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Too Little, Too Late

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Spinel sat in silence in the small space pod. It was supposed to be for emergencies. She wondered if this qualified as an emergency.

Spinel sniffled. She had been crying for quite a while now. After all this time, she still hadn’t been found.

Where was she supposed to go? She couldn’t go back to Homeworld, with her angering the Diamonds like that. She didn’t want to go back to Earth, after just having left.

So that basically ruled out everything, then.

So, she was sitting there in space, floating about aimlessly.

It reminded her of there.

The realization terrified her. After all this time, she had ended up in the exact same place. She was still unloved, abandoned, lost. Her mind was racing with sinister voices, telling her how terrible she was over and over.

Useless. Unlovable. It’s your fault. It’s your fault. It’s your fault.

Spinel couldn’t stop the tears from streaming down her face. She spent the next several hours after leaving the Diamonds in the pod, motionless, suffering in her own personal hell.

Eventually, her emotions became less tumultuous. She was still unsettled, but she was no longer in a panicked state. She started to reconsider her options.

She really didn’t want to go back to Earth. She felt like a failure. But she didn’t anywhere else to go. And as terrible as going back felt, staying here all alone was infinitely more terrifying. She needed to be around somebody, anybody, to stay sane.

Spinel set a course for Earth. It would only be a few hours until she was out of this damn pod, now. She was grateful for that.

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Peridot was working on some schematics for New Homeworld in the barn, as usual. She worked in the barn to clear out her head, it was easier to think when she was alone. Lapis, Bismuth and she would head out to the countryside occasionally, so Peridot could work better. It was her job, after all. And she was good at it, too. Of course, she was, she was the great and powerful Peridot! She was built for this, after all. Though, that really didn’t mean much, now did it?

Peridot decided to ignore that. She needed to focus. She wasn’t going to forget about it, of course, she was just, going to save it for later. She couldn’t try and handle to many things at once, no one could. Or at least, she assumed so. She didn’t know what was going on in everyone else’s head.

Peridot was nearing completion on her project. Oh, this was going to be great! Peridot could barely contain her excitement. Lapis and Bismuth were going to love this, not to mention everyone else…

It was done. The schematics were finished. Peridot leaped out of her chair and hurtled herself outside of the room, shouting Lapis and Bismuth’s names at the top of her lungs.

“Lapis! Bismuth! I finished! I completed the new schematics! I-…” Peridot stopped in her tracks.

She wasn’t expecting to find her here.

“Spinel?”

Spinel whipped her head around, startled.

“Oh, I-uh, didn’t think…anyone, would be out here…in the wilderness.” Spinel stammered.

Peridot tilted her head to the side and held her hand up to her chin, inquisitively.

“Why are you back already? You’ve only been gone a day, or so.” Peridot questioned.

Spinel flinched. “Yeah, I guess, it hasn’t been very long, has it?” Spinel laughed. It wasn’t a happy laugh; it was a scared laugh. Peridot was growing more and more worried for the other gem.

“Are you, okay?” Peridot asked. She didn’t know what else to do. She just wanted to help the other gem.

Spinel didn’t say anything. She just stood there, staring at anything except for Peridot. “Do you, want to come inside?” Peridot pried further. She had to do something.

Spinel nodded. Peridot walked back into the barn, with Spinel following her. Peridot didn’t know what was happening. She just hoped the other gem was ok.