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The Benevolence of Scandal

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Friday, 7 August, 1811


"I would have never imagined such insolence—such selfishness as you have displayed, Nephew! It is not to be borne! Your mother would be ashamed, and you disgrace the Fitzwilliam family with such behavior!"


Darcy watched his aunt's face become a deeper shade of red than he could have thought possible and found himself feeling rather detached. Perhaps it was that he had expected her anger. He could nearly predict the next words out of her mouth as she rattled off a litany of her preferred insults and epithets.

While he had never before been on the receiving end of one of Lady Catherine's tirades, he had witnessed enough of them over the years to know where she liked to hit—duty, honor, family.

He, however, could not feel the sting of her words because he did not think them true. She wanted him to marry Anne, and he and Anne did not want to marry. Neither his mother nor his father had ever told him that he should marry his cousin, and there was no reason why the marriage would benefit the family in the long run. Therefore, Darcy felt immune to whatever Lady Catherine might say.

"Nephew! Are you listening to me?"

In fact, he was not, but ever the gentleman, he replied, "Yes, Aunt."

"Why are you being so obtuse then? Do your duty and marry Anne!"

He moved away from her and stared out the window, speaking calmly. "My duty to Anne is to make sure she is safe and provided for, but marriage shall be my decision. I have no other duty than to choose a respectable woman to become mistress of Pemberley."

"And what of your duty to Georgiana?" Her voice had suddenly reduced to a respectable volume.

He whipped around to see Lady Catherine seated on a massive armchair reminiscent of a throne, sipping from a cup of tea he had not noticed before. The change in mood was jarring. While she could be domineering and invasive, he could not recall a time when she was capricious.

"My duty to Georgiana?" he asked incredulously. "She is my first priority. I have done everything in my power to ensure that she is well-educated, healthy, and moral. No one could fault my devotion to my sister."

This, however, was disingenuous. Darcy had begun to feel anxious about Georgiana in recent months. He felt a distance creeping between them where there was once only warmth. She had a restraint with him that had not previously existed, and he felt completely inept at handling her concerns these days. Richard had suggested the reason weeks ago, but he was still not ready to face the truth of it. Georgiana was becoming a woman, and in spite of all his learning and observation, he did not know how to deal with women.

He tried to convince himself that she was the same person she had always been, and she was—in essentials, at least. The nature of their relationship, however, had changed. They could no longer spend their days hiding around the nursery, and she was no longer enchanted by the stories he used to make up for her. She was more conscious of her appearance and social etiquette as her whole world turned toward her coming out. Nothing could be further from Darcy's expertise.

"Georgiana will be coming out soon, and it is your duty to ensure her success. Do you think that you will be able to do that without a wife? Do you think you will be able to see through the fortune hunters and hoydens and harpies to find a woman who will guide Georgiana's into womanhood?"

This, of course, was the heart of his troubles, and he panicked that Lady Catherine had seemed to grasp his weakness out of thin air. He puffed out his chest and starred directly into his aunt’s eyes, refusing to be cowed. "And you think Anne could do so? She never came out herself," he said icily. "If I do not marry before Georgiana comes out, my aunt Matlock can oversee her coming out."

"Lady Matlock is getting too old to keep up with Georgiana, and you cannot put off marriage forever. Where will you find a paragon that will suit you better than Anne?"

"Lady Catherine, this conversation is finished. Anne and I do not wish to marry, and that will not change." He turned on his heel and strode out the door.

"Nephew, I have not dismissed you!" Her tone shifted once again, making her sound almost desperate.

He stopped to speak with the butler outside the door. "Hodges, please have my horse saddled and my carriage readied."

"Fitzwilliam, you cannot leave yet. You are not to leave for another se'ennight! Where are you going?"

"Where I belong—with my sister."


After preparing for his travels, he stood in front of a window in the library, staring out over the park. His aunt's cold and collected behavior puzzled him. How did she know what to say to most affect him? While he had ever thought her an ill-tempered woman, he never thought of her as conniving or devious. Yet, somehow, she managed to discomfit him with the mere mentions of Georgiana and marriage.

Too many young ladies had tried to use Georgiana to get to him. They would befriend her and then ignore her or, worse, take retribution on her after Darcy's inevitable rejections.
He worried for Georgiana, and he worried for himself. He could not, on principle, marry a woman who was artful or manipulative. He had more than enough manipulation from his family already. He needed to trust his wife, and he was beginning to believe that there was no woman he could trust with his home, his name, and—most importantly—his family.

"Fitzwilliam?"

He turned his head to see Anne joining him by the window and sighed.

"I take it you heard my conversation with my aunt," he said, turning back to stare out the window.

"I doubt there was a single soul between here and the village who did not hear her.”

One side of Darcy’s mouth curled up in amusement. In these quiet moments, he felt that he and Anne could have had a marriage of friendship, but they had similar strengths and flaws. She could be witty and open in private, but, like him, she felt paralyzed in the presence of strangers. They might enjoy each other’s company but only in a fraternal sense. He had known Anne his entire life, and at this point, he doubted he could feel anything other than brotherly affection for her. Anne herself had told him years ago that she never wanted to marry, and he could hardly argue given what he knew of her parents’ marriage. Though he knew only a little, he remembered Sir Lewis de Bourgh to be a first-class philanderer, gambler, and cheat—not that Lady Catherine would ever speak a word about it.

“Perhaps, but the good folk of Hunsford should be accustomed to such racket by now.” Anne let out a breath of laughter. He allowed himself a half smile before becoming serious again. “I suppose, then, if you heard our argument, you know that I am leaving.”

She nodded morosely, and he suddenly felt a stab of contrition.

“I am sorry that I am leaving you alone to manage your mother, but you understand I must see Georgie—for her sake as well as mine.”

She put a thin hand on his arm. “Worry not. There is no way to win an argument against a boulder, so ‘tis best to find a new path. If you remained, the fighting would only worsen. This way, I shall only have to listen to complaints about your supposed ingratitude and lack of honor for a fortnight or so before she moves on to the next victim of her displeasure.”

A deep chuckle escaped him, and he took her hand to bow over it. “Thank you, Cousin. Please write and remember that you are welcome at Darcy House or Pemberley if you need a reprieve anytime.”

She withdrew her hand and smirked. “I thank you for your offer, but I am fond of Rosings in my own way and cannot imagine leaving, even to escape my mother.”

He nodded and moved to leave but she stopped him. “One more thing, Cousin! In spite of my mother’s claims, have no shame in your conduct regarding Georgie. You have been a far better guardian than many others would have in your place.”

He gave her a half-hearted smile and left the room. If only I could believe that myself, he thought.


“So, Lizzy, did you enjoy our sojourn to the Cathedral today?” Mr. Gardiner asked with a twinkle in his eye.
Lizzy put her hand under her chin, feigning deep contemplation. “Well, the Cathedral was undoubtedly beautiful. Certainly, the crown jewel of Canterbury!”

“Undoubtedly. But?” he prompted. “You do not seem to be much convinced of your answer.”

“Perhaps,” she said with a sly grin. “To be quite honest, I was disappointed.”

“With the Cathedral? I thought you said it was the ‘crown jewel of Canterbury.’”

“Oh, yes, Uncle. But, you see, for all its beauty and splendor, I was more fascinated in studying the characters who came on pilgrimage! Yet, much to my dismay, there was no Wife of Bath or Miller, conveniently displaying their flaws for my amusement! I feel rather cheated by Chaucer, having set my expectations for the trip so high,” she said with mock irritation.

Mr. Gardiner laughed heartily at her words as his wife came to join them at their table. “What is so amusing, you two?”

“Lizzy, here, is disappointed in the lack of entertaining characters to study at the Cathedral this afternoon!”
Mrs. Gardiner shot her niece an amused expression. “Do you suppose you can wait for another interesting character until we return you to Hertfordshire?”

“Of course, Aunt, but there is still time to meet interesting characters here. Do not forget the interesting characters we encountered in the inns in Ramsgate and Margate!”

“Ah, yes, you certainly had fun with the Misses Bates and old Mr. Wilson. Well, I shall leave you to it while I bathe,” she gestured wryly to the virtually empty common room of the inn. “Once I am finished, I will send the maid to your room to help you with whatever you need,” she patted Lizzy’s hand and took her husband’s arm to ascend the stairs.

Lizzy sat at the table and opened her copy of The Canterbury Tales, smiling to herself. In spite of her cheeky words, she had enjoyed every moment of her trip throughout Kent, particularly visiting the seaside for the first time. She closed her eyes for a moment and leaned back in her chair.

“Love will not be constrain'd by mastery.” She opened her eyes at the sound of a deep, masculine voice. To her surprise, a handsome man was standing on the other side of the table, looking at her. “When mast'ry comes, the god of love anon beateth his wings, and, farewell, he is gone. Love is a thing as any spirit free.”

She could not speak for a moment before she gathered her wits. “I assume you have read this book before, Sir, if you are able to quote it so beautifully.”

He casually tapped the back of the chair with his hands and smiled disarmingly at her. “Indeed! I read it many a time at Cambridge. I must say ‘tis a favorite of mine, but as a lover of literature, that means very little. I have many favorites.”

It took her a moment to realize the impropriety of the situation. His manner was so easy and casual that it was difficult to summon any indignation at the fact that they had not been introduced. She had, after all, just decried the lack of interesting characters. It really would be rather ungrateful to send the man away when he had said no more than a few passing words!

“Sir, you should be lucky that you are a lover of literature, else I would surely chide you for your lack of propriety!” she said archly.

“What lack of propriety? This is an inn, Miss, not a drawing room or an assembly. The same rules should not apply.” He boldly sat in the chair across from her.

“Touché, Mr.—”

“Wickham,” he drawled. “Mr. George Wickham.”

“Well, Mr. Wickham, as you are clearly a well-read gentleman, I shall not look askance at our shockingly improper introduction—even if we are in an inn—but—”

“George!”

A woman Lizzy guessed was approximately five and thirty stood in the doorway with crossed arms and a cross expression to match.

Wickham leaned over and spoke with a secretive smile, “My sister. She is of a cheery disposition as you see.”

Lizzy smirked. “Ah, yes. I have four sisters myself, you see, and I can well understand the feeling of sisterly irritation. ‘Tis for the best you go with her.”

“Four sisters, you say?” He stood up and leaned over the table, only several inches from her face. “Are they all as lovely as you?”

Lizzy scoffed, feeling a little ill-at-ease at his proximity yet not wanting to show herself intimidated. “You certainly have a talent for impertinence, Mr. Wickham. Now, have mercy on your poor sister and leave me to retire.”

“As the lady wishes,” replied Wickham, bowing low. As he turned toward his sister, she saw his face contort into a scowl, and she felt vaguely pleased at the thought that he was disappointed to be leaving her.

It was for the best, though, she supposed. Nothing could come from a rather improper encounter in some unknown inn in Canterbury. It was better to think back on a witty conversation with a handsome man with pleasure in later years as a diverting youthful indiscretion than a case of disappointed hopes.

With a tired sigh, she made her way up to her room, nearly bumping into a woman outside her door. “My apologies! I clearly was not paying heed to my surroundings,” she said nervously.

Once the woman stepped back, Lizzy saw that she was more of a girl than woman. Though she was tall and well-formed, she still had a girlish face and an aura of diffidence that made her seem not entirely at ease with adulthood. Lizzy found herself instantly endeared to the girl who reminded her of a younger version of her sister Jane with her golden hair and sweet shyness.

“Please, do not worry yourself! I am well-known as the clumsiest of my sisters, so I assure you ‘twas far likelier my fault than yours.”

The girl smiled appreciatively at Lizzy and took two steps away before stopping and turning back. “Is this your room?” she murmured, gesturing to Lizzy’s room.
Lizzy nodded, and the girl continued, not making eye contact, “My room is right next to yours.” She paused and glanced up shyly, seeming reluctant to take her leave. “Have you been in Canterbury for some days? I did not see you yesterday, and there are very few people staying at this inn, I have noticed.”

“I have been here only two days with my aunt and uncle while we are on a tour of Kent and the seaside. We recently came from Ramsgate and Margate.”

“Oh!” Her eyes lit up, “I was just in Ramsgate on holiday with my companion! We are on our way to London now.” She paused and blushed before continuing, “You see, I encountered an old friend of the family there, and we became engaged. He is going to apply to my brother for permission when we arrive.”
Lizzy raised her eyebrows in surprise. The girl must have noticed because she flushed deeply and stepped back, covering her face with her hands. “I apologize. I was too forward. I should not have shared—”

“Please, Miss—?”

“Darcy. Georgiana Darcy,” the girl said, slowly removing her hands from her face.

“As elegant of a name as I’ve heard,” she remarked with a smile. “Well, Miss Darcy, I am Miss Elizabeth Bennet, and I will have you know that no amount of forwardness or impropriety you are capable of me would shock me. So, please do not apologize to me.”

This seemed to put the girl slightly at ease, so Lizzy continued, “And, let me offer my congratulations on your engagement. I trust you will be very happy together. I doubt there is any place better for a proposal than the seaside. As I have always said, why propose if you are not going to do so in a romantic setting? We ladies have very few things to hang our hats on but, I daresay, a tale of a romantic proposal is one.”

Miss Darcy began to giggle and then she sighed. “Miss Bennet, if my forwardness will not shock you, might I ask if you are going to London as well?”

“Unfortunately, my aunt and uncle are returning me to my father’s estate in Hertfordshire tomorrow. We will be passing through London but only briefly.”

“Oh, I am sorry to hear it,” Miss Darcy replied before reddening once again. “I did not mean I am sorry you are going home. ‘Tis that I’ve been in my room all day, and I have only spoken with my companion. I believe I am a bit starved for company.”

Lizzy looked Miss Darcy over, curious as to her situation. The cut and fabric of her dress were exquisite and most certainly expensive, and it seemed rather strange that a wealthy girl perhaps no more than sixteen would be staying with a companion and her intended at a second-rate inn with little to amuse her. Propriety and sensitivity won out over curiosity, and Lizzy decided to let the girl be.

“Then, I am honored that you were willing to take my poor company as consolation,” she said teasingly, making Miss Darcy smile softly. “I was about to prepare for bed, but my family and I will be taking breakfast in the common dining room tomorrow morning around eight o’ clock. If you find yourself there and your companion approves, I am certain you would be welcome to join us.”

Miss Darcy beamed and enthusiastically accepted, and Lizzy nodded to her once before retreating to her room to bathe.


Lizzy awoke with a start, having fallen asleep on the settee in front of the fireplace in her bedroom. The fire had reduced to its embers, and she sleepily shifted to a sitting position and winced as the corner of her book pierced her hip. She laughed at herself for falling asleep in such a position and stood up to stoke the fire.

She had just slipped her robe on when she heard a muffled cry from the room next door. She froze for a brief moment, realizing that the sound must have come from Miss Darcy’s room. She padded over to the wall, held her breath, and pressed her ear against the wall. She heard a thump and another muffled cry.

Her heart pounded against her ribcage, and she rushed to the door before stopping. She had no idea what to do. She could not be sure whether Miss Darcy had fallen ill or was hurt and debated the propriety in looking in on her.

After a mere moment of deliberation, she decided that Miss Darcy was not the type of girl to worry herself if a friendly face sought to ensure her safety. She would knock on Georgiana’s door only to assuage herself and return in a moment.

She tied her dressing gown around her waist and walked into the hallway. She knocked lightly on the door. “Miss Darcy?”

She heard a creak from inside the room and then silence. She waited for a moment before trying again. “Miss Darcy, are you there?”

A hoarse voice responded. “Miss Darcy requires no service.”

Lizzy heard a yelp that she thought sounded like Miss Darcy. Impulsively, she rapped on the door repeatedly, crying out in a hushed tone. “Miss Darcy! It is urgent! I pray you open up.”

After a breathless moment of trying to discern what was happening behind the door, it opened slightly to reveal the livid face of Mr. Wickham.

“You!” Lizzy gasped, not quite believing that this venomous looking monster was the same amiable gentleman that evening.

“I said Miss Darcy is not here! Leave—” His head suddenly fell back unnaturally, and Miss Darcy came flying out of the room.

Later, Lizzy would not be able to precisely articulate what she had done or why she had done it, but she could only be grateful for whatever she did. In less than a minute, the door to Georgiana’s room was closed, and Lizzy had managed to usher the sobbing girl into her room and lock the door. She put her arms around Miss Darcy’s shoulder and brought her over to the fire.

She tried to pull back slightly to inspect the girl’s face, but Miss Darcy just held on to her tighter and proceeded to sink on to her lap, sobbing violently. Lizzy just held her and stroked her hair, coming to the horrifying realization that Mr. Wickham was likely a practiced seducer. Had he invaded Miss Darcy’s chamber to compromise her? Did he even know that it was Miss Darcy whose room he was entering? She shivered. She had always imagined that the type of man who would pose the greatest threat would be evident to her, and it was terrifying to think that monsters could lurk under the skin of charming, well-read gentlemen.

Suddenly, there was a thump from outside the room, and Miss Darcy whimpered. From the hall, Lizzy heard the hushed voice of Mr. Wickham speaking to someone else just outside the door, “I do not know where she went. There was a woman who knew whom she was! How could you let this happen? You were supposed to watch her.”

Grateful the fire had nearly died, Lizzy held Miss Darcy tighter in the darkness and whispered, “Don’t say a word, Georgiana. He could not have seen which door we entered. Just stay quiet for he will not want to make a scene. You are safe here with me.”

After several minutes of no sound but the quiet creak of footsteps in the hall, she heard a woman’s voice in the hall whisper, “All the lights are out in the rest of the rooms in this hall. I believe she went downstairs.” The creaking became louder as it approached the door before getting quieter and going toward what Lizzy presumed to be the stairs.

“I think he’s gone for the moment,” Lizzy murmured. “Shall we move to the bed so you can lie down and I can stoke the fire?”

Lizzy moved to stand up, but Georgiana’s hand darted out to prevent her from moving. A small broken voice came from her. “I would prefer to stay right here.”

“Yes, of course,” Lizzy said softly, brushing the hair away from her face to reveal Georgiana’s red eyes and tear-stained cheeks hidden by shadows. “Hold my hand while I stoke the fire.”

With one hand, Lizzy gripped Georgiana’s while she grabbed the poker and moved a log so that the room became slightly brighter. Once she was seated again, she gently asked, “Might I bring your companion here? Or I could bring my aunt?”

Another sob escaped Georgiana, and she shook her head. She roughly swiped her hands in front of her eyes and cleared her throat. It was at that moment that Lizzy realized that she was only wearing a chemise that was ripped at the neckline and suddenly felt sick. Wordlessly, she took off her robe and draped in around Georgiana’s shoulders.

“That man...George—Mr. Wickham...we are engaged...” She collapsed into tears again, and Lizzy brought her hand to Georgiana’s back.

Georgiana attempted to speak again, but her voice was muffled by Lizzy’s shoulder. Lizzy pulled away, “What was that?”

“My companion is a relation of his. She encouraged the match—though I had known him my entire life in away. I do not think she would believe me if I told her…” Her voice trailed off and she succumbed to more tears.

When she had composed herself more, she spoke, “I—I—I told her this afternoon that I was having doubts about marrying him. You see, I do not think that my brother would approve of our hasty courtship, and she told me that I had to remain in my room for the rest of the day before I made a decision that would break George’s heart. I did not want to hurt anyone, I just—”

Lizzy hushed her as a new wave of tears began. She did not need to hear anymore. Putting together the confusing pieces of the evening together, she began to think that Mr. Wickham’s supposed sister was in all likelihood Georgiana’s companion who had been employed to help Wickham compromise her. She sighed, feeling completely out of her depth. The sooner she could get to her aunt and uncle for help, the better.

“Shh, Georgiana. You did naught wrong. I believe you. We shall not speak of it anymore tonight.”


Darcy pulled his horse into the stables, muttering a curse under his breath. His horse had cast its shoe more than two miles back, and he had to walk it through the dark for over an hour before he managed to find an inn. He estimated that he was still a couple of hours from Ramsgate but decided that he would rest for the night and see Georgiana in the morning. He doubted a night would make much difference to his sister whom he assumed was not sparing a thought for her brother during her seaside holiday.

After speaking with the stable master, he entered the inn, deciding that while it was not ideal, it would serve him well enough for the night. He approached the innkeeper. “Good evening. I would like a private room for the night.”

The man nodded, “Certainly, we got many free tonight.”

“Excellent, give me your finest available room,” he said, handing him a small pouch of coins he was certain would cover the cost.

“’Course, Sir,” the man said, bowing eagerly. “Righ’ away, Sir.”

Having procured his room, Darcy looked around the empty room before his eye caught that of his sister’s companion, speaking angrily with a man in a dark corner of the common room. What the devil is she doing here? He took a step to approach her before she ran in the opposite direction in alarm. He instinctively moved to follow her before the man turned around to reveal George Wickham.

Wickham attempted to flee, but Darcy grabbed his arm and held him in place. “What are you doing here, you vile scrub? Why were you with that woman?”

Wickham just smiled, though he could not quite manage nonchalance. His eyes shifted about wildly, and his voice was not steady. “What are you talking about, Fitz? I was just talking to a lady.

You have lectured me about that too often to find such behavior uncharacteristic.”

Wickham attempted to pull away, but Darcy twisted Wickham’s arm to prevent him from leaving. The leech spluttered, “I know nothing! I swear!”

The innkeeper returned downstairs and cried, “What in blazes is going on here?”

Darcy turned his head to the man without loosening his hold. “Sir, was there a woman—brown hair and about five and thirty—travelling with this man?”

The innkeeper looked at the two of them dubiously, but Darcy glared intensely at the man which seemed to erode his desire for discretion. The man nodded, “Aye, and a young lady—his intended, I think. Very pretty young thing and finer than most we see come through here.”

“His intended?” As comprehension dawned on Darcy, he turned to face Wickham and tightened his grip. “What in God’s name have you done with her?” he whispered hoarsely.

“I do not know what that man is speaking of. You know me, Fitz. I could never—”

Darcy dug his fingers into Wickham’s arm and grabbed the other one. “Where is she?” he spat at Wickham. “If you lie to me, I swear on my life that I will have you hanged before the sun goes down tomorrow.”

He felt the moment his threat sunk in. Wickham’s body became limp, and he shivered. “She is upstairs. She went into some woman’s room.”

Darcy attempted to move him toward the innkeeper, but Wickham used the moment to bolt. Darcy looked at the innkeeper for help, but the man was standing behind a table, trying to avoid involvement in a gentleman’s dispute. Darcy clenched his fists, barely maintaining control of himself, and decided that it was better to find Georgiana and deal with lech later.

He ran up the steps to the guest rooms, taking them two at a time. “Georgiana?” he called, trying in vain to keep his voice steady. He heard the innkeeper shout at him to keep his voice down, but he was beyond the point of caring. His confusion upon first seeing Mrs. Younge and Wickham together had been replaced by a petrifying fear for Georgiana’s safety.

A woman down the hall opened her door and told him to quiet down. He could not heed her words. He called out again, “Georgiana?”

Suddenly, a muffled voice called through his panic. “Fitzwilliam?”

He could recognize the sweet voice of his sister anywhere and moved blindly toward the voice. “Georgiana!”

A young woman in a nightgown appeared in the doorway of a room a few feet away from him, fiercely clutching a shawl around her shoulders. Her voice was strong and assertive. “Are you Mr. Fitzwilliam Darcy?”

He nodded, unable to do anything else, and stepped toward her. “I am Miss Elizabeth Bennet. Your sister is with me, but I pray you be very gentle with her and do not ask too many questions. Do I have your agreement on this?”

He could not find it in himself to be indignant at this unknown woman giving him orders. He only managed a quick nod before Miss Bennet stepped aside to let him into the room.

His heart broke when he saw Georgiana on the settee with puffy eyes and a red face. “Fitzwilliam, I am so sorry. I am so sorry,” she cried.

He shook his head and rushed over to embrace her. “Oh, my dearest Georgie, worry not. I am here, and you are safe.”

He continued to cradle her head against his chest as he whispered words of comfort into her hair. As his panic-stricken mind began to process what had happened and how he had failed his dearest sister, he began to cry as he had not done since the death of his father.

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Georgiana had fallen asleep in his arms before he realized that Miss Bennet was gone.  He had not given a thought to the woman who gave his sister refuge until he picked Georgiana up to tuck her into bed—Miss Bennet’s bed.  In any other situation, Darcy would have certainly laughed at the absurdity that he—who prided himself on never finding himself in a compromising situation—would think nothing of tucking his sister into the bed of an unknown, unmarried woman without her consent.  Yet, he doubted that anything could be more horrifically absurd than the unimaginable coincidence that brought him to be here at this moment.

He pulled a chair from the corner of the room to the bed and sat there, clutching her hand in sleep.  They had not spoken of what happened yet, and perhaps that, more than anything, distressed him.  His mind vacillated between numbness and imagining the worst possible scenarios that could have happened.

He could not be sure how much time elapsed before the door quietly opened and Miss Bennet slipped inside with an older woman.  Darcy felt incapable of standing and greeting them, and it seemed that Miss Bennet sensed this because she only glanced at him before making the appropriate introductions.  “Mr. Darcy, this is my aunt, Mrs. Gardiner, with whom I am travelling.  Being that she is a married woman and a mother, I felt it apt that she join us as a chaperone.  I believe she can be most beneficial to Georgiana at this time.”

She turned to her aunt to introduce him, and he saw the low light of the fire and her aunt’s candle illuminate her face.  Light glinted off a wet line on her cheek where a tear must have fallen, and her eyes were glassy with unshed tears.  It made her look younger and totally artless, and he felt as if her distress was confirmation that he could trust her.

“Aunt, this is Mr. Darcy, Georgiana’s brother.  He only had just arrived when I came to get you,” her voice did not waver, but it was not as confident as it had been before.

Mrs. Gardiner spoke, “My niece informed me of the situation in vague terms, Sir, but she suggested that she wait to explain the rest until she had returned to your sister.  My husband is currently waiting out in the hall whenever you are ready to discuss how you would like to proceed in dealing with the culprits.”

He nodded and stood, relieved that he managed to remember at least some of his manners.  “I thank you and your husband for your assistance, Madam.  As you can see, my sister is now asleep, and I do not want to wake her from her rest.  Miss Bennet, would you mind explaining what you know of the situation and how you came to be involved?”

He brought his chair over next to the settee and gestured for the two ladies to sit.  Miss Bennet was direct and matter of fact as she relayed meeting Wickham and his “sister,” whom he assumed to be Mrs. Younge, as well as her meeting with Georgiana in the hallway.  His heart ached as he heard Miss Bennet describe Georgiana’s loneliness and distress.

As she told them of her actions when she suspected something to be amiss with Georgiana, he had to look away.  He leaned his forehead against his hand, thinking about how this young woman—a stranger for all intents and purposes—had protected his sister better than himself or any of the people with whom he left her.

“I believe, Sir, that her companion plotted with Mr. Wickham to convince her to marry.  This is just my inference from the bits that she has been able to tell me, but Miss Darcy told me that she had been left alone in her room all day after she expressed some doubts to her companion about your approval of the match.

“Her companion seemed to have made her ashamed of having second thoughts and wanting your approval, leading me to believe that she was the woman I saw with him earlier.  And, once Georgiana had escaped, I heard him whispering with a woman in the hall.  I believe they were plotting together.”

Darcy wiped his hand over his face, sighing in exhaustion.  All were silent for a moment before he looked up at the two women.  “Forgive me, Miss Bennet, for I am too distraught and exhausted to fully convey my gratitude for all that you have done for my sister this night.  I commend you and thank you sincerely.”

Miss Bennet only gave him a wan smile and nodded.

“I still have further questions, if you do not mind.  My thoughts are rather disorganized, and I am trying in vain to articulate them.  So, pardon me if I appear blunt, but you said that Wickham and my sister were in the room together alone.  Do you—” he shivered just to think of the possibilities, “do you know what happened before you knocked?”

Miss Bennet looked away, and Mrs. Gardiner stiffened beside her, clearly nervous to hear the answer.  “I know not, Mr. Darcy, but your sister is wearing my dressing gown because her chemise was ripped.  That is all I know.  I did not want to trouble your sister with further questions.”

Darcy’s heart constricted in his chest, and he felt nauseous.  His eyes smarted, and he pressed the heels of his hands into his eyes to stifle the urge to cry.  He would not cry in front of these two strange women.

“God, I do not even know how to ask her the question,” he spoke loudly, unthinking.

Georgiana stirred in the bed, and he looked over at her—simultaneously willing her to awake and cursing himself for disturbing her rest.  Mrs. Gardiner cleared her throat, and Darcy turned to look at her.

In a soft, calm voice, she spoke, “I understand your fear well, Mr. Darcy.  Perhaps, you would like me to speak with your sister?  I believe the questions you mean to ask may come easier from a older, married woman than a brother.”

He saw the sense in Mrs. Gardiner’s idea, but could he trust this woman he only just met with information that could surely destroy Georgiana’s reputation?  He had trusted Mrs. Younge.  However, Mrs. Gardiner seemed like an intelligent and genteel woman, and she had a motherly presence about her.

Likely sensing his reluctance, she said, “I would let you know all that she said immediately after.  However, she is waking, and I think it would be best to make a decision now.”

He did not know why, but at that moment, he looked to Miss Bennet, as if to get her approval.  She looked slightly surprised at his questioning look but nodded nonetheless as if to show her approval for the plan.

He sighed.  “Very well, Mrs. Gardiner.  I thank you for your assistance.  Perhpas I should speak to your husband now.”


After introducing a very weary Georgiana to her aunt, Lizzy made her way to her aunt and uncle’s rooms with her uncle and Mr. Darcy.  “Mr. Darcy, this is my uncle Mr. Gardiner.”

The men shook hands, and Lizzy had no idea what to do next. 

“Uh…my aunt is with Miss Darcy right now, trying to help her describe the particulars of what happened,” she informed her uncle.

He nodded solemnly, and there was a moment of silence before he spoke. “How is the girl?”

Lizzy sighed.  “We do not know yet, but she was able to sleep.  At the least, I am relieved by that.  She was very distressed though, Uncle.”

Making eye contact with the very weary Mr. Darcy, she felt the urge speak on his behalf as he seemed hesitant to do so himself.  “The man—the culprit—Mr. Wickham,” her head felt jumbled as she struggled to articulate what she wanted, “Could you aid Mr. Darcy in deciding what to do about him?  Surely, he must be brought to justice is some way.”

“Now, wait, Lizzy,” her uncle spoke gently yet his tone boded admonishment.  “We do not yet know the particulars.  Mr. Darcy may not want to pursue justice until he knows what must be done about his sister.”

Lizzy looked at her uncle as if he was a stranger.  How could he ever suggest such a thing?  Not holding that monster to account for hurting Miss Darcy so!  He could not possibly be suggesting that Miss Darcy…

“You are not suggesting that she be made to marry him, are you uncle?  I would rather bring the man to justice myself than have that sweet girl forever chained to that rake!”

“Lizzy!” her uncle hissed, “That was not what I was suggesting.  I was suggesting that perhaps Mr. Darcy would like to hear the particulars of the incident given that the case is very sensitive and Miss Darcy’s reputation may be at stake.  ‘Tis not my place to make such decisions,” he turned to Mr. Darcy, whom Lizzy suddenly remembered was present. 

“I apologize, Mr. Darcy, my niece can be impulsive, and she is clearly distressed.”

Lizzy shook her head as if to clear it of its fog.  “Yes, I apologize, Sir.  I forget myself.  I do not at all feel well, nor am I thinking clearly.  I’ve let my anger run away with me.”

Mr. Darcy surprised her by quite nearly smiling albeit half-heartedly.  “Do not worry, Miss Bennet.  I believe I was thinking almost exactly the same thing, and I, too, cannot seem to prevail myself to think clearly.  This evening has certainly been taxing on all of us.  But your uncle is correct.  I would like to hear what Mrs. Gardiner has to say before I decide what to do about Wickham.  As much as I would like to see the man hang for harming my sister, I could not in good conscious consign my sister to a life of infamy if the details of this were ever to become public.”

Lizzy looked at Mr. Darcy and decided in that moment that she liked him.  Even in his apparent exhaustion and agitation, he was so sensible and explained his thoughts so eloquently.  Not to mention, he did not dismiss her anger or her concerns and refused to consider forcing Georgiana to marry the reprobate.

Looking at her uncle in apology for her impertinence, she spoke to Mr. Darcy again. “Pardon me, Sir, but how do you propose bringing him to justice while maintaining Miss Darcy’s confidentiality?  Should my uncle not summon a magistrate?  I would assume that Mr. Wickham is still here in one of the single gentleman’s rooms.”

Mr. Darcy shook his head.  “Mr. Wickham and his accomplice, Mrs. Younge, have fled.  They noticed me upon my arrival, and I only managed to detain Wickham long enough to attain my sister’s whereabouts.”

“And, the charges, Mr. Darcy,” her uncle chimed in, “are you hoping to bring him up on an unrelated charge with an appropriate punishment?”

“Perhaps. I first need to locate the man.  I have no doubt he has left a trail of debts in his wake, so I am assuming that he will try to earn some income on the black markets of London.  I may perhaps attempt to purchase his debts, but I find myself unable to think of the particulars at the moment.  I will have to confer with—”

“Mr. Darcy?” Mrs. Gardiner appeared in the doorway.

Lizzy thought Mr. Darcy looked as if he was being sent to the gallows.

“Dear Lizzy,” her aunt said, taking her hand, “would you mind keeping Miss Darcy company?  I need to speak to Mr. Darcy about a matter privately.  I will come and retrieve you when we have finished speaking.”

Though reluctant to leave the conversation, Lizzy did as she was told.  She lingered on the other side of the door just long enough to hear her aunt begin to speak.  “It is not the worst we feared, Sir.  There is no threat of a child, but—”

Deciding it was perhaps best to leave her knowledge of the situation there, she hurried back to her room where she found Georgiana sitting in front of the fire with her arms around her knees.  Georgiana looked up only briefly before returning her gaze to the fire.

Coming tentatively around to sit next to her, Lizzy spoke softly, “How are you feeling, Georgiana?”

The girl turned to her and cocked her head, “’Tis strange that you call me Georgiana already.”

Slightly alarmed at the girl’s comment, she spoke hastily.  “I apologize, Miss Darcy, if I appear officious.  I—”

A corner of Georgiana’s mouth lifted slightly, but instead of the smile Lizzy assumed she intended, it appeared as more of a grimace.  “No, I did not mean to chide you for it.  I was just thinking how strange it is that it is only one o’ clock in the morning and we met—I cannot be certain—not yet six hours ago, I suppose.  And, in the intervening time, you have saved my life.  I have met your aunt and told her unspeakable things, and you have had to introduce yourself to my brother in a most improper fashion.

“As it so happens, I believe I have come to feel closer to you in a few hours than nearly any other lady of my acquaintance.  So, by all means, call me Georgiana or Georgie or whatever name you prefer, Miss Bennet.  I…” her voice, which until that point had been flat, cracked, and she leaned against Lizzy’s shoulder.

Placing an arm around her shoulders, Lizzy simply said, “I quite agree, dearest Georgiana, and you may call me Elizabeth or Lizzy or even Eliza if you please.”

Georgiana gave her a small smile through her tears, and they were silent for several minutes before Georgiana sniffled and spoke.  “Your aunt is an exceedingly kind woman.”

“Yes, she is.  She and my uncle are the dearest relations I have besides my sister Jane.”

“She reminds me of what I imagine my mother was like.”

“You never met her?” Lizzy asked and then winced, realizing what an inopportune time it was to ask such a question.

Georgiana must have sensed this.  “I truly do not mind talking of her, and quite frankly, I would rather speak about anything than—than what is going on,” she paused for a moment, biting her lip.  “Fitzwilliam and I are orphans now, I suppose, but it has never felt that way because in many ways he has been a parent and brother to me in the last five years since our father died.  He and my cousin Richard are my legal guardians.”

Lizzy’s eyes widened.  Mr. Darcy could be no more than thirty!  “He must have been very young when he became your guardian!”

Georgiana laughed a little, and it felt like the first genuine moment of happiness she had seen in the girl since they had met.  “Oh yes, he was just out of Cambridge, and as much as he tried, he was not very good at being a guardian to a ten-year-old girl.”

She giggled again while Lizzy did the math in her head and realized Georgiana was not yet sixteen. The poor girl!  She was likely not out yet and so unprepared for courtship.  Heavens, Lizzy had been officially out for nearly four years, yet she still felt unprepared for dealing with men, courtship, and marriage!

Georgiana continued, distracting Lizzy from her musings.  “He is truly the best brother I could ask for, but he could never quite manage the sternness of Papa.  It is quite diverting to think that my dear brother, for all his appearances of severity and gravity, can never truly be so with me.  He will, I think, forever be my brother and friend, hiding sweets for me behind my sheet music or racing me through the park at Pemberley—our home…”

She trailed off, and Lizzy jumped in sensing the girl’s distraction.  “How lovely to have such a brother as he!  I do not have any brothers—much to my mother’s chagrin!  I have always longed for a good big brother, though, to spoil and protect me!”

“Yes, but you have a sister!” Georgiana contradicted, “I would love to have a sister!  I have always dreamed it.”

“Then, dear Georgie, you can have one of mine because I have three to spare!”

Georgiana’s eyes glazed over in wonder.  “Might you tell me about them?”

“Well…” she paused and laughingly tapped her chin in mock contemplation, “what to tell of the infamous Bennet sisters…”

“Infamous!” Georgiana exclaimed in amusement.

“Oh, yes, infamous we are indeed.  My youngest sister Lydia is but fifteen yet perhaps the boldest of all of us.  She has a laugh so loud you could hear it in Scotland—I am sure.  Then, the next youngest is Kitty who just turned seventeen.  She is rather diffident and always seems to be sick somehow.  For a country girl, she has a rather delicate countenance and frame, yet she can be just as boisterous as Lydia when she has a mind to!

“Mary is the middle child—but a mere two years younger than me—and she is of a rather pious disposition.  She loves reading moral works and chiding her older sister on her hoydenish behavior!” Lizzy said archly.

This prompted another genuine laugh from Georgiana, and Lizzy felt a strange burst of satisfaction and relief, having provoked it.

“Then, there is Jane—my dearest friend and confidant.  She is the first among us in age, beauty, grace, and sweetness.  You actually remind me of her quite a bit.”  Georgiana beamed in disbelief, and Lizzy continued, “Jane and I have a fine, unspoken agreement between us.  You see, Jane teaches me to be good when I am wicked, demure when I am impulsive, and serene when I am furious.  And, I boast to everyone about Jane because she is quite possibly the best person in the world yet the last person to draw any attention to that fact.”

Georgiana’s countenance became serious. “I doubt I am like your sister,” she said gravely, “I believe this evening shows just how wicked and impulsive I am.”

“Georgiana, no!” Lizzy cried.

“Fitzwilliam will be ashamed of me.  He is ashamed of me.  I cannot face him now.  We have not yet spoken of what happened.  I knew he would be disappointed, but I still went along with it!”  Her voice had picked up speed as she continued, “Perhaps, I unknowingly told George to compromise me.  I doubt he would have—”

“Stop!” Lizzy said brusquely, stilling Georgiana’s hands with her own.  “Please, stop!”

Upon seeing Georgiana’s fearful expression, she modulated her tone.  “I am sorry for being so brusque, but I cannot let you continue thinking these horrid thoughts—these horrid, untrue thoughts.

“First of all, your brother knows what happened.  He knows of your supposed engagement.  I told him, and I apologize for breaking your confidence—I would not have done so had the circumstances not been so dire.”

Georgiana said nothing and just looked at her intently.  “He also knows, however, that you wanted to be honest with him and had scruples, and he knows that Mrs. Younge made you feel guilty for that.  Even now, dear Georgiana, I can see just how much he loves you.  His only concern is your welfare!  He does not blame you!”

“Well, he is too good then!  It is because he cannot see me clearly!  He still sees me as an innocent child.  But perhaps I brought this upon myself, and he cannot see it!”

She was frantic as she spoke, and Lizzy was surprised by how capricious her mood was.  “Georgiana!” she cried forcefully to get her attention.  “How old are you?”

The girl seemed to shrink before her eyes.  “Fifteen,” she murmured.

“And how old is Mr. Wickham?”

“Thirty.”

Lizzy took her hands gently.  “You are not a little girl anymore, but you still do not have very much experience with men or society.  That is not your fault.  The rules of propriety and courtship are intricate and confusing—even for a woman five years your senior such as myself!  Most of the time, no one properly explains such things to a woman—my mother certainly did not—and with two male guardians, how could you know all the unspoken rules by which we ladies must abide?

“Your brother did right by employing a companion, but any companion acting in your interest would not have convinced you of engaging in a courtship without your guardian’s consent!  That is her fault, not yours!

“And, Wickham is double your age!  If he had interacted in society at all, he would have known better than to court you in such a way.  He would not have taken such liberties as he had, and he would not have ever made you feel ashamed or guilty or like you had to do anything in secret.” 

Seeing Georgiana’s wet eyes, Lizzy squeezed her hands.  “I am sorry.  I do not mean to offend you or to worry you.  I just cannot bear the idea of you blaming yourself for being so mistreated.  You do not deserve that, my dear friend, because I like you very much and want the best for you.  And believing these lies are not what is best for you.”

At that, Georgiana burst into another fit of tears.


“I am so sorry, Elizabeth.  I know not what has come over me.  I feel fine one moment and then angry the next and then so very grieved!”

“All is well,” Miss Bennet soothed.  “Sometimes ‘tis best to let all of the emotions out as you feel them and sort them out later.”

“Mr. Darcy,” Mrs. Gardiner whispered as she joined him in front of the door.  “I know it is much to deal with so unexpectedly, but I believe it is better not to tarry and to give her your assurances as soon as possible.”

Darcy agreed, but Mrs. Gardiner was mistaken as to the source of his hesitation.  He had just come from his painful interview with the Gardiners and was about to knock on the door when the sound of his name beyond the door gave him pause.  He stood and listened for a minute—or maybe five—while Miss Bennet somehow managed to take all his jumbled thoughts and articulate them so clearly to his distraught sister. 

He had never been so grateful for and jealous of someone in his life as he had been at that moment.  While his worst fears had been averted on this night—for Georgiana could not be with child—the idea that she was no longer a maiden and that Wickham had attacked her in her sleep was the stuff of his wildest nightmares.  The fear that gripped him rendered him nearly unconscious with grief.  As such, Miss Bennet and the Gardiners were truly God-sent, but they also showed him his defects as a guardian in painful detail.  Why could he never speak to Georgiana in such a way?  He was certain that if he had to give Georgiana the same assurances, he would only manage to make her feel guiltier.  At the very least, Miss Bennet and Miss Gardiner had made the task before him now much easier.

Standing up taller, he knocked firmly on the door and entered at Miss Bennet’s call of “Come in.”

Mrs. Gardiner stepped in before him and spoke.  “Lizzy, ‘tis late.  Why do you not come and sleep in my room tonight?”

Miss Bennet seemed to defer to Georgiana for she only moved once his sister had given her a small nod.  The two women curtsied briefly before taking their leave, and he felt the absurd impulse to laugh—or cry.  On this night of a thousand improprieties, when these two women had witnessed and learned more about his sister than most people ever learn about even their closest acquaintances, they still curtsied to him.  He strangely wondered why. Was it out of force of habit?  Or, was it consciously done to offset the impropriety of them being in their night clothes in front of him?  Why did he suddenly feel like everything he had ever been taught about right and proper behavior was utter rubbish?

It was only when Georgiana called his name in a frightened voice that he realized he had been glaring at the clock on the mantle of the fireplace.

“I apologize.  I was woolgathering.”  He shook his head and took a seat in the armchair adjacent to her.

Not knowing where to begin, he reached out to take her hand.

“Fitzwil—”

“No—” he cut himself off at the look on her face and cursed himself.  “Please, dearest, let me begin.  I would very much appreciate it.”

She nodded, and he went on.  “I want you to know I spoke with Mrs. Gardiner and Miss Bennet about what you told then and what they observed, and I want you to know that…”

That what? he asked himself.  That she was not entirely ruined?  That he would never let that lech or that vile woman near her again?  That he was sorry he failed her?  That he loved her no matter what?  Nothing seemed like the right thing to say at that moment.

“First, I want to know.  How are you feeling...generally?” He doubted he could have spoken in a more awkward manner if he had tried to do so purposefully.

“Uh…I feel pain in certain places where he grabbed me,” she swallowed noticeably, “hard, and I…I am uncertain how I feel.  One moment I feel fine like nothing extraordinary has happened, and a moment later I feel like everything is so strange like I am trapped in a glass box and I do not know what is going on.”

He did not know what to say to this, so he simply said, “I am so sorry, Georgie.”

His voice cracked when he spoke, and this seemed to alarm her more than anything had.  Tears began to flow down her face, and her whole body began to tremble.  “Fitzwilliam, please.  Just tell me what you are thinking.  I could not bear to be the object of your disdain,” she begged softly.

Her quiet plea twisted at his heart, and unthinkingly, he moved to sit next to her on the settee and embraced her.  She shuddered before sinking into his embrace.  “I could never disdain you, Dearest.  This is my fault, and I promise to do whatever I can to repair the situation for you.  Please, do not blame yourself.  Do not worry yourself.  I will take care of you.”

Georgiana did not say anything in response to this which he took to be an indication that he managed the situation adequately, if not well.

Not long after this he carried Georgiana to bed and tucked her in.  He could not help but dissatisfied with their conversation.  He expected it to be longer and more difficult.  He expected her to speak more and to seem visibly reassured by his word.  Regardless, it was a beginning, and perhaps with a little more discussion, they could put it behind them.


The next morning Lizzy sat in the common room of the inn, staring out the window where her aunt and uncle were conferring with their coachmen about preparations for their journey.  Their movements were slow as if moving through treacle, which was eminently strange for two people who usually did everything with alacrity.  She supposed they were all rather subdued today.

She turned in her armchair and noticed Mr. Darcy conferring quietly with the innkeeper and handing him what appeared to be a banknote.  The innkeeper nodded vigorously at whatever Mr. Darcy must have instructed.  She noticed for the first time since meeting him how tall and commanding he was.  He stood several inches taller than the innkeeper and had broad shoulders, making the paunchy, round man next to him seem small.  His posture was straight, almost to the point of rigidity, and he was dressed simply and elegantly in a well-cut coat and a silk cravat.

The innkeeper bowed deeply and took his leave of the man, shuffling through a doorway behind him.  Mr. Darcy turned and made eye contact with her, and she felt slightly discomfited.  She doubted he had slept much from the darkness around his eyes, but it was not his apparent exhaustion which gave her pause.  For all intents and purposes, Mr. Darcy was a very handsome man—a very handsome man who had seen her in her disheveled nightclothes.  She felt herself flush much to her chagrin.  “He likely did not notice your dishevelment, you vain creature!” she thought defensively.

She looked away and opened her book.  He made his way toward her and bowed.  “Miss Bennet,” he said primly.  “May I?” he gestured to the armchair next to hers.

“By all means,” she said, managing some semblance of equanimity.  “How is your sister this morning, Mr. Darcy?”

“Better I believe, thanks to you, Miss Bennet.  We spoke last night, and I do hope she was reassured.”

She nodded, not knowing what to say to him.  His expression was strangely placid and impassive, and she could hardly believe that this was the same emotive man she met last night.  Feeling the need to lighten the somber mood which hung over them, she irrationally felt compelled toward pertness.  “I must tell you, Mr. Darcy, my uncle was none too pleased last night when you offered to compensate him for his silence.”

He looked at her in complete shock, and she wondered whether she had made a terrible mistake.  She was about to dissemble when he spoke clearly.  “Yes, he was rather vehement in his refusals.”

There was nearly the hint of a smile on his face, and the expression disarmed her more than if he had grinned.

“So, Mr. Darcy, tell me, are you the type of gentleman who assumes that money can buy all things?  The silence of an innkeeper?  Or my uncle?”

“It seems to me that poverty is an eyeglass through which one may see his true friends,” he responded cryptically.

She tilted her head and regarded him curiously.  Upon seeing her confusion, he gestured to her copy of The Canterbury Tales, and she smiled, realizing that he was quoting the book.

“Bravo, Mr. Darcy.  Point taken,” she said, nodding as if to concede.  “And, I am inclined to agree.  I have seen wealth—or appearance of it—too often become bait for unscrupulous people.”

He frowned, and she wondered from what, in her previous statement, he took offense if he had taken none at her previous sportive comments.

“I apologize, Mr. Darcy, for my impertinence.  I truly mean no offense,” she hoped she managed to convey sincerity.

“And, I took none, Miss Bennet.  I assure you.”  He sighed.  “It is merely that your words once again reminded me of the predicament I find myself in at the moment.”

“You think what happened was the result of Miss Darcy’s fortune?”

“I can think of no other cause,” he paused for a moment, seeming to think it over, “except perhaps revenge.”

She looked at him with his immaculate clothing and his noble carriage.  He was clearly a very wealthy man—perhaps the wealthiest she had ever met—yet he seemed to be weighed down by the world’s troubles more than most.  He had a commanding presence, yet he was not appalled by the nearly irreverent remarks that she could not help but blurt in her discomfited state.

In short, she found him fascinating.  She could not, however, justify the additional impudence required to ask what he meant by revenge.

He may have sensed this because after a long pause, he spoke, “I beg your pardon, Miss Bennet.  I have been too free with sharing my speculations.”

 She nearly laughed at the excess of contrition in his tone for she would have preferred him tell her too much than too little.  He was so sincere, though, so she felt the need to reassure him.  “’Tis no matter, Sir.  If we must blame one of us for speaking improperly, then the blame should be mine, not yours.  I was not you who accused some poor, unsuspecting gentleman of being avaricious.”

He laughed—a warm, rich tone—and his face transformed for a moment.  “No, indeed I did not, but nor did you.  If I recall, you merely asked a question, and instead of taking it in the good humor in which I believe it was intended, I spoke arcanely.”

This managed to provoke a laugh out of Lizzy which was too close to a giggle for her to be pleased with it.  “Come now, Mr. Darcy.  Do not dissemble.  Your disguise does not fool me!  I am certain that you knew I would be pleased by your witty ability to answer my jest with a Chaucer quote, but I shall have you know I was not at all pleased with you.  I do not like to be outwitted,” she said an arch smile.

His eyes widened for a moment before he squinted and crossed his legs toward her.  She felt a bit of a thrill at his evident surprise—at her ability to flap a seemingly unflappable man.  “So, first I use money to solve all my problems.  Now, I am disingenuous.  I feel that naught I can do will please you.  Is that correct, Miss Bennet?”

She laughed, and he joined her.  She was about to reply when her aunt arrived looking grave.  “Good morning, niece, Mr. Darcy.”  Lizzy glanced back at Mr. Darcy who had suddenly reverted to an impenetrable wall of reserve.

He stood and bowed formally to her aunt, and when he spoke, his words were sincere yet restrained.  “Good morning, Mrs. Gardiner.”  Then, his hand clenched—the only indication of his discomfort.  “I hope I might offer my thanks once again for you and your husband’s invaluable service last night.  I must thank God for the good fortune that brought you here.”

“You are sincerely welcome, Mr. Darcy,” her aunt said with a smile.  “We wish the best for Miss Darcy and yourself.  Take care.”

He bowed to her aunt, and she waited for him to acknowledge her.  He kept his eyes on her aunt, however, until they were beginning to walk away at which point, he glanced in her direction but a moment before bowing to her.  “Miss Bennet,” he said and bowed again.  “Mrs. Gardiner.”

She and her aunt had made their way out of the inn when her aunt looked at her gently.  “How do you fare, dearest Lizzy?  The last day of our trip was quite strenuous for you in particular, I believe.”

“I am well, Aunt, but do tell me truthfully.  Will Miss Darcy be well?”

Mrs. Gardiner hesitated for a moment.  “She will although there is much with which I believe I must acquaint you, my dear.  When we arrive in London tonight, you and I shall have a nice long chat to discuss it all.”

Lizzy nodded gratefully, understanding that her aunt would let her know the details that she had not been privy to the night before.

“Elizabeth!”

Lizzy turned around to see Georgiana rushing out of the inn with her bonnet strings untied and her spencer hastily slipped on.

Georgiana reached out her hands, and Lizzy took them.  “Dear Georgiana, your brother told me you were still abed!”

“I could not allow you to leave without saying goodbye,” she whispered.  “I wish you did not have to leave.”

Lizzy grasped the girl’s hands tighter.  “Please do not worry, Georgiana.  This will not be the last time we meet.  I am certain.  I feel it in my bones.”

Georgiana stepped back and cast her eyes down.  “I wish you a safe journey.”

With that, Lizzy hopped into the carriage, and they were on their way—beginning an uncomfortably somber ride back to London.  She watched as Georgiana’s figure appeared further and further away, frowning upon seeing Georgiana swipe at her tears.

Her last image of the girl, though, was that of her brother taking her gently by the arm and walking her back to the inn.

 

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Wednesday, 25 September 1811

Darcy took a sip of his brandy. "Good God, Gardiner. Where did you get this?"

"An old friend of mine imports brandy. He gives me the first pick of his stock, and I ask no questions about its origins."

Darcy laughed. "Then, I shall ask no more. This brandy is too good to be confiscated." He looked over at Gardiner and felt a certain wistfulness about his upcoming trip to Hertfordshire.

In the weeks since discovering Wickham in Canterbury, Darcy had developed an unlikely friendship with Mr. and Mrs. Gardiner of Gracechurch Street. Mr. Gardiner had given him his direction before he had left the inn, and Darcy had called on them three days after he and Georgiana had returned to London to thank them as much as to beg for advice.

He had arrived, hat in hand, and filled with trepidation only to be warmly welcomed, and his quick courtesy call surpassed the appropriate quarter of an hour and lasted several hours with an invitation to return with Georgiana the following week. Thus, his strangely fulfilling friendship with the tradesman and his wife was cemented.

In Mr. Gardiner, he found a confidante with whom he could discuss what happened to Georgiana freely and sensibly. Even his cousin and dearest friend Colonel Fitzwilliam could not be trusted in the same way. As Georgiana's co-guardian, Fitzwilliam had to be informed of the incident with Wickham. He, however, felt just as guilty as Darcy without having to manage the day to day ramifications of Georgiana's attack.

Mrs. Gardiner had proved herself to be invaluable on that front. On his first call to the Gardiner's residence, he had admitted that he was entirely uncertain about choosing a new companion for Georgiana. Mrs. Gardiner had ably stepped in, sharing her opinion on various candidates and offering to call upon Georgiana and her companion to observe them. Georgiana appreciated Mrs. Gardiner's warm and sensible company, and, much to Darcy's relief, she answered many of the delicate questions that Georgiana had after her experience without batting an eye at his sister's many tears.

"Are you alright there, Darcy? You have been glaring at my candlestick for a while."

Darcy blinked rapidly, returning his focus to the present moment. "I do apologize. I was woolgathering."

"'Tis nothing new, my friend. You have had much on your mind of late," he said, beginning to pour another glass of brandy for him.

"No," he said brusquely, before modulating his tone. "Thank you, Gardiner. I must have my wits about me tonight. I am preparing for my trip to Hertfordshire."

"Ah, yes. Hence, the woolgathering," Gardiner sat back in his chair with a sense of relaxation Darcy envied. "Do not worry. It is only four weeks until Miss Darcy joins you, and I am certain my wife will call on her every other day—as will your cousin! You must take this as an opportunity for a moment of tranquility away from the pressures of the past several weeks. You look positively ill, man, and I have it on good authority that Hertfordshire is abundant with the beauties of the natural world."

"You've been?" Darcy inquired.

"Most certainly! I must have told you. That is where my sister and her husband live. You've met their second eldest—my niece, Miss Elizabeth Bennet."

Darcy nearly smiled at the mention of Miss Bennet. Georgiana did not often speak of her—she hardly spoke of anything to do with that night. Yet, he knew from Mrs. Gardiner that Georgiana asked after her often and that Mrs. Gardiner would often read Georgiana her letters from her niece to his sister's great joy.

Darcy himself was curious about Miss Bennet. He found himself thinking of her occasionally with differing feeling. Generally, he regarded her with gratitude for her care and kindness toward his sister, and he attempted to employ her techniques for comforting Georgiana with little success. Then, he might think about her with envy for being able to provide comfort for Georgiana where he could not. This, however, would inevitably lead him to thinking about how she had comforted him in her own strange, irreverent way and how bright her complexion and fine her eyes were when she laughed—or that he had seen her in her night clothes. That was not something he would allow himself to think about, though.

Gardiner interrupted his shameful musings. "That reminds me. I shall write down the direction of my brother Bennet's estate and send him a letter informing him of your presence in Hertfordshire. Then, if you need a change of scenery or some sensible conversation, you might pay him a call."

Darcy took the paper when Gardiner had finished writing it and glanced at it. "His estate? He is a gentleman?"

"Yes, he is my brother-in-law, and Longbourn has been in his family at least seven generations." Darcy's brow wrinkled in noncommittal approval.

"I must warn you, though," he laughed jovially before continuing, "though my brother is a very erudite, generally sensible sort of fellow, his wife—my sister—is quite…shakable, so to speak."

"Ah," Darcy said with the hint of a smile. "Well, I doubt it is in the neighborhood where I am staying, but I appreciate your family's hospitality nonetheless." He stuffed the paper in his pocket and stood to shake Gardiner's hand. "Shall we rejoin the ladies?"


"Kitty! Come here! We are going home!" Lizzy cried.

Kitty scurried over to Lizzy and Jane,

Jane placed a calming hand on her arm. "'Tis alright, Lizzy. She is only speaking with young Mr. Wilkins. Surely, that is proper. He is the son of Uncle Phillip's partner. They have been introduced."

Lizzy sighed, "Mayhap, but I do not like the idea of her leaving Aunt Phillip's house early to go outside and flirt with a man alone. What do we truly know about this man?"

"I believe you are being perhaps more cautious than you need be. We have been in company with Mr. Wilkins before, and he was a perfectly amiable man. I do not think there is any harm in it, and he and Kitty were not truly alone. Anyone could have walked past them."

"Amiability can say surprisingly little about a man's character, Jane, and I am not inclined to like a man who is so careless with propriety as to stand outside Aunt Phillip's house and speak with our sister without a chaperone!" Her voice sounded more vehement to her ears than she had intended, and she winced to see Jane's questioning look.

"I have never known you to be a stickler for propriety. Is all well, Lizzy? You have been rather stern since you returned from your trip to the seaside, and I daresay that Kitty and Lydia have noticed."

She knew Jane to be correct. Her trip with the Gardiners had left her without physical wounds. Witnessing the extremes of Mr. Wickham's gentility and viciousness, however, had left her uncertain in her ability to judge character. Coupled with the Mrs. Gardiner's explanation of what precisely happened to Georgiana and the threat that men can pose to young ladies, Lizzy felt a deep sense of mistrust that had pervaded her bones whenever she was in mixed company.

"I am well, Jane," she said, pulling Jane's arm through her own. "I simply heard several affecting stories during my travels about dangerous men with happy manners, and I suppose I find myself a bit wary. I am not truly angry at Kitty—or Lydia for that matter—I assure you."

"Oh, my brave Lizzy, I would never guess that you would be so affected by such tales, but I am nevertheless sorry for it." She squeezed her arm in reassurance, "I hope it relieves you to know that I think Mr. Wilkins to be very sincere. I cannot imagine what ulterior motive he could possess."

Lizzy, however, was not reassured. She longed to tell Jane everything, but she could not betray Georgiana or her aunt's confidence. The Gardiners had reluctantly agreed to keep their terrible experience in Canterbury to themselves, and so Lizzy discovered the frustrating sensation of having her perspective of the world shift without the ability to discuss it with anyone. It was frustrating to be a woman in such circumstances, she had decided. Society expected her to be in ignorance of the ways of men and the marriage bed, yet now that she knew the truth of such things, she was forced to pretend that she was still in ignorance lest it reflect poorly on herself. Men, such as Wickham, were allowed to wield this knowledge with impunity and often used it to their advantage. The injustice of it made her burn with anger.

She had, however, become adept at hiding her discontent in recent weeks, so she smiled at Jane and nodded. "I suppose you are right, dear Jane. As always, you are twice as good as I."

Jane merely patted her arm, but Lizzy looked back at where Kitty was trailing behind was left with a sinking feeling that Jane's unassuming goodness and Kitty's flirtatious naïveté could do them harm.

Lizzy was not formed for ill-humor, however, and she and Jane quickly fell into an excited chat about the Michaelmas assembly in two days' time. Upon hearing the topic of conversation, Kitty joined in the conversation, and the sisters arrived at Longbourn in high spirits, laughing about neighborhood gossip and the ridiculous songs Sir William would undoubtedly request at the assembly.

Darcy stood at the door to the music room, watching as Georgiana played Beethoven's Thirteenth Sonata. He watched in complete silence as her fingers moved in waves across the keys. The melody was beautiful and haunting, quickly building into an almost angry sound at points. There was no music on the stand, and her head was bowed toward the keys so he could not see her face. Her interpretation was undeniably powerful, and he briefly wondered if he was glimpsing the girl behind the cold, distant façade Georgiana had erected in the past several weeks.

When she finished, she paused for a moment. Her hands stood in suspension above the keys before relaxing her posture and letting her hands drop to her lap with a loud sigh that pained him. He knocked gently on the doorframe to alert her to his presence, and he tried to wince when she startled slightly at seeing him.

"Your interpretation was beautiful," he said gently, moving to sit on the settee adjacent to the piano bench. "I have not heard you play this piece before. I believe I purchased the sheet music for your last birthday."

She shrugged. "It may be that you did. I cannot remember when I received it, but I thank you for it."

"You need not thank me. Hearing you play is its own reward," he said and internally scoffed at his own mawkishness. Perhaps Georgiana was not the only one who had been distant. He felt as though he were treading on unsteady ground in her presence.

Deciding that directness may be the best course of action, he cleared his throat and spoke. "I wanted to speak with you before I leave for Hertfordshire."

"About what?" How she managed to sound simultaneously apprehensive and indifferent, he knew not.

"Nothing in particular. I merely wanted to see you and ensure you had all that you needed before I departed."

"I think I shall be well enough until I join you. Mrs. Gardiner is to call tomorrow, and I am to dine with Richard and Lord and Lady Matlock."

It was not the answer he desired, but one he should have anticipated. "Yes, I am aware," he paused, feeling as if she was trying to halt his inquiries. "I shall miss you…you will write, yes?"

He had never asked her that question before, and she looked offended for a moment before her expression became sad. "Of course, I will. Do you truly think I would not?"

One corner of his mouth tugged upward. "No, not truly. 'Tis only that we have been rather distant of late. I miss our old discussions."

She looked ashamed of herself, which was the opposite of what he had intended. "I am sorry, Brother. I do not mean to be distant. I just need…"

"What do you need?" he asked, tamping down his impatience as much as he could. He had broached the subject gently several times in the past only to receive indifferent answers. Previously, he relied on her new companion, Mrs. Annesley, and Mrs. Gardiner for information about his sister's well-being.

"I do not know," she said quietly.

How much time did she need to determine what she did need? It had been weeks since Wickham's attack, and he had no idea to what extent she had healed from the experience. Would she ever be the same again? Would she ever confide in him again? How could he help her if he knew nothing?

"I do have one request for you, though," she said shyly. "I do not know that you will approve, but Mrs. Gardiner told me that Elizabeth lives in Hertfordshire and that you might call on her father. If you meet her, could you ask her to write to me? I greatly enjoy her letters to Mrs. Gardiner for they are so interesting and witty. I know that I need your approval, but if you see fit, I would dearly appreciate her correspondence."

Darcy had not expected this request, but it pleased him greatly. "Of course, Georgiana. I will ask her if I see her. I very much approve of your friendship with Miss Bennet. She seemed to me to be a good person to have as a friend. Might I suggest that once I make the request to her, you write her first? I believe that it will help set the tone of your correspondence to make Miss Bennet feel more comfortable."

"Oh, of course! Thank you, Brother!" she cried and went to him.

He embraced her for a moment, savoring the feeling that he could do at least one thing right for her. He pulled away and kissed her forehead. "And, who knows? Perhaps we may call on her together when you join me at Netherfield Park."

Georgiana's eyes lit up at his suggestion.

"I will write you as soon as I arrive to tell you of my impressions, and I hope you will look forward to your visit."

"Oh, yes, I will," she nodded once and stepped back.

He felt her reserve slipping back, and he stood for a moment, wondering what to do next. His manner was awkward when he bowed to her and said, "Goodbye, my dear."

To his surprise, however, she smiled gently and said, "Goodbye, Brother. I shall miss you."

He returned her smile and departed the room, feeling lighter than he had in weeks.


Lizzy finished her first dance, feeling giddier than she had in weeks. Her partner was John Lucas, who had been a childhood playmate and was the younger brother of her dear friend Charlotte. They had an easy manner with each other, and she felt as if he was the closest figure she had to a brother in her life.

After she had finished her dance with John, she saw Charlotte excuse herself from her partner, Mr. Goulding. She approached, holding out her hands. "Dear Eliza, how well you look this evening! Green becomes you."

Lizzy squeezed her friend's hands. "You also look very fine. Is that a new dress?"

"It is indeed," Charlotte affirmed. "My mother purchased it, thinking it would help me win Mr. Bingley. What mother did not account for is that I am at least three years older than Mr. Bingley and that I would be standing in the same room as your sister," she said, glancing at Jane. "'Tis no matter, though. I shall not complain at having a new dress!"

Lizzy laughed heartily. "Speaking of the gentleman, where is this illustrious Mr. Bingley? He called on Papa two days ago and told him he was returning to London—not even a week after he arrived in the neighborhood!"

Slipping Lizzy's arm through her own, Charlotte guided the two of them on a turn around the room. "Have you not heard? Mr. Bingley is evidently bringing a party into town. Eight people according to my mother. Ten by your mother's—including six eligible gentlemen—and not an hour ago, I heard Mrs. Long say that he would be accompanied by twelve ladies and seven gentlemen."

Lizzy raised an eyebrow. "Is that so? I dearly hope Mama has not heard for she will be positively apoplectic if a surplus of refined young ladies of the ton do indeed arrive."

Charlotte laughed and glanced over at Mrs. Bennet chatting boisterously with the other matrons of Meryton. "She seems in rare form tonight. She has positively declared that Jane will capture Mr. Bingley, and I daresay she may be right."

"She may be. For if the reports of Mr. Bingley's affability and handsome mien are to be trusted, he could do no better than my sweet and stunning sister! Regardless, we must not encourage my mother. I can easily imagine her calling him her son-in-law before the poor gentleman even has the opportunity to ask Jane to dance!"

They laughed again just as a hush fell over the crowd. Disarmed by the sudden conspicuousness of their laughter, the pair looked up to see a group of three gentlemen and two ladies enter the room. Charlotte turned to Lizzy and whispered, "The young, blonde gentleman is Mr. Bingley, and the two ladies must be his sisters. I cannot account for the other two gentlemen."

Lizzy's eyes widened when she noticed the tall, dark-haired gentleman, standing next to Mr. Bingley. "Mr. Darcy," she whispered under her breath.

"What did you say?"

"The tall, handsome gentleman next to Mr. Bingley. I know him. That is Mr. Darcy," she said, not taking her eyes off the man.

Her heart beat rapidly in her chest as she remembered how they met. Would her presence be a reminder of that terrible night? She had thought of the horrid strangeness of her time in Canterbury every day since, but she thought of Mr. Darcy and Georgiana themselves with naught but fondness. In spite of the circumstances surrounding their meeting, she had pleasant memories of conversation with both of them and greatly admired their affection for one another. She also knew that Mr. Darcy called upon her aunt and uncle after the incident to ensure them of Georgiana's good health. Surely, Mr. Darcy would not be appalled to see her, seeing as he had taken the pains of thanking her family.

"Eliza, did you hear me? Where on earth did you meet him?" Charlotte asked in surprise.

Lizzy scrambled for an answer for but a moment before replying. "I met him and his sister when I was in Kent with my aunt and uncle."

"Will he remember you?"

"I know not, but I suppose I shall see soon enough."

Charlotte left her then for the beckoning wave of her father, Sir Lucas, as Lizzy was beckoned by her mother. She made her way over to her mother, who began introducing the entire Bennet family to Mr. Bingley. She found Mr. Bingley quite charming and quite charmingly taken with Jane, but the conversation at hand did not hold her attention for long. She frequently glanced at Mr. Darcy who was standing alone in a corner as people gawked at him. She smiled to herself, remembering him decry the sentiment that money could buy anything.

Poor, Mr. Darcy! For all his wealth, the man could not buy privacy from the unscrupulous stares of others. Not that she could blame the good people of Meryton for their curiosity. He was perhaps the finest man—in form and fashion—who had ever graced the neighborhood with his presence.

Though she desperately wanted to walk over to him, renew their acquaintance, and ask for news of Georgiana's well-being, she did not want to appear like the overbearing onlookers who seemed to make Mr. Darcy retreat back toward the wall. Not having a partner for the next dance, she decided to take a seat at the opposite side of the room.


Darcy was in hell. Could it have been only yesterday that he had found such hopeful reassurances in his talk with Georgiana? He frowned thinking of all the nuisances which had plagued him since he left the comfort of his sister's music room. Bingley's sisters' fawning and catty behavior coupled with the boorish stares from the rough, local Hertfordshire gentry had turned his sanguine mood from the previous day into acrimony.

He took a turn about the room, hoping to shake off his observers when he ran into Bingley.

"Come, Darcy, I must have you dance. I hate to see you standing about by yourself in this stupid manner. You had much better dance."

"I certainly shall not. You know how I detest it, unless I am particularly acquainted with my partner. At such an assembly as this it would be insupportable. There is not a woman in the room whom it would not be a punishment to stand up with."

He knew his words would set Bingley off, and as usual, Darcy took solace in Bingley's predictability. "I would not be so fastidious as you are for a kingdom! Upon my honor, I never met with so many pleasant girls in my life; and there are several of them who are uncommonly pretty."

He granted Bingley this concession. "You are dancing with the only handsome girl in the room."

"Oh! She is the most beautiful creature I ever beheld! But there is one of her sisters sitting down just behind you, who is very pretty, and I dare say very agreeable. Do let me ask my partner to introduce you."

"Which do you mean?" He took a quick glance at a woman of average height with dark brown curls sitting in front of him to the left. Though he could not see more than a sliver of her face, he spoke harshly, "She is tolerable, I suppose, but not handsome enough to tempt me. I am in no humor at present to give consequence to young ladies who are slighted by other men. You had better return to your partner and enjoy her smiles, for you are wasting your time with me."

Bingley looked slightly aghast at Darcy's vehemence but followed his direction. Darcy then noticed with horror that the young woman Bingley had indicated had sat up straight and was glaring at him out of the corner of her eye. He cursed himself for his lack of tact, but before he could think of making amends, his regret turned to horror as he realized that the young woman looked surprisingly familiar.

"Miss Bennet!" he exclaimed—his voice slightly louder than he had intended it to be.

With his exclamation, she stood up and faced him. Dropping into an exaggerated curtsey, she bowed her head deferentially. "Mr. Darcy, it is a pleasure to see you again." Her tone was pert, and her words clipped. "I trust you are in good health and spirits?"

God in heaven, can I do anything right? "I am well, Miss Bennet. And you? Are you in good health?" he asked awkwardly, not knowing how to atone for his poor manners.

"My health is tolerable, I suppose," she paused obligatorily before excusing herself. "Well, Mr. Darcy, it was lovely to speak with you again, but I must be returning—"

"I am sorry!" he blurted out, not wanting her to leave.

"Sorry? For what, Mr. Darcy?"

He took heart in the hint of coyness on her face. "Allow us to speak candidly for a moment, Miss Bennet. I know your character to be a frank one, and I would like to take this opportunity to be forthright and apologize."

At the slight incline of her head, he continued, "I am aware you overheard my exchange a moment ago with Mr. Bingley."

"Yes, Sir, I did," she said—her seemingly all-knowing eyes staring intently at him. It was disconcerting.

"I—I must apologize for my vulgarity. I did not recognize you, and…even had you not been sitting there, I should have never made such a comment about any young lady. It was crude and unforgivable, but if I may say so, you look very well this evening."

He was sincere in his complement. She, however, seemed wholly unimpressed with his attempt at flattery, so he explained himself further. "I did not intend for anyone to hear me. I was merely frustrated with the treatment I have received from certain quarters, and I wanted to say something blunt so Bingley would not continue to pester me. It was wrong of me, and I feel my shame at having unintentionally insulted a respectable lady of my acquaintance."

She paused for a moment as if to study him, and the first words out of her mouth surprised him. "Do not let your grief convert to anger, Sir. You must blunt your heart, not enrage it. Such misdirected anger is the root of most society's ills."

He furrowed a brow before realizing that she was referencing Macbeth and smiled, remembering their previous interaction. "Ah, Miss Bennet, for a moment you fooled me, and I believed you were chiding me when, in fact, you were testing my knowledge of Shakespeare. I, however, believe the quote is 'Let grief convert to anger; blunt not the heart, enrage it.'"

"I have fooled no one," she said with mock innocence. "Can one not do both? Perhaps I meant to chide you and see if your knowledge of Shakespeare equaled your knowledge of Chaucer."

He smiled broadly, nearly completely forgetting that he had grievously insulted her not a moment ago. "And," she added, "I am perfectly aware that I misquoted, but look at the context of the line! It leads to a war in Scotland. I rest my case."

He felt a certain giddiness at her playful response. "Was it not Malcolm who speaks the line though? Was he not encouraging Macduff to avenge the death of his wife and children by channeling his grief into the fight against the ruthless tyrant Macbeth? Is that not honorable?"

"Are you attempting to justify your behavior toward me, Mr. Darcy, by arguing against my point? Are you telling me it was honorable to express your frustrations by insulting me in such a manner?"

He was completely bewildered by her response before he noticed the impish grin in her eye. Sly woman! "You play a dirty game, Miss Bennet. I concede your point—and apologize once more."

"Your apology is accepted," she said, nodding with a gracious smile. "I did notice the rather impertinence gazes fixed on you this evening, so I suppose I can appreciate your feelings of discomfort."

There was no conversation for a moment, and he noticed how quickly his heart was beating. Far from being tolerable, he mentally acknowledged that Bingley was correct. Miss Elizabeth Bennet was indeed uncommonly pretty and—perhaps more significant—uncommonly witty as well.


"Now, tell me, how is your sis—"

"Might I have the honor of this—"

The both broke off, bewildered at having spoken at the same time. "After you, Sir," she said with a laugh.

"I thought I might ask you to dance, Miss Bennet—if you are not otherwise engaged, of course."

Her eyes widened for a moment before she composed herself. He stretched his hand out for her to take, and she attempted to place her hand in his own as gracefully as possible. "I would be honored."

The first dance of the new set had only just begun, yet as she and Mr. Darcy attempted to join the end of the line without any interruptions, she noticed that seemingly all the eyes of Meryton were on them.

"It appears that I have unwittingly accompanied you onto the stage in front of my curious onlookers, Miss Bennet."

"'Tis no matter. My courage rises with every attempt to intimidate me," she said coolly.

Her words were truthful. She did muster up more courage in that moment, but it was less because of the stares they were attracting and more because of a renewed sense of insecurity. She had been intimidated by Mr. Darcy's handsomeness and stature before, but in the relative privacy of the common room of that inferior inn in Canterbury, she could imagine herself as his equal, receiving his sincere gratitude.

His insult, however, cut to the core of what made her so uncomfortable about him. They were not equal in wealth, rank, or beauty, and that he saw it and spoke of it was painful for some deep yet indescribable reason. She had accepted his apology—for he had the same forlorn expression of contrition he had as when he found Georgiana—yet she found she liked him less for the sole reason that he appeared to find her less than appealing. Regardless, she could not deny that their ensuing conversation was the most intelligent discourse she had had in weeks.

"Yes, I have never seen a lack of courage in you, Miss Bennet—at least not in our brief acquaintance."

"Then, I shall feel no compunction in telling you that I believe you have garnered quite a bit of surprise with your decision to dance with one of the local ladies."

His brow wrinkled in confusion, and she nearly laughed. His ignorance was really rather endearing and served to buoy her confidence.

"Yes, Sir. You see, after spending the last hour being introduced to nobody, sitting out every dance, and standing in a corner glowering, I believe I heard the matrons of Meryton—who are the ultimate authority on human character—brand you 'intolerably haughty.'"

He looked a little aghast as she spoke, but as she had hoped, her sardonic tone brought out his teasing side.

"I certainly have not the talent which some people possess," he said, giving her a sidelong glance, "of conversing easily with those I have never seen before."

He was nearly smiling as he spoke—something she was beginning to realize was his way of expressing great mirth—yet she suspected there was some truth in his statement.

"Then, I might suggest you practice," she said with a jovial expression. "But, enough of this! We must talk about something else!"

Mr. Darcy peered at her amusedly from his position at her side. "Do you talk as a rule while you are dancing?"

"Sometimes. One must speak a little, you know. It would look odd to be entirely silent for half an hour together."

The dance separated them for a moment. When they came together again, he opened his mouth to speak, but Lizzy anticipated him. "Mr. Darcy, we are continually blown off course. I must ask you the question I have been desiring to ask since I first recognized you this evening."

He raised an eyebrow at her. "And, what, pray tell, would that be?"

Her voice was sincere when she asked her question. "How is Georgiana—I mean, Miss Darcy? My aunt wrote to me to tell me she is well, but I should dearly like to hear your reassurance, Sir."

His face fell, and she fully felt the depth of her mistake. "I beg your pardon, Mr. Darcy. I did not intend to remind you of such unhappy circumstances. My curiosity has made me forget myself."

"No, I am glad you mentioned Georgiana. She requested my permission to correspond with you before I left London, and, naturally, I consented. If you are agreeable to it, I shall write her to inform her."

"Oh! Yes, why of course." Lizzy was slightly taken aback. While she dearly wanted to hear from Georgiana, she was confused why he was tasked with communicating this to her.

"Shall I inform you of my direction?" was the only relevant question she could think of.

"That is not necessary. My sister has your direction courtesy of Mrs. Gardiner."

"Oh, why—" she began to ask when the dance ended, and from across the room, she heard Lydia and Kitty shrieking as they chased Mrs. Goulding's young nephew from Leicestershire around the ballroom. Her father was, as usual nowhere to be seen, and her mother looked on her two youngest's antics fondly.

When she turned back to Mr. Darcy, he was also looking over at her younger sisters with barely concealed distaste, and it pained her. "I beg you excuse me, Mr. Darcy. I believe I am needed elsewhere. It has been a pleasure, and I hope to hear from your sister soon."

She hoped her gracious tone masked the humiliation and weariness she felt and curtsied without meeting his eyes.

She hastened over to where Lydia and Kitty were giggling wildly. "Kitty, Lydia, come with me." Her voice barely masked her frustration.

Slipping her arms through those of her sisters, she pulled them toward the balcony of the meeting house.

"Lizzy, your twisting my sleeve! I don't want wrinkles," cried Lydia.

Lizzy ignored her sister, and once out on the balcony, she spoke to them both harshly. "Do you know why I brought you out here?"

"Because you are no fun at all?" Lydia whined.

"Because you two were behaving in a manner completely unbecoming for young ladies," Lizzy admonished.

"Egad, Lizzy, you are so strict these days! We were just having a laugh!" Kitty exclaimed.

"I do not mind you having a laugh, but I do not think you understand the consequences of having a complete and utter disregard for propriety!"

"Now, you sound like Mary!" Kitty said, leaning over the balcony to watch the lane below.

"I am not speaking of moral consequence so much as social ones," she sighed in annoyance, and her voice became angrier. "Do you want to be labeled the most determined flirts that ever made themselves ridiculous? Do you want to be wholly unable to ward off the contempt which your rage for admiration will excite?

"I do not think you both realize how little power you truly have. That boy whom you both were chasing will suffer nothing for such impropriety, but you two shall. Do not for one moment think that you can act as these young men do with the same impunity. They are allowed such amusements for they have money or at least a way to earn it. You—we, I should say—have no dowries, no inheritance, and no way to earn an income. The only thing we have is our self-respect, our dignity, and our reputation, and our reputation is set by the dictates of society. Do not tarnish it—for the consequences of such a blemish are more severe than you understand."

Lizzy rarely lost her temper, but the dam suppressing her fear and anger from the past several weeks collapsed under the pressure of her present humiliation and insecurity. Focusing her eyes on her sisters in the darkness of the balcony, she saw Kitty crying and Lydia starring at her blankly.

Feeling contrition at her harshness, she moved to take Kitty's hand. "Kitty, I am sorry. I truly do not to be so harsh. My fear makes—"

"No!" Lydia interrupted, pulling Kitty's hand away from Lizzy's. "Do not make excuses for your cruelty. You are just being mean, and because everyone thinks you are the smartest, you can just explain everything away! But you just want to make us feel bad because you are jealous," she said savagely.

"I heard Mr. Darcy say that he thought you were ugly, and you just feel bad because men actually wanted to dance with us. You're a bad sister, Lizzy."

Lizzy was in utter and complete shock. How did Lydia not understand? Kitty's reaction was wholly understandable for she could admit that she was too harsh. How great was Lydia's vanity that she thought that all criticism, all admonishment was proof of others' resentment of her own superiority?

"Lydia, I apologize for being too severe, but I truly only seek to—"

"Come, Kitty, let us get some punch," Lydia said, sticking her nose up the air and pulling a sniveling Kitty back toward the ballroom.

Lizzy's eyes smarted as they left, and feeling acutely powerless over her life, slumped against the stone balustrade of the balcony with her head in her hands.


Miss Bennet had left him abruptly, and the change in his disposition jarred him. Was she seeking an excuse to get away from him? Then, he saw her move purposefully toward the two obnoxious girls in the adjacent corner of the hall and walk off with them. He found her behavior most perplexing yet even as he attempted summon even a modicum of annoyance, he felt more dejected than anything else.

Truthfully, he had never enjoyed dancing more than he just had. For in spite of the poor facilities, the intrusive participants, and his own ill-humor, Miss Elizabeth Bennet herself was a wonderful dancer and had a way of putting him at ease. The reprieve of their dance was to be short-lived for the moment Miss Bennet had left his view, he saw Miss Bingley walking directly toward him out of the corner of her eye. He knew he would have to dance with her eventually, especially now that he had invited a lady outside of his own party to dance; however, the prospect of spending half an hour with her felt impossible at that moment. Buying himself some time, he headed for the nearest door which brought him onto a balcony. The fresh air provided a brief respite, and he took a deep breath.

"…admiration will excite? I do not think you both realize how little power you truly have."

His attention was immediately drawn to the muffled voice of Miss Bennet. He looked to his right and saw the faint silhouettes of three figures. He knew he should not listen to what they likely thought was a private conversation, but he burned with curiosity after Miss Bennet's abrupt departure. He listened for a moment in surprise as Miss Bennet told presumably her sisters of the dire reality of their situation, and he wondered briefly how old she was to be chiding sisters who were out in society despite their childishness. She sounded jaded and embittered, and he felt that he could very much understand.

She apologized for being harsh, but he did not personally think she had overstepped. She was absolutely correct, and it was unfortunate that those were the ways of the world and that they had to hear about them from their sister at a ball. It did not, however, make it any less necessary.

"I heard Mr. Darcy say that he thought you were ugly…"

God in heaven, when will I finish paying penance for that boorish remark? He did not have a moment to mediate on it because the girl accused Miss Bennet of being jealous and unkind. The notion was entirely absurd. How on earth could Miss Bennet have such an ungrateful wretch of a sister?

The girls left, and he watched in silence as Miss Bennet sunk into herself with a defeated sigh. He felt the uncharacteristic urge to comfort her, but he could think of no way to do so without embarrassing her or admitting that he was eavesdropping. He reminded himself that she was, for all intents and purposes, a stranger.

She was not, though. She perhaps knew more of his hidden self than anyone for miles, and she treated him with a sweet familiarity that inspired trust. He reasoned that it was ridiculous to trust a woman he had spoken to no more than thrice, but as he saw her figure leaning against the edge of the balcony, he could almost feel her pain.

The sensation was overwhelming and—he could hardly admit to himself—frightening. The cool air outside which had been such a relief felt overwhelming now, and he hastily slipped back into the stifling assembly hall.

He stood to the left of the doors to the balcony. No one appeared to notice him, and he sighed in relief. It was but a moment, however, before Caroline Bingley spotted him and marched straight over with all the intensity of a general in dancing slippers and stationed herself beside him.

"Are you enjoying watching the country manners and dances? I do find it all very savage, but it is amusing in a way," she asked him with a coquettish smile about her lips.

He thought her remark to be crude but acknowledged that he had no right to criticize on that account this evening. "No," he said tersely.

"I did notice that you seemed willing enough to participate during the last set. I pray you tell me who was that quaint little miss you were dancing with before. She was actually somewhat pretty—by country standards, naturally."

Her words made his blood boil. Was this what he sounded like to Miss Bennet? Refusing to inform her of what she clearly wanted to know, he reluctantly held out his hand.

"Miss Bingley, would you be willing to dance the next set with me?"

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Chapter IV

…As to the request you made of me before I left, I have managed to fulfill that duty sooner than expected.  Knowing Bingley, I doubt you shall be surprised that he made us attend a local assembly on our third evening there.  Knowing me, I doubt you shall be surprised when I tell you that I was not entirely eager to attend.  Bingley’s encouragement was, however, quite fortuitous as I happened upon none other than Miss Bennet.

As you will likely want to know, she looked very well, and I, despite being an unenthusiastic dancer, asked her to dance. I daresay she dances well, which I know is high on your list of accomplishments.  I hope you shall find it reassuring that she was very interested in news of you.  I mentioned that you would like to begin a correspondence, and she readily agreed.  Unfortunately, our dance came to an abrupt end, so I did not have another opportunity to speak with her again.  Perhaps, it was for the best, seeing as she repeatedly wielded her rapier wit at my expense.  Thus, abandoned, I was to be left to the machinations of Miss Bingley.

Nevertheless, I do hope the presence of Miss Bingley at Netherfield will not induce any trepidation about your arrival here at the end of October.  I have it on Bingley’s authority that the Bennet estate, Longbourn, is but three miles hence.  I do think the proximity of Longbourn will provide amusement and companionship for you during your stay here.  Miss Bennet and her elder sister, whom I have not yet met but Bingley says is very kind, will be a comfort, I hope .  The two youngest sisters, however, are as unlike Miss Bennet in every way possible.  I have heard nothing yet of the middle sister, who Bingley assures me exists.  I can only hope she takes after her elder sisters rather than the younger ones for I believe she would be closer to you in age.

Overall, I anticipate that you shall enjoy your trip to Hertfordshire in spite of the presence of your rather taciturn brother for there is some very pretty scenery, and Bingley, for all his frivolity, is an excellent host.

            Your loving brother,

            Fitzwilliam

Georgiana refolded the letter and hastily finished the last of her breakfast with the hope of sending a letter off to Lizzy in the afternoon post.  As she was about to take her leave of Mrs. Annesley, Richard was announced.

“Shall you receive in the drawing room?” asked the housekeeper.

“Yes, I shall be there directly.”

She nearly rolled her eyes.  Richard had come to call every day since Fitzwilliam left, and in some ways, Richard’s presence was more suffocating than Fitzwilliam’s.  They both felt so obviously guilty for what happened and would never let her take any responsibility, but neither would they talk about it in any way but a circumlocutory and stilted manner which made her uncomfortable and ashamed.  Richard, however, clearly felt the greater ignominy of the two.  He had not been there, and he had been the one to suggest the trip to Ramsgate.

Now, every interaction was defined by that incident, and all they would ever ask is “are you well?” with their voices full of pity.  It was insufferable!  She wanted to scream and laugh and cry, but the only place to do so was into her pillow at night.  If her maid noticed anything, she said nothing, yet Georgiana strangely wanted her—or at least someone—to know.  She wanted someone to know how she was feeling without her having to explain.  She wanted someone to know what she needed even when she did not, and Richard and Fitzwilliam could not even understand.

The door of the drawing room opened, and Richard walked in somberly.  “Good morning, Georgie.  Are you well?”

She nearly laughed at how predictable he had become.  “I am well, Richard.  How are you?”

“I’m well…well…” he said pensively before taking a seat in the armchair next to hers.  He did not say anything for several minutes, merely fidgeting with the tassels on the edge of the armchair.

“Ah, did you receive a letter?  From whom?” he finally said.

She realized she had been turning the letter over in her hands.  “Fitzwilliam.  He wrote of his initial impressions of Hertfordshire.  Would you like to read it?”

She passed it over to him, thinking that the letter would give them better food for conversation than Richard’s tepid questions.

“Is this the Miss Bennet you met…in Canterbury?”

“Yes.”

“I see,” he said before continuing with the letter.

After a moment, he sat up and laughed loudly.  The sound had become so unfamiliar to her in the last few weeks, it made her jump.

He modulated his voice upon noticing her jump.  “I apologize, Georgie,” he said contritely.

“No, do not apologize,” she shook her head vehemently.  “What made you laugh so?”

Richard smirked.  “’Tis only…I have never before heard your brother wax poetic about aught but Pemberley and crop yields!”

“To what are you referring, Richard?  I saw nothing of the sort in that letter.”

He looked reluctant to speak more, but she would not have it.  “Come, Richard.  I am not so dull-witted that I cannot understand what you mean.  Please tell me.”

She realized it was likely the most emphatic speech he had heard from her in recent memory, but it worked.

“I do not doubt your intelligence.  It is just I do not think your brother would like me to speak of him in such a way to you, but if you shan’t tell him—”

“I shall not,” she said, feeling satisfied.

“Very well, then.”  He sat back in his chair, and a smile played about his lips.  “I have never heard him speak so…admiringly of a lady before.  Aside from you, of course.”

“He was hardly effusive.”  She furrowed her brow.  She had never seen her brother and Lizzy interact more than just a few exchanged words, and his letter led her to believe they may have had a negative exchange.

“No, but your brother never is.  I have never heard him speak about a woman except to say she is accomplished.  He may comment on a lady’s appearance if she or some relative makes it clear they expect him to do so, but I cannot recall a time where he has ever volunteered such information on his own. 

“However, it is this line which makes me think our poor relation has a particular interest in this lady.”  He read aloud in a mocking imitation of Fitzwilliam’s voice, “‘Unfortunately, our dance came to an end, so I did not have another opportunity to speak with her again.  Perhaps, it was for the best, seeing as she repeatedly wielded her rapier wit at my expense.’”

Georgiana inclined her head.  “You think so?  That line worried me.  Lizzy—Miss Bennet—has a rather direct manner, and I was afraid he took umbrage at something she might have said.”

“No, no, no, dear Georgie,” Richard said jovially, “You have never seen Darcy at a ball or out in society.  He is wholly ill-suited to small talk and detests the games and machinations of society.  Too often, people fawn over him as a wealthy, eligible bachelor, as I am sure you know.  If your dear Miss Bennet is direct and witty and not intimidated by his rank, I daresay your brother would be veritably pleased by her company.”

“Oh.” Georgiana was slightly confused as she rarely thought of what occupied her brother other than his business with the estate and with the family.

“What does she look like, your Miss Bennet?”

Georgiana tried to think of what to say for she had hardly seen Lizzy when she was not in her nightclothes.  “She is about my height though she is five years my senior, and she has dark curls and large dark eyes.  I could not tell you more, but I hope you shall meet her when you escort me to Hertfordshire.”

Richard smiled.  “I would like to.  She sounds as if she has been a good friend to you.”

“Yes, she has.  I wish time would move quicker, so I could be in Hertfordshire with her.  If Fitzwilliam is enjoying her company, I feel perhaps…” How could she tell Richard about her frustrations with them both?  She feared for her future daily and keenly felt Richard and Fitzwilliam’s opaqueness.  She was sure they were making plans for her future, but she had no inclination of what they were.

Her memory of waking up in the middle of the night with Wickham’s hands under her shift was little more than the memory of fear.  She could not picture anything, yet she could remember the pain and the sounds of his threats in her ears.  Her only lucid memories from the night were the relief she felt when Fitzwilliam had found her in Lizzy’s room and embraced her and the renewed fear she felt after answering all of Mrs. Gardiners questions and realizing the implications of the attack.  Every passing day had brought more realizations about the ramifications of her actions, and she was certain she felt melancholier a fortnight after their return from Canterbury than she had the day after the attack.  Regardless of her mounting dread, she felt as if she had no right to ask about her guardians’ plans for her.  It had been her poor decisions that had initiated all of this pain.  How could she defend her right to decide for herself?

“Georgie?” Richard said, looking at her worriedly.

She sat up, realizing that she had been slouching while lost in thought.  “Forgive me, Richard.  I was not attending the conversation.  What were you saying?”

“I was wondering whether you might visit Hertfordshire sooner.”

“How?”

“If I can get away, I might be able to escort you a se’ennight before.”

The broad, joyous smile that overtook her face felt rather unnatural as she excitedly blurted, “Oh, yes, Richard, would you?”

Richard laughed, and it was incredible to think of how long it had been since they had been so easy with each other.  “Yes, I will write your brother and look into it.  Do not tell Miss Bennet yet for I will need to secure your brother’s permission, but I suspect he will acquiesce.”

She suddenly could imagine walks through the Hertfordshire wilderness with Lizzy and her sisters.  Perhaps, with Lizzy and Mr. Bingley for company, she and Fitzwilliam might be easier with each other.  It all seemed idyllic, and she felt sure that everything would change if she were only able to join them as soon as may be.


“Oh, why has he not yet come?” Mrs. Bennet cried, staring out the window.

“Who, dear?” asked Mr. Bennet innocently, not looking up from his paper.  He took a bite of toast with a sardonic smile playing about his lips.

“Mr. Darcy!  Who else?”

“Who else?  My dear, you regularly have everyone from Lady Lucas to Mrs. Long travelling through this house every day of the week.  Why should you be in such a state over an unfamiliar man?”

“You read the letter from my brother Gardiner!  He said that Mr. Darcy would call on us here, and he has not, even though it has been nearly a se’nnight since the ball,” she turned with unwieldy speed to Lizzy, who hid her grimace in her teacup.  “Lizzy, are you sure you said nothing to scare him away?  He did you such an honor, singling you out in such a way,” she admonished, waving her handkerchief wildly as she gesticulated.  “I cannot believe you have been so cavalier in your acquaintance with a man with ten thousand pounds a year!  You must catch him before he gets away!”

“Mama, I have told you.  Mr. Darcy only asked me to dance because we were previously known to each other.  As my uncle wrote in his letter, we briefly met the Darcys and have a very civil but distant acquaintance.  It was mere politeness, I assure you.”

“Lizzy is right, Mama,” Lydia cried from the opposite end of the breakfast table, “I heard him say Lizzy was plain and unappealing and that he would rather stick a fork in his eye than dance with her.  Unfortunately for him, he felt obligated to ask her to dance because they were known to each other.”

Lizzy gripped her cup firmly in her hand, willing herself to stay calm.  Bent on revenge for her lecture at the assembly, Lydia had let everyone within 10 miles know that Mr. Darcy found her grotesque and despised dancing with her, and with each reiteration, Mr. Darcy’s supposed language became more offensive.  She took a deep breath before catching her father’s laughing eyes above his paper and smiled in spite of herself.  Lydia was being childish and ridiculous—why it should affect her so now was beyond her ken.

“See, Mama?  You must not hope for anything from that quarter.  I am apparently not handsome enough to tempt Mr. Darcy,” she said plainly.  From the corner of her eye, she saw Lydia pout in indignation at her sister’s apparent immunity to her goading behavior.

“Jane, however,” Lizzy continued with a mischievous glint in her eye, “clearly caught the eye of Mr. Bingley.  I daresay we should expect him to call in the coming days.”

Before her mother could begin to rhapsodize about Mr. Bingley’s many virtues—most of them having to do with his wealth and his interest in Jane—Hill arrived with the mail.

“Let us see,” her father said, scanning over the pile, “this is for Jane, and these two are for Lizzy.”

Lizzy looked at the two letters.  One was unmistakably from her Aunt Gardiner, but the penmanship of the other was unfamiliar.  Opening the unfamiliar letter first and scanning to the signature, her face lit up upon recognizing the letter’s author.

“And, whose letter has made you smile so, my dear Lizzy?” her father asked teasingly.

“Miss Darcy has written me,” she said, suppressing her smile, before interjecting with a glance to her mother, “which makes sense seeing as I know Miss Darcy far better than her brother, with whom I have hardly spoken.”

“Well, there is an idea!” cried her mother.  “Get to the brother through the sister!”

Appalled by the suggestion, Lizzy suddenly stood up.  “I believe I shall read these on my walk.”

“Oh dear!  Oh, Lizzy, why do you not stay here this morning?  What if Mr. Darcy calls?  You could speak of his sister!”

“Goodbye, Mama,” Lizzy said, giving her mother an indulgent look to conceal her frustration.


Outside, Lizzy took a deep breath, relishing in the crisp scent of the autumn air.  She walked to the edge of the park until she could no longer see the house and seated herself beneath a tree.  She eagerly opened her letter from Georgiana first.

1 October 1811

Dear Miss Elizabeth,

I only just received a letter from my brother, informing me of your agreement to our correspondence, and I could not have been more eager to write you.  Mrs. Gardiner has often shared pieces of your letters to her with me on our calls, and I find them to be such a balm to my low spirits.  I do want to assure you that I am not always in such low spirits as I have very much enjoyed spending time with your young cousins!  Little Amelia and John are perhaps the sweetest children I have had the pleasure of meeting, and it never fails to brighten my day when I am presented with a little posy or a found piece of string, given with the utter delight that only a child can contain.

I digress, though.  I cannot say how pleased I was to hear an account of your meeting with Fitzwilliam at a ball of all places.  I must say how diverted I was to imagine you outwitting my shy, taciturn brother on the dance floor.  He is not one who enjoys an excess of people, nor am I for that matter.  I, however, am not required to socialize as much as him.

I can say that I am absolutely delighted by the prospect of joining my brother at Netherfield Park on the 27th of October.  Although I know our acquaintance has been brief, I have longed for someone in whom I can confide and who is near to my own age.  I have never before so felt the effects of being without a mother or a sister.  In this regard, Mrs. Gardiner’s companionship has been a blessing as she is warmer than my own aunts and provides meaningful guidance to me.  I can most assuredly see the familial resemblance between the two of you, even if you are not related by blood!

 I hope this letter finds you in good health, and I am eager to hear your reply.  Please feel free to inform me of how my brother is faring and your general view of Hertfordshire.  He treats me too delicately, and I think he conceals that which he believes may concern me.

Your friend,

Georgiana Darcy

P.S. I did not anticipate how difficult it would be to write the greeting of this letter.  I know we have had this discussion previously, but writing Elizabeth or Lizzy felt too informal for an introductory letter.  Please let me know how best you would like me to greet you in future correspondence.

Lizzy read over the letter once more before she sat back with it.  The letter was quite charming, much in the same way Georgiana was herself.  She wrote with a winsome candidness that was at once endearing and concerning.  It was a sanguine letter yet one that revealed the struggle and pain that lie beneath her optimism.

She was pleasantly surprised, however, by the revelations that Georgiana had been spending a great deal of time with the Gardiners and that she would be coming to the neighborhood within the month.  Why had Mr. Darcy not informed her of this information, she wondered.  What could he have told his sister of their interactions at the assembly?

She heard his voice say, “Miss Bennet,” and she looked up to find him standing in only six feet front of her with his perfectly erect posture as if she had summoned him.

She froze for a moment, not quite certain that he was truly before her.  Quickly folding her letter, she stood up awkwardly and curtsied in response to his very proper bow.  “Mr. Darcy.  What brings you this way?”

“I have actually come to call on your father.  I believe your uncle sent him a letter informing him of my arrival.”

“Yes,” she said quickly.  He had a strange look on his face as he regarded her, and she was vexed with herself for appearing so disheveled.  “I had a letter from your sister this morning,” she added quickly, wanting to distract him.

“So soon?” His face did not change except for a raised eyebrow.

“I was surprised as well.  You must have written her immediately after the ball for me to have such gratification after only a few days.”

He colored slightly, but otherwise she could detect no change in his countenance.  “What has she written you?”

“Oh, nothing of interest to a man I am sure,” she said coyly before narrowing her eyes at him mischievously.  “I must say I was surprised to hear that you sent your sister an account of your conduct at the assembly.”

“I spoke very little of my conduct.  I said only that you danced very well and that you were in good spirits—or some such remark that would satisfy my sister.”

“I see,” she said, unfolding the letter in her lap, “then might you tell me what your sister means by the comment: ‘I must say how diverted I was to imagine you outwitting my shy, taciturn brother on the dance floor?’”

“I may have also made an admiring mention of your wit, even if it always seemed to come at my expense.”


He was slightly embarrassed to see her surprise at his indirect compliment.  The past three days had found him pouring over their interaction at the assembly, attempting to remember her words and expressions to determine what her opinion of him was.  He was rather surprised to find that he could not bear the idea that she thought ill of him, given that he took great pride in his propensity to disregard the opinions of those wholly unconnected to him.

That, however, was the crux of the matter.  Miss Bennet was not wholly unconnected to him.  Her actions in Canterbury indelibly linked her to his family.  He could not be indifferent to her because of this inexplicable bond that now existed between his family and hers, and for that reason, he desired her good opinion.  What she felt about him, however, was unidentified.

If they could simply move past his damned insult!

“Mr. Darcy?”

He blinked at her, realizing that he was not attending the conversation.  “Excuse me.  I was woolgathering.”

She smirked and let out a little breath of laughter, “Ah, so that explains your glare.”

“My glare?”  For some reason, he suddenly thought of her uncle Gardiner.

“Yes, Sir, you were glaring at me, and I was beginning to believe my dishevelment worse than I had previously thought.”

“No!” he exclaimed impulsively, feeling distinctly ill at ease, “Your dishevelment becomes you.”

She tilted her head and regarded him with an amused expression.  Changing the subject abruptly, she asked him, “Would you agree with your sister’s assessment that you are shy and taciturn?”

He had to keep himself from smiling at her boldness.  “Perhaps, I would not use those words in particular, but I am a private man.  I do not like to be at the center of attention, and I do not like to speak unnecessarily.  I am a firm believer that brevity is the soul of wit.”

“I am of a somewhat similar disposition.  We both are unwilling to speak, unless we expect to say something that will amaze the whole room and be handed down to posterity with all the éclat of a proverb.”

She was teasing him, and it was a distinctly enjoyable sensation.  “And you maintain that this description suits us both?”

“Perhaps,” she said tapping her finger on her chin in a way that drew his entire focus to the place where the tip of her index finger lightly touched the indentation beneath her lips.  “You must admit, however,” he reluctantly drew his eyes back to hers, “that perhaps our shared predilection for quoting great works of literature stems from a desire to be seen as profound on the hope that no one recognizes our plagiarism.”

It was incredible how quickly her mind worked.  He could never assume where she would take their conversation next.  “Then, I must ask you, Miss Bennet, to refrain from pointing out my pretensions to intelligence for I believe you would certainly discern each failed attempt to affect wisdom for its falsity.”

She blushed, and he could not prevent one side of his mouth from tugging upward.

“You have clearly not met my father, Sir.  I believe you may appreciate his sense when you call.”

“By all means, lead the way,” he said, holding out his arm for her to take.

She hesitated, and he worried he had done something inappropriate.  “Is aught amiss?”

“No—no,” she said evasively.

He looked at her knowingly, and her shoulders slumped.  “May I be frank with you, Mr. Darcy?”

He smirked.  “Has my lack of permission previously deterred you?”

She smiled shyly.  “I do not think it best for us to enter the house together”

“Why ever not?  There was nothing improper in this meeting.  We met each other by happenstance.”

“Sir, you did me a great honor in the eyes of the neighborhood by asking me to dance at the assembly, and my mother now has the inane notion that you have…designs on me—of the matrimonial kind.  Therefore, I think it best that you call without me, and I shall join later.  It would not do for you to show me any sort of kindness in front of my mother, Sir.  For all her virtues, she is quite silly about the marriageability of her daughters, and mere civility will provoke her to be quite relentless.”

He was caught between mortification and admiration.  He could not believe that this woman who was unrelated to him was speaking so frankly of marriage.  Her expression was completely artless, and in spite of his fear that he had shown Miss Bennet preference, he could not fathom what a blessing it was for Georgiana to have a friend who did not see her as a tool to find a wealthy husband.  He could not help, however, feeling rather injured at her reluctance.  It was a novel sensation, but he figured that, in her thoughtfulness, she must merely have been conscious of the difference in their stations and the precariousness of his current position with Georgiana.  He chided himself for thinking of it at all.  What did it matter if Miss Bennet thought of him as a potential husband or not?

“Mr. Darcy, I must once again ask if I have offended you.  You are glaring at me again.”

“On the contrary, I was merely surprised, and I assure you I was not glaring.  I do appreciate your frankness in this matter and am relieved that Georgiana has a friend who does not use her to gain her brother’s hand.”

“Has that happened before?” she asked in dismay.

“Yes,” he said gravely.

They stood in stony silence for a moment before he thoughtlessly asked her, “What is it about our conversations, Miss Bennet, that always seems to make me reveal more than I would like?”

She looked a little taken aback, but her answer was surprisingly sincere.  “Perhaps you understand, Mr. Darcy, that I am not one to be taken aback by even the cruelest truths of life, and indeed I am not.  I would much rather one speak openly to me and find some kind of mutual assurance in such discourse than to dissemble and continue to feel misunderstood.”

He could not respond to this easily.  “I very much believe I do understand that, Miss Bennet.”

He thought back to the conversation he overheard on the balcony at the assembly and briefly wondered if she was out here to escape.

“I should call on your family I believe,” he said, feeling like he suddenly knew too much.

“Yes,” she said with a self-deprecating smile.  “I dare say you should.”

He bowed and took his leave of her.

Once he was in sight of the house, he looked back to see her with her bonnet pulled off and head tilted back.  On stray curl was blowing in the wind, and he found he envied the lightness and freedom of spirit she possessed.

Smiling ruefully to himself, he turned and made his way to an old house with a brick façade that was beginning to crumble.


When Lizzy arrived home, Mr. Darcy was nowhere in sight.  Her mother was in fine fettle, however.

“Lizzy, you disobedient child!  I told you that Mr. Darcy would come, and he did!”  She waved her handkerchief wildly in Lizzy’s direction as if it would somehow wave her daughter’s willfulness away.  “He did not even ask after you, and he was rather disdainful.  He hardly spoke to us and then hid away with your father in his study for a quarter of an hour and was barely civil when took his leave!

“I know not what you said to the poor man during your dance, but I am certain that whatever it was must have scared him away!  If this hurts Jane’s chances with Mr. Bingley, I shall never forgive you!”

“I would never forgive myself if I caused such a thing, but I am certain all is well.  Mr. Darcy is a perfectly agreeable gentleman but not one prone to idle chat.  ‘Tis possible he merely felt ill-at-ease in the company of five women.”

“I do not see why he should be!  He is a young man in possession of a good fortune.  He must be in want of a wife, and we have five gently bred young ladies here.  Though, he will likely not seek Jane because his friend has expressed an interest in her.”

Jane entered the room, and everyone turned to look at her.  “Is aught amiss?”

Her mother fluttered toward her and took her hand, patting it gently.  “Not at thing, my dearest girl!  For you shall marry Mr. Bingley, and we shall be saved!”

“Oh, Mama!  Do not let your hopes exceed reality.  I very much enjoyed my dances with him, but there is no telling when I shall see him again!”

“I told you!  You must see him when you dine with Mrs. Hurst and Miss Bingley today at Netherfield!”

“What is this?” Lizzy asked skeptically.

“You would know if you had stayed after breakfast, but Jane received a note from the ladies up at Netherfield to dine with them today.  Jane shall be taking horseback, and when it rains, she shall have to stay the night!”

Jane protested, “Mama, it is deceitful to purposely go to take advantage of their hospitality!”

“Not at all!  You heard your father say that he cannot spare the carriage today.  ‘Tis just a happy coincidence,” her mother said with more genuine cheer than Lizzy had ever seen.

Her mother scurried away, ordering Hill on some errand or another, and Lizzy took Jane’s arm and pulled her into the music room.  “You must tell me, dearest sister?  How awful was his visit?”

Jane’s expression wore a paradoxically stunning grimace, and she sighed, “I cannot say it was much of anything.  He was with us very briefly before he asked after Papa, and they absconded to his study.”

“Yes, Jane, but you must tell me what Mama said that made him appear ‘rather disdainful.’”

Her voice was amused, but she was internally fearful that her family had humiliated her more than she previously thought.  Mr. Darcy’s presence simultaneously fascinated her and made her feel distinctly self-conscious.  She found him more difficult to read than most, so his assurances often left her at sea.

“Yes, well, I remember Mama asking after his health and the health of his sister and informing him that you had received a letter from her earlier in the morning.  Then, she remarked on how much she enjoyed watching you and he dance at the assembly three nights past.  And Lydia…”

“Lydia?” Lizzy urged her to continue.

“She made some sort of remark about how she was sorry that he had to dance with her most ill-favored sister.  That is when Mr. Darcy requested to speak with Papa.”

Lizzy smiled at that.  Perhaps Lydia’s vulgar comment was for the best.  Mr. Darcy surely could not judge them too harshly when reminded of his own gentlemanly behavior.

“Now, for the real heart of the matter,” Lizzy took Jane’s hand with a glint in her eye.  “How do you truly feel about the thought of seeing your Mr. Bingley tonight?”

“He is not my Mr. Bingley,” Jane responded with a shy smile.  “But, truly?  I cannot deny that I am nervous.  He is such an amiable gentleman, and I do so enjoy his company.  I do not enjoy the pressure that comes with these rituals of courting.”

“Nor do I, but unlike you, I do not have any opportunities to feel such pressure,” Lizzy laughed. “The waiting and wondering will undoubtedly be difficult.  Though, I think as long as you find that you could respect Mr. Bingley enough to marry him, it shall be no burden for him to fall in love with you.”

“Dearest Lizzy, you always have such faith in me even when I do not.”

“If I could not have faith in the most wonderful lady I have ever had the pleasure of knowing, I would be a fool indeed.  Luckily for us both, I am not a fool.  Therefore, I can continue to advertise your goodness and beauty to the world without expense to your natural modesty.  I hold no such compunction.”

“Oh, Lizzy, if there was but a man that could match your wit and appreciate your combination liveliness and sense, I am sure that you would leave him defenseless.”

“Yes, but if such a man were sensible enough for me to respect him, he likely would not marry a dowry-less lady of average beauty and subpar accomplishments.”

“Come now,” Jane admonished.  “Such talk is not like you.  You know that you would bring value and joy to any partnership.  You must know that.”

Lizzy had once imagined a marriage based on love.  She had had a romantic ideal in mind.  A man with intelligence and sense who was reasonably handsome and made her feel giddy.  Much to her chagrin, Mr. Wickham had conformed to that very ideal, and it had only been a few short hours later that her romantic ideal had begun to crumple under the weight of his deceiving appearance.

She did not have such an ideal anymore.  In fact, she could not imagine herself married at all.  Her pride had withered in the past months, leaving her to fully understand just how cruel the world was and how vulnerable she was to its caprices.  She had ever had a philosophical view on life and accepted sorrows and disappointment as common and necessary.  She had now, however, resigned herself to a sort of complacent uncertainty about her future.

“Then, I shall bring joy to your family someday as the spinster aunt who spoils your dozen children when you are not looking.”

This made Jane laugh, and Lizzy persuaded her to abandon the current topic and focus on what Jane would wear to dine with the Bingley sisters.