You had given up on yourself, but your teacher had sparked a fire in you that you had thought to be extinguished. He was right, of course, you could do it.

“Thank you, Sensei. I promise I won’t let you down,” you said, bowing down slightly.

He gave you a small smile, almost too small to notice. “Alright then. I’ll tell All Might to come to see you at the training grounds.”

You nodded and sprinted out of the room. “Hey! No running in the halls!” You could hear your teacher yell from behind you, making you chuckle lightly.

Eijiro had run away just in time, hoping you hadn’t noticed his presence. He wasted no time in texting his explosive friend, giving him the brand new intel, and telling him to meet you at the training grounds as fast as he could. Eijiro was aware that you were going to meet All Might there, but by the time Katsuki would arrive, your talk with All Might would most likely be over.

You had no idea about the plans the two boys were making behind your back. All you were focused on was getting through the conversation with All Might, hoping that he would forgive you.

When you left the changing rooms and stepped into the training area, All Might was already sitting on a bench, waiting for you. Swallowing hard you started walking towards him, hands clammy and heart beating too fast.

“S-sensei,” you stuttered. “Thank you for coming here.”

He gave you a soft smile. “Of course. You wanted to talk?”

“Yeah… I… I wanted to apologise to you. I was rude the other day and that was uncalled for. I shouldn’t have let things out on you.” Bowing deeply you hoped that he would accept your apology.

You could hear him chuckle, and dared to look up. “Don’t worry about it, young (l/n). I understand that you’re feeling a bit lost and that the last thing you need is me trying to give you a lecture.”

You opened your mouth, wanting to tell him that it had nothing to do with the fact that the lecture had come from him. It wasn’t anything personal. But before you could say even a word, he began to speak.

“I know that… we’ve had our differences in the past. I understand that you have trouble opening up to me, but I want you to know that I will always be there for you.” His words sounded genuine and you knew that he meant it. That didn’t mean you would be able to just open up to him though.

You nodded. “Thanks. I appreciate that.”

“No problem, that’s what teachers are there for, after all.”

You weren’t sure how to feel about this statement, so it took you a while to respond. You couldn’t help but let out the bitter taste that was left in your mouth. “Yeah, my teacher. Thanks, sensei.”

An awkward silence filled the air and neither of you knew how to move on from this. After what felt like ages, however, the symbol of peace spoke up.

“So, (l/n), how have your parents been lately?” he asked, his face taking on an expression that you rarely got to see from him.

You shrugged your shoulders. “Mum’s doing great, if that’s what you’re asking,” you said quickly. “She’s been working on her cookbook a lot.”

He smiled. “She’s always been an amazing cook.”

“Yep,” you simply said, bringing back the awkward silence.

He looked as uncomfortable as you felt. How were you supposed to open up to him? You could only imagine how awkward that would be.

“How’s your dad’s business doing these days?” He proceeded to ask.

You sighed, you didn’t want to have this conversation. “Good, I guess.”

You didn’t know what else to say, All Might was the last person you wanted to talk to when it came to your parents. “Look, All Might,” you began, trying to find the right words. But before you could continue, the arrival of another person drew your attention to the door.

Out walked Katsuki in his training clothes. He looked at you and your teacher, realising that he was interrupting you. “Oh, my bad, I didn’t think anyone was here,” he quickly said. “I’ll leave you to it.”

But instead, All Might got up from the bench, giving the boy a big smile. “Ah young Bakugou, good to see you. Don’t you worry, we were just having a chat, but it’s time for me to go anyway. Would be good for you both to train together like you used to.” And with that he left the training grounds, leaving you utterly confused.

You watched Katsuki put his towel and water bottle on a bench, thinking about what the hell All Might had been talking about. “What did he mean?” You suddenly asked.

Katsuki looked at you, equally as confused. “Hm?”

“All Might. He said we used to train together?” To say you were curious was an understatement.

He scratched his head. “Yeah, I guess so. We kinda… Well, our quirks are very… compatible when it comes to combat, so we started training together a while ago.”

“Oh, I see. How long ago are we talking about?” You asked.

He paused to think for a second. “Like… towards the end of our first year, I suppose.”

“W-wait… You said we weren’t friends though,” you quickly said. “When I got back from the hospital and you helped me carry my bags upstairs. You said we weren’t close.”

He shrugged his shoulders. “Well we trained together almost daily, but we didn’t hang out other than that.”

He was lying as best as he could, what else was he supposed to say? Tell you the truth? He couldn’t do that. You had to fall for him as you had back then. Without knowing what had once been between you two. He didn’t want you to feel uncomfortable around him, but he also couldn’t lie and say that you had been friends. Nobody knew about how much time you spent together. If he was to claim that you had been friends, there was nobody to back up his claim.

All he could do was play it off and hope that you would drop the topic. Then he could proceed with the plan to win you over, just the way he had done before.

To his luck, you did drop it, deciding that his explanation was good enough for you. You smiled at him. “Well, that’s great actually. I need a good training partner. I have to get back into shape.”

He gave you a cocky grin. “I won’t go easy on you.”

You couldn’t help but laugh and it was like music to Katsuki’s ears. One of the most beautiful sounds that ever graced this planet.

And so you started training for what felt like the first time in centuries. He said he wouldn’t go easy on you, however, he couldn’t help but do exactly that. Feeling your skin on his was electric and he wanted to savour the warmth. He couldn’t have gone all out, even if he had wanted to.

And so it happened that you managed to overpower him when he least expected it. It happened so quick, he didn't see it coming. The moment you pinned him down to the ground, your sparkling eyes looking triumphant into his, and your lips curled into a proud smile, he fell in love with you all over again. And how could he not? You were strong and beautiful. Magical almost, and you had him under your spell.

You were the cause for all his pain and suffering, but at the same time, you were also the only antidote. He loved you with everything he had and he would get you back somehow. He was done playing the victim. So what you were in love with someone else? You had fallen for him before, he just had to show you how perfect you were for each other.

Before his talk with Eijiro, he was convinced that the only way to get you back was by getting rid of that slimy Yami, but now he thought that this wasn’t the case at all. He just had to prove that he was better than that other guy. Piece of cake.

He had felt so lonely, deflated almost. But now that he was so close to you, touching your skin, smelling your hair, and feeling your grip around him, he knew that he wasn’t alone. You were still here and as long as you were around him, he would be able to win you back.

He wasn’t one for openly expressing his emotions and he wasn’t good with words either, but the feelings inside of him were stronger than ever before and it was so hard for him to keep them to himself. If he had to walk a thousand miles for you, he would do it without looking back. If he had to climb every mountain on this planet for you, he would do so without a second thought. If he would have to share the last remaining oxygen on earth with you, he would hold his breath for as long as he could, just to see you breathe easy. No matter what secrets you would share with him, he would keep them all. Just like any promise he would ever make to you. He would keep them, cherish them and make sure to never let you down. He had promised you this before and he would promise it a hundred times more.

Looking at you like this, he felt as though he was capable of flight. With you by his side, anything was possible. And he would make sure to have you by his side for as long as air would flow through his lungs, and blood pump through his heart. He would never let you go, always be strong for you. Never again let himself be defeated in the way that he had over the past months. He was your rock, and though you didn’t know that yet, it didn't make it any less true.

“Are you okay?” Your voice suddenly echoed through his head.

He looked at you, completely dumbfounded. “Hm?”

“You’ve been spacing out for the past ten minutes and I was contemplating whether to call Recovery Girl or not,” you joked, laughing softly.

He wanted to be annoyed, but couldn’t help but laugh with you. “Shut up. I was just thinking.”

“About what?” You asked curiously.

He sat back up, across from you on the floor. “I dunno… It’s just the first time I’ve seen you smile and be genuinely carefree since you’re back and I’m just… I’m happy to see that.”

You couldn’t help but blush, and it took all his willpower to not kiss you then and there. Oh, how badly he wanted to touch those rosy cheeks of yours. “Well, I guess I missed training more than I thought,” you admitted. “It did help that I managed to overpower you, to be honest.”

He scoffed. “You caught me off guard. That won’t ever happen again.”

“Is that a threat?” You giggled.

He smirked. “Do you want to find out?”

You couldn’t help but burst into laughter. Who would have thought that a corny conversation with Bakugou was exactly what you needed? You forgot all your problems for just a moment and enjoyed being carefree. But something that had happened the previous week was still weighing heavy on you.

When your laughing stopped, he looked at you with concern in his eyes. “I… I’m sorry about my attitude towards you last Friday. I know you were just trying to look out for me. I shouldn’t have been so rude.” You sincerely hoped he would accept your apology.

He shook his head a little, making you hold your breath. “No need to apologise. God knows I’ve said a lot worse, for reasons not even half as valid as yours. I’m just glad you came back home alright.”

“Yeah. Me too,” you said, smiling and feeling free from the weight that had rested on your shoulders.

But unfortunately, there was still another weight that you needed to offload. You shifted nervously, not knowing what to say. You didn’t know if it was okay to ask for Katsuki’s help, but he was your only option.

“What’s up?” He asked, sensing your discomfort.

You shrugged your shoulders, trying to play it cool, but not being able to stop hot tears from forming in your eyes. “I-I feel like I fucked things up with the others and I don’t know how to make it up to them. Mina and Eiji especially.”

He gave you a reassuring smile. “They’re your friends, (l/n). They’ll understand, just be open with them. Tell them how you’ve been feeling and express how sorry you are. I’m sure it’ll be fine.”

You smiled at him, he was a genuinely good guy. “Thanks, Bakugou. I hope you’re right.”

He clicked his tongue. “Please stop with the Bakugou. We dropped the honorifics a long time ago and it’s weird hearing you call me by my last name again.”

You couldn't help but blush again. You had no idea that you had called each other by your first names. But you nodded with a big smile. “Alright, Katsuki. Your wish is my command.”

The moment his name left your lips, sweeter than ever before, he felt like he was ascending to heaven. Angelic. Melodious. He had never cherished his name more than at this moment. But he tried hard not to show the ecstasy that was flowing through his veins. So he coughed, trying to regain his composure.

“Well, if you’re looking for a good opportunity to make things right again, we planned a camping trip for next weekend. You should join us. I’m sure it’ll be fun, and you can make up with the others,” Katsuki suggested.

You were unsure at first. You remembered Eiji telling you about the trip and you genuinely wanted to come along, but what if you weren’t welcome anymore?

“Stop overthinking things, you idiot. It’ll be fine,” he reassured you.

You gave him a small smile. “Alright, count me in.”

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You were torn between excitement and panic when you thought about the upcoming camping trip. It sounded like it had the potential to be an unforgettable weekend, but at the same time, you couldn’t help but wonder if you would be welcome there. Katsuki had said it would be the next weekend, and you had assumed he was talking about the coming weekend, giving you only four days to prepare and come up with a good enough apology. To your relieve, he clarified that it would take place the week after. Giving you enough time to show your friends that you were trying to mend things beforehand. That way they wouldn’t be entirely opposed to you joining them and were more likely to accept you to come with them. Or so you hoped at least.

You hadn’t expected to find a friend in Katsuki, especially not so quickly, but he turned out to be an excellent listener and even better training partner. You understood immediately why you used to train with him. He was strong and determined, something that you had lacked over the past few months. Katsuki was tough on you but in all the right ways. He knew exactly what it took to get you back in shape and start working on your dream again.

“I told you to keep your eyes on my face, stop looking at my hands all the time, idiot. Facial expression can give away the opponent’s next move before you can even see it happening,” Katsuki explained, charging towards you.

You dodged in the last second, trying to get away from him by blasting a stream of water out of your palms, propelling yourself backwards. You looked for Katsuki but had lost sight of him the moment you had sprayed water. Rookie mistake. Your water had landed on remnants of his explosions, covering the training ground in thick smoke. Before you knew it, you could feel an arm snake around your waist, pulling you backwards and then flipping you around, making you land face first in the dirt below you.

“Gotcha!” You could hear the blonde say, almost seeing the smirk on his face without even having to look at him.

He let go of you and helped you up. When he pulled your hand, he used a bit too much force, however, resulting in you colliding with his chest, almost falling back down onto the ground. He caught you in the last second, a muscular arm placed around your lower back. Your heart was beating out of your chest, and when you looked up into his eyes, it was as though the world around you ceased to exist.

You stayed like this for a few minutes, both of you were out of breath from training. You tried hard to calm down, but the position you were currently in didn’t help with that at all. It was as though your body was moving on its own. As though it knew something that your mind didn’t. You suddenly felt the need to be close to Katsuki. It was strange, you knew you should be feeling bad for wanting to touch him, but you failed.

Why was it that you felt as though you had betrayed Katsuki when you were making out with your boyfriend, even though back then you hadn’t even been friends with the blonde? But now that you were this close to Katsuki, you pushed the thought of Yami far away from you.

You knew that what you were doing was wrong, that you were walking in dangerous territory. It shouldn’t feel this good to be close to a boy that wasn’t your boyfriend, but you couldn’t help yourself. You didn’t know what exactly it was that you were doing, your hand moving before your mind could catch up. You touched his chest, feeling his muscles through his shirt, you could almost hear his heartbeat. Or was it your own?

You didn’t lose eye contact for even a second. Electricity in the air, desire in your heart. You didn’t know whether Katsuki was picking up the same energy that you did, but you knew that you had to stop before it would escalate.

Katsuki, on the other hand, couldn’t believe what was happening. He had prayed every night for you to be this close to him, just one more time at least, but he didn’t think it would happen so quickly, if at all. Maybe you were beginning to remember. Maybe training together was everything it took to jog your memories. He wasn’t sure what to do, all he knew was that he didn’t want to let you go.

So when he could feel your hand moving away from his chest, he grabbed you by your wrist, holding your hand in place. It was a bold move, but he knew that you could feel it too. It was this chemistry between you that was stronger than anything else he had ever experienced. An energy that was defying logic, moving past the lost memories. It couldn’t be erased. He wanted you to see that.

You must have looked as shocked as you felt, as he let go of you immediately. Maybe he had misread the situation after all. He couldn’t help but look at you in panic. Had he fucked it up for good this time?

“S-sorry,” he quickly said, moving away from you and breaking eye contact for the first time in minutes.

You shook your head. “N-no don’t be.” You started playing with your bracelet, Katsuki knew that was a nervous habit of yours. “It’s not that… It’s just… You know I got a boyfriend.”

The guilt over what you had done was finally washing over you. How could you give in to these feelings, knowing what Yami had sacrificed for you?

He swallowed hard. Of course, you wouldn’t just act on your desires. Katsuki knew that you weren’t the type to cheat on anyone, he had to make you fall for him fair and square. Not bank on the chemistry between you two.

He gave you a smile. “I know, don’t worry. I wasn’t trying to make a move or anything.”

“You didn’t do anything wrong, I was just as much caught up in the moment as you were,” you reassured him, still trying to steady your breath.

You felt slightly awkward and were afraid that what had just happened would ruin the newly blossomed friendship between you. You had only been training with each other for four days, how could it be that it already felt like he was one of the most important people in your life? One thing was for sure, though, you didn’t want to lose him, and you hoped that he felt the same.

Katsuki wasn’t all that good with feelings, but he could read you like a book. And right now, he could tell that you were feeling awkward and unsure of what to do. So he took it upon himself to lighten up the mood, comfort you and make you understand that he wouldn’t be going anywhere.

“Shall we grab a bite to eat? We’ve trained an awful lot today,” he suggested.

It was only then that you realised just how hungry you were. You nodded. “Yes, please, I’m starving.”

He gave you a smile. “Alright. Let’s get cleaned up and meet outside.”

You nodded and grabbed your towel and water bottle. Just when you were about to walk into the girl’s changing room, you could hear him behind you. “And don’t take fucking ages like you always used to. I’m hungry.”

You started laughing and turned around, showing him your middle finger and poking out your tongue, before walking into the changing rooms.

God, you were such an idiot, but fucking hell, the love he felt for you was too great to put into words.

You hurried so you wouldn’t make Katsuki wait too long. Only ten minutes later you walked outside, the sun was already setting, and you spotted him immediately, leaning against a wall, eyes looking up into the sky. When you approached him, he looked down, right into your eyes.

“That was record time for you,” he said with a grin on his face.

You shook your head and playfully hit his shoulder. “Shut up.”

You started walking towards the exit of the school grounds. Past the gyms and dorms, the main building and courtyard. UA was huge, so it took a while to exit the premises. “So where are we going?”

He looked at you and scoffed. “Oh yeah… Of course, you wouldn’t remember would you,” he said grinning. “We used to go to this ramen shop not too far away whenever we finished an extra long training session. So that’s where we’re going.”

Your eyes lit up. “I love ramen.”

“I know.”

You couldn’t help but blush. Katsuki was amazing and so easy to talk to. You wished that he would show this side of him to more people. Suddenly something came to your mind. “Is that why you knew my favourite mochi flavour?”

He chuckled. “Well, you wouldn’t shut up talking about food whenever you were hungry. I just happened to remember.” That wasn’t true. He remembered every little detail you had ever told him. He adored you, he wouldn’t ever forget even the most irrelevant trivia.

For a moment, it was silent, and you didn’t know what to think. He seemed to know you pretty well, and it upset you that you couldn’t remember the times you had spent together. He seemed to have cherished your training sessions, and you went ahead and just forgot about them. You couldn’t help but think that your accident must have affected him too.

Just when you were about to ask him about that, he spoke up. “I think you should try and talk to shitty hair.”

You didn’t see that one coming. “Hm?”

He didn’t look at you, his eyes directed straight ahead. “He misses you and is really worried. You guys have a special bond, and I know for a fact how much he loves you. He’ll accept you back in his life with as much as a peep from you. I think he’s just waiting to see whether you’re ready.”

You looked at Katsuki, full of admiration. He always seemed as though he didn’t care, but deep down, he did precisely that. He was a great observer, and he had realised that your behaviour was hurting his friend. He tried to make things right, make everyone around him happy. You had never met anyone so genuinely goodhearted.

“Thanks, Katsuki,” you said, making him look at you.

You gave him the sweetest smile, and his heart was melting. He wanted to grab your hand so badly, hold it tight and not let go. Kiss your face all over; lips, cheeks, nose. Every part of you. But he couldn’t do that yet. So instead, he just scoffed. “Don’t mention it.”

He turned away from you, but you could see the faint blush that was blending in with the red hues of the setting sun. A sight to behold. Damn, he was handsome. You never took much notice of that before. You admired his features, his toned torso, the way he had swung his bag over his shoulder, making his biceps flex. His blonde hair, a fluffy mess. And his eyes. By god, his eyes were mesmerising. You couldn’t help but blush again.

But suddenly his face soured and you were utterly confused. “Seems like you got a visitor.”

You followed his gaze and spotted Yami at the entrance of your school. What was he doing here? And why did he look so pissed off? When you approached him, you could see that his face was bruised and that he had a wound on his bottom lip. What the hell happened to him?

“Yami…” you said, trying to reach out to him. “What happened to your face?”

But he swatted your hand away, as though it was a pesky fly. “What the hell are you doing, (y/n)?”

You didn’t know what to say. “We were just going to grab something to eat.”

“Oh, so you can go out for dinner with another guy, but you don’t have time to answer your phone?” He sounded hurt.

You swallowed hard. “I- We were training, I didn’t get a chance to look at my phone all afternoon.”

“You were training? Together? Just you two?”

You nodded slowly, not sure what to say. You didn’t want to piss him off even more.

“Great. So you’re telling me that we should spend less time together so we can concentrate on school, and what do you do? Spend your time with the next best guy that comes along.”

You looked up at him. “It’s not like that at all! Our quirks just work really well together.”

He clicked his tongue. “I’m telling you to spend less time with this red-haired guy, and you go ahead and pick another guy instead. I didn’t think you were that type of person.”

You could hear Katsuki growl from behind you. “Calm down, dude. We’re just training, no need to get your panties twisted.”

You giggled internally, not wanting to let it out and consequently piss your boyfriend off even more. This wasn’t the time for laughing. You had to make this right somehow. So you turned around to face Katsuki.

“Hey, do you mind if we do this another time?” You asked him, pleading almost.

He looked conflicted. “You sure? I don’t want to leave you alone with him if it puts you at risk.”

You gave him a small smile. “Yeah, I’m sure. Sorry.”

He simply nodded, reluctantly so, but he knew that he had to accept your wish if he didn’t want to overstep the boundaries. He knew that Yami wouldn’t harm you. If he laid as much as a finger on you, he would have a horde of heroes thirsting for his blood.

“Call me if you need me,” he said.

You nodded thanks and turned around to face Yami once more. You assumed that Katsuki had walked off, but if you had turned around once more, you would have seen that he was still standing not too far away, giving Yami a warning look. A look that said I am your rival and You better watch out. He also gave the blue-eyed boy a shit-eating grin as a sign that he wouldn’t lose to Yami.

The latter was staring back, brooding and angry, wanting to charge towards the blonde but knowing that he wouldn’t stand a chance in combat anyway. You tried to get your boyfriend’s attention, but he was utterly spaced out.

“Yami!” You almost yelled, waving your hand in front of his face.

Finally, he snapped out of it, looking at you with a mix of anger and hurt. “I’ve been trying to reach you all week. Are you ignoring me on purpose?”

You shook your head. “Of course not. I’ve just been training a lot. I think I actually still have a shot at graduating. I just need to keep at it.”

“I thought you had changed your mind and didn’t want to be one of their minions anymore?”

You didn’t quite know how to reply to that. “I’m not their minion. I make my own decisions.”

He raised his eyebrows. “Oh, you do, huh? The way I see it is that they’re brainwashing you. You ran away not even a week ago, and all of a sudden it’s all rainbows and butterflies?”

“N-no, of course not, but…” You couldn’t find the right words to explain your thought process to him.

“Geez, they’re clearly manipulating you, (y/n). I honestly don’t understand why you still bother with these people. Hell, with the entire school even. They’re pushing you way too hard. Making you train every single day. They don’t deserve your time” He said this without too much thought, but to you, his statement carried a massive weight.

Attending UA had always been your dream. Yami was overreacting, it wasn’t that bad. Your teachers were just doing their job, they weren’t manipulating you. “I get what you’re saying, Yami, but UA is a prestigious school, so they have a lot of expectations.”

He opened his mouth to say something, but he stopped himself before a single word left his lips. You looked at him, expecting something, anything, but he stayed silent. He was clearly deep in thoughts. After a while, he spoke up, his tone had completely changed from irritated to quiet and calm. That was quick.

“You’re right, I’m sorry,” he said, making you widen your eyes in surprise. “I often forget how amazing your school is. I mean it’s hard for me to remember that when all I ever see is how badly they treat you.”

“I don’t think they mistreat me, Yami. That’s a bit overexaggerated,” you said, trying to defend your school.

He shook his head, pushing the sleeves of your blazer up your arms. “If they treat you so well, then how come your entire body is always bruised like that?” He said, pointing at the dark marks on your exposed arms. “Was that this blonde freak you’ve been training with? What the fuck is he doing to you?”

You sighed deeply. “He didn’t do anything to me, we’re just training. I’ve done as much damage to him as he has done to me. I guess that’s just what happens when you train how to fight villains.”

“Is it so wrong that I worry about my girlfriend getting injured? Just a few months ago you were in the hospital, they should take it easy on you, but instead, you have new injuries all the damn time.” His facial expression was that of hurt and sadness. You couldn’t help but feel bad for making him worry like that.

You sighed and put one of your hands on his cheek. “Please don’t worry, Yami. I’m fine, it’s just part of becoming a hero.”

“If becoming a hero means that you’re in danger, then I don’t want you to become one” He simply said, shocking you with every word.

“Yami…” You said. “This has always been my dream, I’m not giving this up.”

He clicked his tongue. “Tch. Dreams can change. Just because you wanted to do that when you were younger, doesn’t mean you still have to follow through with it” His words cut like knives.

“A-are you saying you’re not supporting my decision?” You didn’t know what to think, your mind was all over the place.

He shook his head. “I’m not saying that. All I’m saying is that I want you to think for yourself. You don’t have to do anything just because people say so. It’s okay to change your mind, people do that all the time. I bet All Might regrets becoming a hero, seeing what state he is in now.”

You immediately took your hand off his face and stepped away from him. “Take that back,” you snarled.

He looked surprised. “What do you mean?”

“My- … All Might is the most heroic person I have ever met. He wouldn’t regret a single minute even if it killed him.”

He raised his eyebrows. “Didn’t think you’d be one of those All Might fangirls.”

“I’m not!” You said, pausing for a second. “I… it’s not like that.” You were conflicted. You knew that you should just shut your mouth, but it was Yami after all. You could trust him.

“What is it like then?” He asked you curiously.

Just when you were about to speak up, a picture of your parents popped into your head. No. You couldn’t tell him. You had made a promise that you would never talk about this, and you wouldn’t break it now. No matter how much you trusted Yami, this was something that you would never tell a single soul. Not even Eiji knew.

You scratched your head. “He’s my teacher, so I know that he’s a true hero. That’s all.”

“I don’t appreciate you lying to me, (y/n),” Yami said with a dangerously low voice. He came closer towards you. “You know you can trust me.”

You were mesmerised by his blue eyes, but at the same time, you couldn’t help but feel fear. What had gotten into him? Your anxiety was quickly replaced by a soothing calmness. What was going on? Why did your body feel calm while your thoughts were raging?

“Yami… what are you doing?” You asked him quietly.

He looked at you, his face expressionless. “What are you talking about?”

“I feel… odd,” you said, trying to step away from him, but he firmly held your wrist.

“Hey princess, look at me,” he said. “I’m here, you’re safe.”

And just as sudden as the odd feeling had appeared, it was gone. Maybe it hadn’t been Yami after all. But what could that feeling have been? Your emotions had been all over the place, making you feel dizzy and confused. You had completely forgotten what you had just talked about.

“Sorry, I’m already better,” you said. “I don’t know what was going on just now.”

He shrugged his shoulders. “Maybe you haven’t eaten enough today. Come on, I’ll buy us some dinner.”

You were reluctant, not really wanting to go anywhere after having felt this strange mix of emotions. Yami walked a few steps but came to a halt when he noticed that you weren’t following him. “What’s up?”

You caught another glimpse of his face in the darkening surroundings. “Yami, can you please tell me what happened to you?”

His answer came out immediately. “No.”

“You can’t keep these things from me. Something clearly happened to you. Talk to me.”

He was quiet for a moment. “I have this part-time job, and I pissed off my boss.”

“That isn’t a reason to beat you up, though.” You couldn’t believe he would work for such a violent person.

He sighed. “He gave me an assignment, and I’m far behind in delivering it. It was a warning, I suppose.”

“Yami… What kind of job are we talking about? Are you in danger?”

He chuckled. “No. I’m fine, don’t worry about it.”

He didn’t look fine, though, and you couldn’t help but worry. You cared about him after all.

“Now come one, let’s have something to eat. I know this great ramen place around here.”

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After your dinner with Yami, you couldn't help but feel uneasy. You were pretty sure that he was hiding something, or at the very least, was caught up in something dangerous. You wanted to help him but didn't know how to. At the same time, however, you very much enjoyed spending time with Katsuki, and it almost felt as though you were a different person when you were with the blonde. It was refreshing and a much-needed change. Everything had felt so negative lately.

It was Saturday morning, only one more week until the camping trip. You really wanted to make up with Eijiro before that, so that he at least wouldn't be opposed to you joining the group.

You had made plans with Yami, but last night Katsuki had come knocking on your door, telling you that he and Eijiro would be going out to buy supplies for the coming week and that you should join them as it would be an excellent opportunity to make up with Eiji. You hated to cancel on your boyfriend, but you couldn't waste this chance to reconcile with your best friend.

So you sent a message to Yami, explaining the situation. Immediately after that, you sent a message to your teacher, All Might. The two of you had a little catch-up every Saturday morning, something that you had established since you moved into the dorms. Nobody knew about these meetings, and you desperately wanted to keep it that way. You didn't even want to think about what would happen if people were to find out that-

The ringing of your phone interrupted your train of thoughts.

Yami,” you said surprised.

For a moment there was silence on the other end of the line. "Are you seriously ditching me to hang out with some random guys? Specifically, after I told you how uncomfortable it makes me?"

" They're not random guys. Especially not Eiji, he's my best friend, and I really miss him."

He growled. "I am your boyfriend, (y/n). It is me you should be missing and trying to hang out with whenever you can."

"I know, and I do miss you. Honestly! But this is really important to me. I promise we can see each other soon. Please trust me.” You sounded like a begging kid that was trying to convince their parents to buy them a toy.

He took a deep breath. “Fine. I do trust you. Just promise me that next weekend is all about us."

Silence. You swallowed hard. “Well about that…

"Spit it out. What’s up?

You cleared your throat. "I'm kinda gone all of next weekend."

"Kinda gone? What does that even mean?"

You started sweating. You had dreaded telling Yami about your camping trip. You knew him well enough to know that he wouldn't be happy about it. You wanted to say it to him in person, but maybe it was good that you were breaking the news over the phone.

" I'll be going on a camping trip with my friends."

Once this was out in the open, you could only hope that he would take it reasonably well. But the silence that followed was indicating something else.

"What the fuck," he eventually said. "Where's this coming from all of a sudden?"

"Well, I've known about this for a while now, but I only decided to join early this week when Katsuki suggested for me to come."

The moment Yami heard the blonde's name, rage was taking over. You could hear something break on his end of the line. “Yami?

"So you're telling me that you're going to spend an entire weekend with this asshole and you expect me to just be okay with that?"

You sighed deeply. "It's not like I'm sharing a tent with him. Besides, there are other people too. Eiji will be there, and Mina. You've met them all. They’re good people.”

"Of course, that shark guy would be there too. He seems to follow you everywhere, so why should I be surprised, huh?!"

You felt so uncomfortable. Yami was taking this even worse than you had thought. "Please calm down. There's no need for you to worry. We're all just friends; besides, I'm with you, right?"

I don’t know, (y/n), are you?

What the hell was his problem? "Stop accusing me of things that are clearly not the case. I am your girlfriend, and you don't need to worry about a thing. Please, just let me have this. I need to make things up to my friends, and I really miss them."

"Of course, your precious friends that ditched you when you were in the hospital."

You couldn't help but get angry. "Stop saying these things, Yami. They didn't ditch me. They weren't allowed to visit me."

"Or so they say…" The tone in his voice was condescending. As though he was an adult that was talking down to a child.

You clicked your tongue. "I care about you, but I'm not having you badmouth my friends any longer. If you want to be with me, then you accept my friends and my wish to hang out with them."

"Do you really think you're in a position to make these demands? After everything that I have sacrificed for you? If you really cared about me, then you would put me first. Simple as that.

You couldn't believe what you had just heard. "I'm going to ignore the childish bullshit you just spouted and will tell you, one last time, that I will be going camping with my friends. And that's that."

Neither of you could believe that these words had left your lips. You always tried to avoid confrontation, and you felt as though you had to continually please Yami to keep him happy, he had indeed sacrificed a lot for you. But this time it was different. This trip meant a lot to you, and you wouldn't let anyone take that away from you.

Fine. But I'm coming with you."

You couldn't help but laugh. "You're joking, right?"

"No. I'm very much serious."

You sighed. "Yami, this is a trip with a close group of friends who are celebrating their upcoming graduation. As much as I would like to spend time with you, I don't think this would be a good idea."

"A group of close friends? They can't be that close to you, considering you can't even remember most of your time with them."

You opened your mouth, wanting to say something. But the spite in Yami's voice was too much for you to handle. You couldn't believe how terrible he was behaving.

"I can't fucking believe the shit you're saying to me. And for what? Are you trying to push me down? Keep me to yourself? Isolate me? Godfuckingdamnit Yami. I understand that your-"

Loud knocking on your door interrupted your yelling. You quickly marched to the source of the noise, ready to yell at whoever was standing on the other side. But the moment you looked into Katsuki's eyes, your gaze softened. He looked at you with concern.

"Are you alright? I was coming to get you anyway, but I could hear your yelling from downstairs, so I sprinted up to your room."

You couldn't help but smile. "Yeah, I'm fine. Hang on a second."

You brought your attention back to Yami, who was still on the phone. You could almost feel his bad mood crawling through the speaker. "Is that the blonde asshole?"

"Stop calling him that. And yes, it is. I gotta go.

He growled. " Don't you dare hang up on me like that."

"Can we not do this right now. Please. I need some space." You sincerely hoped he would understand that and give you both some time to cool off.

Fine.” Was all he said before hanging up.

You looked at Katsuki and gave him an apologetic smile. "Sorry about that."

"Nah, it's all good," he reassured you. "Trouble in paradise?"

You scoffed. "You have no idea."

And with that, you grabbed your bag, following Katsuki into the hallway. When you locked your door, you didn't see the grin that Katsuki had plastered all over his face. He was loving it. At this point, that jealous blue-eyed moron was doing all his work for him. Piece of cake.

When you arrived outside, Eiji was already waiting. He looked genuinely surprised to see you. Katsuki must've kept your company a secret from his friend. You didn't know what to say. So you looked at Katsuki for guidance. All he did was give you a nod, signalising you that you should just do what popped to your mind. Having his reassurance, you did precisely that.

You almost leapt into Eiji's arms, taking him totally off guard. The moment he reciprocated the hug, and you felt his arms around you, you couldn't help but cry. "I m-missed you s-so much, Eiji!" You sobbed. "I'm so s-sorry for shutting y-you out and i-ignoring you."

As he was a fair bit taller than you, you could feel him smile against the top of your head. "It's okay, little bean. I'm not mad at you. I missed you too."

Having him be so incredibly understanding made you cry even more. You swore to yourself that you would never again let anyone tell you to stop seeing your best friend. You considered Eiji to be your brother, never having had any actual siblings. He was like family, and family was more important than anything.

After a few minutes, you let go of him, and you looked at each other. He gave you his signature toothy grin. "I didn't know you and Katsuki were hanging out." That was a lie, but you didn't need to know that.

You couldn't help but blush, and it didn't go unnoticed by the red-haired boy. "Well, we've been training so… that's all."

Eiji couldn't help but laugh. Giving Katsuki the signal that it was okay for him to approach you two. "All good now?" Katsuki asked you and your best friend.

"All good," you both said at the same time.

Katsuki grinned and looked at you as though to say 'I told you so'. Then he turned around, shoving his hands in his pockets. "Well, then let's get going already. The sooner we get this shopping over with, the better."

You knew that he didn't mean that. You had a feeling that he secretly enjoyed spending time with Eiji and you. And quite frankly, you felt the same. It was so refreshing to be surrounded by people that understood you and that had the same convictions as you. You were still missing so many memories, but at the same time, you enjoyed making new ones.

You were walking next to Katsuki, talking nonstop about the training session you had had the previous night. He wanted to keep up his usual demeanour around Eijiro, even though his friend had already seen him at his worst, but he couldn't keep the scowl up when he was talking to you.

Looking at you was like looking at direct sunlight. It was dangerous, blinding almost, but oh so beautiful. You were perfection, and Katsuki was thanking the gods for bringing you into his life. He had thought he had lost you, but it turned out that all he had needed was some tough love from his best friend.

The latter was walking behind you too, happy beyond words. Eiji knew that you weren't back together yet, but he could see the chemistry between you two; pure energy. How your face lit up when Katsuki smiled, and how his demeanour changed by just looking at you.

Seeing you like this, Eijiro couldn't help but wonder how he had never picked up on this before. If you were shining so bright just from being Katsuki's friend, then how could he have missed the intense happiness you must have displayed when you had actually been in love with the blonde?

Eijiro decided to put this thought to rest, all that really mattered was the fact that things were finally going in the right direction. Seeing Katsuki smile after being an absolute wreck only a week ago, was one of the best things that Eijiro had ever seen.

He was also beyond happy to have you back by his side. He had missed you so much and worried about you more than he could explain. But at the same time, he had been so frustrated with you, not understanding how you couldn't see that you were drifting off from the right path. He knew that in your mind, you were two years younger than him and the others. He knew that he had to be more patient with you, but you had really tested his patience on so many levels.

It was amazing to see that you made the first step and were willing to move on from the negativity that was your accident and instead, move forward towards graduation.

It didn't take too long for you to arrive at the store. The rest of the group had the task to buy tents and sleeping bags, wheras the three of you were in charge of food and other supplies. Katsuki hadn't told anyone that you would be joining them. So other than him, only Eiji knew about it. You wanted to just show up and surprise the others. Eijiro and Katsuki were convinced that they would be happy to see you there.

The plan was that Katsuki and Eiji would be sharing a tent, and so would Denki and Hanta. The other tent would be occupied by you and Mina if she was willing to do so. You had said some terrible things to her. Eiji, however, reassured you that Mina was missing you too, she just wanted you to make the first step. And that you would. You had everything planned out already.

And so you started shopping for food. It was mostly snacks and things that wouldn't go bad within the week. You'd buy the fresh food the day before you were going to leave. You quickly excused yourself, going into the outdoor aisle to grab yourself a sleeping bag. The others didn't know you would join them, so obviously they weren't going to buy one for you. You picked one that you liked and walked back to the boys. You suddenly felt a chill run through your spine and looked, unease spreading through your body.

You saw a patch of grey hair disappearing behind a corner. Yami? No, it couldn't be. Your mind was playing tricks because you hadn't resolved the argument with him and started to feel bad about it now. You took a deep breath and shook off the bad feeling. Instead of standing around any longer, you hurried back to where you had left Katsuki and Eijiro. To your surprise, they were still standing in the exact same spot.

Eiji tried to convince Katsuki to buy more snacks, but Katsuki was acting like a strict parent, basically telling his friend that they had enough already. You couldn't help but laugh. You loved the way the two were acting around each other. Katsuki always portrayed himself as very strong, but he really let his personality shine through when he was with Eiji.

Deep down you wished that Yami could be friends with Eiji too. He meant so much to you, and all you wanted was for Yami to see just how much you loved Eiji and that he wasn't a threat at all. But no matter how much you would tell Yami precisely that, he wouldn't listen.

You caught yourself staring at Katsuki. Why couldn't Yami be more like him? Katsuki was so supportive and understanding, but at the same time not afraid to call you out on your bullshit. You felt as though he brought out the best in you.

Katsuki would have never demanded you to stop talking to Eiji. On the contrary, it was he who had encouraged you to make up with your best friend. Your heart skipped a beat. What was going on with you?

And as if Katsuki had noticed you staring, he turned around to face you. Looking right into your eyes. Crimson eyes, so beautiful and mesmerising, it took your breath away.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.

You immediately looked away, blushing hard, pretending you were studying the ingredients on the box of crackers in the shopping trolley. Quite frankly, you tried to focus on anything but Katsuki. Which is why you didn't notice the big grin on both of the boys' faces, and the silent high five they gave each other.

You felt hot and cold at the same time. Were you actually falling for Katsuki? But you didn't even know him that well. Then again… You used to know him very well, and you still felt as though you had this deep connection with him. Maybe the reason you felt so strongly was that you had felt like this before. Could he have been… No, that wasn't possible. There was no way.

Katsuki wasn't the type for relationships. Which is why you couldn't catch feelings, it would just end up in painful pining on your side and countless sleepless nights. Besides… what were you thinking anyway? You had Yami after all. If anything, that was the reason why you shouldn't fall for another guy.

Except it wasn't.

If you were honest with yourself, the only reason you tried to stop yourself from crushing on Katsuki was that you knew that you wouldn't have a chance with him anyway. Yami was secondary. It sounded harsh, but you couldn't help it. It wasn't as though you didn't have feelings for him anymore. He did help you through a tough time after all.

But goddamn, he was stubborn and not very supportive at all. He was the exact opposite of what he used to be, and you wondered when that had happened. In your mind, he was the sweetest boy you had ever met, and then, all of a sudden, he wasn't. He was quite controlling and way too jealous. You felt as though he was possessive and you didn't like that at all.

You decided that you needed to have a talk with him once you were back from the camping trip. Tell him that he had to change if he wanted things between the two of you to work out. You were willing to make it work, but only if he did his part too.

"Did we get everything on the list?" Katsuki's voice suddenly ripped you out of your thoughts.

You looked at him, blinking a few times, as though he was the first person you had ever seen, and you needed to get used to the sight of another human. "Eh, yeah, I think so." You sounded absentminded, and you didn't mean to, but you couldn't help yourself. You had a lot to think about after all.

The way back to the dorms was quiet, you were utterly lost in your own world. Until all of a sudden, Eiji's voice brought you back into reality. "Hey, (y/n), isn't that Yami over there?"

You looked up in the direction Eiji was pointing at. He was right. Yami was dressed in a way that you had never seen him dressed before. He would usually wear his school uniform or smart casual clothes when you met on weekends. But right now, he was wearing black skinny jeans, a grey hoodie that was covering part of his hair, and a leather jacket. You couldn't help but think how hot he looked in this attire. But it confused you, what was he up to?

You suddenly realised how little you actually knew about his life. You had never met any of his friends, only knew that he was living with one of them. You had never met his parents either. He was telling you about school and his friends, but you had no actual proof of anything. Who was he really? This thought filled you with dread.

"I want to follow him," you suddenly said.

Your friends exchanged a quick glance. "I don't think that's a good idea," Eijiro said, trying to change your mind.

But all three of you knew that you had already made up your mind. Reluctantly they followed you. Yami was very cautious, moving slowly, looking around every few minutes. You were glad that UA had taught you how to tail people without being suspicious. So after following your boyfriend for about ten minutes, he finally reached his destination.

You watched him from around a corner. Far enough not to be seen, but close enough to hear whatever was going on. Yami knocked on the door in front of him. Clearly following a specific pattern, almost like an entry password. It took a few minutes until the door finally opened.

You held your breath. Whoever it was, they didn't step out, so you had no idea who it could be. "What the fuck, Yami. You got some explaining to do," the person inside the building said. The voice was unquestionably that of a man.

You could see Yami flinch a little, he looked uncomfortable. "I fucking know that already. It's more difficult than I thought, okay."

"Don't tell me that. I thought this whole idea was dumb from the get-go. You gotta explain yourself to him.”

Yami was fidgeting back and forth, clearly not wanting to go inside. "For fuck's sake," the man said, grabbing Yami by the shoulder and pulling him inside.

You were confused. So incredibly confused. What had just happened? Who was that person? What had Yami gotten himself into? Him? Was he talking about Yami's boss that had messed up his face?

The scene that had just unfolded in front of you played through your head over and over again. But one small detail had clearly escaped your eyes. Your friends, however, had both noticed it.

They both recognised what appeared for a split second when the jacket of the man that pulled Yami inside had slipped up his arm.

Both boys had seen the same, and for Katsuki especially, it was something that he would always be able to recognise. They knew what that meant, which was the reason for the look of terror on both their faces.

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After you got back to the dorms, you immediately excused yourself, pretty much sprinting to your room. You had to think things through logically. Think of scenarios that could have put Yami into this situation. Think of possible solutions. He was clearly not comfortable, and whoever it was that had pulled him inside had been incredibly rude towards him. You felt the urge to help him. Not just because he was your boyfriend, but also because he was a good person and you didn't want him to be in danger.

Maybe the reason he had been so weird towards you was that he had gotten himself into trouble and he was afraid to lose you too.

You decided to call him and interrogate him without being too obvious. You knew you couldn't just tell him that you had followed him. But you also couldn't ignore what you had seen.

While you were calling Yami, your two friends had an emergency meeting in Katsuki's room.

"Dude, we got to tell her!" Eijiro said, panic still in his voice.

Katsuki was walking through his room like a lion in a cage, pacing back and forth. "We can't. We don't even know what exactly it was that we have seen."

"I don't understand why you're against it. Telling (y/n) would make her break up with Yami instantly. Paving the way for you, you know."

Katsuki stopped and shook his head. "No. Firstly we don't know if she would believe us, we just saw it for a split second, it's not enough evidence. Second, if we're right, and she finds out, god… she'll never trust anyone again. We need to keep this to from her. For now, at least."

Eijiro thought for a moment. "Fuck, I think you might be right. But we need to tell someone. Like a pro hero, someone who can look out for her."

"I agree, and I think I know exactly who to talk to. Her- Someone close to her is a pro with a lot of connections, I'll talk to them immediately." The moment Katsuki had said these words, he realised what he had done.

Eijiro looked at him, confused. "Someone close to her? I've known her my entire life, and I have no idea who you're talking about."

Katsuki wanted to punch himself. He had totally forgotten how well Eiji knew you, this was definitely something that would have come up before. The blonde scratched his head.

"I guess it's rather complicated," he said. "I had to swear to keep it to myself, it's something she's never told anyone else before."

Eijiro sighed. "Oh man, not gonna lie, I'm really nosy right about now." He gave off a little pout. "But fair enough if you can't talk about it. As long as you talk to them, that's all that matters."

And so the two friends split up, Eijiro was going to check on you, making sure you were alright, while Katsuki went to get some advice from a pro hero.

When Eijiro knocked on your door, you opened immediately, looking like a total mess. "What happened, (y/n)?"

You started sobbing. "I can't reach Yami. He just doesn't pick up. It says he's been reading my messages, but he doesn't reply. And when I call, it goes straight to voice mail. What if these guys have hurt him, Eiji?"

Your friend didn't know what to say. He knew something that you didn't, but then again, what exactly was it that he knew? He couldn't make it obvious, he had to keep it on the low for now. "I'm sure he's fine. He'll get in touch with you soon. It probably wasn't as bad as it looked anyway."

You wanted to believe him, but you couldn't. Part of you wanted to run back to the place you had last seen him, knock on the door and not leave until you had him back, safe and sound. But your brain knew better than your heart, so you stayed put. Crying in your room, Eiji consoling you, neither of you knew what to do.

And so the weekend passed, as did the following days. By Thursday you still hadn't heard from him. All alarm bells were ringing in your head, and you didn't know what you were supposed to do. Everything felt dull. More dread in your body than oxygen and a concerning lack of serotonin. No matter how much Katsuki and Eiji tried to cheer you up.

You just knew that something terrible had happened to him.

You had already forgotten why you had been mad at him in the first place. You had forgotten why you had felt uneasy about him. Forgotten about his possessive behaviour and all the doubts you had had. Everything was replaced by excessive worrying. You knew he would never ignore you like that unless something disastrous had happened to him.

In Katsuki's mind, Yami was playing a game. He was damn sure that the blue-eyed boy was fine, and that ghosting you was his way of working you up so much, that you forgot all emotions other than worry. And it seemed to be working. You had told Katsuki about how controlling Yami had been, but ever since he went radio silent, you only spoke good things of him.

It was pissing Katsuki off. He was clearly trying to manipulate you into forgiving him, and he couldn't let that happen. However, every time that Katsuki would as much as suggest that this was a possibility, you dismissed it immediately, getting angry with the blonde. So he opted to shut up. Observing everything and intervening should Yami even try to pull mind tricks on you.

And as though Katsuki had called it, Friday afternoon Yami finally rang you. Wasn't that convenient timing… You had just returned from buying the last bits of food for your trip the next day and were currently packing your bag.

Katsuki was sitting on your bed, god how he had missed that. He was watching your every move, wondering when you'd finally be his again. He swore to himself that the moment you were back in his arms, he would tell the world just how much he loved you. Never again would he keep your relationship a secret, no matter what you would say.

The sound of his rival's name, leaving your lips made him snap out of his thoughts.

"Yami! Are you okay?" You sounded so incredibly upset, and Katsuki hated the blue-eyed boy for making you go through this.

He wanted to listen in on the conversation so badly, but he couldn't just ask you to put on the loudspeaker. To his surprise, you did precisely that, however. The only reason being so that you could finish packing while talking to your boyfriend.

"Yeah. Are you alone?"

You looked at Katsuki, not sure what to say. You knew Yami would potentially be pissed off if he found out that you were hanging out with the blonde again. The latter gave you a quick nod, agreeing with you and silently telling you to lie. You felt terrible to do this to Yami, but you had worried so much about him and didn't want to argue again.

"I am. Why are you asking?"

For a moment, there was silence. "Because we need to talk and I don't want anyone to interrupt us." His voice sounded harsh. None of the sweetness that you had adored so much was left. Instead, he kind of scared you.

Both, you and Katsuki, looked at each other. You had an uneasy feeling about this, was he going to break up with you? "Okay, I'm all ears," you eventually replied.

He took a deep breath. "I felt terrible after our argument. I know I said things that I shouldn't have, but I want to make it up to you."

You were surprised, but you wouldn't let his disappearance slide that easily. "Where were you over the past days? I was worried." You decided to ignore his apology.

Busy.

You couldn't believe how cold he was. "Geez Yami, I need a better explanation than that. You can't just disappear and expect me to not want an explanation."

Fine. Remember when I told you I had a job? Well, I did that so I could afford to book a weekend trip for us. I worked overtime, which is why I couldn't get in touch."

Katsuki couldn't help but roll his eyes. What absolute bullshit.

Your heart was skipping a beat. That was really sweet of Yami. Although you weren't entirely happy about the fact that he had seemed to have associated with some shady people to get the money. "I appreciate that, Yami. But you didn't have to do that."

"I know, but I wanted to. I wanted to make it up to you, princess, and spend some quality time with you."

You couldn't help but cringe. You used to love when Yami called you princess, so why did it feel so weird all of a sudden? Katsuki cringed as well, almost threw up even. He hated that you were with someone else and that this guy got to call you by pet names, while he didn't have that right anymore.

But by judging your facial expression, Katsuki could tell that you didn't seem to like it, which made him laugh internally. Take that you blue-eyed prick.

You cleared your throat. "Sounds good to me. So where are we going? Any dates in mind yet?"

"I booked us a hotel in an onsen resort in the mountains."

Katsuki tried hard not to explode on the spot. The thought of you being in a hotel room with a man that wasn't him made him sick. The idea of someone else kissing you, touching your body and… He tried hard to steady his breath, get these thoughts out of his head. But he only made them worse.

He suddenly wondered whether you had slept with Yami yet. The thought was accompanied by mental images. It was revolting. Anxiety was creeping through him, and he desperately needed confirmation. But he couldn't just ask you about it. As though you had heard his thoughts, you spoke up. You had turned away from your friend, and what you said was merely a whisper, but he could catch it nonetheless.

"Yami… We haven't even… you know. I don't think I'm comfortable with this."

Katsuki took a deep breath. He couldn't put into words just how relieved he was to hear those words.

Yami chuckled. "It's about time we did it though. Don't you think?"

You turned around, looking at Katsuki in utter shock. You had no idea what to say. He just raised his eyebrows. God, this situation was so awkward. “I d-don’t think I’m r-ready for that.

"That's fine. We don't have to sleep together to enjoy a weekend away," Yami promised.

You were still unsure, the thought of being alone with him for an entire weekend made you slightly uncomfortable, and you didn't know why. He was your boyfriend, after all. It was natural to spend time together, you just had to get over your shyness.

"All right," you said, breaking Katsuki's heart. "When have you planned the trip for?"

" We're leaving in the morning. I'll come to pick you up."

You were speechless. "In the morning? As in tomorrow morning?"

Yeah.

Here we fucking go. Katsuki thought. He knew that Yami would be up to something.

You shook your head. " I'm sorry, but I can't do it this weekend. You know that I'm going camping with my friends."

"Oh. You're still doing that? I thought it was just one of your weird ideas that you would change your mind on."

Ouch. That hurt. Weird ideas? Who did he think he was? Katsuki wanted to jump through the speakers of your phone and come out the other end, ripping Yami's head off.

"Of course, I'm still doing this. I have been looking forward to the trip."

Yami sighed loudly. “Wow. So I go working for weeks, do overtime even, to book a romantic getaway for my girlfriend, only to be rejected by her so she can go camping with a bunch of people that only care about her when it's convenient for them?"

"What the hell, Yami. I have told you so many times to stop talking about my friends like that." You sounded pissed off, and Katsuki couldn't believe just how manipulative Yami was. Had he been like this the entire time? No wonder you had gone off the rails like this. That boyfriend of yours seemed to be a master in fucking with your mind.

Yami's silence made you even angrier. "Besides, you knew about my trip. The fact that you went ahead and made plans for us the same weekend isn't my fault. Stop trying to play the victim now."

Katsuki grinned internally. That’s my girl. God, he worshipped you and that feisty side of yours. It had been way too long since he had seen it.

"You're right," Yami eventually said. "I should've known that you wouldn't change your mind on something that your friends talked you into. I will change the booking, we can do it another time."

You wanted to say that he could shove this trip to where the sun didn't shine, but instead, you kept quiet. Just because you were angry and he had used the wrong words, didn't change the fact that he had worked hard to afford this trip for you.

"I just really miss you."

You didn't reply. You didn't know what to respond. You missed Yami too, but you missed the old Yami. The one you had fallen for so quickly. The way he was now he wasn't what you wanted. You felt selfish, you knew he had his reasons, and he had a hard life. You knew that he was just protective of you and that he had a weird way of expressing it. But either way, you couldn't say that you missed him too. Not while being genuine anyway.

He noticed your lack of response, however. "Don't you miss me too?"

"Y-yeah. Of course, I do." You were clearly lying, and both, Katsuki and Yami noticed that immediately.

There was another moment of silence. Your blonde friend could sense just how uncomfortable and upset you were. So he stood up, walking towards you. You looked at him, surprised, to say the least. He didn't know whether it was the right thing to do at this moment, but he couldn't help himself.

And so he embraced you in a warm hug. It felt comforting, soothing. Much different to the calmness you felt around Yami. It felt more genuine, as though his presence was everything you didn't know you needed. He smelled of autumn, he smelled like home.

You knew he was trying to comfort you, calm you down. And while it worked to some degree, he also made your heart beat infinitely faster. You had sworn that you wouldn't develop a crush on Katsuki, and yet here you were, in his arms, while talking to your boyfriend on the phone.

You felt so guilty, but at the same time, it felt so incredibly right. Like this was where you had belonged all this time. But you knew that Katsuki's gesture was just that of a friend trying to comfort you and you really needed to stop interpreting too much into it.

He let go of you, giving you a reassuring smile. You smiled back at him, and for a moment, you were just looking into each other's eyes. It still amazed you how handsome he looked without the constant scowl on his face.

Your boyfriend's voice averted your attention back to your phone.

Huh?” You asked, still looking into Katsuki's eyes. Damn, you could really lose yourself in the crimson before you.

Yami clicked his tongue. "I told you to give me the location of where you guys are camping."

Why?” You asked, surprised.

Just in case of an emergency.

You were still looking at your friend and saw him shaking his head. You wondered why he didn't want you to tell Yami the location, but you trusted Katsuki, so you listened to him.

" I'm sorry, but I don't know the location. The others have planned this, I'm just tagging along." It wasn't even a lie. You really didn't know where exactly you were going.

Yami sighed. “Fine. At least leave your location settings turned on on your phone. That way I can track you if necessary."

Now that was just weird. Even to you. But you didn't want to start another argument. “Sure.

Thanks.

The conversation had taken such an odd turn, and you didn't know what to think about that. All you wanted now was to hang up. "Listen, Yami. I gotta finish packing, so I have to hang up. I'll speak to you when I'm back."

"Okay, take care, please. I love you."

Those words shocked you. You had talked about falling in love with each other, but the magic three words hadn't left your lips yet. It took you by surprise, and you didn't know what to say. Deep down, you knew that the feelings you felt for him were still somewhat there, but could they be considered love?

Katsuki was holding his breath. He was still looking at you, studying your reactions. It pissed him off to hear Yami tell you that he loved you, and he was afraid that you would reciprocate those words. But what left your lips was something he had never expected.

"Oh, okay. Thanks. Bye now.” And with that, you hung up. Facepalming yourself immediately.

Katsuki couldn't help but start laughing. "That was the best reaction to someone being told 'I love you' that I have ever seen."

"That's not funny, Katsuki!" You whined. "It was really harsh… wasn't it?"

The blonde shrugged his shoulders. "A little, maybe. But fuck, he deserved it."

"What do you mean?"

Katsuki took a deep breath. "I know that you're a brilliant person, (y/n). Are you really trying to tell me that you can't see how manipulative he is?"

"I…" You didn't know what to say. You knew precisely where Katsuki was coming from, and you couldn't even blame him, but was Yami really trying to manipulate you? He had been so sweet and made so many sacrifices for you. You were pretty sure that he just had an unreasonable fear of rejection and loss which made him clingy.

But you couldn't entirely shake off the feeling that Katsuki was right. Speaking of… "How come you didn't want him to know the location of our camping trip?"

"Dunno, I just have a bad feeling about it." It wasn't a complete lie. Only that he knew why he had a bad feeling about this, he just couldn't make sense of it yet.

What he had seen when the person had dragged Yami inside the building was something that he would never in his entire life forget. He too had been pulled in by this hand before. And he still remembered the trauma. He didn't like to admit it, but he had seen this hand in his nightmares for the longest time.

It was you who had helped him fight these demons inside of him, and he would never be able to thank you enough.

Which is why he had to protect you at all costs. He would always be there for you, just as much as you had always been there for him. He didn't know what would happen over the coming weeks, he had a feeling that things would take a turn for the worse, but he would be right there by your side.

For now, all he could do was to keep an eye on you and make sure that you were as happy as you could possibly be. And the first step towards that was the trip that you would be embarking on the very next morning.

You looked at him, you had no idea why he had a bad feeling about letting Yami know, but you trusted him. Katsuki was smart and strategic, someone every ally could rely on. Yami had indeed been odd as of late, so if Katsuki thought it would be for the best to keep your boyfriend in the dark, then you would do so. You'd ask your friend about his reasons later, right now you wanted to enjoy the weekend.

"Well, I think that's me done with packing," you said with a big smile. "Shall we get some dinner?"

Katsuki smiled back. "Was about time. I'm starving."

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When you walked outside the next morning, you felt like an anxious mess. You were pretty sure that Denki and Hanta would welcome you with open arms, but that was because you hadn't done anything to them in particular. It was Mina's reaction you were worried about.

When you arrived outside, you saw Katsuki packing the car. Everyone in your small group was eighteen by now, well, everyone except for you and Eiji. It still felt weird to think that you were about to be of legal age and that you would soon be graduating. You didn't have your driver's licence yet, as you weren't allowed to drive until your eighteenth birthday, Katsuki however, already had his licence, him being the oldest in the group.

He didn't have his own car, but his parents were kind enough to let him borrow one of theirs for the weekend. According to Eiji, Katsuki was a surprisingly good driver, you couldn't quite believe it, but you would soon find out for yourself.

"Stop shaking like that, you're irritating me," Katsuki said, grabbing your hands and holding them still. His hands were wrapped around yours, his palms so warm and large, as though your hands were covered by a small blanket.

You couldn't help but blush. Katsuki's gesture was by no means romantic, not even very friendly. Quite frankly, if anyone else would have grabbed your hands like that, you would have probably felt uncomfortable. But you didn't. Somehow, having Katsuki touch you like this made you feel warm and fuzzy inside.

You just couldn't explain the way your body reacted when you were around him. Every little touch was electric, and you could stare into his eyes until your own dried out from the lack of blinking.

And that was precisely what you were doing at this moment. The two of you were standing there, hands awkwardly connected, and eyes locked. Blending out everything around you.

Which was why neither of you realised that the rest of your group was approaching. They stopped when they saw you standing by the car. "What the hell is she doing here?" Mina asked, unsure of how to feel.

"She wants to make up with everyone. Please give her a chance," Eijiro replied.

Mina clicked her tongue. "Of course, I will. I just wanted her to make the first step."

"Seems like someone else is making first steps too," Hanta quipped, pointing at your hands that were still covered by Katsuki’s.

"Yeah. What's up with that? Did we miss something?" Denki asked, confused.

Eijiro shrugged his shoulders. "Nah, they just started training together and… have a good connection, I guess."

"I know her so well, I can tell she fancies him," Mina said with a smirk.

Hanta raised his eyebrows. "So she finally broke up with that other dude?"

"Nope," Eijiro sighed. "Just give it some time guys, and don't tease them too much. We'll see what happens."

The others agreed, promising that they wouldn't wind you up over your chemistry with Katsuki. They knew that if they pried too much and gave you too hard of a time, both you and Katsuki would retreat back into your shells. You clearly hadn't realised that you liked each other yet.

Only that Katsuki did realise, his friends just didn't know about it. He had been in love with you for so long and slowly being able to come closer to you again, was sparking feelings that were even stronger than before. He used to be so sure and confident around you, knowing exactly what to say or do to make you blush or all giddy. He had enjoyed it so much, and he still did, considering that it was still the same things that made you react that way.

But now, seeing your blush, made him blush too. It had been so long that he had seen you react to him in this way, he couldn't help but behave like a lovesick boy. You were everything to him, and he could feel that you were starting to feel the same again. He knew it would take time, but he would get there eventually. And when the time came, he would show you off to the world, never letting you go again.

You were trying to figure out what Katsuki was thinking about, his eyes filled with something that you couldn't read. You didn't know why, but him holding onto you like this, made you feel a lot calmer and you stopped shaking.

"That's better," Katsuki said. "You'll be fine, they won't bite you." He paused for a second. "And if they do, then I bite them back."

You couldn't help but laugh. You broke eye contact, giggling like a little girl. Katsuki was looking down at you, watching you laugh. His facial expression showed that he was amused by your outburst, but his eyes only showed love. He had to really pull himself together if he didn't want to make it too blatant.

You looked up, wiping a stray tear from your eye. "Thanks." The smile you gave him was blinding.

He clicked his tongue and ruffled your hair, an attempt to prevent you from seeing the blush on his face. "Don't get used to it, idiot."

"Oh my, he's got it bad for her," Denki said, seemingly shocked. "Never thought I'd see the day."

Mina chuckled. "Is that what a domesticated Katsuki looks like?"

The four friends couldn't help but laugh, which alerted you to their presence. You hoped that they hadn't seen the banter between you and Katsuki, you didn't want them to get the wrong idea. You were still with Yami after all. You didn't want to look like that kind of person. It was all just platonic between you anyway. So why were you worried about what they thought?

Katsuki immediately retracted his hand, pretending that he was hard at work, rearranging the contents in the car. It was totally obvious to everyone, but he wanted to keep up his facade around his friends at least. It was bad enough that Eijiro had seen him looking and acting like a total mess.

When your friends stopped in front of you, you almost didn't dare to look up. You quickly picked up the bags filled with Mina's favourite sweets that you had placed on the roof of the car and extended your arms. Bowing deeply you said. "I'm really sorry. I know I've acted like an ass. But I brought sweets. So, please-"

But your awkward apology was interrupted by Mina taking a step towards you and hugging you tightly. You lowered your arms, hugging her back. "It's okay, (y/n). I missed you so much! I'm so happy that you're here," Mina said, making you insanely happy.

You could feel the packets of sweets being taken out of your hands. You let go of Mina, looking at the culprit. Denki gave you a sly smirk, shoving his hand in the now open bag. "They're mine now."

You all started laughing, and you quickly stepped forward, hugging Denki and Sero. Taking a step back, you looked at the group. "I love you guys, and I'm sorry for behaving like a little brat over the past months."

Denki waved his hand. "Don't sweat it, babe. You've been through a lot. All that matters is that we're all together now."

You wanted to say so much more, but you decided to stay quiet. There was nothing else that needed to be said at this point, and you thought it would be best to just have a good time and show your friends that you were back to normal.

Soon after, you had packed the car and were on your way to the woods where you'd be spending the night. The car wasn't big enough for everyone, so Mina had to lay across the backseat row, her head resting on Eijiro's crotch. You were sitting in the front next to Katsuki, you didn't quite know why, as usually the passenger seat was the most desired. Hanta said that he would get sick if he were to sit in the front. Denki said he wanted to sit cosy in the middle, so he had shoulders to lean on should he take a nap. Eijiro said he wasn't bothered, but said he would prefer sitting in the back. Mina was all over the idea of laying on top of her friends, so it was a no brainer for her.

You didn't quite believe either of them, but you didn't pry much further. You were quite glad to sit in the front. That way, you were able to talk to Katsuki for the duration of the journey, and you wouldn't be sandwiched between your friends. Neither you nor Katsuki realised that your friends had set you up. They were on a mission now, and nothing would stop them.

After an hour of driving, you looked over your shoulder, Hanta and Denki were both asleep, so was Mina. The only one still awake was Eiji, and he was a blushing mess. You looked closer and saw that Mina was face down laying on the red-haired boy's crotch. You couldn't help but giggle, and he looked at you with big eyes, silently begging you to help him.

You enjoyed the sight way too much, knowing how big of a crush Eiji had on your friend. What he didn't realise was that Mina felt the exact same. She had never told you that she felt that way, but you could tell by the way she looked at him and always asked you trivial questions. Part of you thought that Mina didn't tell you because she knew that even though she was your best friend, Eiji would always be your number one. She was probably afraid that you would tell him, or worse, tell her that he didn't feel the same. But no matter how many hints you had dropped, how obvious you had made it, she still didn't realise that her crush was mutual and that it was okay to open up about it.

When you had realised that you were missing the memories of almost two years, you had thought that they would have sorted their feelings out in the meantime, but they still hadn't done that. You swore yourself that you would manage to finally help them confess to each other this weekend, no matter the cost.

Katsuki looked at you from the side before concentrating back on the road. He couldn't help but worry about your safety. Part of him wanted to cancel the entire trip, too afraid that Yami might find the location and that he would harm you. But Katsuki didn't have any actual proof that Yami was up to something shady. He knew that the blue-eyed boy was associating with the wrong bunch of people, and he also knew that he was a master manipulator, but he struggled to see the bigger picture.

He didn't think it would have been a good idea to cancel the weekend plans based on assumptions. You would have wanted to know the reason, and he hated lying to you. He would have also had to tell the rest of the group, and that would have gotten all of them involved too, which he wanted to prevent.

Instead, he had told a pro hero that was close to you. That particular person, unfortunately, couldn't do much on their own, but they promised to have someone keep an eye on the situation. They were aware of the trip and knew the location, they would be there in no time should something happen.

But Katsuki had a good feeling, he didn't think that anything terrible would happen over the next couple days. He didn't know whether that was wishful thinking or not, but he had done everything to keep you safe. Now it was time to enjoy the weekend and get closer to you once more.

After a two hour journey, you had finally reached your destination. You had never been to this place before, but you loved it from the moment you stepped out of the car. It was beautiful. You couldn't hide your excitement, and Katsuki enjoyed the sight of you being so happy. You were as ecstatic as a little kid that was going camping for the very first time.

You didn't just camp in the woods, knowing that it would probably not be that great of an idea. Instead, you had booked a plot of land in a camping resort. There were plots all over the forest, it was still pretty secluded, and you didn't have any pesky neighbours. However, there were bathrooms so you could at least go to a proper toilet and take a shower in the morning.

You were able to park the car right next to where you were setting up camp, which was great because you didn't have to carry all your stuff through the forest. Eiji who had planned this trip was even more excited than you were. "Okay, guys. Let's set up the tents as quickly as possible so that we can begin the main event."

"The main event?" You asked, confused.

He gave you a toothy grin. "I got a little surprise for you all."

And just like that, everyone suddenly hurried to set up camp. The boys seemed to be able to build their tents reasonably quickly, you and Mina, however, had more than a little trouble. "Mina, this part needs to be fed through the fabric before sticking it into the ground," you said, showing her the instructions.

"Oh shit, you're right."

Katsuki and Eijiro were watching you, neither of them could help themselves from chuckling. "Seems like we fell for a couple of morons," Katsuki said.

Eijiro looked at him. "I never thought you would so openly admit to your feelings."

Katsuki raised his eyebrows and pursed his lips. "You saw me cry, dude. No use in pretending anything in front of you anymore. That train has left the station."

Eijiro couldn't help but grin. He had always known that this version of Katsuki was hidden inside of him, he just didn't expect that it was you who would make Katsuki show it. But no matter the reason, Eiji was incredibly happy that his best friend opened up. He had always wanted to have these manly conversations about girls with him, and now that was finally the case, and it filled him with pride.

"I love you, buddy."

Katsuki looked at the red-haired boy in front of him, bewildered almost. "What the fuck?"

"I dunno, man. I just felt like telling you. You're my best mate, I wanted to let you know."

The blonde scratched his head, awkwardly blushing. "I guess… I feel the same. Thanks for always being there for me, even though I'm a shitty friend most of the time."

Eijiro had the strong urge to hug his friend, the latter trying to resist the manly embrace, but eventually giving up. Neither you nor Mina took notice of the boys' gesture or their conversation. You were still occupied with trying to untangle the mess that was your tent.

"This is painful to watch," Katsuki eventually said, his eyes back on you instead of his friend.

Eijiro nodded. "Yeah, let's help them out."

They walked over to you, the red-haired boy being the first to speak up. "Hey, ladies, need a hand?"

"No. We're very capable on our own," you said, looking up and crossing your arms in front of your chest. Not wanting to admit defeat.

Katsuki clicked his tongue. "Doesn't look like it. I'd leave you two be, but we don't have all day to waste, so move over."

You gave him a glare, but a small smirk on his face made you immediately forget everything you were about to say. "Well, whatever…"

And so the two boys started helping you to set up your tent.

Denki and Hanta observed everything from their camping chairs. "Dude, we're totally going to be the third wheel. I didn't know this would be a couple's retreat."

Denki nodded. "I feel left out. Why aren't there any ladies for us?" He couldn't help but pout.

"Well, for starters, you're a loser."

Denki looked at his friend, offended. "Like you're one to talk."

"I just haven't found anyone I fancy yet, that's all," Hanta said, knowing full well that that was a lie. "You just try to flirt with every girl you see, and it backfires every single time. You never learn."

The blonde gasped. "You're officially uninvited from my sweet sixteen birthday bash."

"You turned eighteen like two months ago."

Denki shrugged his shoulders. "Doesn't matter. You're still uninvited."

Hanta just rolled his eyes, couldn't help himself from laughing though. If they were the odd ones out during this trip, at least they had each other.

Twenty minutes later, your tent was finally up, and you put all your stuff inside. The campsite finally looked like what it was supposed to look like. The tents were set up in a circle, a fireplace in the middle, surrounded by camping chairs. You were looking forward to the evening.

But first came Eijiro's surprise. "All right, Eiji. What now?"

"All I can say is that you will all need your bathing suits and swimming shorts."

You and Mina squealed. That sounded like a lot of fun. You quickly went inside your tent and changed into your bikinis. The boys also changed into their shorts; however, they were ready way before you and your friend.

It seemed as though you forgot that the tents didn't have solid walls and that everything you said was very much audible to the group waiting on the other side. “(y/n)! I haven't seen your boobs like that in ages. They've gotten so big."

The boys just looked at each other, not knowing how to react.

"You think so? They're really heavy, it's quite annoying."

Mina giggled. "They feel really soft, though. Oh wow, they fill my entire hand."

Everyone standing outside the tent was now a blushing mess. Katsuki had his hands in his pockets, kicking dirt and trying hard to look anywhere but the tent. Thinking about your bare body inside that tent, he could barely contain himself.

Hanta and Denki were pretending that they were having a conversation, but they weren't even moving their lips, a futile effort. Eijiro stood right in front of the tent, seemingly frozen to the spot. That the person he considered to be his sister was naked in front of his crush was too much for him to take.

"Oh, Mina, don't touch me there. That's sensitive." They could hear your voice.

Mina giggled. "Relax, (y/n), I'll be gentle. Here, you can touch me too."

"So soft…" You said surprised.

The boys could hear Mina's breath hitch, and Katsuki officially had enough of this. He cleared his throat. "Are you two about done in there? You're taking your sweet ass time."

Denki and Hanta both stared at him. As though to say: Why are you ruining this for us?

But Katsuki just clicked his tongue, looking away from the group. He didn't want you to be touched by anyone that wasn't him. It didn't matter whether it was a boy or another girl.

Not even two minutes later, you came out of the tent, followed by Mina. You stretched yourself and smiled at the boys. "We're good to go."

The boys stared at you for a second, before regaining their composure. "All right. Let's get going then," Eiji said, leading the way away from the campsite.

Unbeknownst to the guys, Mina and you knew full well that they had been able to hear you. Which was precisely why you had pulled off this little stunt. You were just trying to mess with the boys, and you had clearly succeeded. Judging by how flustered they still were.

After a short ten minute walk, the trees suddenly cleared and you stood in front of a beautiful big lake. There were other people there, but they were on the opposite side. Far away from you to not bother you. It was beautiful. "Eiji! This is amazing!" You said, immediately stripping out of your clothes, leaving you in your bikini.

You had a water-based quirk, so naturally, you loved the water, it made you feel safe. Katsuki couldn't help but blatantly stare at you. Fuck, he had missed seeing you like that. It was then that he realised how he didn't just miss your love, but also your physical connection. At this moment, he wanted nothing more than to throw you over his shoulders and carry you to his tent. But for obvious reasons, he couldn't do that, and it frustrated him.

"Last in the water is a smelly villain!" You yelled, running down the little dock and jumping into the lake with a loud splash.

Your friends were laughing, and Mina shook her head. "I forgot how much she loves water."

Not even a minute later, everyone else had peeled off the clothes they were wearing on top of their swim attire and followed you into the lake. The water was surprisingly warm for a late September day, although, it had been scorching this year.

You quickly started splashing each other with water, you had the clear advantage of your quirk. "Guys, I have an idea! This is something Eiji and I used to do when we were younger," you suddenly said excitedly.

You looked at your best friend, and he immediately knew what you were talking about. You swam away from the group a little and started concentrating. Your quirk was very versatile, being able to control water in all its stages. You could transform water into steam or ice, and vice versa. You could shape the molecules however you wanted, making liquid, solid, and gaseous H2O very dangerous if you so wished. Yes, there were drawbacks to your quirk, but while being in a large body of water, those drawbacks were pretty much non-existent.

You focused your energy on Eiji, slowly building a bubble made out of water around him. You called this liquid prison, it was basically a huge water bubble that you could form whenever you had enough water at your disposal. Those bubbles were surprisingly sturdy, not many people had managed to make them burst. If you caught an opponent off guard, you could trap them inside of this, imprisoning them.

You were currently building this bubble around Eiji, lifting him out of the lake, a good few feet above the water. He was just hovering in the air, sitting in the water bubble, waving down at the rest of you. You were still raising him further until he showed you a thumbs up, signalising you that he was high enough.

And with a snap of your finger, the bubble burst and he dropped right into the water. You couldn't stop laughing, and your friend soon came back to the surface, laughing just as much as you did. You high fived each other. "God, we haven't done that in years!" Eiji said grinning.

You looked towards the rest of your friends, all of them having a somewhat disturbed expression on their faces. "You did this reckless shit when you were kids?" Katsuki asked, concerned.

"Y-yeah?!" You didn't know what was so wrong about that.

"I'm surprised neither of you drowned," Hanta said eventually.

Eiji scratched his head. "It's really not as dangerous as it looks. It's a ton of fun."

That was enough to convince Mina. "Okay, I'm next!"

You started giggling and built a bubble around her, lifting her up into the air. When she gave you the signal, you snapped your fingers, and she came falling down, screaming loudly. When she emerged from underwater, she was laughing hysterically. "This is the best thing ever!"

Hanta, who had been very cautious at first, wanted to go next. He too had a lot of fun. Then it was Denki's turn. But just before you started forming the bubble, you stopped in your tracks. "Wait a moment Denki, is it even safe for us to be in the water with you? You know, electricity and all that."

He looked offended. "We've had swimming lessons together. Stop discriminating against me." He pretended to pout and wiped away an imaginary tear.

You just rolled your eyes, forming a bubble around him. When he splashed into the water, you all somewhat expected an electric shock, but it turned out to be fine. “AGAIN!” He yelled the moment he emerged.

"It's Katsuki's turn first," you said, looking at the blonde.

He shook his head. "Like hell, am I going to do something so stupid."

You tilted your head a little. "You afraid, Ka-tsu-ki?"

"No," he growled. "Just not into this childish stuff." He was terrified, but he would never admit that. He hated not being in control, and if he were trapped in this bubble, he would be totally at your mercy. He didn't like that.

"I dunno about you, guys. But to me, it sounds like he's scared."

The others agreed, and Katsuki pursed his lips. "Fine. Whatever." He gave you permission to form a bubble around him and the moment he saw your grinning face, his features softened.

When you let him plop into the water, it took ages for him to come back to the surface. You were all a little worried. "What the hell happened?" Mina asked in a panic.

You shrugged your shoulders and decided to dive under, trying to search for the blonde. Part of your quirk was that you could hold your breath underwater for longer, and you were able to open your eyes and see through the water better than others.

But just when you were about to dive under, something grabbed your ankle. You yelped loudly, being pulled under. You quickly opened your eyes, frantically looking around. But you soon realised that it was Katsuki when he swam further up, wrapping his arms around you. The smirk on his face made you weak.

You quickly came back to the surface and started laughing. "Katsuki decided to become a merman."

The others laughed with you, and soon you were sitting on Katsuki's shoulders, trying to push over Mina and Denki who were on Eiji's and Hanta's shoulders respectively. You had managed to find a part of the lake where you were able to stand up, which was when you decided to play this little game.

Hours passed, and you had more fun than in the past few months combined. Eventually, your friends said that they had enough, their fingers starting to become pruney. You pouted and said that you wanted to stay a little longer. Katsuki saw this as a golden opportunity and said he'd stay with you while the others started to prepare dinner.

The moment you were alone, you started swimming further into the lake, leaving you unable to stand up. Katsuki, who was still able to touch the ground, could tell that you were a bit exhausted, but that you wanted to stay in the water nonetheless. "You can wrap your legs around me if you want," he offered, making you blush. "If you want to take a break from paddling your legs. I can stand up here, so I can support your weight."

You didn't need his help, you weren't that exhausted. But for some reason, the thought of having your legs wrapped around him sounded like the best thing ever to you. And so you did exactly that. Your legs wrapped around his waist and your arms around his neck. You were incredibly close to him, feeling the warmth radiating off of him. Smelling his incredible scent that not even the water could mask. You could see every feature on his face and every little detail in his eyes.

You realised then that the crush yu had tried to prevent, had long since developed into something much more significant than just a crush.

You wanted to know if he felt the same. Your gut instinct told you that he did, but you were still unsure. You didn't want to risk your friendship. So instead of doing anything, you just looked at each other. Never before had you been able to keep eye contact with another person like this before. You felt so comfortable, it was like magic.

You felt the need to say something, but you didn't know what. Just when you were about to speak up, Katsuki's soft lips silenced you.

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The moment you realised what was going on, you let go of Katsuki and pushed yourself away from him a little. He looked as confused as you felt and you didn't know what to do.

"What's wrong?" He asked you, now unsure of his actions.

You took a deep breath, trying to steady your heartbeat. "Katsuki, I… I have a boyfriend. You can't just kiss me."

The blonde didn't want to get angry. He wanted to stay calm, wanted to stay patient with you. He knew that everything was confusing for you and that he couldn't be too pushy. He was aware that you technically still had a boyfriend, but he also knew that you clearly didn't want to be with that blue-eyed bastard anymore. He didn't understand why you were still pretending to be loyal to your ‘boyfriend' when he so clearly tried to manipulate you.

Katsuki knew all of this, but he was frustrated. He had held back for so long, had cried over you so many times, had tried to win you back and thought he succeeded, but all of a sudden you decided to retreat.

Katsuki knew he would regret the words he was about to say, but he couldn't help himself. All the feelings he had suppressed just needed to be released.

"Oh, you have a boyfriend? Is that why you spend more time with me than him? Is that why you let me hug you all the time? Why you just wrapped yourself around my body? I understand that you're confused, but that isn't cool. If you're so loyal to that manipulative guy, then stop giving me wrong signals."

You were shocked by his words and judging by his facial expression, he was shocked too.

He didn't know whether he had fucked things up, but he did know that this had to be said. He wasn't expecting you to confess your undying love for him then and there, but he did want something. Anything to hold onto. He felt lost and lonely, he had thought everything was going in the right direction, but it felt as though you were just toying with him.

Deep down, he knew that this wasn't the case, but he was terrible with feelings, and this entire situation was too much for him. Clearly being understanding and patient wasn't working. He was fed up with it. He decided to leave you alone until you had sorted your feelings out. He couldn't keep up this strong facade around you any longer.

You watched him swim towards the dock, pulling himself out of the water. His muscular back flexing, making you bite your lip. You couldn't deny your attraction towards the blonde. He was right, you had done all of these things. And you had enjoyed the kiss you shared. But none of that mattered. Not as long as you were in a relationship with Yami.

You decided at that moment that you would break up with your boyfriend as soon as you returned from the trip. You didn't know whether you wanted to immediately start dating Katsuki, but at least you'd be free to do so without feeling like you were a cheater.

Yami deserved to hear those words before you started anything with another person.

You followed Katsuki out of the water. You were so confused. You didn't know what you were supposed to do or say. You watched him dry himself off, and all you wanted was to go over and hug him tightly. You realised that the blossoming feelings you had were mutual, and you wanted to see him happy.

"Katsuki," you said, calling out his name.

He looked at you, and you could see the hurt on his face. You didn't understand why he was that upset. Sure, the crush might have been mutual, but did he expect you to hook up with him while dating someone else? He should realise that you weren't that kind of person.

You didn't know what to say. Should you tell Katsuki that you would break up with Yami once you were back? Or should you just stay quiet until all was said and done and you could focus on figuring out your feelings for the blonde?

"Nothing," you mumbled quietly, making him look away once more.

The walk back to the camp was quiet and awkward. You didn't know what to say, you didn't want to make it worse. So you opted to keep your mouth shut and let out a breath of relief when you finally saw your friends.

"Did you have a nice swim?" Mina asked, winking like a moron.

You gave her a sad look, and she immediately shut up. "We're going for a walk," Mina said to the boys, dragging you away.

Eijiro looked from you to Katsuki and back, incredibly concerned. "Food is almost ready."

"We won't be long," your pink-haired friend promised.

For a moment, you were walking in silence. "So, what happened?" She asked.

You sighed deeply. "Well… He kinda kissed me."

Mina's eyes widened. "That's amazing!"

"You know I have a boyfriend… I can't just kiss other guys."

Your friend clicked her tongue. "Tch, boyfriend my ass. He's been manipulating you, (y/n). Katsuki is bringing out the best in you, just let it happen."

"Well, I'm thinking about breaking up with Yami once we're back home."

Mina struggled to hide her grin. "I think that's a good idea."

"Until then, however, I don't want to get closer to Katsuki. It doesn't feel right," you explained.

Your friend nodded. "Yeah, I understand that."

You stopped walking and looked at her. "Please promise me not to tell anyone that I'm going to break up with Yami. I want to do this in my own pace, and I don't want Katsuki to think that I'm going to start dating him as soon as I'm single. I want to take the time I need."

"Of course, I won't say anything. I pinky promise," Mina said. "Besides, I think it's best if you take it slow like you said. You've been through a lot, both physically and mentally, you need to look after yourself first."

You smiled at her. "Thanks, Mina. God, I missed you so much."

She embraced you in a long hug, and you realised just how much you had needed that. Never again would you neglect your friends. Never again would you want to argue with Mina. She was such a saint, and you loved her dearly.

While you were walking back, Eiji sought a similar conversation with Katsuki. Denki and Hanta had wandered off to find the toilets and showers, giving the other two room to talk.

"What happened, dude?" Eiji asked his friend.

The blonde clicked his tongue. "Tch. We kissed and all of a sudden she backs away and is all like ’Stop I have a boyfriend'. It's bullshit. Why is she giving me signals if she doesn't want to be with me?"

"Did she kiss you? Or the other way around?"

Katsuki sighed. "Well, I kissed her. But only after she pretty much wrapped herself around me. Like why would she do that if she wasn't into me?"

Eijiro didn't know what to say. He couldn't blame Katsuki for kissing you, especially not after you gave him signs like that. But Katsuki had to keep in mind that he had to be patient. "You gotta give her time, buddy. She's clearly crushing on you, but she's confused."

"Fuck. I know that… But I've shown more restraint than ever before. It's so hard, man. I just want to tell her. I want to tell her how much I love her and how much she used to love me. I can't do this anymore... this dumb act that I'm just a good friend. I've already fucked it up by kissing her, I might as well tell her everything."

Eijiro thought that this was a terrible idea. You definitely weren't ready to hear the truth. You had to break free from that stupid Yami first. "Honestly, don't act out of impulse now. You've come so far, don't mess it up by being-"

But before he could finish, the red-haired boy got interrupted by yourself and Mina coming back into the camp. The boys immediately stopped their conversation. They both looked at you, and how spaced out you looked. They could tell you weren't quite present.

"Good that you're back, ladies. Grab your plates, the bbq master has finished," Eiji announced.

You started laughing, and it made Katsuki's heart sink. Maybe he had misunderstood your signals after all. Perhaps you didn't have feelings for him, and he was just too blinded by what you used to have together, to see that. Maybe kissing you fucked everything up.

His demeanour hardened. No. Fuck that. He had done everything he could, had been there for you, acted as though he was fine while inside he was breaking apart. He would tell you that you had been a couple, that you belonged together. Thay you still belonged together.

He just had to find the right moment.

Lucky for him, after dinner, when the sun had set, and you had a bonfire flickering in the middle of your chair circle, the group decided to play some games.

"We should play Never have I ever," Mina suggested.

Denki sighed. "But we don't have any alcohol. Isn't that a drinking game?"

"Just take a sip of your coke and shut up," Mina answered, poking out her tongue.

Denki acted as though he was shocked, placing a hand over his heart. "How rude!"

Everyone in the group laughed, except for Katsuki. The latter was in a terrible mood, blatantly staring at you in the dark. He hated that you seemed to be unphased by what had happened earlier. He hated that he didn't know how exactly you felt about him. He hated that he loved you so much but that he could still not call you his.

The game began innocent, with things like Never have I ever skipped class, but soon enough, the questions took a turn. Suddenly it was very apparent that you were all a group of hormonal adolescents.

"Never have I ever had a steamy makeout session," Denki said with a sly smirk.

You raised your cup to your lips and took a sip of your soda. You looked around, but nobody else seemed to drink. You couldn't help but blush.

Katsuki, on the other hand, was boiling inside. He had had plenty of makeout sessions with you, but you didn't remember that, so the only reason you would drink was that you had done this with Yami. The thought made him sick, and he couldn't help himself from being jealous.

So he decided to also take a sip. It wasn't a lie, it had happened so many times, whether you remembered or not.

Everyone in the group looked at Katsuki with surprise in their eyes. Nobody would have thought that Katsuki would have done anything physical with another person, except for fighting, of course.

Eijiro studied his friend. What was he up to? Was he actually going to tell you that you had been a couple? The red-haired boy could see the rage in his friend's eyes. Was he acting out of jealousy? Eiji eyed you and could immediately tell that you couldn't stop staring at Katsuki.

Was he trying to make you jealous? Eiji shook his head a little. No, Katsuki wasn't that type of guy. He sighed internally. Maybe he was just overthinking things. He'd just have to leave you two be and see what would happen.

Your thoughts were racing. Katsuki had made out with someone before? Why did it bother you so much? He had every right to do that, after all. The next question ripped you out of your thoughts.

"Never have I ever been in a relationship," Mina said.

You took a sip for obvious reasons. Denki also took a sip. And so did Katsuki. You looked at him, his eyes staring right into your soul. What the hell was his problem? His look was so intense, it felt as though you were burning. But more than anything, you were upset. You didn't know he had been in a relationship before, and you also didn't know how to feel about that. Was that what jealousy felt like?

"As if you've ever had a girlfriend before, Denki," Mina laughed.

Denki crossed his arms in front of his chest. "Oh, that's hard to believe, is it? But that someone would actually willingly go out with Katsuki is easier to swallow?"

"By the way, Denki. A relationship you had in nursery school doesn't count," Hanta said amused.

Denki pouted. "Why the hell am I even hanging out with you guys."

It was Hanta's turn to open the next round. "Never have I ever been in love."

Eiji and Mina immediately took a sip, looking at each other from the corner of their eyes, blushing furiously. Denki and Hanta didn't drink. You were contemplating.

You had strong feelings for Yami, at least at one point. But was that was love was? You didn't feel like it was. It didn't feel as magical as you always thought it would. With Katsuki, however, it definitely felt like it was magic. But you knew that you weren't in love with him. At least not at this moment. You looked at him and found him looking back at you. Your heart was beating faster, but you decided not to drink.

Seeing you not drink, stung deep in Katsuki's heart. He knew that you didn't remember how in love with him you had been, but it was still painful. It also meant that you weren't in love with him at this very moment, another painful truth. But at least that also meant that you didn't have these strong feelings for Yami and that was better than nothing.

He, however, couldn't lie. He couldn't sit here and not drink. He was in love with you. Every atom of his was. So he took a sip, making you swallow hard.

Who was this girl that he had been in love with? The girl that he was in a relationship with… the person he had made out with. You were upset and suddenly didn't want to play the game anymore. Your friends, however, didn't get the message.

It would have been your turn, but Denki interrupted you. "Never have I ever slept with another person," he said.

There was nothing but silence, and nobody was drinking.

"I mean intercourse," he clarified, receiving a disgusted look from you. Why did he wanna know this in the first place?

Even after his explanation, nobody was drinking. Until suddenly, Katsuki did.

You started coughing. You certainly hadn't expected that. You knew that it wasn't any of your business, that it most likely happened before you started hanging out together, but you couldn't help being upset. The thought of Katsuki with another girl filled your head, and you wanted to cry.

You pictured him hovering over a girl that wasn't you. Panting, moaning a name that wasn't yours. You pictured his lips all over someone else's body and you couldn't bear it. You couldn't take the thought. Jealousy had spread throughout your entire being, consuming you, making you sick.

And that was the moment you realised that you were, in fact, quickly falling in love with Katsuki.

Eijiro could see how much this had upset you and he couldn't believe that Katsuki was so dumb. What was he trying to do? He was seriously throwing all caution overboard, and Eiji wanted to strangle his friend.

The latter was staring into the fire. He was pissed off. The reason he decided to be truthful was that he wanted you to ask about the person he had been with. He wanted you to ask, and then he would have looked at you and told you that it was you all along.

But he realised now that this was a dumb idea and that he should've just shut up. There was a possibility that you wouldn't ask him. Because, why would you? It was none of your business. And even if you would ask him and he was to tell you the truth, who was to say that you were ready to hear it? He cursed himself for not listening to Eijiro. He should have just stayed patient.

After Katsuki's revelation, the group was quiet for a while. You felt awkward, always hating when you were surrounded by silence. "I think we should play truth or dare next," you said.

You had a hidden agenda, something that you had set out to do from the very beginning. You looked at Eiji who knew precisely what you were up to. He swallowed hard and started blushing, luckily nobody could see it in the dark.

"I go first," you declared.

Katsuki was looking at you, not knowing what you were up to. But when he followed your gaze and saw his best friend fidgeting on his chair, he realised.

"Eiji," you said. "Truth or dare?"

You raised your eyebrows, hoping that he could see and would get the signal. "Dare," he replied.

You grinned. Perfect. "I dare you to walk through the dark forest for five minutes before you can return." His smile dropped. That wasn't really what he had expected. "And you have to take Mina with you."

"Ah?! What… no… (y/n) that's scary!" Mina whined.

You chuckled. "Well, I'm sure Eiji will protect you."

And with that the two of them got up, walking away from the campsite. You allowed them to bring a torch, you weren't that diabolic.

Once they were gone, Denki spoke up. "So who's next?"

Katsuki grunted. "How dumb are you exactly, dunce face?"

"What are you talking about, dude?" Denki looked confused.

You chuckled. "Denki, the whole reason I suggested this game was so that I could send those two lovebirds off to spend some time alone together."

"Lovebirds?! You mean…" It looked as though Denki had an actual lightbulb moment.

Hanta sighed. "Don't tell me you've never noticed the sexual tension between them? They needed to have a talk a very long time ago."

"I can't believe that everyone knew about this, but nobody bothered telling me," the electric boy pouted.

You snorted. "We all figured it out ourselves. Your own fault for always being so unobservant."

"I need new friends. You guys keep roasting me," he whined.

You all started laughing and soon struck up a conversation about silly things that Denki had done over the past years. You mostly just listened, as you didn't remember a good chunk of that time. That didn't make the stories less funny, though.

After what felt like ages, Eiji and Mina returned. You could see Mina holding your best friend's hand, and you couldn't help but squeal quietly. Instead of saying anything; however, she simply opened the tent she was sharing with you, dragged Eiji inside, and zipped it back up.

You looked at the tent, dumbfounded. Then you looked at your equally confused friends. You waited for about ten minutes, the only noises that could be heard was the crackling of the fire and shuffling of fabric inside of the tent.

"Well, I guess that's goodnight then," Hanta said, getting up and walking over to the tent he shared with Denki.

Denki got up as well. "Wait for me, honey!"

Hanta just scoffed. "Don't make me change my mind on sharing a tent with you. I don't have any issues letting you sleep outside."

"This is why you're uninvited from my sweet sixteen birthday bash," Denki said. And with that, the two friends disappeared in their tent.

You were still sitting by the fire, not sure what to do. "You can sleep in my tent. I'll sleep out here," Katsuki suddenly said.

You looked at him and shook your head. "Don't be silly. It's your tent, I'm not going to kick you out."

"Well, I'm not letting you stay out here, and I highly doubt you'll be getting them out of there anytime soon."

You couldn't argue with that. "I… I don't mind sharing your tent," you said. "If you don't mind."

Katsuki's heart was beating ten times faster. "Y-yeah, of course."

You stood up and walked over to your tent. "Mina, can I please have my pyjamas?"

You could hear muffled voices inside and frantic shuffling. The zipper opened from the inside, just enough for you to grab your clothes and see your naked friends on top of each other. You started blushing. "Jesus Christ guys! I didn't need to see that. Fuck."

You immediately turned around and marched to Katsuki's tent. The latter was already standing there, opening the zipper. "Scarred for life?" He asked you.

"You have no idea," you said, making gagging noises.

He chuckled a little and lead you inside. The first thing you noticed was how much it smelled of Katsuki. It felt so right to be in here, with him. But at the same time, you felt like it was forbidden. You were in a relationship with another person. It didn't matter what you were feeling, you were no cheater.

You sat down across from each other, not breaking eye contact. "I need to change my clothes," you said.

"Me too."

You didn't know what got into you, all your resolve melting away, but you started lifting your shirt, knowing that Katsuki was watching you. You were still wearing your bikini underneath, it was tied together on the back of your neck. You didn't know where this was coming from so suddenly, but you couldn't bring yourself to stop. You tugged on the string, and it fell off pretty much immediately. For some reason, you didn't feel uncomfortable sitting half-naked in front of Katsuki, it felt natural.

You couldn't explain your actions. Part of you thought that you were doing this out of jealousy. You wanted to show Katsuki that you were better than any girl he had been with before. You felt that it was also a way to apologise for your behaviour earlier that day. You couldn't deny that you were attracted to him and that you wanted to be with him.

He took off his shirt and immediately looked back into your eyes. He couldn't quite believe what was happening, he didn't want to question it though. He was just thankful that you were here with him, showing him a side of you that he hadn't seen in so long.

You moved up a little, sitting on your knees. You fiddled with the zipper of your shorts, getting frustrated that they didn't want to come off. Katsuki moved towards you, his fingers lightly touching the skin on your bare stomach. You shivered and let out a hitched breath.

Just his touch alone felt so good, you wanted more of him. You didn't care about anything else at this moment. As though he could read your mind, he inched closer, placing his lips on yours. Just like earlier, they felt soft on yours, the only difference was that this time, you welcomed them. Relishing the feeling.

You deepened the kiss, your hands getting lost in his blonde hair. You pulled on it lightly, earning a small moan as a reward. It must have turned a switch in Katsuki, as not even a heartbeat later, he gently pushed you down onto the airbed.

He let go of your mouth, placing kisses down your jaw, travelling further down your neck and collarbone. He started slightly sucking on the exposed skin, making you squirm underneath him.

God, he had missed this so much.

When you felt him bruise your skin, you immediately pushed him off. He looked at you, confused and concerned. "Katsuki… I- You can't give me hickeys…" you said. Suddenly feeling incredibly immoral, the reality of what you were doing washing over you.

It took him a moment to understand what you were talking about, but once he did, it made his heart sink. You didn't want to have love bites that your precious boyfriend would see.

He moved off of you, laying down on the mattress next to you. "Well, that killed the mood."

"I'm sorry… I just- I don't want him to think that I broke up with him because of another guy. Because that isn't the main reason. I already feel like a chea-"

Katsuki sat up, looking at you. "You're going to break up with him?"

"Y-yeah," you said.

His face lightened up a little, and he placed a hand on your cheek. "I know you're not a cheater, so if you don't want to do this… that's fine. But I don't think you should feel bad, he's been manipulative towards you, and quite frankly didn't treat you like you deserve to be treated."

You looked into Katsuki's eyes. They held so many emotions, and you couldn't help yourself. You almost pounced on him, taking him by surprise. You pushed him down onto the mattress, straddling him, and kissing him with an urgency that gave away just how much you wanted him.

You could feel his hands explore your exposed back, slowly moving down to your bum, placing his large palms on either side of you, massaging you lightly. You couldn't help but let out a soft moan, allowing him to deepen the kiss you were sharing.

You felt as though you were on cloud nine. Every touch and every sound was like they were sent from the heavens. Katsuki smelled so good, his mere presence making you feel at ease with the world. Everything was so new and yet familiar at the same time. You knew that if you were to carry on like this, this would be the night you would finally be losing your virginity.

You were ready to give it to Katsuki, you wanted it to be with Katsuki. But there was this lingering feeling in the back of your head that you couldn't shake off. Yami.

You broke the kiss, sitting up a little. You were still on top of him, and he looked up at you with a confused look. He could tell that something was bothering you, so he started drawing circles on your skin, trying to calm you down. He assumed that you were nervous about what was most likely about to happen next. Even though you had done this hundred of times, you couldn't remember any of it, so it was only natural that you would be anxious. But he wanted to make you feel comfortable, just like he had done during your first time together.

"What's up?"

You shifted a little, accidentally rubbing his crotch, making him groan. "O-oh sorry," you said, immediately trying to move off of him.

He held you in place. "Don't worry… that was nice."

You were a blushing mess, feeling your resolve waver once more. But you couldn't do this. Not yet, anyway. No matter what your body was telling you, you had to listen to your brain on this one.

"Look, Katsuki," you said, your tone worrying him immediately. "I want to do this, I really do. And I want to do this with you, but…"

You paused, not knowing what to say. Katsuki had a lump in his throat, what had he done wrong this time? All he had wanted to do was give you an unforgettable night.

You sighed deeply. "I just can't do this until I broke up with Yami. I- … it doesn't mean that I still have feelings for him, I just… I'm not that kind of person. It's disrespectful, and I've already gone a lot further than I should have. I'm sorry."

He chuckled a little, extending his hand to stroke your cheek. His touch was surprisingly soft and so warm. He brushed a stray strand of hair from your face, his finger tracing the outline of your lips. "You're so fucking beautiful," he suddenly said with a small smile. "It's killing me to wait, but you're right. Let's wait until we're back home. We have all the time in the world."

"Thank you," you said, leaning down to give him one last peck. The sensation of which would have to last until you were single again and ready to start something new.

You moved off of him, grabbing your pyjama top and quickly putting it on. After that, you laid down next to him, rolling to your side so you could look at him.

Even in the dim light, he was the most handsome person you had ever laid eyes on. You didn't even know why you didn't fall for him sooner. Why you had to be with Yami before realising how amazing Katsuki was. You secretly wished that he would have been your first boyfriend. You felt terrible towards Yami, but it just wasn't the same with him.

That reminded you… "Katsuki?" You asked him.

"Hm?"

"You said you were in love before. Tell me about them," you requested.

He took a deep breath. "What do you want to know?"

"When did you fall in love?"

He paused for a moment. "Towards the end of the first year, so about two years ago."

You were surprised, that was a long time ago. You couldn't help but wonder who it was. "Were you in a relationship with them?"

"Yeah."

You swallowed hard, unable to ignore the jealousy. You knew you should stop asking questions, only making yourself more upset than you already were. "Was that the person you had your first time with?"

He coughed lightly, as though he hadn't expected this question. "Y-yeah. The only person, actually."

"What happened?"

For a moment, there was silence. "It's complicated."

"Oh."

This was the time. The time for Katsuki to tell you that it was you all along. "Things happened, and I couldn't be with her anymore. But I think that things are taking a turn in the right direction."

"What do you mean?" You were confused. Things were going in the right direction? Was he trying to get back with that person? Your heart was breaking a little. If that was the case. Then why had he almost slept with you just a few minutes ago? "Do you still love her?"

"More than anything," he answered without hesitation.

You sobbed a little, sitting up immediately, trying to find the zipper to exit the tent.

“(y/n)? What's up? What are you doing?"

Did he seriously have the audacity to ask you why you were upset?

"You were about to have sex with me, Katsuki. You left marks on my skin, whispering all the right things. And now you're telling me that you were in love with someone else the entire time? That you're trying to get back with her even? What the hell. I didn't think you'd be that kind of person."

He didn't know what to say. You obviously had it all wrong, but you were so upset that you didn't even listen to him. "It's not like that at all. I was going to explain this to you, you got it wrong please listen to me."

You shook your head and opened the zipper of the tent. "No. Fuck you, Katsuki. I can't believe I fell for your bullshit."

He grabbed you by your wrist, trying to prevent you from leaving him. "Please," he begged, his voice cracking a little. "I worded this completely wrong and I should've explained it right away, but fuck, you know I'm not good with this shit. Just fucking listen to me. Please."

But you had heard enough. "Let me go, Katsuki. I swear to god, I don't want to hear a single peep from you. Leave me alone."

He wanted to yell after you but didn't know what to say. He watched you walk over to your tent, realising that Eiji and Mina were in there, most likely naked. So instead, you walked over to Denki and Hanta's tent, opening the zipper without a second thought.

Hanta immediately woke up, Denki was still sound asleep. “(y/n)? Are you okay?"

"N-no. Can I sleep here?" You wiped away the tears from your face and sobbed quietly.

Hanta nodded and made space for you in between him and your electric friend. "Yeah, of course. Do you want to talk about it?"

You settled down on the airbed, taking a deep breath. You pulled the blanket Hanta gave you as far up as possible, trying to hide from the world. "No, but thanks. I just want to sleep."

"Okay, just wake me if you need anything." He said, before closing his eyes again.

You wiped your eyes once more. "Thanks."

Chapter Text

You didn't sleep well that night and were woken up by frantic whispering. "What is she doing in here? We didn't even get drunk so I sure as heck would remember if we hooked up." You heard Denki whisper.

You opened your eyes, looking at him like he was insane. "Dude, what the fuck. Is that really the first thing that comes to your mind?"

He looked down at you and scratched his head. "What can I say, I have a vivid imagination."

"You're an idiot," you said, rolling your eyes.

You slowly sat up, your body hurting as much as your heart. Hanta placed a hand on your shoulder. "Are you okay?"

"Yeah, I guess I am."

"What happened?" Denki asked, concerned.

You pouted. "I don't really wanna talk about it."

The two boys immediately dropped the topic as requested by you. For a moment, it was quiet. "Can you check if anyone is out there yet?"

Denki nodded, opened the zip and poked his head out. "Katsuki is sitting there by himself. He looks like a mess." He came back in, looking at you.

You didn't know what to say, you didn't care if Katsuki looked like a mess. He deserved it. Why did he try and make you fall for him, all the while he was trying to get back with somebody else? It pissed you off and hurt more than a knife to the heart.

"Look, I don't know what happened between you, but maybe you should go out and talk to him?" Hanta suggested.

"Well, maybe you should mind your own business," you hissed.

Denki raised his eyebrows. "Yikes, (y/n). We're just trying to help."

"Yeah, I know. I'm sorry guys. There's just a lot going on in my head right now."

Hanta smiled at you. "That's fine, and if you don't wanna talk to him, then that's fine too. I got your back."

"Thanks, Hanta," you said, giving him a peck on his cheek.

Denki pouted a little. "What about me? I got your back ten times more than he does!"

You started laughing. "You're such an idiot, Denki." But you kissed his cheek nonetheless. "Thanks."

The boys exited the tent before you, leaving you alone with your thoughts. You weren't sure whether you should go out there or not, but you decided that you would have to eventually.

When you stepped outside, Katsuki's eyes immediately shot up to look at you. If you didn't know it better, you would have thought that he looked apologetic. But he could save that for someone else, you had fallen for it once, but you wouldn't do it again.

You started cleaning up the mess the six of you had left the previous night, beginning to pack the car so that you didn't have to spend any longer than necessary in this place. When you arrived, you thought it was incredibly beautiful, but now it felt rotten. Just like your mood.

Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Katsuki walk towards you. You tried to ignore him as much as you could. "(y/n), can we please talk?" He asked.

You gave him the silent treatment.

"Please. It honestly isn't what you think it is. Just please let me explain."

You ignored him again.

"Fine, if you don't want to talk to me, then at least listen to me. I should have-"

But you interrupted him. You turned around, looking right into his eyes. "Save your breath, Katsuki. I don't want to hear a single word coming out of your mouth."

"Fuck, (y/n)," he growled. "Just fucking listen to me, I swear you'll understand."

You contemplated for a moment. You couldn't deny that you wanted to know what Katsuki had to say for himself, but at the same time, you didn't want to be lied to again or hurt any more than you had already been.

"Just give me some time. Please."

He swallowed hard but nodded eventually. He didn't want to give you time, ached to talk to you immediately, but he knew that you weren't willing to listen to him right now and he also knew that you had to be in a calm mood to receive the news that Katsuki had to break to you. There was no use in doing it right then and there, not if you weren't open to a proper conversation. So he decided to wait until the evening. Wait until you were all back in the dorms and then come to your room to explain himself.

He backed off, and part of you was surprised by that. You didn't think he would leave you alone that easily. It seemed as though he knew when to give you the space you needed, and you appreciated that. That didn't change the fact that you were indescribably mad at him, though.

You walked over to your tent, grabbing the top and shaking it rapidly. "Wake up lovebirds. We're getting ready to leave."

You could hear mumbling from the inside and strange noises. "I swear, if you guys got your bodily fluids over my bag, I'm going to bitch slap you."

Laughing was coming from inside the tent, and you saw the zipper open. Mina poked her head out, the definition of sex hair crowning her head. "Shall we go take a shower? I sure as hell need one."

"Sure. Can you grab my stuff from in there, please? I don't really want to see Eiji naked."

You heard the latter scoffing from inside. "I'm not naked. Stop accusing me for no reason."

"Oh yeah?" You knelt down, opening the tent further. You immediately saw Eiji sitting on the airbed. Naked. "Liar."

"(y/n)!" He yelped, quickly putting a pillow in front of his groin.

You wrinkled your nose. "Dude, gross. That's my pillow."

He started chuckling and shrugged his shoulders. "Whoops."

You just shook your head, not able to hide the hurt the sight of your happy friends caused you. You turned around and waited outside, feeling Katsuki's eyes on you, but you deliberately decided not to pay him any attention.

After what felt like ages, Mina eventually popped up next to you, finally ready to go to the building with the showers. The walk was quiet. You didn't know what to say, you knew as a good friend you should be asking about her and Eiji, but it was hurting so much. In the end, however, you decided to do precisely that. You had just reconciled with her, the least you could do was be a good friend to her.

"So," you said. "Are you guys a thing now?"

Mina started giggling. "I have a feeling that you planned for this to happen."

"Of course, I did. Your mutual pining was painful to watch."

Her giggle developed into snorting. "Like you're one to talk."

"Huh?"

She shook her head. "Nothing." Mina could tell that something was bothering you, so she decided to stop teasing you.

"How was last night? I hope you didn't get your sex juices on my belongings."

Mina cringed and hit your shoulder. "Stop saying gross stuff like that, (y/n)!"

You started laughing, you loved teasing your friend, especially if she gave you such a funny reaction. "Sorry I couldn't help myself. But seriously though, how was it?"

"God, I was so nervous when we walked off into the forest, but the moment we were out of sight, Eiji suddenly stopped and grabbed my hand. My heart almost burst!" She began telling you. "And then we were just quiet for a moment until he started nervously mumbling and I had no idea what he was saying. So I decided to just get in there and kiss him."

"Nice!" You said enthusiastically, or as ecstatic as you could be at least.

She was radiating with energy. "Yes! And he immediately kissed back. God, he's such a good kisser. We literally made out until we came back into the camp." She was still giggling, it was almost contagious.

But not quite. Mina's story made you remember how you had been kissed the previous night, how you had thought that Katsuki was the best kisser in the world. How you felt that you were special to him. You could hear Mina talk, so you quickly snapped out of your thoughts.

"Anyway, once we were in that tent, it was like we were in our own little world. I'm not kidding, (y/n). I was so afraid of my first time, but man, being there with Eiji? It felt so right!"

You swallowed hard, not able to hide your tears any longer. You wanted to be nothing but happy for your friends, but that proved incredibly hard, thinking about how similar your nights had started, and how different they had ended. You were glad when you spotted the bathhouse. You quickly went inside, followed by your friend. The latter was suspicious of your behaviour but was afraid to pry.

You sincerely hoped that the showers were separated into cabins, you wanted to cry and didn't want Mina to see it. Unfortunately, though, this wasn't your lucky day. The women's shower was one big room, with several showerheads lined up on the walls. You stepped under one of them, immediately feeling the hot water on your skin. It relaxed you and gave you at least some comfort; like a warm embrace. You still wanted to cry, but with Mina being in the same room, you tried hard to keep it in.

You hoped that she would pick a shower further away from you, but you should've known that she wasn't going to do that. So she stood next to you, applying soap to her body, humming lightly. You wished you could be as happy as her, but the thoughts inside of you were raging, and otherwise, you felt numb. Dirty and used.

You started scrubbing your skin rigorously. You wanted to get Katsuki off of you. You tried to wash away his touches, his smell and the kisses he had planted all over your body. You finally lost it and couldn't hold in your tears any longer. You hoped that the water would drown your sobs, but Mina heard them nonetheless.

“(y/n)! Oh my god, are you okay?"

You just shook your head and broke down. You slipped onto the floor, your back against the tiled floor and your knees pulled towards your chest. You had your head hanging low, the water falling down on the back of your neck, comforting you like warm summer rain.

Mina knelt down next to you. She pushed some of your wet hair behind your ear, trying to see your face and get through to you. But what she saw instead made her gasp loudly.

"(y/n)... W-what did h-he do to you?"

You immediately looked up, seeing the shocked expression on her face. "What do you mean?"

Mina pointed to your neck, you tried to see what she was talking about, but couldn't. "You're covered in bruises."

You slapped your hand over your skin. "Fuck."

"I really don't mean to pry, but you gotta tell me what happened, sweetie. I'm really worried right now."

You took a deep breath. "Well… after you guys blocked the tent, I decided to stay with Katsuki. I don't know what got into me, but we started making out… I guess those hickeys were consensual," you admitted.

"Oof," was all Mina said.

You buried your head in your hands. "I know… The moment I realised what was happening, I stopped him. I said I can't do this until I broke up with Yami. I said I'm not a cheater..."

Mina nodded but stayed otherwise silent. So you continued. "We kinda stopped, and then Katsuki said all the right things. About how Yami doesn't deserve me… and then I don't know… He looked so handsome and I just really wanted to be with him."

Mina's gaze softened. "You shouldn't feel bad for giving in to your feelings for Katsuki. You're planning on ending things with Yami, and you definitely do deserve better than that guy."

"Well, it turns out Katsuki isn't any better. He's worse, actually."

She looked at you completely dumbfounded. "What?"

You sighed. "After I told Katsuki that I couldn't do this to Yami, we decided to repeat this another time. So we ended up talking instead. I asked him about the person he had been with before. You know, the person we found out about during that game."

"Oh… yeah."

You took a deep breath. "Turns out he's still in love with that girl and actually in the process of trying to get back with her."

"What the fuck." Mina just said, confused and angry.

You nodded. "Yep. My thoughts exactly."

"He can't truly love her if he was about to hook up with you… what the hell is his problem? I didn't think he'd be that kinda guy."

"Me neither," you said, your tears welling over once more. "God, I feel so stupid."

"Shh, you're not stupid. I honestly thought Katsuki fancied you. I didn't see that coming at all."

You wiped away your tears and looked up at her. "What am I supposed to do now? I don't want to look at him again. To think that I almost slept with him... I'm so glad I stopped things before it could come to that."

You couldn't stop sobbing, and Mina held you close, trying to calm you down. After a while, she got you to get up, and you finished your shower. It was more like she was finishing the shower for you, though, washing your hair and humming lightly to cheer you up. After that you went back into the changing rooms, drying yourself off. You dreaded going back to the campsite.

"Did he not try to explain himself?" Mina suddenly asked.

"He did. But I didn't want to hear it."

She nodded while grabbing a towel for her head. "Maybe you should hear him out, you know. I'm not saying that there's any excuse for his shitty behaviour, but still… It might be good closure."

"I guess you're right. But not right now. I don't want to hear a single word from Katsuki. I need space to clear my mind."

"Hmm," she said. "I totally get that."

You sighed. "My head is so filled with heartbreak. I'm honestly overwhelmed. Yami was the one person that was there for me when I was in the hospital, and he was the sweetest person I had ever met. But he changed so much, and I didn't even realise that until it was too late. Katsuki has been telling me that Yami has been manipulating me… was I really that blind?"

"Kind of…" Mina admitted. "I think we all thought that he had a bad influence on you. But I understand that your feelings for him were strong. I guess from your perspective things looked different."

You put on your bra and contemplated for a moment. "You know, thinking about it, everything is always so cloudy and hazy around Yami. As though I'm encased in this cloud of comfort, but it never feels genuine. I had this blind adoration for him, and in my eyes, he could do no wrong. Now that I haven't seen him in a while, those clouds got less dense and opened my eyes a little. And this trip, as short as it might have been, it gave me room to reflect, you know. I don't know what's going on with me when I'm around Yami, but I'm starting to believe that I don't know him at all."

Mina looked at you with a shocked expression. "Girl, that sound as though he's got some sort of quirk. I didn't know he was affecting you that much."

"I don't know. Yami said he was quirkless, and I believed him. There was no reason not to believe him. But I've had my suspicions for a while now… I just don't get why he would lie about it."

Mina clicked her tongue. "Not just lie about it, it seems he has actually used it on you."

"I really trusted him. But then again, I also trusted Katsuki. It seems like I have a terrible taste in men." You sounded as bitter as you felt, not being able to hide the hurt.

Mina gave you a small smile. "I think there's more to both stories, Yami's and Katsuki's. I think you should hear both of them out. It might be worth it in the end."

"I guess you're right. I'm just so tired. Who came up with the concept of love, anyway? It fucking sucks."

Your friend started laughing. "I get your point, and I hate to be that person… but I think love is a beautiful thing."

"Of course, you would think that. You just got thoroughly laid."

You could see her blush through her pink skin. “(y/n)! Stop saying these things you're embarrassing me!"

You couldn't help but laugh, eternally grateful for your friend who helped you cheer up at least a little. Shortly after you made your way back to the camp.

The mood there was terrible. The moment Eijiro had seen you in the morning, albeit just for a moment, he had immediately realised that you had been crying, and he wasn't having any of that. Once he got dressed, he got out of the tent and looked around to search for his blonde friend. He saw Katsuki standing outside of the camp, kicking a tree trunk.

Eijiro walked towards him. "What happened?" He said without hesitation, already knowing that it wasn't good.

"Fucking nothing, shitty hair. Mind your own business."

Eijiro pushed Katsuki a little, almost making the latter lose balance.

"What the fuck was that for?!" Katsuki growled.

Eijiro glared at his friend. "I don't know what happened, but I have a feeling that you fucked up and I'm not having it, dude. Things were going well, and this morning I see (y/n) 's puffy eyes and your foul mood… Spill the beans already so I can help you."

"Fuck!" Katsuki said. "Fine. We almost hooked up, but then we didn't, and I said some things, and now she's mad at me."

Eijiro shook his head. "Give me more detail, bro. That doesn't sound like the whole story."

"Jesus Christ, hair for brains. That's all there is."

The red-haired boy raised his eyebrows, turning around to leave. "Have it your way, buddy. But if you fucked this up and don't let me help you for whatever dumb reason, then you're alone in this."

Katsuki growled and held his friend back. "Fucking wait."

Eijiro turned around, crossing his arms in front of his chest. The look on his face was unusually hard. He had the softest personality, but when it came to his friends, especially you, he wasn't playing any games. He wanted you to be happy, and you clearly weren't.

"Alright. We decided to crash in the same tent, and suddenly (y/n) got undressed and we started making out," Katsuki said, unable to hide a small blush. He wasn't comfortable talking about this kind of stuff with anyone. Especially not out loud. He cleared his throat. "She told me not to give her any hickey's, you know because of her shitty boyfriend. I thought that would be it, but she came onto me again. I fucking missed her so much, and I lost my restraint. I was done being patient. I could tell she wanted this too. So we got to it and… you know almost did it. But then she stopped me, saying that she couldn't do it after all."

Eiji scratched his head. "That was probably for the best. She would've beat herself up over this for a long time."

"Yeah, I know, which is why I said to her that it's fine and that we can do this another time." Katsuki's blush was now replaced by a scowl. "She seemed to have appreciated that, but then I fucked it up right after anyway."

"How so?"

Katsuki sighed, kicking the dirt in front of him. "She asked me about the girl I was talking about during the game we played."

"For crying out loud, Katsuki. I knew you should've just laid low during that game."

Katsuki grimaced. "Well, that's easy for you to say, dude. She was sitting there, confessing to making out with that douchebag, it fucking hurt me. I couldn't just take that."

"So you acted that way to make her jealous?"

Katsuki clicked his tongue. "Fuck no. I just didn't want to lie. I'm fed up with being patient. I'm fed up with pretending that we weren't in love. I hate walking through the dorms, pretending that we didn't make love in every fucking corner of the building. You have no idea how much restraint I have been showing. Every fucking thing I'm doing or saying is for her sake. I'm trying so hard to shelter her and be considerate, but it's driving me insane. I went from being in a healthy relationship to a motherfucking rollercoaster of emotions. And you know I'm shit with that kind of stuff. I haven't been able to be myself, and I hate it."

Eiji looked shocked. "What do you mean… You made love in every corner of the dorm building?"

"Really? That's the only thing you're getting out of this?"

The red-head pouted a little. "Yeah, dude. I mean… I live there, so it's kinda gross."

"Says the one who did who knows what with his girlfriend while we were all just a few feet away."

Eiji started blushing. "Yeah, you got a point."

"Fucking anyway. What I'm saying is that I'm tired of this shit show. I want (y/n) back, and last night I thought that I finally succeeded."

Eijiro took a deep breath. "Okay, I see. So what happened?"

"Like I said, she asked me about that girl. Whether I'd been in a relationship with her and all that stuff. Then she asked why were not together anymore, and I said that it's complicated, but that I'm hopeful. So she asked if I'm still in love with that person. And I said yes."

"Dude…"

Katsuki punched a tree that was in his proximity. "Yeah, I know. I fucked up."

"So you didn't tell her that you were talking about her?"

The blonde grunted. "I fucking tried to, but she wouldn't hear me out. I tried to make her listen, but she stormed off into the tent of those two idiots. The only way of holding her back would have been with force, so I let her go."

"I don't understand why you couldn't just keep your mouth shut. You were almost on the finish line. We went through this a million times. Wait until she broke things off with Yami, get a moment alone with her, and then tell her about your past together. We could both see that she started to have feelings for you. Why did you have to go and get impatient?!"

Katsuki looked at his friend, anger in his eyes. "Yes that plan sounds so great and easy, doesn't it?! Except, it fucking isn't. I haven't been myself in months. It's fucking tearing me apart. I just couldn't do it any longer. Did I fuck up? Yes. But there's nothing I can do about that now. I simply gotta get her to listen to me somehow. I just hope she still breaks up with that blue-eyed piece of shit."

"Wait…" Eijiro looked perplexed. "She told you she was going to break up with him?"

"Yeah."

"Jesus, Katsuki. Literally, all you had to do was wait a few days. You're the dumbest smart person I've ever met," Eijiro said, sighing loudly.

"Fuck you too."

The red-haired boy stayed silent for a moment before speaking up. "So, what now?"

"I'll respect her wish for me to shut up for now, and tonight when we're all back in the dorms, I will go to her room and explain the situation to her. I just hope she's ready to hear this. I didn't want her to find out like this. I wanted to wait until she remembered on her own or at the very least until her feelings were stronger or whatever."

Eijiro clicked his tongue. "Well, you've messed those options up, didn't you."

"I fucking know that."

Katsuki was done with this conversation. He knew that he messed up and that he had to make this up to you somehow. He didn't understand why he lost his patience. Eijiro was right, all he had to do was wait a few more days, maybe a week at most. You had told him that you were going to break things off with your shitty boyfriend. He knew that he shouldn't have fessed up during that stupid game, but he had been jealous and couldn't keep his damn mouth shut.

But he wouldn't lose you this time. Not again. He'd make this right, he knew that he would be able to somehow.

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The drive back to UA was quiet and awkward. Everyone in the car had experienced the previous evening differently, and nobody knew the whole story, yourself included. You still assumed that Katsuki was an ass and you didn't think you'd be changing your mind anytime soon.

But there was another thing that you wouldn't change your mind on, and that was breaking up with Yami. You knew deep down that Katsuki wasn't the only reason why you had to end things with your boyfriend. In fact, Katsuki wasn't a reason at all anymore. That ship had sailed.

Nonetheless, you now realised that Yami wasn't right for you, at least not this version of him. He used to be everything you needed, but somewhere along the lines that had stopped and shifted into something unhealthy. You wished the previous day didn't happen, considering the pain you were currently going through, but at the same time, you were so incredibly thankful for being able to get this distance from Yami.

The moment you got back in your room, you pulled your phone out of your desk drawer. You switched it on and were flooded with notifications. Yami had tried calling you fifty-four times, and you had hundreds of unread messages. You scrolled through some of them, quickly realising that they were all just questions about why you weren't answering, why he wasn't able to track your location and why you would even dare to ignore him. You rolled your eyes. Time to get this over with.

You quickly messaged him, telling him to meet you in front of the school. He replied with a simple. “Ok.”

You would've lied if you said you weren't nervous, but you knew that this had to be done. You looked in the mirror one last time before leaving your room, quickly realising that your neck was very much visible and that Yami would definitely be able to see the marks that Katsuki had left the previous night. You touched them lightly, your eyes immediately filling with tears.

You were going to break Yami's heart by breaking up with him, having your own heart broken by Katsuki, might just be your punishment.

You quickly wrapped a scarf around your neck, satisfied when all skin was covered. It was pretty much the beginning of October, so surely wearing a scarf wouldn't be that weird. You took a deep breath and walked out of your room, down the stairs and out of the massive wooden entrance door.

Katsuki, who was coincidentally on his way to your room, saw you walk out, immediately having a bad feeling about the situation. Without hesitating, he decided to follow you, all the while making sure that you wouldn't be able to detect him. Lucky for him, you were wholly occupied with yourself, not taking much notice of anything around you.

When you arrived at the gates, Yami was already waiting for you. He looked like a mess. You had no idea what happened to him, but you had never seen him like this before. The moment he looked up and saw your face, his expression changed. He cracked a small smile, reminding you of the boy you had fallen for.

"Hi," you said.

"Hi."

For a moment, you were both quiet. "We need to talk," you eventually said.

"I know."

Silence took over once more. "Shall we go to the park?" Yami suggested eventually.

You nodded. You didn't really want to walk anywhere with Yami, but you decided that breaking up in front of your school wasn't really fair on him. He deserved a proper conversation at least.

You didn't exchange a single word while you were walking to your destination. The tension surrounding you only adding to your existing anxiety. You wanted to run away, but you knew that you had to do this properly to give both of you closure.

When you arrived, you found a bench next to a playground. It was already starting to get dark outside, so there were no kids or families around. It was almost eerie.

You took a deep breath. "Yami," you said. "I think… I think we should stop seeing each other."

The gravity of your words sank in, and you watched him drop in his seat. You felt incredibly bad.

"I- It's not just you, it's also me. I think we're not good for each other."

He scoffed. "Isn't it funny how you spent a couple of days with your friends and all of a sudden you decide to leave me?"

"It's not like that at all. I've been thinking about this for a while now."

He looked up, and you could see genuine pain in his eyes. "You have no idea what you're doing to me, (y/n). You've been messing with my mind for months now. I'm fucking genuinely in love with you, okay. I- This is too much. I've tried my best, and now everything was for nothing."

You could see tears forming in his eyes, and you were more than surprised. You didn't think he would react that way, never having seen him so emotional before. You didn't know this side of him even existed.

"Yami…" You said. "Look at what your life has become because of me. I feel like you're in love with the idea of me, but I don't think I'll ever be what you really want. No matter what I do, it seems to never be enough."

"Fucking bullshit!" He suddenly exclaimed, a lot louder than you had expected. "You don't know anything about what I've been through. I tried so hard to do the right things and to do well; do what I was supposed to do. I didn't expect to ever care about anyone this much again. I- You have no idea what you're doing. I might be fucking shit in showing this to you, but… Fuck."

You didn't know what to say. Nothing Yami said made any sense to you. "I'm sorry." Was all you could bring out.

He looked at you. "Don't- Just… Please don't tell me that you're sorry. I didn’t want to fall in love with you. I wasn’t meant to fall in love with you. And yet you somehow managed to get into my heart and it fucking hurts. I don't understand why you're doing this to me. I've tried so hard to do the right things."

You took a deep breath. "Look, Yami… I-"

"At least tell me what I did wrong."

You grimaced. You didn't really want to go into detail, not wanting to make Yami more upset than he already was, but you figured that he deserved to hear an explanation, maybe it would help him grow. "I wouldn't say that you did anything wrong perse… It's just… You've become really clingy and kinda pushy. It's suffocating, and I just feel like we're not good for each other."

"God, you should've just said something. I didn't realise I was clingy, I just wanted to be a good boyfriend to you." He looked so sad and vulnerable. "I'm sorry."

You didn't know what to say, you felt terrible for him. You knew that you were breaking his heart, but this had to be done, no matter how much it hurt. Too much had happened and you couldn't be with him anymore. You didn't want to be with anyone right now. Just focus on yourself for a change.

"I'm sorry too, Yami. But I think it's for the best."

You could see the tears running down his face. "Please don't do this to me. I can change, I promise." His voice cracked more with every word that left his lips.

"Please, Yami. Don't make this harder than it already is."

He shook his head. "How long have you been planning this? To think I worked so hard to afford a trip for us. You could have let me know sooner, you know."

"I didn't plan this at all. Please don't think that."

"I'm sorry, but I don't believe you."

You sighed deeply. "I swear on my life, Yami. I just had some time to reflect and came to the conclusion that this is for the best. I- This doesn't make it better, possibly worse actually, but we're having this party at UA in a few weeks, and I asked for permission for you to come. I wouldn't have done that if I had planned on breaking up with you."

"You're right," he scoffed. "That doesn't make it better. I would have loved to go with you."

"I know, and I'm sorry. I just- I wanted you to understand that this wasn't planned. I still care about you, Yami. And I don't want to end things on bad terms."

He shook his head. "We're not. I'm just… it hurts, (y/n). I didn't know I was able to feel this kind of pain."

"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you."

He looked at you, his eyes telling a story in a language that you had never heard before. You couldn't understand it. You couldn't explain what the flicker behind his eyes meant, but it made you feel uneasy. "I think I'll head home now," you said, trying to get up.

But Yami put his hand on your thigh, putting enough force onto your body to prevent you from getting up. "Please wait."

You looked back into his eyes, your body suddenly feeling a lot lighter. Your mind started to become hazy, your body calming down. You knew that this wasn't right, this was precisely what you had felt whenever you had been with Yami. You wanted to break out if it, your thoughts were raging, but your body was calm.

"Yami," you said through your teeth. "What are you doing to me?"

He looked at you, confused. "What do you mean?"

"You're clearly manipulating something inside of me. I'm feeling funny again. Yami, please stop this."

"I think you're imagining things, princess. Maybe your mind is subconsciously trying to tell you that you belong to me and that you shouldn't be leaving."

You shook your head, trying to get rid off the feeling inside of you. "N-no," you said. "This- Yami, please. This is making me feel uncomfortable."

"I don't know what you're talking about." He chuckled a little. "I honestly think that deep down, you don't really want to leave me."

Was he right? You tried to think straight. Maybe he was, you had been incredibly confused after all. Perhaps he had been the one to keep you grounded this entire time, maybe it really was your friends who tried to brainwash you. Maybe it was Katsuki who really wanted to manipulate you.

Suddenly the blonde's face appeared before you. It was nothing but imagination, but enough to make you snap out of your internal conflict.

No.

Yami was wrong, he was trying to manipulate you once again, but not this time. You now knew what he was truly like and you wouldn't let him make a fool of you any longer. You had genuinely believed him when he had broken down just a few minutes ago.

"Cut it out, Yami!" You yelled, jumping up from the bench, standing in front of him with clenched fists. "I know you got some weird quirk and you've been using it on me this entire time. Please, stop…"

He got up as well, his facial expression was unreadable. He had a smirk on his face that didn't reach his eyes. He was standing in front of you, towering over you like impending doom. "What are you talking about? You know I'm quirkless."

"NO!" You yelled. "I'm not falling for this any longer. You lied about your quirk, and you continue doing so. You probably lied about your feelings for me as well."

His smirk dropped immediately, and he looked hurt once more. "I might not be perfect, but I have never lied about my feelings for you."

Your head was spinning. His actions contradicted everything that he was saying. On top of that, your world was still hazy, making it difficult for you to distinguish between reality and lies. You tried hard to fight your way out of this state. You had to get away from Yami.

"If you really love me, then please release your quirk."

He shook his head. "How often do I need to repeat myself? There is no quirk."

"Stop it already! I've finally seen through your bullshit, Yami. I was trying to be reasonable, let you down slowly, but fuck that." You couldn't help your tears from falling. You just wanted to get away and hoped he would let you. You realised that you were in a tight spot, not a single soul around to help you.

"Babe, please calm down. We can-"

"Don't you fucking dare call me that," you spat. "Forget me, Yami. Forget it all and leave me the fuck alone. I've had enough of you, and I'm so sick of being tricked by the one person that was supposed to be my rock."

"I still am that person. You're confused, princess. Please calm down and let us take this to my place. I promise we can work through this." He was almost begging at this point, making him sound pathetic.

You tried to walk away, but another wave of haziness hit you and made you freeze to the spot. You looked at him, terror on your face. "Why won't you let me go?"

"Because you're not acting reasonable, (y/n). Hear me out at least."

You shook your head. "Fuck, no! I've had enough." You tried to move away, but it was as though you were paralysed. "Get out of my head!" You yelled, somehow managing to break through the invisible barrier that was holding you a prisoner.

You could tell that it took Yami by surprise, he clearly didn't expect you to break free. In an attempt to keep you from leaving, he grabbed the first thing he could reach, which happened to be the scarf you had wrapped around your bruised neck.

It unravelled like the thread of a spool, his fingers clenched around one end of the fabric, the other end trying to become one with the wind, dancing in the cool evening breeze. He just looked at you, and you looked back at him. You could see the exact moment his heart broke into two. You could see it in the way his shoulders slumped, in the way the flicker in his blue eyes extinguished and in the way he let go of the fabric in his hand, setting it free to escape from the tense situation you were currently in.

You wished you could follow your scarf, float away, escape the inevitable confrontation.

"Tell me this isn't what I think it is," he said, pain in his voice.

Suddenly, the haziness was gone, it was almost like snapping out of anaesthesia, finally able to think straight again.

"Yami... " You said. "It's… I'm sorry."

He shook his head. "No. Tell me those are bruises from training. Tell me those aren't…"

"Oh god, I didn't want you to see this." You couldn't help yourself from crying again. You felt so incredibly bad. You weren't a cheater, but you knew that technically, you had done exactly that.

He clicked his tongue. "Of course you didn't want me to find out. You didn't want me to know that you've been fucking around with other guys."

"Yami! That's not true, I didn't… I didn't sleep with him, okay. We- It was just a kiss."

"That doesn't look like the result of just a kiss. What the fuck, (y/n)? I might have been a shitty boyfriend, but…"

You took a deep breath. "I'm sorry, Yami. I honestly didn't mean for this to happen. I swear that this isn't the reason that I'm ending things between us."

"You didn't mean for this to happen? I don't know, (y/n), last time I checked, it takes two to make a decision like this. Or are you telling me that this wasn't consensual?"

You widened your eyes in shock. "N-no it wasn't like that… I- I knew what I was doing but… I don't know why. You have every right to be upset, and I feel so bad for betraying you like this, but I need you to know that Katsuki isn't the reason wh-"

A low growl emerging from Yami's throat made you stop. "Katsuki, huh? I should've known it was that blonde bastard you were fucking around with."

"Yami, I already told you we didn't sleep together."

"That doesn't make it any fucking better, (y/n)."

You looked down. "I'm so sorry."

"You know, it's funny, really," he said, laughing a bitter laugh. "You two really deserve each other. Considering you like keeping things from people that care about you, you really deserve someone who does the same to you."

You raised your eyebrows. "What are you talking about?"

"He- Tch. You know what, find out for yourself. But just so you know, you will regret having done this to me."

"What the fuck, Yami? What are you talking about? And are you seriously threatening me?"

He scoffed. "Like I'd tell you. I can't believe I fell for your bullshit."

"Don't fucking turn this around and try to make me the bad guy now," you said, no longer able to contain your anger. "You have been lying to me from day one, I have no idea who you actually are. You've been lying about your quirk, probably about your family too. You've been shrouded in mystery, and I accepted it all because I was trapped in the haze you cast around me. I honestly doubt that anything you ever said to me was the fucking truth. I don't care how often you tell me that you genuinely love me, I won't believe it for even a second."

Your little speech must have caused some sort of reaction in him, making him snap. "I don't give a fuck about what you believe or not, but don't accuse me of lying about my feelings."

You couldn't help but laugh. "Oh please, like I'd believe anything that comes out of your mouth." You suddenly felt bold, not knowing why exactly, but you couldn't help yourself. "You know, after all is said and done, I'm glad I kissed Katsuki. At least that means you're not the only person to have touched me like that."

The moment those words left your lips, you felt instant regret. This regret was fueled further when you saw the blind rage in Yami's eyes. "Take that the fuck back."

"No."

Everything happened so fast, you didn't see it coming. Before you knew it, Yami's fist landed straight in your face, making you fall to the ground. You could instantly feel your lip cracking, blood gushing out. You looked up at him, you both seemed equally shocked. Before either of you could say anything, loud yelling distracted you, and in a matter of seconds, Yami was sent flying backwards, landing with the back against the metal bars of one of the swings.

You looked up and saw Katsuki standing in front of you. He had his back towards you, protecting you from further harm, his eyes were focused on Yami. Your heart was conflicted. It wanted to beat faster, but at the same time, it was bleeding for the boy in front of you. You were still mad at him, but also so very thankful that he had intervened.

You looked towards where Yami had landed, seeing him stand up on shaky legs. When he got up, he wiped his mouth with the sleeve of his jumper. You could immediately see the bloodstain his mouth had left. "What the fuck gives you the right to fool around with my girlfriend?"

Katsuki clicked his tongue. "I don't think she's your girlfriend anymore, buddy."

He couldn't help himself from grinning at the blue-eyed boy in front of him. You might have been mad at Katsuki right now, but at the end of the day, it was he who had saved you.

"She was then. What kind of guy are you? Going after a taken girl?"

Katsuki smirked. "What are you gonna do about it, huh?"

"I could take you on."

The blonde in front of you chuckled, making a come and get me hand gesture. "Try me then," Katsuki said. “I dare you.”

Yami didn't move at all. He must've known deep down that he had no chance against Katsuki. The grey-haired boy looked at you, absolutely defeated, but anger still very much present.

"Tch. Didn't think so," Katsuki said mockingly, turning around to face you. He knelt down beside you. "You okay?"

You started blushing, you were still so mad at him, but goddamn, you loved when Katsuki showed this smug and confident side of him. There was just something so sexy about it. The air of superiority surrounding him was captivating.

"Hm." Was all you said.

He nodded, swiftly picking you up from the ground, holding you bridal style. You yelped and looked up at him. "What are you doing?"

"Carrying you home."

"I can walk."

He clicked his tongue. "Just let me fucking hold you," he said, blushing profusely, and pressing your body a little closer to his chest.

Your blush intensified too. You wanted to resist, knowing how much Katsuki had hurt you, but you couldn't get yourself to do so. It was as though you were glued to his arms. You hated admitting it, but you were so glad that he found you in time. Which brought up a big question. "Katsuki?" You asked him.

"Hm?"

"How did you find me?"

He scoffed. "I followed you."

"W-what? Why?"

He looked at you. "Because I was worried your stupid ass would get yourself in trouble when I saw you walk off with that douchebag."

"Y-you didn't have to do that."

"Tch. Clearly, I did, and I was still too late to prevent him from laying his crusty ass fingers on you."

You pouted a little. "Yeah, but you didn't have to. I didn't ask you to."

"Can you just shut up and be thankful? Goddamn," he said, rolling his eyes.

You didn't know what to say. Of course, you were thankful, but you didn't want to be indebted to Katsuki. He now had something on you, and you didn't like that at all. You were still mad at him after all. "Fine. Thanks."

"There you go," he grinned. "Now let's get you home, this guy is creeping me out."

He set in motion, and you wrapped your arms around his neck to stay in place. You looked back and saw Yami still standing where he had initially landed after Katsuki had sucker-punched him into oblivion. You were surprised that Yami was still standing, he must be a lot tougher than he looked.

The last thing you saw was him pulling his phone out of his pocket, placing it to his ear. But Katsuki turned around a corner, making you lose sight of your now ex-boyfriend. You could neither see nor hear him, which was why you couldn't catch the words that left Yami's lips.

"It's me. I fucked up... But I got an idea for a plan B. I'll be there in ten minutes."

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When you arrived at the dorms, it was already late, and you didn't run into any of your classmates. The walk back home had been quiet, leaving you to admire Katsuki's features and his smile, hating how much you loved it.

Once back home, you assumed he would let go of you, but he didn't do that. Instead, he carried you upstairs into his room. "K-katsuki what are you doing?"

"Don't get the wrong idea. I'm taking care of the wound that bastard left on your face."

You swallowed hard. You almost forgot about that. But now that the adrenaline was wearing off, it actually hurt quite a bit.

Katsuki looked at your wincing face. "Sit down, I'll go and grab some first aid stuff from downstairs."

"Thanks."

The moment the door closed behind him, you realised that you were alone in Katsuki's room. The feeling suddenly overwhelming you. Being surrounded by his scent and his belongings made you feel all sorts of things. You hated that you had feelings for him. You hated that he was so nice to you when he had broken your heart just a day ago. You knew that you should run away, but you couldn't bring yourself to do so.

You sat on his bed, wondering what kinds of things he had done underneath these sheets. A sudden sting and hinge of jealousy overcame you. Tainted. You couldn't bring yourself to sit on the mattress any longer.

Instead, you were pacing through his room, looking at the All Might figures he kept on one of his shelves. Everything was very tidy, nothing was out of place. Which is why it was odd to see one of his desk drawers slightly open, a pink, dried flower sticking out of it. It piqued your curiosity for several reasons, but mainly because you didn't think Katsuki was the type to keep flowers, let alone one that was dried. Usually, people dried flowers that they had an emotional attachment to.

Against your better judgement, you walked towards his desk, carefully opening the drawer completely. You looked inside, and your head started spinning. Earth suddenly rotated at maximum velocity, making you unsteady on your feet. The drawer was filled with dried flowers, old cinema tickets, little trinkets, and other memories. You swallowed hard. Those were most likely memories from his past relationship, and he kept everything because he was still in love with the girl.

Sadness replaced any other emotion in your body, and you decided to close the drawer again. But just when you were about to bring it back into the previous position, a little sparkle in the corner of the drawer made you stop. You put your hand inside, fishing out a piece of jewellery.

You laid it onto your flat hand, inspecting it thoroughly. It didn't take you long to remember where you had seen it before. The ring resting in your hand was the very same ring that you had been wearing in the picture you had found under your bed.

It was like an epiphany. Your thoughts were racing, trying to piece all the pieces together. It made sense, it all made sense. But at the same time, the thought was scaring you. You had to know the answer, but you didn't think you were ready for whatever it was that Katsuki had to say.

You quickly put the ring back to where you had found it, almost sprinting back to his bed, pretending you hadn't moved one bit since he had left. It turned out that you did that in just the right moment, as not even a minute later, Katsuki came back into his room.

"I brought you some snacks to-" He looked at you. "Hey, are you alright?"

Oh shit. "Y-yeah, I'm just a bit dizzy is all."

"Alright, well, let me take care of that cut on your lip and clean you up a bit. I think that should take care of most of the damage. You might have a bruise tomorrow though."

He moved towards you, making you flinch a little. "It's just me. No need to be nervous."

"Hm." You nodded, trying to look anywhere but his face. You didn't succeed, though. You couldn't focus on anything except for his eyes. His beautiful, crimson eyes. Was it really true? The thought gave you butterflies in your stomach. Maybe you should just ask him, confront him and see where it would go.

But at the same time, you didn't want to do that. You needed more information. You knew that if Katsuki confirmed your suspicion, he would expect a reaction, but you didn't know what kind of response you would be able to give him. You couldn't just accept it, jumping into his arms. You didn't know enough. For all you knew, you two could have broken up before your accident. Maybe you hadn't been happy. You didn't know enough to be able to give him the response that he deserved. And you didn't like to be put on the spot either; you would just feel uncomfortable.

No, you would find out for yourself, you would investigate, and once you'd know more, you would seek the conversation with Katsuki. For all you knew, you could have gotten it all wrong. Leaving him angry with you for snooping through his belongings. You needed a strategy, and you knew exactly who would be able to help you.

"All done." Katsuki's voice suddenly snapped you out of your thoughts.

You started blushing when you saw him looking at you. "Thanks."

For a moment, you were just looking at each other. Katsuki knew that this was the moment to make things right. This was finally the moment to tell you everything you needed to know. "Listen, (y/n), I want to tell-"

But you interrupted him. "I know you do, but can we not do this tonight?"

His eyes immediately darted to the drawer at his desk. It was closed, making him breathe easy. He wasn't entirely sure whether it had been open before, but he just hoped that you hadn't seen anything. He wanted to be the one telling you the truth.

He swallowed hard. He wanted to talk to you, wanted to tell you everything. But he couldn't do that if you asked him not to. Maybe the truth would be too much after what you had just gone through anyway. Perhaps it was for the best; for now anyway.

"Sure. Just let me know when you're ready."

"I will."

For a few minutes, you were just sitting there, trying to read each other's emotions without saying them out loud. Eventually, though, you were tired and needed some time alone. You got up off the bed, Katsuki following behind you. "Thanks for everything you did for me tonight, Katsuki," you said, giving him a shy smile. "I don't know what I would have done without you."

You could see the blush on his face and how he tried to mask it with a scowl. "You're welcome, I guess."

You walked over to his door, and he knew he only had seconds until you would be gone for the night. "Hey, (y/n)," he said, making you turn around.

Without warning, he leapt forward, embracing you in a soft hug. You widened your eyes, surprised and shocked. "K-katsuki what-"

He hugged you just a little tighter. "I'm sorry, I just- I was so worried about you, and I'm sorry I didn't react quicker."

"I'm okay now, because of you. Honestly, thank you, Katsuki." You couldn't hide a small smile. Being pressed up against him like that felt undeniably good, and even though you were still unsure, your growing suspicion made your anger towards the blonde swindle.

He let go of you, searching for something in your eyes that he didn't seem to be able to find. He looked down. "There is… a lot that I want to talk to you about, but I understand that you don't want to hear me out right now and that's fine, just-" He stopped for a moment, looking back up at you. "Just let me know when you're ready."

You nodded. "Of course. Goodnight, Katsuki."

"Goodnight, (y/n)."

The moment you left Katsuki's room, he threw himself on his bed, pressing his pillow over his face, and screaming as loud as he could. He hated that he had to wait even longer to tell you the truth. But he had to accept your wishes. He understood that this evening had been traumatic for you and that you were in no shape to take even more emotional shock. He had to follow your lead, wait until you were ready to hear him out. It was upsetting him, but at the same time, he knew that Yami was out of the picture at least. So that was a big plus.

He couldn't help but wonder though if Yami truly was history. Katsuki was afraid that the blue-eyed boy might be up to something sinister. He couldn't catch the conversation you and your ex had had before Katsuki charged ahead to intervene, but he had a feeling that Yami didn't take it very well. Katsuki wouldn't be surprised if more drama would come your way.

But he would be there to protect you. Until then, he just had to follow your lead and lay low. He knew you would get there eventually.

When you arrived in your room, your thoughts were raging just like Katsuki's. But you were also incredibly tired, exhausted from all the emotional trauma that happened over the weekend. It was a Sunday night, so you knew you had to sleep quickly if you didn't want to be a tired mess the next day at school.

Luckily for you, sleep welcomed you like an old friend the moment you had laid down on your bed. You had a dreamless night, didn't wake up once, and yet, you weren't rested at all when your alarm went off in the morning.

You got ready on autopilot, so lost in thoughts, you didn't even realise that you left the dorms without having breakfast. Only really snapping out of your trance when you heard Mina's panicked voice in front of you.

You looked up. When did you walk to your classroom? And when had you sat down at your desk? The confusion paired with how tired you were, made you react incredibly slowly. You blinked a few times, trying to focus on your friend in front of you.

"Huh?"

Mina sighed. "Girl, I asked what the fuck happened to your face?"

"Oh," you said, touching your jaw, immediately wincing when you placed your fingers on the bruise. You had totally forgotten that the swelling would be visible by now. Why didn't you cover it up? Goddamn, now everyone would be asking you about it.

There was nothing you could do about that now, so you just had to accept the fact that you looked like you had participated in a fight club. "Is it bad?" You asked.

Mina widened her eyes. "What do you mean? Haven't you looked in the mirror? It looks worse than bad."

"Ah damn."

"Really? That's your reaction? Look at yourself, hun." She fished her little makeup mirror out of her bag, holding it in front of your face.

You immediately cringed. You looked terrible. Your bottom lip was still visibly hurt, a scab over the part where it had split. Your right cheek was red, fading into a purple bruise that covered half of your jaw. To top it all off, your chin was terribly swollen. "Ouch."

"You really gotta tell me what happened," Mina said concerned. "Was it… was it Katsuki?" She whispered the last part.

You widened your eyes, shaking your head. "God, no. He saved me, actually. It was… an eventful night."

"So it was Yami?"

"Yeah."

Mina's eyes were filled with rage. "I'm gonna kill that bastard."

"It's fine, Mina. He won't bother me anymore. I broke things off and… Katsuki punched him into oblivion. I don't think he'll recover anytime soon."

Mina still looked angry as hell. "Well, that's good. But if he ever bothers you again, it's Pinky time."

You couldn't help but laugh, which made you flinch. "God, that hurt."

"Girl, you really need a break from men."

You scoffed. "Tell me about it."

You continued chatting a little. You explained to Mina how you had broken up with Yami, how he went from a crying mess to punching you. And how Katsuki had followed you, saving you just in time. Recalling how he rescued you made your heart flutter. You remembered the ring you had found in his drawer, but decided not to mention this detail to Mina. There was someone else you had to talk to.

You listened to Mina telling you that you should listen to what Katsuki had to say regarding what had happened in the tent. That perhaps, you had gotten it all wrong. While she was giving you advice, the boy in question entered the room. His gaze immediately landed on your face and his expression contorted, he looked furious. You quickly looked away. What was his problem all of a sudden?

Unbeknownst to you, it wasn't you that Katsuki was angry with. When he saw the bruises on your face, he desperately wanted to run out the building, find Yami and punch him until nothing was left of that bastard. Katsuki swore to himself that should he ever cross paths with Yami again, he would give him hell.

You spotted Eiji looking at you, worry on his face. "God, (y/n). Are you okay?" He moved towards you, inspecting your face.

"Yeah."

"I'm gonna kill that guy." Eiji looked unusually angry.

Mina chuckled, placing a hand on his shoulder. "Get in line then, because you're not the only one who wants to do that."

You started laughing with Mina, but Eiji didn't join you. "I can't joke about this. He hurt my little bean, that's unforgivable."

You gave him a big smile. "It's alright, Eiji. I'm fine!"

"I'm still gonna kill him," he said, now with a little smile on his face.

"I don't wanna have to visit you in prison, babe," Mina said.

Eiji raised his eyebrows and looked at Mina. "I'll make it look like an accident."

"Okay, I'm in."

You couldn't help but burst out laughing. "Guys, stop openly talking about killing someone."

"What? We're gonna kill someone?" Denki said from behind you, biting in his apple.

You turned around, looking at him. He looked shocked when he saw your wounds. "Oh fuck that. We're totally gonna kill that guy."

"You don't even know how this happened," you quipped.

“(y/n), I might not be a smart man, but I’m not that dumb.”

You could hear Hanta chuckle from behind you. "I love that the first thing I hear when walking into the classroom is Denki trying to defend his intelligence," he said. "What are we talking about?"

Denki sighed dramatically. "We need to defend (y/n)'s honour."

"Oh?"

You turned a little, presenting your face to Hanta. "Holy shit! What happened?"

"Isn't that obvious? Even Denki got it immediately," Mina said.

Hanta looked shocked. "W-wait… that was Yami?"

"Yup."

"I'm gonna kill that guy."

You started laughing again, immediately regretting it because it hurt your wounds. "Apparently all of you want to do that. But don't worry guys, Katsuki already gave him what he deserved."

All eyes were now on the blonde boy. He wasn't looking at either of you. He had his feet up on his desk, leaning back on his chair. His hands were linked behind his neck, enabling him to rest his head in his palms. He clicked his tongue. "That was nowhere near what that bastard deserves," he said with a low growl. "If I as much as see him again, he'll wish he was never born."

You swallowed hard. Katsuki's threat made you feel all hot inside. His demeanour was that of a delinquent, his words came out low, making him sound dangerous. God, why were you so attracted to him all of a sudden? You couldn't help but blush, your entire body heating up.

Your friend's eyes were wandering between you and Katsuki, not saying a word. They all had so many questions. Why had Katsuki even been there? Had you made up after what happened a few days ago? You decided to leave them guessing. Knowing Mina, she would be telling the others by lunchtime either way.

You had a different objective. "Eiji?" You asked, making your best friend look at you. "Do you think… we could talk after school? I need… your help with something."

Katsuki turned his head slightly, looking at you out of the corner of his eye. You looked nervous, which in turn, made him nervous. He had no idea what you could possibly want to talk to Eijiro about. The latter was just as clueless.

"Yeah, of course, (y/n). I'll come to your room later."

You gave him a big smile, as big as possible without cracking your lip, anyway. "Thanks. I-"

You were interrupted by someone clearing their throat. Everyone looked towards the door, seeing All Might standing there, looking at you. What now? You just wanted to catch a break for once.

You got up before your teacher even spoke up. "Young (l/n), could I please speak with you for a moment?"

You walked towards him and could feel the eyes of all your classmates burning through the back of your head. "Class is about to start. Can't we do that later?"

"I'm afraid not. Aizawa knows about this, so you're excused for the day."

You looked at him, confused. "The entire day?"

All Might simply nodded. You looked back, your friends gave you a worried look. You just shrugged your shoulders and gave them a little thumbs-up, trying to tell them that it was all okay. But that didn't seem to convince any of them. You looked at Katsuki, he was the only one who didn't seem bothered by All Might summoning you. You couldn't help but feel as though that was strange.

If your suspicions were right and you had been a couple at one stage, and he had in fact, feelings for you, wouldn't he be more interested in the fact you were taken out of class?

You sighed. No point in thinking about that right now. You turned away from class, following All Might through the school corridors. Eventually, you stopped in front of his office, he opened the door, leading you inside before entering himself.

You sat down on his sofa, dropping the formal posture you had held up before you were alone with him. "So, what's up?"

"Really? You're walking around school with a bruised face, expecting me not to find out?"

You sighed. "I knew you'd find out, I just didn't think you'd care."

"You know that I care."

“Sure. Whatever you say, sensei.”

He cleared his throat, sitting across from you. "I thought we've moved past this, (y/n)."

"I know. I'm sorry… It's just. There's a lot on my mind at the moment."

"Then talk to me," he said. "You know you can always come to me."

You grimaced. "Yeah, but it's awkward."

"It doesn't have to be. Please tell me what's going on. I'm worried about you."

You took a deep breath. "Well, I've been seeing this guy, and we broke up last night. He didn't take it very well."

All Might's expression changed. "I-"

"Don't even say that you're gonna kill him. You're not the only one."

He scratched his head a little. "I wasn't gonna say that."

"Yeah you were, old man."

You both laughed a little, and you were surprised by how natural the conversation felt. You couldn't remember the last time it had been like that, if ever.

"Anyway, (y/n). Do you think this boy will be bothering you going forward?"

You shrugged your shoulders. "I don't know. I don't feel like he will, but I might be wrong… I mean, I was wrong about him before."

"Don't blame yourself. Some people are very skilled in hiding their true colours."

You scoffed. "Yeah, I learned that the hard way. Twice.”

"What do you mean?"

You didn't know whether you should confide into All Might. You knew that you could, he wouldn't judge you, but it would be awkward nonetheless. In the end, you decided to talk to him. You could really use some outsider advice.

"Well… I kinda developed some… feelings for Katsuki…" You said, fidgeting on your spot. You looked up, expecting All Might to look at you funny. But he didn't; instead, he had a soft smile on his lips.

"That's great."

You shook your head. "I don't know… He said he had feelings for his ex-girlfriend and he wanted to win her back. I got upset and stopped talking to him… But then I was in his room last night, and-"

"You were in young Bakugou's room last night?" All Might said, coughing up blood.

You widened your eyes. "Y-yeah. But it's not like that at all…. Geez. He just helped me with first aid for my wounds. It was he who protected me."

He took a deep breath. "I see. Please continue."

"Well, as I said, I was in his room and when he was out to get some supplies, I kinda… snooped around a little," you admitted. "I know I shouldn't have but… when I looked into one of his drawers, I found dozens and dozens of trinkets and other memories. It looked like they were from his past relationship. And then I found this ring that I recognised. I was wearing it on one of the pictures I found in my room. So… It's just a suspicion, and maybe I'm just silly… I guess deep down I just really like him and am trying to convince myself that he feels the same."

All Might gave you a soft smile. "Young Bakugou has a very fiery personality, and he doesn't seem to care about a lot of things, but he does care about you. Deeply so. I think he always has and he always will do. Sometimes listening to your gut instinct is a good thing, (y/n). You have always had a tendency to overthink things."

"So you think… I'm right?"

Your teacher leaned forward a little. "What I do know is that young Bakugou has been seeking my advice the moment he had had a bad feeling about that boy you have been seeing. He asked me to make sure that someone kept an eye on your little trip. To make sure that you were safe and you could enjoy yourself. I don't think he would do that for just anyone."

You swallowed hard, your heart beating faster. But then you realised. “Why did Katsuki seek your advise? No offence, but there's not all that much you could've done on your own."

"He asked me for help because he knows."

Your brain almost exploded from the weight of this new information. "Katsuki knows?"

All Might simply nodded.

"H-how long? I- That's bad."

Your teacher chuckled. "Oh, he's known for a long time. Don't worry about it, we had agreed to entrust him with this information."

"We did? But… why would you agree to that? Why would I want him to know?"

"You already know the answer to that, (y/n)."

You swallowed hard. All Might was right, you did know the answer.

You had entrusted him with your biggest secret because you had been in love with him. And he had felt the same about you.

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Your conversation with All Might had equally confused and enlightened you. You finally had some answers, but at the same time, it opened up so many more questions. Your conversation with the symbol of peace continued for a while longer, eventually slipping into some more trivial topics. You felt as though you had really needed this catch-up with your teacher.

It was still somewhat awkward talking to him, but it had improved significantly. You were glad that he was there for you when you needed him. You never thought you'd be able to have a relationship with him that wasn't entirely awkward and made you uncomfortable. But it seemed as though you were wrong.

After your long talk, All Might sent you back to the dorms, ordering you to take it easy and catch up on some sleep. Not just to give your wounds some rest, but also your mind. You had gone through so much over the past months after all.

So you did exactly that. You didn't think you'd be able to fall asleep so quickly, but the exhaustion caught up with you after just a couple of minutes. Your dreams were strange, all involving Katsuki. Some of them were nice, most of them were nightmares. But his face was present the entire time.

During a particularly pleasant dream, loud knocking ripped you from your slumber. Your eyes darted open, the loud noise alerting you. You immediately thought that someone was attacking you, but then you realised that you had a visitor at your door. You took a deep breath. You hadn't realised just how much the whole Yami ordeal must have affected you.

You walked over to your door, opening it slightly. The moment you saw your best friend's face, you started crying. You didn't exactly know why, but somehow, everything that you had bottled up, just forced its way out. You nearly jumped in Eiji's arms, almost knocking him over. But he caught you and held you close.

"What happened?" He asked, concerned.

You just continued sobbing. "I don't even know."

He lifted you off the floor with one arm, carrying you inside your room. He then closed the door with his free hand and walked over to your bed, placing you on the mattress, sitting down next to you. Eiji didn't say anything; he was just there for you, laying his hand on your thigh, rubbing it reassuringly. You appreciated him so much; you couldn't even put it into words.

You felt dumb for crying like this, but you also couldn't help yourself. All the emotional trauma had finally caught up with you, and you were about ready to collapse. You sniffled a few more times, but the tears eventually stopped.

"Are you ready to talk?"

You nodded. "I… Eiji can I ask you something?"

"Yeah, of course."

You swallowed hard. "Did Katsuki and I… used to, you know, date?"

Eijiro couldn't hide the surprise and shock he felt at that moment. How did you find out? Did you finally remember? "What makes you say that?"

"Well, Katsuki brought me into his room last night, and when he was gone… I happened to see a few things. Like the ring that I was wearing in that one picture, I showed you a while ago."

Your friend just looked at you, not knowing what to say. It wasn't his place to tell you. This should come from his blonde friend himself. "I think you should have this conversation with Katsuki, not me."

You shook your head and pouted a little. "No, I can't do that, Eiji."

"Why not?"

"Well, for starters, if it is true, then I don't know whether we were still together at the point of my accident. For all I know we could have broken up and Katsuki simply doesn't tell me. And if it is true, and we were together, then I don't know how to react. Does he still care about me in that way? Would he expect me to jump into his arms? I need to know more. You know that I get easily overwhelmed, I want to be prepared."

Eiji stayed silent for a moment. "I can see your point…"

"Besides… Yami mentioned that Katsuki has been keeping something from me, that he's been lying to me. I can only assume that he was talking about us being a couple… If we weren't, then there's something else, and I need to find out what that is."

Your friend looked concerned. "Let's say for a moment that you are right, and you were… you know, together. How would Yami know? Isn't it weird that he seems to know that Katsuki has been hiding something? That doesn't make sense."

Shit. Eiji was right. "I didn't even think about that."

For a moment, it was silent. "God, Eiji. I have a terrible feeling about this. None of this makes any sense."

"We think about the Yami issue later, for now…" Eiji sighed deeply. "If you tell Katsuki that you know this from me, he'll kill me. So promise me that you won’t say anything.”

You nodded. "Of course."

"You're right," he said after a while. "You were a couple. Technically, you are still a couple. You never actually broke up… I suppose."

Tears were falling from your eyes immediately. "Oh my god… Katsuki… He must have gone through hell."

"You have no idea. I've never seen him break down like this before."

"He broke down?"

Eiji felt like he should stop talking, but it was you, after all. He always told you everything, and it felt good to finally reveal to you just how much Katsuki loved you.

"You guys kept your relationship a secret and I had no idea how much he struggled after your accident. But one night he just… he reached his breaking point. He stood in front of my room, looking like an absolute mess. Never thought I'd see the day he'd cry in front of me without being deeply ashamed."

You held your hand in front of your mouth to stifle the sobs. You couldn't believe just what you had done to him. You thought back to when you saw Katsuki in the hospital, how upset he had looked. He had no doubt been there to see you. Then you thought back to the dinner when Yami had come over, how Katsuki had known your favourite mochi flavour; and it suddenly made sense. You pictured all the training sessions you have had over the past weeks - all the looks he had given you, how gentle he had been. You thought back to the weekend, how much restraint he must have had when you were swimming in the lake. How happy he must've been when you were in this tent together.

You wished you would have heard him out. You could've saved yourself, and him, the pain you had felt that night and the next day.

"I'm such an idiot."

Eiji shook his head. "No, you're not. You couldn't have known. Nobody knew, except for Katsuki."

"I can't believe he carried this secret with him the entire time. I don't understand why he didn't tell you sooner."

"Well, that's Katsuki for you. He was overthinking every little thing. In his mind, he had lost you. Not just to Yami, but also in general. You acted a lot different after the accident. He didn't know how to approach you. He didn't want to put you off by being too pushy. He didn't want to seem needy or pathetic, which is why he didn't tell me about your relationship until he couldn't take it anymore."

You sighed, looking down. "I wish I could remember."

"You might do one day. Until then, try to make new memories."

You looked at your friend. "And you're sure he's still got feelings for me?"

"Are you kidding? You are his everything. I don't think I've ever seen anyone love another person as much as he loves you."

Your heart was beating out of your chest. "I don't even know how to process this. But I'm so thankful you were honest with me, Eiji."

"I think you needed to know." He gave you a big smile. "So, what are you going to do now?"

You thought for a moment. "I want to be with Katsuki. I want to make him happy, but…"

"But what?"

"I don't know if I'm there just yet. The whole Yami situation left me feeling so drained. I want to trust Katsuki, but it's hard after being beaten up by the person I thought to be my partner. I guess I'm just afraid."

Eiji gave you a weak smile. "You know that Katsuki would never lay as much as a finger on you, right?"

"Yeah."

"I'm not telling you what to do or that you should hurry up in making a decision. But both of you are my friends, and I see how much he is suffering. I think you should at least tell him that you need more time."

You nodded. "I just don't know what to say to him."

"I think you'll know when you're standing in front of him."

You sighed. "Yeah, I guess I don't have another choice. Do you know where Katsuki is at the moment?"

"I think he's at the training grounds."

You put on a determined face. "Alright. I got this!"

"W-wait, you're going to talk to him now? Are you sure?"

You shrugged your shoulders. "No. I have no idea what I'm doing and whether this is the right thing to do. But I want to see him right away, even if it's just to smile at him. I caused Katsuki so much pain; I want to make it up to him."

Eiji smiled at you. "Go get him!"

You couldn't help but laugh. You sprinted to your door, but then you stopped and turned around. "I'm sorry to leave you here like this."

He waved his hand dismissively. "Oh, don't worry, I'm going to visit my lady friend next door. We got some… things to discuss as well.”

You made gagging noises. "Goddamn Eiji, I don't even want to think about what you and Mina are doing behind closed doors."

He chuckled lightly. "Well, I guess it's good you won't be in your room for a while… Considering Mina's room is right next to yours."

"Gross."

You could hear him laugh behind you, making you smirk while you ran down the hallway. You were happy beyond words that your friends were finally together. And you wanted to see the same happiness in Katsuki's eyes. Now that you knew what you had put him through, you would do everything you could to make him whole again.

You didn't know whether you could give him what he truly wanted yet, but you wanted to give him at least as much you could. Which, at the very least, was the opportunity to tell you everything that he had kept bottled up inside of him. When you came closer to the training grounds, you could hear loud explosions and even louder yelling. He didn't seem to be in a very good mood, but you decided to see him anyway.

When you walked inside, you found him brutally attacking training dummies. There was a blind rage in every single one of his movements. You had the sudden urge to hug him, calm him down. But you didn't do so; instead, you were simply looking at him. He hadn't noticed you yet. After watching him for a few minutes, you decided to alert him of your presence.

You directed your palm in his direction and fired off a light stream of water. The pressure not much harder than water coming from a garden hose. When the stream hit his back, he immediately spun around. You could tell that he was ready to attack until he saw that it was you.

His gaze softened a little. "What the fuck was that for?"

And the moment you looked into his eyes, hearing his voice and being just a few feet apart, all your feelings came crashing down on you. The feelings you had developed for him over the past weeks, and the feelings you had felt over the weekend before you had been too stubborn to hear him out. Everything came down like an avalanche, and you wanted to let him know.

Let him know that you wanted him to be happy. And that you wanted to be happy with him.

Without a second thought, you formed a whip out of the water molecules surrounding you. You wrapped it around Katsuki's torso and pulled him towards you. He looked confused and pissed off. "The hell? You could've just told me to walk ov-"

But before he could finish his sentence, you pulled him in even closer, pressing your lips on his. You released the whip, replacing your quirk with your arms. He didn't reciprocate the kiss at first, too stunned to comprehend what was happening. But it didn't take him too long to regain his composure.

The moment he realised what was going on, he grabbed your face, trying to take in all of you. He didn't even care why you decided to kiss him. He just wanted to feel you. He deepened the kiss further, cupping your cheeks with only a little more urgency.

But when he heard you wince, he immediately let go.

He realised that he had been a bit too rough on your wounded lip and bruised jaw. "F-fuck. I'm s-sorry I just-"

You just smiled at him and pulled him in for another kiss. This time he was more careful, and you truly appreciated that. You didn't even mean for this to happen. You didn't mean to come here and kiss him as though your life depended on it. You didn’t mean to get so needy for him. All you had wanted was to talk.

But you couldn't help yourself. Katsuki was like a drug, and he had you addicted.

You finally knew why being with him had felt so natural. It was because you had been with him like this many times before, which was why your body was moving on autopilot - trying to remove the distance between you even further. Your breasts were pressed against his heaving chest, your hands exploring his muscular body. You were filled with a hunger that only Katsuki could satisfy.

When he felt you rubbing your thighs together, seeking friction, he knew that you were just as needy as he was. He grabbed your bum, easily lifting you off your feet. You understood and wrapped your legs around his waist. The feeling of your body encompassing his made him growl deeply.

He had longed for this for far too long.

He carried you out of the training hall, moving you towards the changing rooms. He could barely see anything, still being connected to you in a heated, yet gentle kiss. After almost tripping over for the fourth time, he broke the kiss, trying to carry you out of the training ground quicker.

You understood what he was doing, but you needed him and didn't want your mouth to be unoccupied. So you started kissing down his jaw, peppering kisses all over his skin. You started lightly nibbling on his neck, and the reactions he gave you were the hottest thing you had ever heard.

The moment you crashed through the locker room doors, you took off your shirt and threw it across the room. Katsuki was still holding you firmly in place. His face now buried between your breasts; it felt so good. You couldn't believe that you used to do this regularly and that you had actually forgotten all about this sensation you were now feeling.

The soft moans you gave Katsuki in response were too much for him to take. He moved you towards one of the walls of the room, pressing your back against it. He had pictured something more romantic for your first time after the accident, but he couldn't contain his primal urges any longer and by the looks of it, neither could you.

He ripped off the tights you were wearing, the scraps scattered all over the floor. You didn't even care; if anything, it aroused you even more. While he was attacking your neck, leaving even more marks than he had done a couple of nights ago, you were starting to fumble with the hem of his sweatpants. You were so glad that he was already wearing his workout clothes, it made undressing him a lot easier.

But unfortunately, it wasn't easy enough. You huffed in frustration, making the blonde smirk against your neck. He looked up, straight into your eyes. "Someone's being eager."

You pouted. "Shut up and take off your pants, Katsuki."

He couldn't help but blush a little. He tried to hide it with a cocky grin. "If you talk like that, I won't be able to hold back."

"Then don't."

That was all he needed to hear to lose his mind completely. He untied his sweatpants, making them fall to his ankles. His boxers followed swiftly, making you glance down, swallowing hard.

You didn't know why you were so nervous all of a sudden, you had done this before, even though you couldn't remember. It wouldn't hurt, you weren't a virgin, and your body was already used to Katsuki. It was all in your head.

He could sense your nervousness. "We don't have to do this."

"N-no I want to."

He nodded and gave you a soft smile, followed by a lengthy kiss. God, you wanted to feel his lips on yours every second, of every day. Your back was still pressed against the wall, his arms firmly holding you in place. The position you were in was extremely compromising, and you loved it. Just when you could feel him rubbing against you, you widened your eyes.

"K-katsuki, stop!"

He looked at you, panic in his eyes. "What happened?"

"D-do… do you have... protection?"

He looked dumbfounded. "Well, I wasn't exactly expecting this to happen when I went out for training today. So, no..."

You sighed deeply. "I guess that makes sense."

He had assumed you were on the pill. But you had talked about this just before your accident, of course, you wouldn't remember that. He couldn't hide his frustration.

"W-we can take this back to your room… if you have any there?"

He gave you a smirk. "I do."

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When you unlocked the door to Katsuki's room, your anxiety was overpowering every desire you had felt just ten minutes before. You stood in the middle of his bedroom, not really knowing what you were supposed to do.

After you had decided to take things back to his dorm, he said that he would take a quick shower, not wanting to bring the dirt and sweat from training back into his room. He had given you his keys, telling you he wouldn't take long.

When you left the locker rooms you were still convinced that giving in to your desires was what you should be doing but now that you had some time to reflect you weren't so sure anymore. It wasn't that you didn't have feelings for Katsuki or that you didn't want to be with him like that. It was more that you were afraid to hurt him by sleeping with him.

He didn't know that you had found out about your relationship. You still had to have this conversation with him, clearing up everything that was left unspoken between you. And when all was said, and out in the open, you still didn't know whether you wanted to continue this relationship.

You wanted to be with him, your feelings for Katsuki were too strong to ignore. But at the same time, you didn't want to rush things. You had done that with Yami, and it ended in a mess. You knew that technically you weren't rushing things with Katsuki; you had been a couple for a long time. But that didn't change the fact that you couldn't remember any of that. To you, as you were right now, it was still rushed.

In your head, you knew that you wanted to start dating him again, but you felt as though you had skipped the entire process of properly getting to know each other. You wanted to go on dates, hold hands, feel the butterflies. At this rate, however, you would jump headfirst into something too complicated for you to comprehend.

You would enter a new relationship, but for Katsuki it wouldn't be new. He had all these memories of your time together. Would he expect you to behave a certain way? He was used to you as his girlfriend, but could you be that person? So much had happened. The dynamic you had had as a couple, could you get into it quick enough or would you disappoint him?

You decided then that you wanted to take things slow. It was your fault that you had almost slept together and you would have to apologise for that. It wasn't that you didn't want to, but you didn't want to start things the wrong way. You just hoped that he would be okay with that.

When the door to his room opened, and you saw Katsuki's handsome face, your resolve wavered once more. The grin on his face was contagious, and it made you feel warm and fuzzy inside. His hair was still damp from the shower he just took, and he ran his hand through the blonde mess on his head. It looked so hot, you couldn't help but bite your lip.

He was wearing shorts and a shirt without sleeves, giving you a first-class view of the muscular arms that had you pinned against the wall only half an hour ago. You began sweating, your body acting on its own. God, you wanted to be with him so badly. But you had to do this properly if you wanted to build a serious relationship.

You were still standing in the middle of his room, merely looking at him. He was looking right back, but neither of you was moving a muscle. His intense stare made you blush, resulting in you breaking eye contact.

It was the cutest thing he had ever seen.

He dropped the bag with his training clothes, quickly locked the door to his room and walked towards you. His hand found your face immediately, gently caressing your cheek. You were still blushing, your smooth skin heating up, making him lose his mind.

You weren't looking at him, not knowing what to say or do. But Katsuki wanted to see your eyes so desperately. He moved his hand under your chin, carefully lifting your head to make you look at him. He made sure not to touch your bruise, and your heart was melting by how gentle he was with you.

It was the polar opposite of the carnal desire that had been between you not too long ago. Katsuki's eyes were filled with love, and your heart was beating faster than you thought to be possible. His hand was still placed under your chin, his thumb, however, was softly brushing over your lips. It made you shudder. It was such a small gesture - but it left you breathless.

It felt so intimate, so genuine. The chemistry between you was undeniable. Electricity was all around you, shocking you to the core. He was so intense. Pure ecstasy and it left you wanting more.

Katsuki felt precisely the same. He was so happy to be so close to you again. He had no clue why you had seemingly forgiven him or what made you come onto him like that, but he didn't want to question it. He wanted you, needed you, and he wouldn't let you slip from his fingers this time.

So he leaned down a little, replacing his thumb with his lips. The kiss was sweet and soft. It was unlike anything you had ever felt before. It made you happy and sad at the same time. You wanted to give him everything that he deserved, but you were so afraid that you weren't on the same page just yet.

Katsuki could feel your hesitation, so he broke the kiss. "What's wrong?"

You didn't say anything; instead, you averted your gaze. "Hey, please look at me."

When you finally looked into his eyes, he could immediately tell that tears were threatening to spill out of yours. His stomach dropped. What had he done wrong now? He genuinely thought that you wanted him as much as he wanted you. How many times would he have to go through this?

"I'm- Katsuki, I think we should talk," you eventually said.

He swallowed hard. That sentence was hardly ever followed by something good. He had tried so hard to do the right things, how did he manage to fuck up yet again?

He simply nodded, motioning towards his bed; a silent cue for you to sit down. He followed behind you, noticing how much you were shaking. He couldn't help but worry. Just what had happened in between you almost sleeping with him and now?

When you both sat down, he looked at you, trying to study you, find out what you were thinking. He was anxious, so incredibly anxious. He had absolutely no idea what to expect.

You bit your lip. Should you have Katsuki explain your history together and act surprised? Or should you just tell him that you found out? You decided to go with the latter.

"Katsuki, I-"

But he interrupted you before you could say anything else. He didn't want to hear what you had to say. He knew that you would tell him that you regretted what happened in the locker room. He knew that you were about to reject him. And he would accept it. But before you could break his heart, he would confess to you. He would tell you how he felt about you. He couldn't hold it in any longer.

"I love you, (y/n)."

You couldn't help but look surprised. You didn't think Katsuki would just blurt it out like that. You were about to speak up again, but he beat you to it.

"I love you more than I can put into words. And I know I'm shit with feelings, but fuck, do I love you. It feels so good to finally get this off my chest. Goddamn, you have no idea how long I have wanted to tell you. I don't care if you're going to reject me. If you don't feel the same, then that's fine. I'm done getting my hopes up only to fuck it up somehow right after. So if you're going to turn your back on me, then do what you have to do. But I can't look at you any longer, pretending that I'm not head over heels in love with you."

The moment those words left his lips, he felt instant dread washing over him. Maybe he shouldn't have said it out loud. Perhaps he should've toned it down a bit. But no matter how much regret he felt, he couldn't take it back now. So he dared to look up, gauging your reaction. To his surprise, you gave him a shy smile.

"I know you do, Katsuki. And I'm sorry that I can't remember."

He couldn't hide the shock he felt when he heard those words. "W-what do you mean ’you know'?"

"I know that you love me, silly. I know that we used to be… you know… dating." You couldn't help but blush profusely.

Katsuki couldn't help himself from blushing either. He had not expected you to tell him that you had known. "How long? Do you… remember?" He sounded so hopeful, and you hated crushing his hopes.

"Well… I kinda found evidence in your room and pieced everything together. All Might and Eiji confirmed my suspicions so…" You said. "I guess I've known since today. Which is why I went to see you… and that's when I… you know, kissed you and stuff."

You couldn't look him in the eyes, too afraid he would have a go at you for looking through his things. Or maybe he would get angry at Eiji for telling you the truth. But when he spoke up, you were genuinely surprised.

"So you finally know that the girl I was talking about over the weekend was you?"

You looked at him and simply nodded.

"Thank fuck. I honestly didn't think you'd ever listen to me." He sighed deeply and looked somewhat relieved. "I don't want you to ever think that I could love anyone but you. You're the only person I'd ever want to be with. The only person I have ever been with. I'm glad you finally know."

You smiled at his honesty and hearing how committed he was to you. You didn't know how he would react once he found out that you knew, but he took it really well. He was planning on telling you either way. So at the end of the day, it didn't make too much of a difference to him.

For a moment, it was quiet, you were both clearly trying to calm yourselves down. But then Katsuki spoke up. "So what does that mean for us? Are we…" He stopped abruptly, not wanting to finish the sentence.

He was afraid of your reaction, afraid you would reject him. He was pretty sure you had feelings for him too, but he had trouble reading you lately; he didn't want to get his hopes up.

You took a deep breath. "I'm not going to lie to you, Katsuki. I- Well… I do want to be with you. I think you know that I have feelings for you." You couldn't help but blush at your confession.

His heart started beating faster. Finally. You were finally his again. He could start kissing you again, calling you his girlfriend, and finally, show you off to the world. But when you continued, his heart sank once again.

"But even though I have these feelings, I don't want to rush things. I know I came onto you and I shouldn't have done that. It's not that I don't want to… I just- You know, I want to do this the right way. I want to build a proper relationship."

He couldn’t hide his frustration. “But we have a proper relationship.”

"We might have had one, Katsuki. But even though you remember, I still don't. We can't go back to what we used to have because everything has changed. That doesn't mean I don't want to be with you. I just want to fall in love the way I did the first time."

He nodded. He hated it, but he knew that you were right. You couldn't just pick up where things had left off. But that was okay. You were willing, wanting, to make things work. He would be with you soon enough, he could feel it.

"That's fair enough. I'll make you fall in love with me again."

Your heart was beating way too fast. Katsuki was the most incredible person you had ever met, and you knew that it wouldn't take long for you to love him the way you used to. It was romantic, really. Your feelings for each other were so strong that they could even bridge your memory loss. It took you a while to get there, but it seemed that nothing could keep you from him.

"I'm looking forward to that," you said with a smile.

You were just looking at each other, content with the fact that you were finally walking in the right direction. Suddenly Katsuki's expression changed, and his lips curled into a sly smirk.

"I suppose that means no sexy time until then?"

You couldn't help but blush. "Shut up," you said, throwing a pillow at the blonde's face.

He started laughing and threw the pillow right back at you. "Fine. Can I have a kiss at least?"

Now it was you who grinned. You moved forward, coming closer to Katsuki's face. Just when your lips were about to meet, you turned your head and kissed his cheek. "There you go."

He pouted. "Still as much of a tease as ever."

You started giggling and threw yourself back on his bed. He just watched you. Relishing the sight of you laughing, laying on his bed, and being genuinely happy. He had wanted nothing more than that for months now. And he couldn't believe that it had actually become his reality.

"Stop spacing out, Katsuki. I'm talking to you." Your voice snapped him out of his thoughts.

"Hm?"

You laughed. "I said that I best go back to my room. It's getting late."

"You can stay here if you want."

You shook your head and chuckled. "I like this straight forward and confident Katsuki. It suits you."

He clicked his tongue and blushed a little. "Whatever."

You got up and walked over to his door. You unlocked it and turned around to say goodbye. To your surprise, he was standing right behind you. He gave you a long hug and a kiss on the top of your head. You wanted to tell him to tone it down a bit, but you couldn't bring yourself to do so. You could only imagine how hard it must have been for him not to be able to shower you with affection, you couldn't refuse him those small gestures.

When he eventually let go of you, you looked into his eyes, unable to read his emotions. You were sure that there was happiness somewhere in there, but it was uncertainty that seemed to overpower everything. You gave him a reassuring smile, he didn't have anything to worry about. You would get there soon, and you would be with him.

"Goodnight, Katsuki," you said, standing on your tiptoes to give him a kiss on his cheek.

He tried hard not to blush, but he couldn't help it. Those small gestures meant so much to him, it was a lot more than he thought he'd ever get from you again. When you turned around to leave, he held you back one last time.

"We're going on a date tomorrow. So don't make any other plans after classes finish."

You chuckled. "I can't wait." And with one last bright smile, you left his room, walking back to yours.

You both slept well that night, excited for what the coming weeks and months had in store for you and your relationship. Katsuki knew he would be able to make you fall in love again. You had feelings for him already, he just had to solidify them. And he would totally manage to do that. You were meant to be together, and he wouldn't ever doubt that again.

The next day at school, you and Katsuki kept looking at each other, smiling every time you happened to glance at the same time. Looking at him gave you a fuzzy feeling, like a fire lit inside of you; warm and cosy. You couldn't wait to go on an official date with him.

This time you wouldn't make a secret out of your feelings for each other. You were going on a date with Katsuki, and everyone was allowed to know. Neither of you told anyone about your previous relationship, not wanting to make things complicated. But you decided that your initial approach of keeping your relationship a secret was a dumb idea in the end.

The last period of school was quirk training, and you decided to pair up with Katsuki. Most people hadn't noticed how well you had gotten to know each other. They didn't realise just how often and intense you had been training together. The only people who knew about what was going on between you were your close friends; Eiji, Mina, Denki and Hanta. And even they only knew part of the story. Except for Eiji, of course.

During training, you were all tasked to pair up with a partner and then face off against another pair. You immediately walked over to Katsuki. You knew each other's quirks well and had worked out a great routine together. You already felt bad for whoever it was that you were facing. You walked towards the area of your fight. It would take place on the training ground that resembled a city. There were lots of buildings to provide cover and not that much room to move. There was also no water around, limiting the usage of your quirk to an extent. Altogether, this wasn't an ideal environment for neither you nor Katsuki.

Most of your classmates were confused by the fact that you had chosen to be teammates. At first glance, your quirks were not made to work together, especially not in this setting. A water based quirk and an explosion based quirk were definitely not an ideal combination. But oh boy, were they proven wrong.

You faced off against Momo and Tenya. Katsuki just grinned at you. "We got this."

You nodded. You didn't even need to discuss a strategy. You just looked at each other for a moment and immediately knew what you had to do. You focused on Tenya first, immobilising him by trapping him in your ice. You cooled down his engines to a point where they were rendered useless. While you were taking care of the class rep, Katsuki went after Momo.

He was circling around her, seemingly exploding random areas around her without actually hitting her once. It confused Momo, and even though she usually managed to keep a level head, and see through strategies, this wasn't making sense to her. She knew that Katsuki rarely ever cooperated with others, and she noticed that you hadn't even talked through a strategy, unlike her and her partner Tenya.

So what was it that he was up to? Momo looked around and saw her partner immobilised. That wasn't good. She tried to spot you, but through all the smoke of the explosions, she couldn't see anything. She tried to think quickly and created a big fan, trying to get rid of the smoke.

Big mistake. The wind Momo generated caused debris that Katsuki's explosions had created to fly around, hitting a water pipe. The moment Momo saw the water shoot out of the pipes like rain, she knew that she needed to come up with something quickly.

But you knew that it was already over for her. The water was spreading over the area like rain, making it easy for you to turn the drops into hot steam. Katsuki took a step back, out of the heat. He didn't want to sweat more than he already did. Besides, he knew that you got this without his help. He wasn't able to see much through the steam anyway.

Neither was Momo. But unlike the others, you could navigate through the steam. You had grown up with this quirk, trained yourself to see through all forms of water. Which was why it didn't take you long to spot Momo. She was poorly hidden behind a pillar, trying to create a device you couldn't quite make out. You had to get to her before she could use whatever it was she was making.

You shot a beam of ice towards the pillar, making it fall and her jump to the side. You had predicted that she would move to the side. Which was why you were ready to capture her with your water whip the second she showed herself. You could see her struggle, trying to break free, but so far nobody had managed to escape the whip.

You pulled her towards you, setting her down next to Tenya. Katsuki was already standing there, making sure Tenya wouldn't move from the spot. Aizawa's bored voice sounded through the hall. "Team (l/n) and Bakugou win."

You gave Katsuki a big smile and raised your hand for a high five. He would have rather hugged and kissed you, but a high five was the best he could get so he would take it. "Well done, KatsukI!"

He smirked. "I barely did anything. You did most of the work."

You blushed when you heard his compliment. Katsuki rarely ever admitted when someone else was better than him. "I couldn't have done it without you, though."

"I know," he chuckled. "I trained you well, young (l/n)." He tried to imitate All Might, and you couldn't help but laugh.

"You're an idiot."

Your conversation was cut short by Momo clearing her throat. "Hate to interrupt but… Are you going to release us anytime soon…?"

You looked down and saw your friends still sitting on the ground, restricted by your quirk. "Oh shit. Sorry!" You immediately let them go and could hear Katsuki chuckle from behind you.

"Seems like I'm still able to distract you just like I used to," he said while walking off.

You huffed, wanting to say something. But Katsuki was already gone, leaving you with butterflies in your stomach. He was right, whenever he talked to you, everything around you ceased to exist. When he was around, he was your focus point, and you weren't sure whether that was a good thing or not. At least you could still manage to concentrate while fighting.

The training went by quickly, and before you knew it, you were back in the locker rooms, getting showered and ready to leave classes behind you for the day. You were tired but also super excited to spend the afternoon with Katsuki.

"So, what was that all about?" Momo asked the moment you were all in the changing rooms.

You looked at her, confused. "What do you mean?"

"You teamed up with Katsuki on your own free will and then actually worked amazingly together. That ain't normal," Kyoka said with raised eyebrows.

You didn't know what to say to that. "Well, we just happened to train together a few times, that's all."

"You guys know we all hang out as a group, so Katsuki and (y/n) spend time together as a result of that. Nothing more than that." Mina came to your defence, and you were eternally grateful for that.

Ochako chuckled. "That's what you said about you and Eijiro, and now you're almost conjoined by the hips."

Mina started blushing. "That's different, though."

"Nah, if you guys would have seen them work together as close up as I did, you wouldn't believe that for a second," Momo said. "You should've heard what Katsuki said to (y/n) after they won."

You blushed. "Momo… please."

"Now I'm curious," Toru said.

Momo giggled. "He said something about how (y/n) didn't even need his help to be able to win, and then he actually made a joke… Honestly, I've never seen this guy making a joke before."

"He jokes a lot actually," you protested.

Ochako squealed. "Ohhh so you're admitting that you're spending a lot of time together, huh?"

You were a blushing mess at this point.

"I'm sorry, hun. I tried, but you're making your feelings very obvious," Mina cackled.

You didn't know what to say. You had discussed with Katsuki that you would be open about your blossoming relationship if the topic should arise. But talking about it now was embarrassing nonetheless.

"We're just teasing ya, (y/n)," Kyoka said. "We're all happy for you if you guys have a thing going on, you know. You deserve it after that creep you've been seeing." She pointed to your face that was still bruised. "I mean… come on. What kind of man does that to the girl he supposedly loves?"

You looked at Mina. "Did you tell everyone about what happened?"

"Well, you didn't exactly try to hide your face, (y/n). People were curious." She defended herself.

You sighed. "It's fine. I guess I would've told everyone sooner or later anyway."

After a few more minutes, the other girls finally started chatting about something else, leaving you to hurry up to get dressed. You just wanted to get out so you could see Katsuki. You had decided that you would both quickly drop off your bags and school uniforms and then go out on your date. He wouldn't tell you what he had planned though, making you even more excited to go.

"Hey (y/n)! Are you listening?" Mina's voice interrupted your daydreaming.

"Hm?"

"We just decided that we're all going to play Karaoke this afternoon. Wanna come with us?"

You looked down, rocking on your heels. "Well, I'm kinda busy…."

"Ohhhh what? Are you going on a date with Ka-tsu-ki?" Toru said teasingly.

You took a deep breath. "I am actually."

The moment you said those words, all the girls started cheering, making you feel super embarrassed. But no matter how much you were blushing, you were also incredibly happy. Happy because you finally got along with your friends again, happy because school and training were going so well, making your graduation very much possible. And happy because of Katsuki. He was so supportive and patient, he was exactly what you didn't know you had needed to get your life back on track.

And you couldn't wait to make him as happy as he was making you.

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The date that afternoon went amazingly well. All you did was take a walk through a park, talking and munching on some curry buns that Katsuki had made himself. You had really enjoyed spending time alone with him. Which was why you did the same almost daily for nearly two weeks now. You wouldn't always go out, sometimes you'd just hang out in his room, playing video games or watching random shows on TV. But no matter what you did together, it was always a lot of fun.

You knew you had fallen for him again, but you had yet to reveal it to Katsuki. Maybe today would be the day. He was taking you out on yet another date, and you were really excited.

When you walked outside the dorm building, Katsuki was already waiting for you. You gave him a big smile. You had gotten ready as quickly as possible after classes were over and expected to beat Katsuki to it. But that didn't seem to be the case. You stopped in front of him, and the smirk on his face made you weak in your knees.

"Took you long enough," he said, trying to sound annoyed but it didn't work. You could still tell how happy he was to see you.

You stuck out your tongue. "Well, I wanted to look presentable for our date."

"You always look beautiful."

Blushing profusely you looked away, your heart beating way too fast. You still weren't used to Katsuki flirting so openly with you. He had gotten a lot bolder the more time you spent together. You were embarrassed by your own reaction, but you couldn't help yourself either. He, on the other hand, thought it was adorable. "Cute," he said with a grin.

This guy would be the death of you.

You cleared your throat. "So, where are we going?"

"The arcades," he simply said.

You opened your eyes in surprise. "That's one of my favourite places!" Your face was beaming.

"I know it is."

His eyes were so soft, and you knew that he had picked this spot simply because he knew how much you enjoyed it. "We used to go there a lot," he explained. "But be warned, to this day, you've never managed to beat me in any game."

You pouted a little. "Bold of you to assume I'd believe you. You could just be saying that because I don't remember."

He chuckled. "Well, only one way to find out, right?"

And with that, you started walking towards the city centre. You were talking about random things, and it felt so natural. Something that you had never felt with Yami. The conversation wasn't forced, it just flowed. You didn't even talk about anything important. It was fun, and you felt like you were floating. Only a few weeks ago, you had told Katsuki that you wanted to properly fall in love with him before committing to a relationship. But deep down, you knew that you were already head over heels for him. That didn't change anything, though. You still wanted to enjoy the aspect of going on dates before making it official. It just felt right that way. Besides, it was exciting to know that you both felt the same for each other but were taking it slow nonetheless.

Katsuki felt the same. He didn't think he would be able to bear being around you without you being his girlfriend. He thought his urge to kiss you and hold your hand would be too strong. That he wouldn't be able to enjoy himself without being able to call you his girlfriend. But he was wrong. Katsuki loved how flustered you were when he flirted with you, loved how your cheeks turned red whenever he touched you. He absolutely adored how you started showing him your feelings with the smallest of gestures.

He knew that you were reciprocating his feelings which was why he didn't mind waiting just a little longer. It was a completely new experience, and it was exciting to him. That didn't change how badly he wanted to shower you in affection, though. It was almost like a challenge, and he knew that he would show his love for you tenfold once you were officially his again.

The flirting and teasing was giving both of you goosebumps every time you were together. You hadn't kissed yet. Nor had you held hands, let alone any other intimate things. You would hug each other every time you said your goodbyes. You'd sometimes give Katsuki a peck on the cheek, but only if you wanted to tease him.

When you stood in front of the arcades, your eyes were beaming. You hadn't been here in so long. At least not that you could remember. You grabbed Katsuki's hand without thinking further about it and dragged him inside. He couldn't help but blush a little. Oh, how he had missed that.

You stopped in front of a racing game. "I'm gonna beat your ass," you said challenging, making Katsuki raise his eyebrows.

"Tch. Don't cry after you lose."

You just laughed and sat down on the seat in front of you, you grabbed the steering wheel and grinned at the blonde who was sitting down on the spot next to you. He was concentrating on the screen, but you couldn't look away from him. God, he was so handsome.

"If you stare at me instead of the screen, you'll lose again."

You quickly looked away, realising that you were far behind Katsuki. Damn. You tried hard to catch up to him but to no avail. After your loss, you looked at the boy next to you, pouting a little. "You cheated. You didn't tell me that the game had already started."

He scoffed. “If that helps you feel better, loser.”

You acted shocked and offended, placing a hand over your heart. "Rude."

Katsuki made true to his word. He beat you in every single game you played together. To say you felt a little defeated was an understatement. "Stop pouting, (y/n). I told you I'd beat you."

"I thought you were just bluffing."

He clicked his tongue. "You should know by now that I'm the best at everything I do."

You couldn't help but roll your eyes, laughing at the same time. "You're so full of yourself."

"Well, I have reason to, don't you think?"

His smirk was contagious, and you couldn't help but lose yourself in his eyes. They held so many emotions and feelings for you, and it was filling you with more happiness than your body could contain.

You tore your eyes away from his face, not wanting to stare too much. "Shall we try the crane machines next?"

He nodded, and you grabbed his hand once more, dragging him towards the machines. The first time you had done this, it was purely out of reflex. This time, however, you had done it with full intention. Enjoying the warmth of his hand in yours.

You stopped in front of a machine that contained a single plushie. It was big and reminded you of a massive, fluffy mochi with cute ears and an even more adorable face. You looked like a little kid, your hands firmly pressed against the glass. "I want it," you said, looking at Katsuki.

"You're never going to be able to pull that off," he said. "Those things are rigged."

You pouted. "Watch me."

That's precisely what he did. But after spending a thousand yen on the machine, you hadn't even moved it one bit. The crane machine wasn't a usual one where you had to grab a toy out of a pool of other toys and hope that the mechanics wouldn't open until they reached the right spot. This one was different. The single plushie inside the machine was tied to a rope, which was then balancing on a single metal rod. The aim was to navigate the claws in a way that would push the fluffy toy off the rod. A lot of skill was needed to pull this off, and you knew that not a lot of people were able to do it.

You couldn't hide your disappointment. "I really wanted to win this."

Katsuki couldn't stand seeing your sad face. "Let me try it."

You smiled at him. "Thanks, but I know how hard this is. You won't be able to do it, so don't waste your money."

"Have you forgotten who you're talking to?" He asked with raised eyebrows.

You started laughing. "This is even beyond your abilities."

"Watch me."

You rolled your eyes because that was exactly what you had said to him and you had failed miserably. But to your surprise, Katsuki actually managed to pull it off. You couldn't believe your eyes when he handed you the fluffy plushie. "You did it!"

"Tch. Of course," he said, puffing out his chest a little.

You smiled at him. "Thanks. That makes me really happy."

He couldn't help but blush, averting his gaze a little. "If my girl wants something, then I get it for her. No matter what."

You chuckled lightly. "Your girl, huh?"

"Well, I mean…"

You put your hand on his shoulder. "I'm just teasing you, Katsuki. I like the sound of that."

He smiled at you, and you couldn't help but smile back. This had been an incredible afternoon, and you couldn't wait to go on even more dates with him. He felt the same. The face you made when he had handed you the plushie would forever be burned into his memory. He didn't think it was possible to fall more in love with you than he already was, but you proved him wrong every single day.

"Shall we grab some dinner? I'm starving," Katsuki suggested.

You nodded. "Me too. But there's one more thing I want to do!" And with that, you dragged him towards the photo booths.

"Hell no!"

You looked at him with puppy eyes. "Oh, come on, Katsuki! It'll be fun."

"Those things make you look all cute and shit. I ain't about that."

You pouted. "But I want something to remember this day by."

"You got that massive ball of fluff I got you."

You shook your head. "Yeah, but I want some pictures, you know. I don't ever want to forget about us again."

Katsuki sighed deeply. "Fine."

And so you walked into the booth. You selected the mode and Katsuki was just watching you. The shit he would do for you was insane. Nobody else would ever be able to drag him into this. But here he was, about to be cutified as the outside of the booth promised.

You started posing and forced him to do the same. To his surprise, he actually got into it a little. But then he caught a glimpse of your cute poses, and he couldn't help but stare at you. You were so beautiful. You noticed him staring, and when your eyes met, you both started blushing profusely.

You ignored the machine, completely forgetting that it was still taking pictures of you. Instead, you moved closer to Katsuki, looking up and getting lost in his eyes. He pulled you in even closer, and even though he knew he shouldn't, he leaned down to kiss you. He expected you to push him away. But to his surprise, you kissed him back. It was soft at first, but you both started pouring in the feelings you had bottled up inside of you.

He grabbed your face, placing his hands on your cheeks. You were standing on your tiptoes so you would be able to reach him. It was exhilarating, and you never wanted to stop. Unfortunately, your lungs demanded oxygen and your lips parted reluctantly.

You looked at each other, cheeks flushed and out of breath. "I think the machine finished," Katsuki said with a grin.

"Yeah."

You stopped looking at each other and patiently waited for the pictures to be printed. When they popped out, you couldn't help but laugh. The first pictures were of you both posing. They transitioned into Katsuki blatantly staring at you, and the last few were just photos of you making out. "Masterpieces," Katsuki said grinning.

You blushed. "I love them."

He had to fight the urge to reply with: "And I love you." So instead, he took a deep breath and said, "Dinner?"

You nodded, putting the pictures in your purse. You grabbed his hand once more and walked to the restaurant. One of your hands was holding the plushie Katsuki had won for you, and the other hand was holding his. You felt like you were walking on clouds. The way your body reacted when you were with Katsuki was something unlike anything you had ever felt before.

It wasn't like it was with Yami. Your mind was as clear as crystal, not wrapped in hazy fog like you had gotten used to with your ex-boyfriend. You didn't even want to call him that. You looked up and found Katsuki looking straight ahead, leading you to a place you had apparently discovered together. He said that you used to love the food there.

When you arrived, you were immediately drawn to the cosy feeling the restaurant radiated. It was very small, more like a typical Japanese diner than a restaurant. You picked a table in the corner, wanting to be alone with each other. You studied the menu, and Katsuki just watched you.

So many things were exactly as they used to be, and yet, everything was somehow different. Katsuki was curious to see whether you would pick the same food that you used to order or if you would decide to go for something else. He didn't have to wonder for too long as you made your decision incredibly fast.

You pointed at the sticky tofu ramen that had been your go-to dish from day one. "This one sounds good. What do you think?"

He just smiled at you. "Go for it."

When the waiter came around to take your order, he spoke up before either you or Katsuki could say anything. "Haven't seen you kids in ages! You still want the usual?"

You wanted to speak up to say that you were picking something else this time, but yet again, you weren't fast enough. "Yep, the usual for both of us, please," Katsuki said.

The waiter walked off, and you looked at Katsuki in confusion. "Why did you do that? I really wanted to try the sticky tofu." You couldn't help but pout.

"You're so cute, you know that?"

You started blushing. "Shut up. I'm serious."

"Just stop your whining and wait. It won't take long."

You grimaced. "Fine. But if I don't like it, then I'm going to be really mad at you."

He just laughed and leaned back in his chair a little. "So, where are you going to put that thing?" He asked, pointing at the plushie that was sitting on the chair next to you.

"Hey! He's got a name," you protested.

The blonde just raised his eyebrows. "How old are you?"

You stuck out your tongue. "Leave Mochi-san and me alone."

Katsuki started laughing, and it was the cutest thing you had ever seen. You glanced at his hand that he had placed on the table, and you contemplated whether you should put your hand on his. Everything inside of you told you to do precisely that, but you were aware that you had said to him that you wanted to take things slow. You couldn't flip flop like this all the time.

But your body won the battle against your brain, and your hand moved on its own. The moment your hand touched his, he looked at you, a big smile on his face. Neither of you said anything as no words were needed. You started to draw little invisible shapes on his skin. The feeling of your finger circling over his hand was making him shudder. Just when he was about to say something, the waiter came back with your food.

The elderly man looked at you both with a smile. "It's good to see you're as lovey-dovey as ever, kids. Was getting worried about ya!"

You were both blushing, and you quickly retracted your hand, making space on the table so he could put the food down in front of you. "Nah, no need to worry about us," Katsuki said. He then looked from the man over to you. "Nothing can keep us apart."

Your heart was beating faster than ever before, and you had the sudden urge to kiss Katsuki. You knew he had said he'd make you fall in love with him again, but how did he manage to completely take over your heart in just a few weeks? He did and said all the right things, and it made you feel special. Like you were the most important person on this planet.

"That's good to hear!" The man said with a smile. "Enjoy the meal, kids."

And with that, he walked off, humming lightly. You took a look at your food and gasped a little. In front of you was a steaming bowl of sticky tofu ramen. "So this was my usual all this time?"

"Yep," Katsuki said nodding. "You ordered the same dish from day one. I was curious whether you'd go for the same again. I'm glad you did, you know. It shows me you're still you."

You chuckled. "Of course, I'm still me. Who else is crazy enough to fall in love with you not once, but twice?"

The moment those words left your lips, you swallowed hard. Did you just confess to him? You didn't mean for it to come out that way. It was still too soon. But then again, who were you kidding? You weren't exactly hiding your feelings.

Katsuki screamed internally. Fucking finally! He tried hard to stay unphased, knowing that you were most likely very embarrassed. So instead of saying anything, he just smiled, digging into his extra spicy udon.

You were thankful that he didn't give you much of a reaction. You had planned to tell him properly. Not as part of a joke. Part of you was happy you had said something though. The smile on his lips alone was worth it.

You both ate in silence, cherishing each others presence. When you were finished, you got up and walked over to the exit. Katsuki showed the receipt and insisted on paying. You protested a little, but he wouldn't take no for an answer.

On your way back to the dorms, you took Katsuki's hand in yours without thinking twice about it. You loved feeling his hand in yours, and you couldn't get enough of it. You both were walking in silence for a while until he spoke up.

"So the UA Halloween party takes place in a few days, huh."

You nodded. "Yeah, I'm really excited."

"You wanna go together?"

"Of course! I thought that goes without saying." You sounded confused.

He chuckled a little. "I mean together, as in… a couple."

You stopped in your tracks, looking at him. "A-are you asking me out?"

"Well… I know you said you didn't want to rush things, but… yes, I'm asking you out."

You couldn't hide the smile on your face. Katsuki was so considerate. He had given you enough time, and you did want to be with him. You were more than sure of it.

"I'd love to."

He grinned at you. "Just to make sure we're clear. I'm asking you to officially be my girlfriend."

"And I'm officially saying yes."

Everything inside of you was filled with happiness, and you knew you had made the right decision. Katsuki's eyes were suddenly filled with a mischevious glint.

"I'm gonna kiss you now."

Without giving you a chance to react, he leaned down, placing his lips on yours. Your body was tingling. This wasn't the first time you two had kissed, but it still felt entirely new for you. It felt so right, and the butterflies inside of you were having a party.

When you parted, he just looked at you, his eyes glossy. You giggled a little. "Are you crying?"

"Fuck off."

You pulled him in for another kiss and could tell just how desperately he had wanted this. You didn't know it was possible to convey so many feelings in one single kiss, but Katsuki proved to you that it was very much possible.

"Let's get home," he eventually said, taking your hand in his once again.

You began walking, but after a few minutes, you stopped. You felt odd. Almost as though you were being watched. The haziness that was washing over you was all too familiar. Yami.

"What's up, (y/n)?" Katsuki asked, concerned.

You pressed yourself closer to your boyfriend. "Yami is close by. Let's hurry to get home."

"Tch. Let him come, I'll kill him if he as much as tries to breathe the same air as you."

You shook your head. "No, Katsuki. I don't think he's alone. We're being watched. I have a really bad feeling."

Katsuki was conflicted. He wasn't one to run away, especially not from a fight. But he didn't want to risk you getting harmed. Besides, you looked really freaked out, and he didn't want to ignore your bad feeling. "All right, let's hurry up then."

You almost jogged back home, all the while keeping your guard up, constantly looking around. Maybe you were just paranoid. But you could have sworn that you felt Yami around and you also sensed the presence of other people.

You shook off the bad feeling the moment you entered the dorms. Maybe you had just imagined it. Katsuki hadn't noticed anything after all, so the possibility of your brain making things up was high.

You spent the rest of the evening cuddling with Katsuki, watching random videos you found on the internet. You could feel him drifting off to sleep, but you were too anxious to even close your eyes. For some reason, you just couldn't forget about the sensation you had felt earlier. It felt as though doom was on your doorstep. And no matter how many times you told yourself that you were overreacting, that you were making unreasonable assumptions - you just couldn't shake it off.

Deep down, you knew that something terrible was about to happen.

Chapter Text

After Katsuki had asked you out, he made sure to let everyone know you were his. You didn't think he would be one to show public affection, but boy, had you been wrong. He was always close to you; holding your hand when you walked to class in the morning, hugging you from behind when you were trying to prepare dinner, and planting kisses on the top of your head at every chance that he got. He told you that he didn't want to make the same mistake again. He didn't care if others knew about his feelings, he wanted to shower you in the love he was feeling for you, and it was melting your heart.

It was the night of the annual UA Halloween party and you were excited beyond words. The party was a big thing, one of the most important events UA held and the security was rigorous. Because it was a party for the entire school, the teachers had set everything up in a big hall on the school grounds. It was always decorated incredibly well, and everyone was prompted to dress up.

You couldn't remember the previous two parties, so to you, this was very special. Especially now that you would be able to go with your boyfriend. Boyfriend. It still made you shiver, your entire body tingling the moment you thought of Katsuki.

"She's spacing out again," Ochako said with a grin.

You started blushing and stuck out your tongue. "I'm not."

You were currently in the girl's bath in the dorms, getting ready for the evening with your friends. UA's Halloween parties always followed a different theme every year and attendees were asked to dress up accordingly. The theme this year was ’Haunted Masquerade Ball'. Initially, you hadn't had a clue what that even meant. But apparently, you were all expected to wear gowns and tuxedos. Hiding your faces behind tastefully decorated Venetian masquerade masks. When you questioned where the haunted aspect of the costume was, you were told that the grand hall would be decorated like an old haunted ballroom.

You were intrigued, mostly because you couldn't wait to see Katsuki in a tuxedo. It hadn't come as a surprise to you when your boyfriend refused to take part in the dress up, saying that wearing masks and fancy clothes was stupid. But the disappointed look on your face changed his mind. Besides, he would have lied if he said that he didn't want to see you in a beautiful dress.

You, on the other hand, didn't really want to wear a gown. You had never been one to put too much thought into your outfits, and you didn't particularly like being at the centre of attention. But your friends had convinced you to go all out. They too, were wearing ridiculously fancy gowns, which made you feel less anxious.

Katsuki hadn't seen your dress yet, and you agreed that you would meet each other at the party. You were afraid that your outfit would be over the top, but at least you'd be wearing a mask. You had to admit, though, that no matter how nervous you were, you also couldn't wait to see your boyfriend's reaction.

"I think I let Denki make a move on me tonight," Kyoka suddenly said, making every single girl look at her.

Mina was the first to speak up. "About time! I've been waiting for you to get your shit together for ages."

You all started laughing, and Kyoka couldn't help but blush. "Well, I was waiting for the right moment."

"You literally shot him down every opportunity you could get," Toru quipped.

Kyoka scoffed. "I had to test his patience to see if he was in it for the long run."

You started giggling. "Didn't think you'd be that sadistic, Kyoka!"

"It's called being careful, (y/n). I'm not going to give myself to just about anyone."

After the next round of laughter had died down, you all started chatting about your relationships and how Ochako wanted to go all the way with Izuku tonight. She was a blushing mess throughout the entire conversation.

You too were planning on spending a special night with Katsuki. You knew that technically this wasn't your first time, but it was the first time since getting back together, and the first time you would actually remember. So it was pretty special to you.

"So what about you and Shoto, Momo? Planning on getting frisky?" Mina teased your friend.

Momo just sighed. "Shoto is… a little bit difficult sometimes. He didn't exactly grow up in a loving home, so physical contact still doesn't come naturally to him. We did talk about it though and-"

But before she could finish, her phone started ringing, and she let out an annoyed sigh. "Hang on, guys."

She picked up, and everyone continued getting ready. You, however, couldn't help but listen to her conversation. "Please stop worrying about me, mother. I already told you, the party will be on school grounds, and the security is as tight as can be. You were fine with it the previous two years, so I don't understand why you're so concerned all of a sudden."

She paused for a moment, clearly listening to whatever it was that her mother was saying. "No, I don't know the exact location of the building." She paused again, rolling her eyes while listening to her mum.

Momo was pinching the bridge of her nose. "I know that the school grounds are huge, but as long as the party is held here, I can assure you that I will be fine."

Your friend was walking in circles now, and you felt bad for her. It was natural for her parents to be worried, yours had been worried too. And you couldn't blame them after what had happened the previous week. The League of Villains had managed to bust Kurogiri, their second in command, out of prison. How? Nobody really knew, and that was what terrified the masses.

The League of Villains had always been rather small. To pull off such a stunt was almost impossible for a group like theirs. At least without help from outside sources. Which was why all parents were now on high alert. The League had attacked UA students so many times over the past years, who was to say they wouldn't try it again?

Kurogiri being free, meant that the League regained the ability to open warp gates which could lead to major issues. That was why none of the students knew exactly in which building the party would be held. Because Kurogiri needed coordinates to open a gate at a specific location and without that, he wouldn't be able to go inside. To double down on security, no student was allowed to bring their mobile phones or any other electronic devices. Your teachers would never allow this party to be held if they weren't one hundred percent sure that nothing terrible would happen.

"Yes, I received the jewellery, mother," Momo said with a loud sigh. "The necklace is beautiful, I will make sure to wear it." Your friend looked towards the rest of you, dramatically rolling her eyes. "Alright, I'll call you tomorrow."

When she finally hung up, she took a deep breath. "My parents are so overbearing. You'd think they would relax a little, now that I'm about to graduate."

You gave her a sympathetic smile. "I'm sure they mean well, Momo."

"I guess you're right."

Mina quirked her eyebrows. "What jewellery were you talking about?"

"Oh, that..." Momo said, walking over to where her dress was. She pulled out a little box and walked back to the rest of you. There she revealed a stunning necklace, it matched her dress perfectly. "My parents had this made for me."

"For tonight?" Ochako asked, surprised.

Momo nodded. "Yeah… a bit over the top, right?"

"I mean, it goes perfectly with your dress, and everyone's wearing ridiculous gowns, so why not go the extra mile?" You said with a reassuring smile.

Your friend just chewed her bottom lip. "If you say so."

All the girls gave her a thumbs up. "Don't worry too much, Momo. Besides, you need to stand out so that Shoto is blinded by your beauty and drags you into the first empty room he sees," Mina said with a grin.

You all started laughing, and Momo just shook her head. "Out of all the things that could possibly happen tonight, that's the one thing I expect the least."

After that, all you talked about was what each of you had planned with your boyfriends after the party. You didn't pay too much attention as you were trying to do your hair, but failing miserably. "Let me help you, (y/n)," Momo eventually said. "I can't watch this any longer."

You scratched your head. "Thanks, my hair just doesn't like me today."

It took all of you longer than you thought and by the time you were in your dresses, the party had already started. "Ahh, the boys must be waiting for us!" Ochako squeaked, hurriedly putting on her shoes.

You took one last look in the long mirror and contemplated whether the dress was too much. You were dressed in a crimson red gown, the same colour as Katsuki's eyes. You thought he would appreciate the extra effort of showing that you were his. The dress was made of all-over lace, adorned by gorgeous appliques which were accentuated by shimmering beadings. It had a strapless sweetheart neckline and snugly hugged your waist. Below that, it flowed down in an a-line silhouette, making you look taller than you actually were. You had never worn a floor-length gown, but you did like how it looked on you. The only downside of this dress was the corset. It made your chest look more prominent and looked gorgeous on your back, but it wasn't the most comfortable feeling in the world.

At least you knew that all your friends were going through the same tonight so you weren't alone. And you secretly couldn't wait for Katsuki to loosen the lace on the back, watching the dress fall onto his bedroom floor. You blushed at the thought and quickly shook your head. You didn't even know whether he would like it, so you decided that you should start by presenting yourself to him first.

And so you walked outside the dorm building with the rest of your girlfriends. You were all equally excited and nervous, hoping the guys would like the dresses you had chosen. Outside of the dorms, you were met with several golf carts that would drive you to the correct building on the school grounds. You still had no idea where it was so you wouldn't have found it on your own.

When you arrived, you were greeted by your teacher Aizawa who was looking as tired as usual. He explained that they had to search everyone to make sure nobody brought in any electronic devices. Nothing to hide, you complied instantly. After you got cleared, you walked inside and promptly tried to find Katsuki in the crowd.

"I feel a lot safer knowing that they take security so seriously." You heard Momo say.

Kyoka nodded. "I agree. They even went as far as to put quirk cancelling bracelets on everyone who could potentially emit signals via their quirks."

"Poor Denki," Mina giggled.

"Do you think they feel like there's a traitor amongst us?" Ochako asked nervously.

You shook your head. "Nah, I think they just need to be completely certain that they have done everything they could possibly do. After all the things that happened in the past, the school really can't use another incident."

"I hope you're right," Tsu said quietly. "If there was a traitor in this school, I think I'd lose all faith in humanity."

You nodded, but suddenly spotted your boyfriend's blonde hair in the crowd, so you immediately excused yourself. The hall was huge, and one side was made entirely out of glass. Letting the full moon shine into the dimly lit place. The lighting fit the theme of the party flawlessly. Everyone was wearing gowns and tuxedos, faces hidden behind intricate Venetian masks. You suddenly felt as though you were walking the halls of a bygone era. The decoration in the room capturing the eerie atmosphere of a masquerade ball from centuries ago.

Katsuki was standing by the windows, he was looking outside, his back to the crowd. You could see his blonde hair poking out from underneath his mask. He had his hands in the pockets of his suit, clearly not liking this place and impatiently waiting for you.

You were still a good distance away when he turned around. He was looking down, kicking imaginary dirt and cursing the heavens for making him wait so long. But when he slowly looked up and spotted you in the crowd, it was as though he was shot with an arrow straight through his heart.

You were wearing a mask and had your hair done up in a way that he hadn't seen on you before. And yet, he immediately recognised you. His eyes were glued to yours, and every step you took was too slow for his liking. At the same time, however, he wanted to frame this moment in his memory. The way you walked towards him, the beautiful dress that was hugging your curves - it all but screamed his name. His breath hitched, stunned by your beauty he yearned for your touch.

He felt this urgency inside of him, this need to hold you close. Breathe you in and feel your skin on his. He hadn't even seen you up close, and he already knew that you were easily the most beautiful girl in the room.

You felt the same. His tuxedo looked so good on him. The way he was standing there, his hands in his pockets, pretending that he was calm when you could read in his eyes that he was anxiously awaiting your touch.

You couldn't see his entire face, but what you could see was the proud smirk. It made your heart flutter to know that you were the reason for this smile of his. He was proud to have you by his side, and you couldn't help but mirror his smile. You had no idea how you deserved someone as handsome as him, but you didn't want to question it.

When you finally stopped in front of him, you half expected him to scold you for being late. But to your surprise, that was the last thing on his mind. "I can't put into words just how beautiful you look tonight."

Your face immediately heated up, and your blush was only hidden by the dim light and the mask you were wearing. "So, do you like the dress?"

"I love it," he said, finally taking his hands out of his pockets. He lifted one of your hands, placing a soft kiss on your skin before slowly twirling you around, looking at you from every angle. Katsuki didn't think you could be any more beautiful than you already were, but seeing you like this, he realised just how foolish he had been.

He stopped spinning you and with your arm still raised, you just looked at each other. Everything around you ceased to exist. He slowly let go of your hand, allowing you to lower your arm. The back of his hand slowly travelled down your masked face, grazing your cheek - making you shiver under his touch. "So fucking beautiful," he whispered, but inside the bubble around you two, you heard every word.

His hand travelled further down until he reached your lower back, and he used this opportunity to bring you closer to him. The feeling of being pressed up against Katsuki made you gasp. He smirked and used his other hand to lift your chin. "You're perfect, you know that?"

You started blushing. "Shut up."

"I mean it. Just look at you," he said, keeping hold of your chin to force you to look at him, no matter how flustered you were. "It's beyond me to understand how anyone can be so adorable and so sexy at the same time."

"Katsuki…" you whined, trying to avoid his gaze out of shyness.

He lightly shook his head. "Nuh-uh. Don't even think about looking away."

You stopped resisting and gave in, trying hard to control your blushing. Before you could say anything, Katsuki's lips silenced you, and it was the sweetest kiss you had ever shared. If you hadn't already known just how much he loved you, this kiss would have proven it to you. It was so unlike anything that Katsuki stood for, so gentle, so vulnerable.

It left you breathless.

"Can I be honest?"

You looked at him, unsure of what to expect. "Of course."

He smirked, and you melted. "I just want to get out of here and be alone with you." He moved closer to you and whispered in your ear. "I want to show you just what it is you're doing to me." As though to reinforce what he had just said, he pressed himself closer to you, making you feel exactly what he was talking about.

Now it was you who was smirking, clearly proud of your accomplishment. "And I can't wait for you to show me. But the party just started, Katsuki. Let's stay for a while longer."

"I don't know for how long I can control myself, baby. There's something about the way you look tonight that makes me want you even more than I usually do."

You gave him a smile and moved up to kiss his cheek. "I quite like seeing you so desperate for me."

And with that you dragged him after you, mingling with your friends. He growled, and you could hear him mutter curses. To your surprise, he actually behaved for a few hours. He was constantly all over you, giving dirty looks to everyone who dared to look at you twice, but he didn't complain about being at the party. The promise of what was awaiting him once you were back at the dorms was enough to keep him quiet.

But after three hours he officially had enough. He pulled you towards him, kissed your cheek and whispered in your ear. "Let's get out of here already. I really need you.”

You peeled yourself off of him a little and grinned at him. "You haven't danced with me yet, Katsuki. I went through all this trouble to make myself look pretty for you. Are you really refusing me a dance?"

His answer came faster than a bullet. "I don't dance."

"Oh, I see. Well, then I gotta find someone else to dance with me. You can wait by the exit, I'll be with you soon."

You could see a dangerous glint in his eyes, and you knew you had struck a nerve. "You're lucky that you're so pretty. Otherwise, I wouldn't let you get away with those dirty tricks."

"I don't know what you're talking about," you said with a sly grin.

He grabbed your hand. "Shut up before I change my mind."

He walked you over to one end of the dancefloor, furthest away from the other students. He moved closer to you and placed his hands on the small of your back. You, on the other hand, put your arms around his neck, looking up at him with big eyes. "Thanks for dancing with me, Katsuki."

He didn't know why, but the way his name left your lips was even sweeter than usual. "You know I can't say no to you and your stupidly cute puppy eyes."

"I love you, Suki."

Somehow, your words and the dance you were sharing left Katsuki speechless. He usually didn't know when to shut up, it had always been like that. He always had something to say or at least a snarky remark to make. So whenever you left him speechless, it came as a shock to him.

But the more time he spent with you, the more he felt the sensation of being unable to form words, let alone sentences.

It was because never before had he felt these kinds of feelings. You were everything that he had ever loved about this world. But even that wasn't enough to express just how much he adored you. There was still so much more that felt so intense that he didn't think there were enough words to describe those feelings.

If there was a heaven, it was right there in your eyes. Soft and inviting, like coming home for the very first time. With just one look, you were able to set his everything on fire. There wasn't a single thing he wouldn't do for you, and with every minute that you were dancing together, this feeling grew, and it never stopped. What once had been a small seed had now grown into a forest that was so deep and intricate, he couldn't help but get lost in it.

Katsuki didn't know what he had done to have ever deserved your love, and he didn't know what he had done to deserve you falling in love with him twice. But that didn't stop him from savouring every moment. Feeling your skin on his was so foreign yet familiar at the same time. Only weeks ago, he didn't think he would ever get the chance to be so close to you again, but here he was, and it was like a fever dream almost. So vivid and intense - too good to be true.

His heart was yours for as long as you wanted it. Who was he kidding? His heart would always be yours, no matter whether you wanted it or not. It had been beating for you ever since he fell in love with you on that chilly spring day well over a year ago and it hadn't changed its beat ever since. And if only you would listen carefully, you would hear that the rhythm of his heartbeat called out your name.

He watched you dance alongside him; how your dress was catching the light and how there were stars in your eyes - you were taking his breath away. But even if the air ran out and the skies fell down, he wouldn't mind. Because the feeling of being beside you at this very moment, the feeling of holding you in his arms, and feeling like he was the luckiest man in the room... Those feelings were worth more than words could ever describe.

And he knew then that there wasn't a thing more perfect than you. He worshipped you, put you on a pedestal, and he didn't think he would ever change his mind on the belief that you were the most divine being that had ever existed. And when you smiled at him, he knew that nobody would ever be able to convince him otherwise.

If this were the last time he ever felt love, he'd be okay with it. Because nothing ever felt so good before. He knew that he would be able to relish in this feeling forever. He took in all of you, and no matter how close he held you, it would never be close enough.

All these thoughts flurried inside of him, and he didn't know how to express himself. How to word just how much he loved you. How you caused a torrent of emotions in him whenever you looked at him. So for lack of better words, he answered you with the only thing he could think of.

"I love you too, (y/n)."

Then he kissed you. And the kiss was reflective of what both of you felt in this moment. Nothing else mattered except you and the boy you were in love with. It felt as though you were alone in the hall. As if the crowd around you had vanished, reality ceased to exist, and you two were all that was left in this little bubble of yours.

Which was why you didn't hear it coming.

You didn't hear the screams of the other students and the yelling of the teachers. You didn't hear the manic cackling from the villains who came crawling through the warp gate. By the time you came back down to earth and realised what was going on - it was already too late.

You saw him before Katsuki did and your throat dried up in an instant. "Y-yami?" Was all you could say before your ex-boyfriend marched towards you, yanking you away from Katsuki who was too stunned to react quick enough.

And so you were standing there, Yami's hand around your throat, holding you a few inches above the ground and leaving you kicking and screaming. "Let her fucking go!" You could hear Katsuki yell and Yami next to you was merely laughing.

"I don't think so," he said in a calm voice that made you shiver. Then he looked around and grinned when he spotted someone in the crowd. "Oi! Dabi, restrain that yelling brat over here. I'm busy."

You looked into the same direction as Yami and could see the villain Dabi walking towards you. "If you got her, then why the fuck are we still here?"

Yami rolled his eyes and nodded in Katsuki's direction. "That's why."

Katsuki gritted his teeth. He was in fighting stance and had his quirk at the ready, but he knew that if he were to attack Yami, he'd also injure you. He wasn't one to cower and run away from a fight, and he wasn't going to do that now. But he had to think of a strategy. Something that would ensure victory and your safety. He couldn't rush into this even if he was running out of time.

Unfortunately, his fear of losing you was overpowering all his senses. All of this had caught him so off-guard that he was barely able to think straight. And when he looked at you, your mask torn from your face and tears running down your cheeks, he didn't know what to do.

He looked around to see whether there were any teachers or other students to help him out, but they were all busy fighting other villains. Katsuki swallowed hard and threw all caution overboard. He didn't want to hurt you, but even if you sustained some burns, it would still be infinitely better than being trapped in the arms of a villain.

Katsuki charged towards you, explosions emitting from his palms and rage burning in his eyes. How dare these assholes mess with his girl? Just when he was about to reach you, a wall of blue flames stopped him. He came to a screeching halt and tried to run past it. But no matter where he stepped, the flames were always a step ahead. It didn't take long for him to be surrounded by them and it was so unbearably hot.

But he had to get to you.

Against better judgement, he leapt forward, plunging himself into the wall of flames and mentally preparing for the inevitable pain. But it never came. There was no burn and no sting of it either. The flames had disappeared, and he had no idea why. But he had no time to wonder, he had to save you.

In a state of absolute panic, he looked around, and when he found you, his lungs felt a suffocating squeeze. There you were, being dragged into the warp hole that had once swallowed him too. He ran towards you, knowing he wouldn't make it but hoping for the best.

Had he looked as helpless as you when they had taken him? Were you as scared as he had been? It broke his heart. Why was nobody doing anything? He started yelling, trying to get people's attention to help you. He was a man full of pride, but he could recognise when he was out of his depth, and that was precisely the case at this moment.

"Stop fucking fighting and help her!" Katsuki yelled as loud as he could.

But in the end, it wasn't his pleas for help that grabbed people's attention. It was your heartbreaking attempt to call out his name. Never had he heard so much despair in your voice and never had he hated the way his name left your lips - until now. Because it sounded like a farewell and he was too weak to change the tone of it. Too weak to save you.

In the very last second, he managed to close in on you, blasting every villainous pawn in his path away. He reached out his hand, and you reached out yours, and for a split second, he could feel your clammy skin on his. He could practically feel your fear.

He called out your name and tried to hold onto you tighter. But the force of the warp gate was too strong even for Katsuki's power and all he could do was watch you being swallowed by the villain's quirk.

Everything was so loud. Until it wasn’t. Suddenly everything around him withered away, and all Katsuki could hear was the sound of terror in his own screams.

And then realisation hit him with the force of a dying star, leaving a deafening ringing in its wake.

You were gone.

Chapter Text

You couldn’t remember when you had fallen unconscious. Your panic must have knocked you out sometime between being kidnapped and finding yourself in the position you were currently in. You were sitting on an uncomfortable chair, your ankles and wrists shackled, leaving you unable to move. And also unable to activate your quirk, as you noticed quite quickly.

Your eyes slowly adjusted to the light, and when your vision became clearer, and you looked up, you saw a group of people staring back at you.

“Ah, I see our guest is finally awake,” you heard someone say.

You looked over to where the voice had come from and immediately recognised the man as Shigaraki, the leader of the League of Villains. Your memory had a lot of gaps, but you could never forget the faces of the people that had attacked your class so many times. You’d always remember what they had done at USJ or how they had kidnapped Katsuki. And you would definitely never forget when their former, now incarcerated, leader All for One had caused your-

“She seems to be pretty out of it still,” you heard a female voice say. It was most likely Toga, a person you should be very wary of.

Someone clicked their tongue, and you looked up at a face that you used to love. “No, she always does that when her thoughts derail,” Yami said.

Dabi scoffed. “Of course, you would know, wouldn’t you? She’s your precious girlfriend after all.”

“Shut the fuck up before I make you,” Yami snarled.

You were surprised. You knew that Yami turned out to be completely different to what you thought he was, but to hear him openly threaten someone like that was still foreign to you. His tone had changed too. He sounded a lot more dangerous, and it made you shudder.

You shook your head. That wasn’t important right now. What was important was that you figured out why the hell they had kidnapped you and what it was that they wanted to gain from it.

“Why am I here?”

Shigaraki chuckled. “I was told you’re smart. I’m sure you can figure it out yourself.”

Of course, you weren’t stupid. You had a pretty good idea of why it was you they had chosen. It just didn’t make any sense. “I know it’s because of him. I just don’t see the point, he’s not even in the picture anymore.”

“Him, huh?” Shigaraki said with a crooked smile. “I didn’t think you’d speak so coldly about your family, (y/n).”

“So what’s it to you? You’re avoiding my question. Why are you doing this? Now out of all times. It doesn’t make sense.”

You heard someone clear their throat from the corner of the room. “Stop acting like a brat in front of Shigaraki. You’re in no position to have this tone wit-”

But you interrupted the villain you knew as Mr Compress. “Oh, shut up. We all know I’m too valuable to be killed. So spit it out already.”

You could see Yami smirk from the corner of your eye. “I quite enjoy seeing you so fierce, (y/n). But don’t think of yourself so highly. Nobody is invaluable.”

You were about to retaliate when Shigaraki spoke up. “That’s enough. Our guest wants answers. So let’s give them to her.”

You looked at him, venom in your eyes and another snarky remark on your tongue. You knew that they wouldn’t kill you. Not when they had gone through such lengths to kidnap you. Besides, you knew that Katsuki would move heaven and hell to get you out of this situation. To top it off, you were aware of most of the quirks of the people in this room, there was nothing to be afraid of.

At least that was what you were telling yourself - over and over again. Unfortunately, it wasn’t working as well as you wanted it to. Your heart was still beating out of your chest, the uncertainty of the situation making your stomach drop.

“You’re here because of your father and what he stands for. You’re here because we want to show the world that even heroes have dirty little secrets. And throwing him into a pit of despair along the way makes this even better.”

You scoffed. “He’s no hero. Not anymore, anyway.”

“Oh, but he is. He will always be a hero.”

You shook your head. “Whatever… I still don’t understand exactly what it is you’re trying to accomplish. But what I really struggle to understand is why you needed Yami to-” You paused and swallowed hard, hating the fact that he had fooled you. “Why Yami had to pretend to like me. You could’ve just kidnapped me months ago.”

Shigaraki scoffed, throwing an icy glance Yami’s way. “Taking you against your will wasn’t our initial plan. It wasn’t the ideal scenario, and Yami was supposed to prevent that from happening. But clearly, he failed.”

“Then what was the ‘ideal’ scenario?”

Shigaraki grimaced. “You joining the League on your own free will.”

“You’re joking, right? Why would I ever choose to become a villain?” You couldn’t help but laugh at how ridiculous their plan was.

You could tell that Shigaraki was annoyed by your attitude. “Yami was convinced that he would be able to persuade you with a little help of his quirk.”

“Well, he did a pretty crappy job.”

Shigaraki nodded. “Good to hear that we agree on one thing at least.”

You could hear Yami click his tongue from the other side of the room. “I would have succeeded, you know. But the deadline you gave me was unreasonable.”

Toga snickered. “No, you failed because you fell in l o v e,” she said, emphasising every single letter.

You could feel the atmosphere in the room shift. An all too familiar feeling of overwhelming emotions overcoming you. You could tell that it was radiating off of Yami. You were confused and concerned, still not entirely sure what his quirk was capable of.

“Stop acting like little brats and shut up,” Shigaraki said. “And get your fucking quirk under control Yami. That’s how you got us into this situation in the first place.”

What did he mean by that? The leader of the League must have seen your confusion and elaborated further. “You were never meant to find out about Yami’s quirk. But he let his emotions get in the way.”

You raised your eyebrows. “I still don’t fully understand your quirk, Yami.”

The latter was looking at you intently, clearly taken aback by the fact that you had directly addressed him. To your surprise, he didn’t answer you. It was Shigaraki who broke the silence. “Yami manipulates emotions,” he explained. “Can make you feel all sorts of things. Couple that with his ability to smooth talk people and his… undeniably good looks and you got yourself the perfect manipulator.”

You couldn’t help but hear the bitterness in Shigaraki’s voice. “Every single woman we approached this way fell head over heels for him. But the one person who actually mattered managed to break free.”

“So you wanted me to follow Yami into the arms of the villains? Sorry to disappoint you, but I have an actual personality. I would never blindly follow anyone.” You felt almost offended that the villains could even think that you’d switch sides so easily.

“I know that, (y/n). Which was why we isolated you from your friends. Placed you in a situation in which you didn’t have anyone but Yami,” the young man said. “And I still believe we would have succeeded. If only Yami wouldn’t have caught feelings and messed things up by being so jealous and possessive.”

Shigaraki and Yami were staring each other down, but you didn’t even notice. Your mind was going at one hundred miles per hour. “W-what do you mean? ‘You isolated me?’”

“We staged your accident, (y/n).”

The gravity of these words hit you with a force so strong, you felt as though it was pulling you under. “You’ve been planning this for months? W-why couldn’t you have just kidnapped me? Why did you have to involve me in an accident and cause me to lose my memories?”

You were so angry, yet so upset at the same time. You still didn’t fully understand their intentions. But you now knew that the accident they had involved you in, had caused your amnesia, and it was very likely that you would never recover from that. And for what? Showing the world that the daughter of a former hero was now a captive? It didn’t make any sense.

“You think we’ve been planning this for months, huh? We have been planning this for years.”

You widened your eyes in shock. “W-what?”

Shigaraki smirked. “Remember when we kidnapped that precious boyfriend of yours?”

You simply nodded.

“Back then, we didn’t come for him. We came for you, (y/n).”

You scoffed. “Well, you did a pretty shitty job.”

Shigaraki tilted his head a little. “Oh? Did we? See, that’s where you’re wrong.”

You didn’t understand anything anymore. If they hadn’t come for Katsuki during your training camp, then why had they taken him instead of you? You had been there. You had even been in contact with one of the members of the League. Fought him one on one before he disappeared together with the others in the warp gate. They had had an opportunity to take you. So why didn’t they?

Shigaraki seemed to sense your confusion, and he seemingly enjoyed seeing your brain work in overdrive. “Say, (y/n), would you like your precious memories back?”

“W-what?”

The leader of the League grinned widely. “I don’t think introductions are necessary. I believe you already know each other,” he said. “Come on out, Shōkyo-san.”

Not even a moment later, a hooded person that you hadn’t yet noticed stepped out of the shadows. The moment they lifted the hood, and your eyes met theirs, you felt like you were spiralling down an abyss of darkness, and suddenly, everything made sense to you.

“Good to see you again, (y/n).”

 


 

Katsuki was pacing through the common room like a lion in a cage. He felt as though he was trapped in a nightmare. It had been eight hours since the villains had taken you, but for Katsuki it felt like an eternity. A mix of anger, desperation and anxiety flowing through his body, leaving him unable to sit still, let alone think straight.

After the attack, all students had been escorted back to their respective dorm rooms. Luckily there hadn’t been any serious injuries, other than a few scratches and bruises. It was pretty apparent that they had solely come for you. Katsuki also found out that all these villains were nothing but clones made by the villain Twice. They resembled other people and possessed their quirks, but once Yami and Dabi had escaped with you, all the clones collapsed, disappearing just like you had.

Katsuki looked around and saw his classmates upset, some of them even crying. The teachers, on the other hand, were just standing there, doing nothing to help the situation. It infuriated him. Why weren’t they doing anything?

“I don’t fucking understand why you won’t let me go to search for her!” Katsuki suddenly yelled, making everyone look at him. “You’re doing nothing but sit around. Let me go out there.”

Aizawa sighed and shook his head. “This targeted attack proves that there is a traitor amongst us and we’re currently trying to flush this person out. Nobody can leave.”

“Are you fucking kidding me?” Katsuki yelled. “Do you really think I could be the traitor? There’s no point in keeping me here. Instead, I could make myself useful.”

Aizawa’s expression hardened. “I’m not giving anyone special treatment, Bakugou. You’re just as much a student here as everyone else. You too will be interrogated.”

“I’m her fucking boyfriend. I should be out there. You can’t fucking keep me here.”

“That’s enough, young Bakugou. We’re all upset, but we need to find the traitor,” All Might suddenly said. “Shinsou is currently helping the police with interrogations. His quirk is proving very useful, it shouldn’t take too long.”

“So what if he’s the traitor then, huh? Ever thought about that? Seriously, if this is how useless you were when I was kidnapped, then I’m not surprised my classmates took the initiative.”

Aizawa growled. “We did everything we could when you were kidnapped, Bakugou. And we’re taking this situation very seriously. But what exactly are you planning to do? Just run out there and blindly search the neighbourhood? We have no indication of where to start. It would be nothing but a waste.”

“Still better than sitting around and doing fuck all!”

Nobody said a word until suddenly, someone spoke up. “No disrespect, dude. But you and (y/n) have been dating for what, two weeks? Don’t you think your reaction is a bit over the top?”

Katsuki’s head immediately turned to face Mineta, venom in his crimson eyes. “Shut the fuck up about things you know nothing about.”

“I hate to say this, but I think he’s right. I understand your worry, I really do. But that doesn’t give you the right to question our teacher’s decision,” Iida suddenly chimed in.

Katsuki’s blood was boiling. He couldn’t believe that his classmates were trying to undermine his feelings. But before he could speak up, his best friend Eijiro interrupted him.

The latter suddenly looked angry, unable to keep his composure. “Nobody here has any right to tell Katsuki how to act. He has been through hell since (y/n) had the accident, and now he’s lost her again. So leave him be.”

Katsuki was stunned by the support and outrage Eiji displayed, and he couldn’t help but tear up. He wouldn’t let anyone see that, though. So instead he just looked at the floor, trying to play it off.

“What do you mean? ‘He lost her again’?” Ochako asked.

Eijiro looked at Katsuki for approval before answering. The latter just shrugged his shoulders. He didn’t care about anything. All he wanted was to have you back, safe and sound.

“They were together long before (y/n) had the accident. They kept it a secret all this time. So you can appreciate how terrible Katsuki felt when she forgot all about it,” Eiji explained.

Mina let out a surprised gasp. “I’m so sorry, Katsuki. I had no idea. I can’t even imagine how hard it must have been for you. I wish I could’ve helped you win her back sooner.”

“Kudos to you for making her fall in love with you twice, dude,” Denki suddenly said.

Katsuki’s eyes immediately landed on his blonde friend. “Fuck off.”

He couldn’t believe that his friends were having this calm conversation while his girlfriend was somewhere far away, terrified and alone. “None of that is any of your business, nor does it matter right now. What matters is that (y/n) is gone, and nobody is doing anything about it.”

Hanta sighed, trying to calm his friend down. “We’re all upset, bro. I get it, but Aizawa-sensei is right. We can’t just run out there without a plan.”

“I don’t give a fuck about anything any of you say right now. All that matters is that (y/n) is trapped by villains, and they’re doing god knows what with her as we speak. Why is nobody as outraged as I am? I don’t understand.”

All Might cleared his throat. “We’re just as angry and upset as you are, but we’re trying to get her back safely. Please try to be patient.”

Something inside of Katsuki snapped, and he looked at the symbol of peace with a dangerous glint in his eyes. “Try to be patient? Are you fucking kidding me? What kind of person are you? I understand that you can’t do much on your own anymore, but fucking hell, you out of all people should be worried the most.”

Katsuki’s words left the entire room confused. Everyone except for Aizawa and All Might, that is. “Bakugou, I suggest we take this somewhere more private,” his dark-haired teacher said.

“Fuck, no! Stop trying to keep me quiet. I’m fucking sick and tired of this. You know why they took her and yet you’re standing here, pretending like it doesn’t concern you at all.”

All Might’s expression changed to something that none of the students had ever seen on him before. “That’s enough, Katsuki.”

The moment Katsuki’s first name left All Might’s lips, the entire class fell dead silent. None of the teachers called their students by their given names. So why had their sensei just done precisely that? And why did Katsuki not seem to be fazed by this at all? Instead, it seemed to make him even more angry.

“Oh, is that how we’re playing this now? Using my first name to remind me of our close relationship to get me to shut the hell up? Well, it ain’t working, old man. I’m fucking done keeping your damn secrets.”

Out of the corner of his eye, Katsuki could see Izuku taking a deep breath, looking equally confused and shocked. “I don’t give a fuck about that,” Katsuki immediately said, seemingly to nobody, confusing his classmates further. But Izuku understood and breathed out in relief, knowing the secret of his quirk was still safe. “I’m talking about the secret I have been keeping for well over a fucking year. I’ve been keeping it through everything. I’ve been keeping it while my girlfriend was in the hospital and you never went to visit her. I kept it when we talked about her memory loss, and you just told me to ‘wait and see’. I kept it all this time, but I’m fucking done, Toshinori.”

There was absolute silence. None of the students knew what was going on. They couldn’t believe that Katsuki dared to call their teacher by his first name. Nobody ever did that. Something big was going on, and it was apparent that it had gotten to the point of no return.

“Katsuki-” All Might tried to reason with him.

But the blonde interrupted him immediately. “The whole world's gonna know anyway. That’s the whole reason they took her…” Katsuki took a deep breath and the air in his lungs was heavy. He still didn’t know what exactly it was that the League had planned, but one thing was for sure -

“They’re trying to show the world that even the symbol of peace has secrets. That since you retired, you’re not a hero worth admiring anymore. Because you can’t even protect those close to you. And the only way to show that is by taking away what’s most important to you… (y/n) - your daughter.”