The Black Cloaked Envoy aka Shen Wei looked at him with squinted eyes. His robes had disappeared as he couldn't control his energy flow. His face was blotched with pink. He looked the picture of a drunk.
He slurred, "Chhhief Zhao, I'm sorry. I couldn't tell you."
Zhao Yunlan was shocked but he couldn't say he was too stunned at the revelation. If he thought Black Cloaked Envoy would be masquerading as anyone it would be Professor Shen Wei.
He was at every crime scene, had stupid excuses for being there. He knew too much about Dixing and Dixingrens in general.
So he can't say this was unbelievable, majority of his shock was based on the fact that he had been relentlessly flirting with the most powerful being of Dixing and he hadn't been incinerated yet.
But he shook his head as if clearing his mind and decided to ponder on these later. He had a professor cum warrior to get home safely.
He started, "Shen, um, Brother Black..." He was not sure how to address him but he received his answer soon.
"Shen Wei is fine Zhao Yunlan."
Yunlan nodded and continued, "Shen Wei let's talk about everything later. I'll take you to the apartment. Come on."
Saying this he secured his hold on him and gently led him out. Shen Wei kept steady remarkably well. Somehow they got to his jeep without raising any questions from the hotel staff.
Shen Wei got in and tried to buckle his seatbelt but it proved too complicated for his intoxicated mind. His fingers fumbled and his eyes were more close than open. Yunlan pushed his hands away and secured his belt. Shen Wei leaned his head on the seat and it lolled there loosely.
Yunlan could see that he was getting more drunk, for the lack of better word, as the time went by. But still he believed Li Jun that this would pass and went around to start the jeep.
During the ride Shen Wei seemed to have fallen asleep and his hands which were folded on his lap slid down during a speed bump and landed on Yunlan's thigh.
He jerked a bit and turned his head to see Shen Wei's expression, but he was still sleeping soundly. Yunlan couldn't resist but take his hand gently into his and squeezed it softly. Shen Wei's fingers curled atop his slightly. Yunlan wanted to hold hands with him but never pictured to do it in this setting.
They reached the apartment and Yunlan placed his hand back on his lap carefully. Then he exited the jeep and came to Shen Wei's side and opened his door. He removed his buckle but still there was no movement from his side.
He mildly tapped on his cheek but received no reaction. So he tapped it a bit hard and finally Shen Wei gave a small groan and opened his eyes.
His pupils were dilated and he looked smashed. He slowly looked at him for a few seconds and then gave a huge smile to Zhao Yunlan and whispered, "Kunlun, you came back."
Zhao Yunlan was stunned. He didn't know what to think of this. Apparently Shen Wei didn't recognise him and thought he's someone else.
He felt a sting knowing Shen Wei was thinking of someone else even in this intoxicated state. But he pushed it aside and debated whether to correct him or not.
He was apprehensive of his reaction, will he understand him or will he give a negative reaction to not having that person with him.
As usual Shen Wei didn't give him time to process anything and continued, "I've missed you so much. Don't leave me again."
Saying this he surged forward and kinda fell into his arms like he was expecting to be held.
Zhao Yunlan scrambled to hold his sudden weight. Shen Wei brought his arms around his neck and shoved his face into the crook between his neck and shoulder. Zhao Yunlan put his arms around his hips and moved closer to the jeep, as he didn't want Shen Wei to keep on stretching his body.
But he felt like he was betraying his trust by taking advantage of him. He knows Shen Wei would never behave like this with him and he's only doing this now because he thought he was someone else.
The sting grew even more and he felt like his chest was compressed and not getting enough air.
He somehow managed to push him away a bit, but Shen Wei's face turned too sad at being pushed away that Zhao Yunlan hurried to assure him, "Xiao Wei, come on let's go home. Then we can cuddle for all you want. Alright."
He didn't know why he said that name,he had never used it before but at the moment Shen Wei had looked so young, without any of his professor persona or the mask of the Envoy and it had slipped out of his mouth.
Hearing this Shen Wei's face brightened immediately and he tried to get down. But in his haste he would have face planted dragging Yunlan with him, but Yunlan somehow managed to keep them both on their feet.
Then he held him as securely as he could and started to climb the stairs. They meandered through the hallways and finally made it to his apartment. He opened the door with one hand and took him inside.
He proceeded to place Shen Wei on the couch, who just looked around his flat wonderingly. He was seeing this as though he had never seen anything like this. Then he turned around and asked Yunlan, "Is this where you reside now Kunlun?"
Yunlan felt guilty for this Kunlun person because his place resembled a pig sty and now Shen Wei was thinking this is Kunlun's house. He scratched the back of his neck and said,
"Sorry I couldn't clean because of too much work." As though he would have kept the place sparkling clean if he had the time.
Shen Wei nodded and his head fell way too down for a nod but he righted himself and said,
"Ahh, your work is too important. Don't fret, I'll clean it." Saying this he brought his hand to a fist and Zhao Yunlan hastily covered his hand.
When Shen Wei turned to him quizzically like he couldn't possibly fathom the reason why Zhao Yunlan wouldn't let him clean his room, he cleared his throat and said,
"What's the haste in cleaning Xiao Wei? I have to do work for a few more days and it'll be dirty again. We can clean it then or else it will be double the work."
Shen Wei simply said, "So what, I'll clean again Kunlun".
Yunlan felt his breath leave him in a rush, Shen Wei's eyes were filled with so much love and fondness. He wished someone, he would have preferred Shen Wei, would look at him like this. He felt extremely jealous of Kunlun.
But he controlled himself and said, "That's waste of energy Xiao Wei and you must always work smart. You would listen to me right?"
He didn't know what the dynamic between Shen Wei and this Kunlun person was, but he guessed Shen Wei obviously loved him and that means he would heed to his words.
Just like he thought Shen Wei nodded and then pulled him on the couch near him. Yunlan wanted to run away as far as he can. He knows when Shen Wei regains his sense, he will hate him for acting like his loved one but he didn't know what else he can do at the moment.
Shen Wei laid his head on his shoulder and now it was his turn to hold his hand. He kept fiddling with his hand. Yunlan went to suggest for him to take a nap but again Shen Wei beat him to it.
He started by saying, "I waited a long time for you. There were days when I thought you wouldn't come back to me. I missed you a lot. Only thing that kept me going was trying to help my people.
You said, I would choose this even if I was given a second chance and you were right. I couldn't just see them getting mistreated. So I stepped in and became a liaison between Dixing and Haixing.
But I always kept waiting for you. Hoping you would come back to me like you promised.
I knew you would not break your promise, but Kunlun, it was too difficult to believe that at times. I apologise for doubting you."
Shen Wei looked up at Zhao Yunlan with tears in his eyes. Zhao Yunlan couldn't respond in anyway.
He felt guilty for listening to this confession, felt sad that he could never have something special with that one person who made his heart skip a beat.
But above all he felt angry at Kunlun for not coming back to Shen Wei.
If he had been in his place he would never have left him. He would have been by his side, until death did them apart and even then he would have found his way back.
He wiped at the tears that fell down from those angelic eyes. He wanted to console him, but he had no words. He didn't know what was right or wrong to say at this juncture. He had already violated his trust by listening to this.
When this turmoil was going on in his mind, Shen Wei continued, " But you did come back to me Kunlun".
Yunlan felt like he was drenched in ice cold water. So Kunlun did come back. He felt like an idiot to assume he wasn't present in Shen Wei's life.
It's not like he was Shen Wei's friend or anything. In fact he knows nothing about him and isn't that what kept him going back to him again and again.
Now he knew why Shen Wei never responded to any of his suggestions or advances. He was happily in love with his lover and Yunlan had been behaving like an idiot.
Now the anger on Kunlun redirected upon his own self for throwing himself at Shen Wei without even knowing if he had someone in his life. But he always felt like Shen Wei was equally interested, but was just holding back because of other reasons. Guess he was just projecting his own thoughts.
Shen Wei then slowly caressed his face and said, "I felt so happy when I saw you again that I held on to you longer than necessary but then I realised having you by my side hurt even more than not having you, because you didn't even know me.
You keep trying to get me without knowing that I've always been yours." Saying this he closed his eyes and more tears fell. Then his hand slowly slid down his face to his neck and finally on Yunlan's lap. Shen Wei's head fell on Yunlan's chest and he slumped on him all together.
Again Yunlan felt his jaw dropping and he was stunned speechless at this revelation. Then he jolted when Shen Wei fell and looked down to see him sleeping with his mouth slightly parted.
Okay he was fine, absolutely fine, he was not hyperventilating. See his breathing was normal, it was just a little bit fast. Nothing wrong.
So he had formulated and discarded many theories in these few minutes, but Shen Wei's story kept on going through so many twists.
Now this was the icing on the cake. How could his lover not know him? Was he amnesiac? Another thin troubling him was Shen Wei's words, "held on to him longer than necessary".
He didn't want to think about it but it kept tugging at his memory, didn't Shen Wei shake his hand too long at the University.
Then he gave a long drawn out sigh and stopped all his thoughts. He arranged Shen Wei in a proper position on the couch and went to lay down on his bed. But sleep was not on the cards for him.