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It Was Only A Kiss

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Kurt doesn't know what to do. He doesn't know what to do. It's clear that something happened to Sebastian at Scandals that night, but he doesn't know what because Sebastian won't talk to him about it, just brushes him off and says there's nothing to talk about every time he tries to bring it up.

Kurt gets it. He knows what it's like to hold things in and keep them to yourself. He does it all the time, if anyone understands keeping things to yourself it's Kurt. It's just that… he doesn't do that with Sebastian. He tells Sebastian everything – or, at least, just about everything – and he thought that Sebastian would feel comfortable talking to him when the time came that he had something to talk about.

Apparently that's not the case.

He tries not to take it personally. He should just be glad they're finally friends again, finally speaking to each other at all. He knows Sebastian is stubborn, even when the tendency actively works against him, so the fact that Sebastian is talking to him again after all this time is sort of a miracle, he figures. It will just have to be enough, and if Sebastian really needs someone to talk to, Kurt just hopes he'll come to him.

As it is, they've been... surprisingly good. Not totally back to normal, but slowly they're starting to settle back into something that resembles the friendship they'd had before the kiss. It was only a kiss, it shouldn't have been a big deal, it shouldn't have caused this rift between them in the first place, but at least now they're slowly starting to fix things.

Kurt's phone buzzes again on the table, and he picks it up to check the message. He's making plans with Mercedes to go shopping on the weekend, so he taps out a reply and hits send before placing the phone back on the table.

"Boyfriend got a lot to say today?" Sebastian asks, and it sounds a little too hostile to be teasing.

"What? No. It's Mercedes," he answers, confused, because Sebastian knows he doesn't have a boyfriend.

"You know, you don't have to lie to me about it."

"What?"

"You know I saw you and Harry Potter at the movies, Kurt, you don't have to lie to me about him."

"You... wait, wait. You think Blaine is my boyfriend?"

"Well it's not like it's outside the realm of possibilities, is it?" Sebastian asks, raising an eyebrow at him.

Kurt just stares back for a moment, shocked, because how could Sebastian actually think he'd get back together with Blaine after... well, after everything? "Sebastian, you know I'm not... I am not dating Blaine."

"Right," Sebastian rolls his eyes.

"Seriously, you think I would do that again?"

"You wouldn't?"

Kurt is starting to remember why he found the other boy so infuriating before. "No, of course not. God, Seb, you of all people should know that."

Sebastian narrows his eyes, stares at Kurt for a long minute. "So you're really not dating him?"

Kurt sighs. "No. I'm not." This is ridiculous.

"Okay," Sebastian says, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms across his chest. "Well, don't."

"I don't plan on it."

"Good."

"I can't believe you thought I was." He knows it took a lot for him to finally believe Blaine, but he figured Sebastian thought better of him than to go back to him.

"Well what was I supposed to think when I saw you on a movie date?"

"It wasn't a date, it's called being friends."

"Why would you want to be friends with him, after what he did to–"

"You can stop right there. He didn't do anything, he just... I was just...," he trails off, because it still makes him uncomfortable to think about. He knows Blaine was pushy sometimes, and that upset him, and sometimes he was scared of what Blaine might do, but he'd never actually really done anything to him, right? Sebastian insisted he had but it wasn't really like that, Blaine didn't... he's not a victim here. Maybe he could have been, if he'd stayed, but he hadn't. He's not a victim.

"Okay, whatever, you know what I mean," Sebastian says, brushing it off, and Kurt is glad that at least the other boy isn't arguing with him this time, because he usually does and it just makes him feel worse.

"He's at school and in my classes and in Glee club, what am I supposed to do, Seb? And we were friends before, you know... everything. I don't see why I can't try. He's not so bad."

"Not so bad?" Sebastian asks incredulously. "Kurt, he sexually assaulted you, I think that's pretty fucking bad, don't you?"

Kurt flinches a little at the words, Sebastian's tone is so harsh, and he doesn't like to think about it like that, that's not what it was, because if that's what it was then Kurt let it happen, he's a victim, but he's not.

So much for not arguing about it this time.

"You're over-reacting. And, newsflash, you don't get a say in who I'm friends with," Kurt counters, his voice rising a little.

"I'm not trying to tell you who to be friends with, just don't be friends with him."

"That's exactly what you're doing."

"I'm just worried about you, Kurt, I don't want anything to happen to you."

"Well don't. I think I can take care of myself."

"From experience, that doesn't seem to be the case."

Kurt's jaw falls open as the words hit him. It's like Sebastian just slapped him across the face, hard. He sees the flash of fear in Sebastian's eyes as he registers exactly what it is that he just said.

"Shit, Kurt, I didn't mean–"

"Just drop it," Kurt cuts him off, voice flat, setting his jaw.

"Yeah," Sebastian agrees, and Kurt watches his Adam's apple bob as he swallows. "So, uh... what does Mercedes have to say?"


"How about Tuesday?" Blaine asks, looking up at Kurt from the calendar on his phone.

"Oh, um, I can't do Tuesday."

"Hot date?" Blaine asks teasingly.

"What? No. Why does everyone think I'm going on all these dates?" Kurt asks with a frown.

"I was just kidding, sorry. What's going on Tuesday?"

"I told Sebastian we'd do something that evening."

"Oh," Blaine says simply, and his tone is off.

"What?"

"Nothing, I just... I didn't think you two were friends anymore."

"We... weren't, for a bit. But we're fine now."

"Oh," Blaine repeats. "I don't know what I did to make him hate me."

"He doesn't hate you, Blaine," Kurt argues.

Blaine gives him a look. "I'm pretty sure he does."

"Well... he's not your biggest fan," Kurt concedes.

"We used to get along so well," Blaine muses, "I don't know what changed. And he used to hate you. And you hated him, too."

"Guess he finally came around to the error of his ways," Kurt jokes.

"I swear, if there was any chance of you dating him I'd think this was his plan all along, breaking us up so he could steal you."

"I'm pretty sure you're the one he was trying to steal, Blaine." Kurt is always a little uncomfortable any time Blaine hints at their past together. He's not sure why, it's not like he wants to pretend it never happened, they both clearly know it happened, but... it's just easier when it's not in his face. It's easier to separate his friend Blaine from his ex boyfriend Blaine when he's not being reminded that they're the same person.

"Yeah, well, I guess he decided I wasn't worth it."

"Blaine, hey, don't say that," Kurt says, turning to look at Blaine head on.

"Well it's true, isn't it? Not worth it to him, not worth it to you."

"Blaine, that's not– don't think like that."

"Why shouldn't I? Am I wrong?"

He hates seeing Blaine like this, sad and beating himself up, and of course neither he nor Sebastian have any interest in dating Blaine but that doesn't mean there's nobody out there for the other boy.

"Of course you're wrong," Kurt insists. "Blaine, just because we didn't work out doesn't mean nothing is ever going to work out. Come on, you know that. You'll find someone else."

"Yeah well, I don't want someone else. I want you. And it's pretty clear I'm not good enough for that."

"Blaine, I...," he trails off, not really sure what to say. He wants to reassure Blaine, but he's not sure how without telling Blaine they can get back together, and he's not doing that, but he just feels so... guilty. He hadn't realized Blaine was still having such a hard time with this. He doesn't want Blaine to be hurting, he doesn't want to be the cause of this.

"It's fine, don't worry about it. I shouldn't be putting this on you. It's not your fault."

"Blaine, I'm sorry," he says weakly.

"Really, it's fine. I'll be fine. Anyway, what about Thursday?"

"Thursday should work," Kurt agrees with a small nod.


"I think he's upset I'm spending so much time with you."

Sebastian barks out a laugh at that. "What?"

"He just gets... really weird and upset whenever I tell him I have plans with you."

The other boy laughs again. "Anderson's jealous."

"What?"

"It's obvious, isn't it? He's jealous you're spending time with me instead of him. Oh, this is gold," Sebastian says with a smirk.

"He's not jealous," Kurt argues, "I think he's upset because he thinks you hate him."

"I do hate him," Sebastian responds easily.

"Oh come on, you don't hate him."

"Hmm," Sebastian hums, bringing his hand to his chin and concentrating in mock thought, "no, I'm pretty sure I do."

Kurt rolls his eyes. "Well, whatever."

"He wants you back, and he knows it won't happen as long as I'm here."

For a split second he thinks Sebastian means it like that. Like that Kurt won't get back with Blaine because he likes Sebastian, and of course he knows Sebastian knows but he's been trying not to bring it up because last time they went anywhere near those feelings things went very south very fast.

"What?" he asks, voice pitched higher than it should be.

"He knows I'd talk you out of it because he sucks," Sebastian clarifies.

"Oh, right," Kurt says, too quickly, "of course."