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I'm jealous of the rain

It feels like it's been years since you left us, but it's really only been a few days. I haven't felt an ounce of happiness since that day.

That falls upon your skin

Why, Nara..? Why did you have to go..? You did nothing to deserve death, absolutely nothing.. Though the only thing you did to me was break my heart.

It's closer than my hands have been

You meant so much to me. More than you could ever know. But your death hurt more than a bullet to the head. My heart is in pieces, I tell you.

I'm jealous of the rain

And, although you can't hear me.. I miss you. So, so much. I'm broken and incapable of forgetting that day. It has scarred me for eternity.

I'm jealous of the wind

Albeit you may not know this, you were the bravest of us all. You sacrificed yourself so we would be victorious, and for that, we are always grateful.

That ripples through your clothes

And even though we won the battle.. We lost the war to grief. You were a big impact on my life, and now I feel weak.

It's closer than your shadow

You really hit me in the heart.. I never thought anyone was capable of crying so much.. But I guess it doesn't matter once you've lost your best friend.

Oh, I'm jealous of the wind

Despite you leaving only recently, I've already started reminiscing on all those good times we used to have together.

'Cause I wished you the best of

I remember the first time I met you. I didn't really think much of you, but then our relationship grew. We were almost inseparable.

All this world could give

I will never forget those moments where I held you in my arms. They made my heart flutter, and I always felt so happy with you being that close.

And I told you when you left me

The way we messed around so carelessly will forever stick by me as a heartwarming remembrance, of us being lost within one another.

There's nothing to forgive

And I don't think you ever knew how important those times were to me. They helped us grow closer, and helped create memories.

But I always thought you'd come back, tell me

If you ask me, it's a bit like that one quote, "We didn't realise we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun."

All you found was heartbreak and misery

And now, I will carry on with my sentimental journey through life until it is my time to join you, where we'll be together forever.

It's hard for me to say

As mentioned, although you can't hear me.. I love you. And believe me, Nara, there is a special place in my heart where you are right now.

I'm jealous of the way

Thank you for everything. Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for looking out for us all. And thank you for helping me experience love.

You're happy without me.

And with that, stay safe, il mio amore. Keep striving in Heaven, even though I can't be there to do it with you. Don't worry, for I will see you again.

 

Forever yours,

Guido Mista.